Iunderstoodthatyouhadtheuseofthisroombywayofmakingyouperfectlycomfortable。InyourbedchamberIknowyou_cannot_haveafire。Hereissomegreatmisapprehensionwhichmustberectified。Itishighlyunfitforyoutosit,beitonlyhalfanhouraday,withoutafire。Youarenotstrong。Youarechilly。
Yourauntcannotbeawareofthis。“
Fannywouldratherhavebeensilent;butbeingobligedtospeak,shecouldnotforbear,injusticetotheauntshelovedbest,fromsayingsomethinginwhichthewords“myauntNorris“weredistinguishable。
“Iunderstand,“criedheruncle,recollectinghimself,andnotwantingtohearmore:“Iunderstand。YourauntNorrishasalwaysbeenanadvocate,andveryjudiciously,foryoungpeople’sbeingbroughtupwithoutunnecessaryindulgences;butthereshouldbemoderationineverything。
Sheisalsoveryhardyherself,whichofcoursewillinfluenceherinheropinionofthewantsofothers。
Andonanotheraccount,too,Icanperfectlycomprehend。
Iknowwhathersentimentshavealwaysbeen。
Theprinciplewasgoodinitself,butitmayhavebeen,andIbelieve_has__been_,carriedtoofarinyourcase。
Iamawarethattherehasbeensometimes,insomepoints,amisplaceddistinction;butIthinktoowellofyou,Fanny,tosupposeyouwilleverharbourresentmentonthataccount。
Youhaveanunderstandingwhichwillpreventyoufromreceivingthingsonlyinpart,andjudgingpartiallybytheevent。Youwilltakeinthewholeofthepast,youwillconsidertimes,persons,andprobabilities,andyouwillfeelthat_they_werenotleastyourfriendswhowereeducatingandpreparingyouforthatmediocrityofconditionwhich_seemed_tobeyourlot。
Thoughtheircautionmayproveeventuallyunnecessary,itwaskindlymeant;andofthisyoumaybeassured,thateveryadvantageofaffluencewillbedoubledbythelittleprivationsandrestrictionsthatmayhavebeenimposed。
Iamsureyouwillnotdisappointmyopinionofyou,byfailingatanytimetotreatyourauntNorriswiththerespectandattentionthatareduetoher。
Butenoughofthis。Sitdown,mydear。Imustspeaktoyouforafewminutes,butIwillnotdetainyoulong。“
Fannyobeyed,witheyescastdownandcolourrising。
Afteramoment’spause,SirThomas,tryingtosuppressasmile,wenton。
“Youarenotaware,perhaps,thatIhavehadavisitorthismorning。Ihadnotbeenlonginmyownroom,afterbreakfast,whenMr。Crawfordwasshewnin。
Hiserrandyoumayprobablyconjecture。“
Fanny’scolourgrewdeeperanddeeper;andheruncle,perceivingthatshewasembarrassedtoadegreethatmadeeitherspeakingorlookingupquiteimpossible,turnedawayhisowneyes,andwithoutanyfartherpauseproceededinhisaccountofMr。Crawford’svisit。
Mr。Crawford’sbusinesshadbeentodeclarehimselftheloverofFanny,makedecidedproposalsforher,andentreatthesanctionoftheuncle,whoseemedtostandintheplaceofherparents;andhehaddoneitallsowell,soopenly,soliberally,soproperly,thatSirThomas,feeling,moreover,hisownreplies,andhisownremarkstohavebeenverymuchtothepurpose,wasexceedinglyhappytogivetheparticularsoftheirconversation;
andlittleawareofwhatwaspassinginhisniece’smind,conceivedthatbysuchdetailshemustbegratifyingherfarmorethanhimself。Hetalked,therefore,forseveralminuteswithoutFanny’sdaringtointerrupthim。
Shehadhardlyevenattainedthewishtodoit。Hermindwasintoomuchconfusion。Shehadchangedherposition;
and,withhereyesfixedintentlyononeofthewindows,waslisteningtoheruncleintheutmostperturbationanddismay。Foramomentheceased,butshehadbarelybecomeconsciousofit,when,risingfromhischair,hesaid,“Andnow,Fanny,havingperformedonepartofmycommission,andshewnyoueverythingplacedonabasisthemostassuredandsatisfactory,Imayexecutetheremainderbyprevailingonyoutoaccompanymedownstairs,where,thoughIcannotbutpresumeonhavingbeennounacceptablecompanionmyself,Imustsubmittoyourfindingonestillbetterworthlisteningto。Mr。Crawford,asyouhaveperhapsforeseen,isyetinthehouse。Heisinmyroom,andhopingtoseeyouthere。“
Therewasalook,astart,anexclamationonhearingthis,whichastonishedSirThomas;butwhatwashisincreaseofastonishmentonhearingherexclaim——“Oh!no,sir,Icannot,indeedIcannotgodowntohim。Mr。Crawfordoughttoknow——
hemustknowthat:Itoldhimenoughyesterdaytoconvincehim;
hespoketomeonthissubjectyesterday,andItoldhimwithoutdisguisethatitwasverydisagreeabletome,andquiteoutofmypowertoreturnhisgoodopinion。“
“Idonotcatchyourmeaning,“saidSirThomas,sittingdownagain。“Outofyourpowertoreturnhisgoodopinion?
