shewasperhapsasmuchatpeaceasany。
Therewasagreatdealofneedleworktobedone,moreover,inwhichherhelpwaswanted;andthatMrs。Norristhoughtherquiteaswelloffastherest,wasevidentbythemannerinwhichsheclaimedit——“Come,Fanny,“
shecried,“thesearefinetimesforyou,butyoumustnotbealwayswalkingfromoneroomtotheother,anddoingthelookings-onatyourease,inthisway;
Iwantyouhere。IhavebeenslavingmyselftillI
canhardlystand,tocontriveMr。Rushworth’scloakwithoutsendingforanymoresatin;andnowIthinkyoumaygivemeyourhelpinputtingittogether。
Therearebutthreeseams;youmaydotheminatrice。
ItwouldbeluckyformeifIhadnothingbuttheexecutiveparttodo。_You_arebestoff,Icantellyou:
butifnobodydidmorethan_you_,weshouldnotgetonveryfast“
Fannytooktheworkveryquietly,withoutattemptinganydefence;butherkinderauntBertramobservedonherbehalf——
“Onecannotwonder,sister,thatFanny_should_bedelighted:
itisallnewtoher,youknow;youandIusedtobeveryfondofaplayourselves,andsoamIstill;
andassoonasIamalittlemoreatleisure,_I_meantolookinattheirrehearsalstoo。Whatistheplayabout,Fanny?youhavenevertoldme。“
“Oh!sister,praydonotaskhernow;forFannyisnotoneofthosewhocantalkandworkatthesametime。
ItisaboutLovers’Vows。“
“Ibelieve,“saidFannytoherauntBertram,“therewillbethreeactsrehearsedto-morrowevening,andthatwillgiveyouanopportunityofseeingalltheactorsatonce。“
“Youhadbetterstaytillthecurtainishung,“interposedMrs。Norris;“thecurtainwillbehunginadayortwo——
thereisverylittlesenseinaplaywithoutacurtain——
andIammuchmistakenifyoudonotfinditdrawupintoveryhandsomefestoons。“
LadyBertramseemedquiteresignedtowaiting。Fannydidnotshareheraunt’scomposure:shethoughtofthemorrowagreatdeal,forifthethreeactswererehearsed,EdmundandMissCrawfordwouldthenbeactingtogetherforthefirsttime;thethirdactwouldbringascenebetweenthemwhichinterestedhermostparticularly,andwhichshewaslonginganddreadingtoseehowtheywouldperform。Thewholesubjectofitwaslove——
amarriageoflovewastobedescribedbythegentleman,andverylittleshortofadeclarationoflovebemadebythelady。
Shehadreadandreadthesceneagainwithmanypainful,manywonderingemotions,andlookedforwardtotheirrepresentationofitasacircumstancealmosttoointeresting。
Shedidnot_believe_theyhadyetrehearsedit,eveninprivate。
Themorrowcame,theplanfortheeveningcontinued,andFanny’sconsiderationofitdidnotbecomelessagitated。
Sheworkedverydiligentlyunderheraunt’sdirections,butherdiligenceandhersilenceconcealedaveryabsent,anxiousmind;andaboutnoonshemadeherescapewithherworktotheEastroom,thatshemighthavenoconcerninanother,and,asshedeemedit,mostunnecessaryrehearsalofthefirstact,whichHenryCrawfordwasjustproposing,desirousatonceofhavinghertimetoherself,andofavoidingthesightofMr。Rushworth。
Aglimpse,asshepassedthroughthehall,ofthetwoladieswalkingupfromtheParsonagemadenochangeinherwishofretreat,andsheworkedandmeditatedintheEastroom,undisturbed,foraquarterofanhour,whenagentletapatthedoorwasfollowedbytheentranceofMissCrawford。
“AmIright?Yes;thisistheEastroom。MydearMissPrice,Ibegyourpardon,butIhavemademywaytoyouonpurposetoentreatyourhelp。“
Fanny,quitesurprised,endeavouredtoshewherselfmistressoftheroombyhercivilities,andlookedatthebrightbarsofheremptygratewithconcern。
“Thankyou;Iamquitewarm,verywarm。Allowmetostayherealittlewhile,anddohavethegoodnesstohearmemythirdact。Ihavebroughtmybook,andifyouwouldbutrehearseitwithme,Ishouldbe_so_obliged!
Icamehereto-dayintendingtorehearseitwithEdmund——
byourselves——againsttheevening,butheisnotintheway;
andifhe_were_,IdonotthinkIcouldgothroughitwith_him_,tillIhavehardenedmyselfalittle;
forreallythereisaspeechortwo。Youwillbesogood,won’tyou?“
Fannywasmostcivilinherassurances,thoughshecouldnotgivetheminaverysteadyvoice。
“HaveyoueverhappenedtolookatthepartImean?“
continuedMissCrawford,openingherbook。“Hereitis。
Ididnotthinkmuchofitatfirst——but,uponmyword。
There,lookat_that_speech,and_that_,and_that_。
HowamIevertolookhiminthefaceandsaysuchthings?
