anotherofthehundredparticularfriendsofhisson,exceedinglyunwelcome;anditneededallthefelicityofbeingagainathome,andalltheforbearanceitcouldsupply,tosaveSirThomasfromangeronfindinghimselfthusbewilderedinhisownhouse,makingpartofaridiculousexhibitioninthemidstoftheatricalnonsense,andforcedinsountowardamomenttoadmittheacquaintanceofayoungmanwhomhefeltsureofdisapproving,andwhoseeasyindifferenceandvolubilityinthecourseofthefirstfiveminutesseemedtomarkhimthemostathomeofthetwo。
Tomunderstoodhisfather’sthoughts,andheartilywishinghemightbealwaysaswelldisposedtogivethembutpartialexpression,begantosee,moreclearlythanhehadeverdonebefore,thattheremightbesomegroundofoffence,thattheremightbesomereasonfortheglancehisfathergavetowardstheceilingandstuccooftheroom;
andthatwhenheinquiredwithmildgravityafterthefateofthebilliard-table,hewasnotproceedingbeyondaveryallowablecuriosity。Afewminuteswereenoughforsuchunsatisfactorysensationsoneachside;andSirThomashavingexertedhimselfsofarastospeakafewwordsofcalmapprobationinreplytoaneagerappealofMr。Yates,astothehappinessofthearrangement,thethreegentlemenreturnedtothedrawing-roomtogether,SirThomaswithanincreaseofgravitywhichwasnotlostonall。
“Icomefromyourtheatre,“saidhecomposedly,ashesatdown;“Ifoundmyselfinitratherunexpectedly。
Itsvicinitytomyownroom——butineveryrespect,indeed,ittookmebysurprise,asIhadnotthesmallestsuspicionofyouractinghavingassumedsoseriousacharacter。
Itappearsaneatjob,however,asfarasIcouldjudgebycandlelight,anddoesmyfriendChristopherJacksoncredit。“
Andthenhewouldhavechangedthesubject,andsippedhiscoffeeinpeaceoverdomesticmattersofacalmerhue;
butMr。Yates,withoutdiscernmenttocatchSirThomas’smeaning,ordiffidence,ordelicacy,ordiscretionenoughtoallowhimtoleadthediscoursewhilehemingledamongtheotherswiththeleastobtrusivenesshimself,wouldkeephimonthetopicofthetheatre,wouldtormenthimwithquestionsandremarksrelativetoit,andfinallywouldmakehimhearthewholehistoryofhisdisappointmentatEcclesford。
SirThomaslistenedmostpolitely,butfoundmuchtooffendhisideasofdecorum,andconfirmhisill-opinionofMr。Yates’shabitsofthinking,fromthebeginningtotheendofthestory;andwhenitwasover,couldgivehimnootherassuranceofsympathythanwhataslightbowconveyed。
“Thiswas,infact,theoriginof_our_acting,“saidTom,afteramoment’sthought。“MyfriendYatesbroughttheinfectionfromEcclesford,anditspread——asthosethingsalwaysspread,youknow,sir——thefaster,probably,from_your_havingsooftenencouragedthesortofthinginusformerly。Itwasliketreadingoldgroundagain。“
Mr。Yatestookthesubjectfromhisfriendassoonaspossible,andimmediatelygaveSirThomasanaccountofwhattheyhaddoneandweredoing:toldhimofthegradualincreaseoftheirviews,thehappyconclusionoftheirfirstdifficulties,andpresentpromisingstateofaffairs;
relatingeverythingwithsoblindaninterestasmadehimnotonlytotallyunconsciousoftheuneasymovementsofmanyofhisfriendsastheysat,thechangeofcountenance,thefidget,thehem!ofunquietness,butpreventedhimevenfromseeingtheexpressionofthefaceonwhichhisowneyeswerefixed——fromseeingSirThomas’sdarkbrowcontractashelookedwithinquiringearnestnessathisdaughtersandEdmund,dwellingparticularlyonthelatter,andspeakingalanguage,aremonstrance,areproof,which_he_feltathisheart。NotlessacutelywasitfeltbyFanny,whohadedgedbackherchairbehindheraunt’sendofthesofa,and,screenedfromnoticeherself,sawallthatwaspassingbeforeher。SuchalookofreproachatEdmundfromhisfathershecouldneverhaveexpectedtowitness;andtofeelthatitwasinanydegreedeservedwasanaggravationindeed。SirThomas’slookimplied,“Onyourjudgment,Edmund,Idepended;
whathaveyoubeenabout?“Shekneltinspirittoheruncle,andherbosomswelledtoutter,“Oh,notto_him_!