Whatisallthis?Iknowhespoketoyouyesterday,andasfarasIunderstandreceivedasmuchencouragementtoproceedasawell-judgingyoungwomancouldpermitherselftogive。IwasverymuchpleasedwithwhatI
collectedtohavebeenyourbehaviourontheoccasion;
itshewedadiscretionhighlytobecommended。Butnow,whenhehasmadehisoverturessoproperly,andhonourably——
whatareyourscruples_now_?“
“Youaremistaken,sir,“criedFanny,forcedbytheanxietyofthemomenteventotellherunclethathewaswrong;
“youarequitemistaken。HowcouldMr。Crawfordsaysuchathing?Igavehimnoencouragementyesterday。
Onthecontrary,Itoldhim,Icannotrecollectmyexactwords,butIamsureItoldhimthatIwouldnotlistentohim,thatitwasveryunpleasanttomeineveryrespect,andthatIbeggedhimnevertotalktomeinthatmanneragain。
IamsureIsaidasmuchasthatandmore;andIshouldhavesaidstillmore,ifIhadbeenquitecertainofhismeaninganythingseriously;butIdidnotliketobe,Icouldnotbeartobe,imputingmorethanmightbeintended。
Ithoughtitmightallpassfornothingwith_him_。“
Shecouldsaynomore;herbreathwasalmostgone。
“AmItounderstand,“saidSirThomas,afterafewmoments’
silence,“thatyoumeanto_refuse_Mr。Crawford?“
“Yes,sir。“
“Refusehim?“
“Yes,sir。“
“RefuseMr。Crawford!Uponwhatplea?Forwhatreason?“
“I——Icannotlikehim,sir,wellenoughtomarryhim。“
“Thisisverystrange!“saidSirThomas,inavoiceofcalmdispleasure。“Thereissomethinginthiswhichmycomprehensiondoesnotreach。Hereisayoungmanwishingtopayhisaddressestoyou,witheverythingtorecommendhim:
notmerelysituationinlife,fortune,andcharacter,butwithmorethancommonagreeableness,withaddressandconversationpleasingtoeverybody。Andheisnotanacquaintanceofto-day;youhavenowknownhimsometime。
Hissister,moreover,isyourintimatefriend,andhehasbeendoing_that_foryourbrother,whichIshouldsupposewouldhavebeenalmostsufficientrecommendationtoyou,hadtherebeennoother。ItisveryuncertainwhenmyinterestmighthavegotWilliamon。Hehasdoneitalready。“
“Yes,“saidFanny,inafaintvoice,andlookingdownwithfreshshame;andshedidfeelalmostashamedofherself,aftersuchapictureasherunclehaddrawn,fornotlikingMr。Crawford。
“Youmusthavebeenaware,“continuedSirThomaspresently,“youmusthavebeensometimeawareofaparticularityinMr。Crawford’smannerstoyou。Thiscannothavetakenyoubysurprise。Youmusthaveobservedhisattentions;
andthoughyoualwaysreceivedthemveryproperlyIhavenoaccusationtomakeonthathead,Ineverperceivedthemtobeunpleasanttoyou。Iamhalfinclinedtothink,Fanny,thatyoudonotquiteknowyourownfeelings。“
“Ohyes,sir!indeedIdo。Hisattentionswerealways——
whatIdidnotlike。“
SirThomaslookedatherwithdeepersurprise。
“Thisisbeyondme,“saidhe。“Thisrequiresexplanation。
Youngasyouare,andhavingseenscarcelyanyone,itishardlypossiblethatyouraffections——“
Hepausedandeyedherfixedly。Hesawherlipsformedintoa_no_,thoughthesoundwasinarticulate,butherfacewaslikescarlet。That,however,insomodestagirl,mightbeverycompatiblewithinnocence;
andchusingatleasttoappearsatisfied,hequicklyadded,“No,no,Iknow_that_isquiteoutofthequestion;
quiteimpossible。Well,thereisnothingmoretobesaid。“
Andforafewminuteshedidsaynothing。Hewasdeepinthought。Hisniecewasdeepinthoughtlikewise,tryingtohardenandprepareherselfagainstfartherquestioning。
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