Couldyoudoit?Butthenheisyourcousin,whichmakesallthedifference。Youmustrehearseitwithme,thatI
mayfancy_you_him,andgetonbydegrees。You_have_alookof_his_sometimes。“
“HaveI?Iwilldomybestwiththegreatestreadiness;
butImust_read_thepart,forIcansayverylittleofit。“
“_None_ofit,Isuppose。Youaretohavethebook,ofcourse。Nowforit。Wemusthavetwochairsathandforyoutobringforwardtothefrontofthestage。
There——verygoodschool-roomchairs,notmadeforatheatre,Idaresay;muchmorefittedforlittlegirlstositandkicktheirfeetagainstwhentheyarelearningalesson。
Whatwouldyourgovernessandyourunclesaytoseethemusedforsuchapurpose?CouldSirThomaslookinuponusjustnow,hewouldblesshimself,forwearerehearsingalloverthehouse。Yatesisstormingawayinthedining-room。IheardhimasIcameupstairs,andthetheatreisengagedofcoursebythoseindefatigablerehearsers,AgathaandFrederick。If_they_arenotperfect,I_shall_besurprised。Bythebye,Ilookedinuponthemfiveminutesago,andithappenedtobeexactlyatoneofthetimeswhentheyweretrying_not_toembrace,andMr。Rushworthwaswithme。Ithoughthebegantolookalittlequeer,soIturneditoffaswellasIcould,bywhisperingtohim,’WeshallhaveanexcellentAgatha;
thereissomethingso_maternal_inhermanner,socompletely_maternal_inhervoiceandcountenance。’
Wasnotthatwelldoneofme?Hebrightenedupdirectly。
Nowformysoliloquy。“
Shebegan,andFannyjoinedinwithallthemodestfeelingwhichtheideaofrepresentingEdmundwassostronglycalculatedtoinspire;butwithlooksandvoicesotrulyfeminineastobenoverygoodpictureofaman。WithsuchanAnhalt,however,MissCrawfordhadcourageenough;
andtheyhadgotthroughhalfthescene,whenatapatthedoorbroughtapause,andtheentranceofEdmund,thenextmoment,suspendeditall。
Surprise,consciousness,andpleasureappearedineachofthethreeonthisunexpectedmeeting;andasEdmundwascomeontheverysamebusinessthathadbroughtMissCrawford,consciousnessandpleasurewerelikelytobemorethanmomentaryin_them_。Hetoohadhisbook,andwasseekingFanny,toaskhertorehearsewithhim,andhelphimtopreparefortheevening,withoutknowingMissCrawfordtobeinthehouse;andgreatwasthejoyandanimationofbeingthusthrowntogether,ofcomparingschemes,andsympathisinginpraiseofFanny’skindoffices。
_She_couldnotequalthemintheirwarmth。_Her_spiritssankundertheglowoftheirs,andshefeltherselfbecomingtoonearlynothingtobothtohaveanycomfortinhavingbeensoughtbyeither。Theymustnowrehearsetogether。
Edmundproposed,urged,entreatedit,tillthelady,notveryunwillingatfirst,couldrefusenolonger,andFannywaswantedonlytopromptandobservethem。
Shewasinvested,indeed,withtheofficeofjudgeandcritic,andearnestlydesiredtoexerciseitandtellthemalltheirfaults;butfromdoingsoeveryfeelingwithinhershrank——shecouldnot,wouldnot,darednotattemptit:
hadshebeenotherwisequalifiedforcriticism,herconsciencemusthaverestrainedherfromventuringatdisapprobation。
Shebelievedherselftofeeltoomuchofitintheaggregateforhonestyorsafetyinparticulars。Topromptthemmustbeenoughforher;anditwassometimes_more_thanenough;
forshecouldnotalwayspayattentiontothebook。
Inwatchingthemsheforgotherself;and,agitatedbytheincreasingspiritofEdmund’smanner,hadonceclosedthepageandturnedawayexactlyashewantedhelp。
Itwasimputedtoveryreasonableweariness,andshewasthankedandpitied;butshedeservedtheirpitymorethanshehopedtheywouldeversurmise。Atlastthescenewasover,andFannyforcedherselftoaddherpraisetothecomplimentseachwasgivingtheother;andwhenagainaloneandabletorecallthewhole,shewasinclinedtobelievetheirperformancewould,indeed,havesuchnatureandfeelinginitasmustensuretheircredit,andmakeitaverysufferingexhibitiontoherself。
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