Looksotoalltheothers,butnotto_him_!“
Mr。Yateswasstilltalking。“Toownthetruth,SirThomas,wewereinthemiddleofarehearsalwhenyouarrivedthisevening。Weweregoingthroughthethreefirstacts,andnotunsuccessfullyuponthewhole。Ourcompanyisnowsodispersed,fromtheCrawfordsbeinggonehome,thatnothingmorecanbedoneto-night;butifyouwillgiveusthehonourofyourcompanyto-morrowevening,Ishouldnotbeafraidoftheresult。Webespeakyourindulgence,youunderstand,asyoungperformers;
webespeakyourindulgence。“
“Myindulgenceshallbegiven,sir,“repliedSirThomasgravely,“butwithoutanyotherrehearsal。“
Andwitharelentingsmile,headded,“Icomehometobehappyandindulgent。“Thenturningawaytowardsanyoralloftherest,hetranquillysaid,“Mr。andMissCrawfordwerementionedinmylastlettersfromMansfield。
Doyoufindthemagreeableacquaintance?“
Tomwastheonlyoneatallreadywithananswer,buthebeingentirelywithoutparticularregardforeither,withoutjealousyeitherinloveoracting,couldspeakveryhandsomelyofboth。“Mr。Crawfordwasamostpleasant,gentleman-likeman;hissisterasweet,pretty,elegant,livelygirl。“
Mr。Rushworthcouldbesilentnolonger。“Idonotsayheisnotgentleman-like,considering;butyoushouldtellyourfatherheisnotabovefivefeeteight,orhewillbeexpectingawell-lookingman。“
SirThomasdidnotquiteunderstandthis,andlookedwithsomesurpriseatthespeaker。
“IfImustsaywhatIthink,“continuedMr。Rushworth,“inmyopinionitisverydisagreeabletobealwaysrehearsing。
Itishavingtoomuchofagoodthing。IamnotsofondofactingasIwasatfirst。Ithinkweareagreatdealbetteremployed,sittingcomfortablyhereamongourselves,anddoingnothing。“
SirThomaslookedagain,andthenrepliedwithanapprovingsmile,“Iamhappytofindoursentimentsonthissubjectsomuchthesame。Itgivesmesinceresatisfaction。
ThatIshouldbecautiousandquick-sighted,andfeelmanyscrupleswhichmychildrendo_not_feel,isperfectlynatural;
andequallysothatmyvaluefordomestictranquillity,forahomewhichshutsoutnoisypleasures,shouldmuchexceedtheirs。Butatyourtimeoflifetofeelallthis,isamostfavourablecircumstanceforyourself,andforeverybodyconnectedwithyou;andIamsensibleoftheimportanceofhavinganallyofsuchweight。“
SirThomasmeanttobegivingMr。Rushworth’sopinioninbetterwordsthanhecouldfindhimself。HewasawarethathemustnotexpectageniusinMr。Rushworth;
butasawell-judging,steadyyoungman,withbetternotionsthanhiselocutionwoulddojusticeto,heintendedtovaluehimveryhighly。Itwasimpossibleformanyoftheothersnottosmile。Mr。Rushworthhardlyknewwhattodowithsomuchmeaning;butbylooking,ashereallyfelt,mostexceedinglypleasedwithSirThomas’sgoodopinion,andsayingscarcelyanything,hedidhisbesttowardspreservingthatgoodopinionalittlelonger。
Edmund’sfirstobjectthenextmorningwastoseehisfatheralone,andgivehimafairstatementofthewholeactingscheme,defendinghisownshareinitasfaronlyashecouldthen,inasoberermoment,feelhismotivestodeserve,andacknowledging,withperfectingenuousness,thathisconcessionhadbeenattendedwithsuchpartialgoodastomakehisjudgmentinitverydoubtful。
Hewasanxious,whilevindicatinghimself,tosaynothingunkindoftheothers:buttherewasonlyoneamongstthemwhoseconducthecouldmentionwithoutsomenecessityofdefenceorpalliation。“Wehaveallbeenmoreorlesstoblame,“saidhe,“everyoneofus,exceptingFanny。
Fannyistheonlyonewhohasjudgedrightlythroughout;
whohasbeenconsistent。_Her_feelingshavebeensteadilyagainstitfromfirsttolast。Sheneverceasedtothinkofwhatwasduetoyou。YouwillfindFannyeverythingyoucouldwish。“
SirThomassawalltheimproprietyofsuchaschemeamongsuchaparty,andatsuchatime,asstronglyashissonhadeversupposedhemust;hefeltittoomuch,indeed,formanywords;andhavingshakenhandswithEdmund,meanttotrytolosethedisagreeableimpression,andforgethowmuchhehadbeenforgottenhimselfassoonashecould,afterthehousehadbeenclearedofeveryobjectenforcingtheremembrance,andrestoredtoitsproperstate。Hedidnotenterintoanyremonstrancewithhisotherchildren:hewasmorewillingtobelievetheyfelttheirerrorthantoruntheriskofinvestigation。
Thereproofofanimmediateconclusionofeverything,thesweepofeverypreparation,wouldbesufficient。
Therewasoneperson,however,inthehouse,whomhecouldnotleavetolearnhissentimentsmerelythroughhisconduct。
HecouldnothelpgivingMrs。Norrisahintofhishavinghopedthatheradvicemighthavebeeninterposedtopreventwhatherjudgmentmustcertainlyhavedisapproved。Theyoungpeoplehadbeenveryinconsiderateinformingtheplan;
theyoughttohavebeencapableofabetterdecisionthemselves;
buttheywereyoung;and,exceptingEdmund,hebelieved,ofunsteadycharacters;andwithgreatersurprise,therefore,hemustregardheracquiescenceintheirwrongmeasures,hercountenanceoftheirunsafeamusements,thanthatsuchmeasuresandsuchamusementsshouldhavebeensuggested。
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