soyoumaybeascreep-mouseasyoulike,butwemusthaveyoutolookat。“
“Ifyouareafraidofhalfadozenspeeches,“criedMr。Rushworth,“whatwouldyoudowithsuchapartasmine?Ihaveforty-twotolearn。“
“ItisnotthatIamafraidoflearningbyheart,“
saidFanny,shockedtofindherselfatthatmomenttheonlyspeakerintheroom,andtofeelthatalmosteveryeyewasuponher;“butIreallycannotact。“
“Yes,yes,youcanactwellenoughfor_us_。
Learnyourpart,andwewillteachyoualltherest。
Youhaveonlytwoscenes,andasIshallbeCottager,I’llputyouinandpushyouabout,andyouwilldoitverywell,I’llanswerforit。“
“No,indeed,Mr。Bertram,youmustexcuseme。Youcannothaveanidea。Itwouldbeabsolutelyimpossibleforme。
IfIweretoundertakeit,Ishouldonlydisappointyou。“
“Phoo!Phoo!Donotbesoshamefaced。You’lldoitverywell。Everyallowancewillbemadeforyou。
Wedonotexpectperfection。Youmustgetabrowngown,andawhiteapron,andamobcap,andwemustmakeyouafewwrinkles,andalittleofthecrowsfootatthecornerofyoureyes,andyouwillbeaveryproper,littleoldwoman。“
“Youmustexcuseme,indeedyoumustexcuseme,“criedFanny,growingmoreandmoreredfromexcessiveagitation,andlookingdistressfullyatEdmund,whowaskindlyobservingher;butunwillingtoexasperatehisbrotherbyinterference,gaveheronlyanencouragingsmile。
HerentreatyhadnoeffectonTom:heonlysaidagainwhathehadsaidbefore;anditwasnotmerelyTom,fortherequisitionwasnowbackedbyMaria,andMr。Crawford,andMr。Yates,withanurgencywhichdifferedfromhisbutinbeingmoregentleormoreceremonious,andwhichaltogetherwasquiteoverpoweringtoFanny;
andbeforeshecouldbreatheafterit,Mrs。Norriscompletedthewholebythusaddressingherinawhisperatonceangryandaudible——“Whatapieceofworkhereisaboutnothing:
Iamquiteashamedofyou,Fanny,tomakesuchadifficultyofobligingyourcousinsinatrifleofthissort——sokindastheyaretoyou!Takethepartwithagoodgrace,andletushearnomoreofthematter,Ientreat。“
“Donoturgeher,madam,“saidEdmund。“Itisnotfairtourgeherinthismanner。Youseeshedoesnotliketoact。
Letherchuseforherself,aswellastherestofus。
Herjudgmentmaybequiteassafelytrusted。Donoturgeheranymore。“
“Iamnotgoingtourgeher,“repliedMrs。Norrissharply;
“butIshallthinkheraveryobstinate,ungratefulgirl,ifshedoesnotdowhatherauntandcousinswishher——
veryungrateful,indeed,consideringwhoandwhatsheis。“
Edmundwastooangrytospeak;butMissCrawford,lookingforamomentwithastonishedeyesatMrs。Norris,andthenatFanny,whosetearswerebeginningtoshewthemselves,immediatelysaid,withsomekeenness,“Idonotlikemysituation:this_place_istoohotforme,“
andmovedawayherchairtotheoppositesideofthetable,closetoFanny,sayingtoher,inakind,lowwhisper,assheplacedherself,“Nevermind,mydearMissPrice,thisisacrossevening:everybodyiscrossandteasing,butdonotletusmindthem“;andwithpointedattentioncontinuedtotalktoherandendeavourtoraiseherspirits,inspiteofbeingoutofspiritsherself。Byalookatherbrothershepreventedanyfartherentreatyfromthetheatricalboard,andthereallygoodfeelingsbywhichshewasalmostpurelygovernedwererapidlyrestoringhertoallthelittleshehadlostinEdmund’sfavour。
FannydidnotloveMissCrawford;butshefeltverymuchobligedtoherforherpresentkindness;andwhen,fromtakingnoticeofherwork,andwishing_she_couldworkaswell,andbeggingforthepattern,andsupposingFannywasnowpreparingforher_appearance_,asofcourseshewouldcomeoutwhenhercousinwasmarried,MissCrawfordproceededtoinquireifshehadheardlatelyfromherbrotheratsea,andsaidthatshehadquiteacuriositytoseehim,andimaginedhimaveryfineyoungman,andadvisedFannytogethispicturedrawnbeforehewenttoseaagain——shecouldnothelpadmittingittobeveryagreeableflattery,orhelplistening,andansweringwithmoreanimationthanshehadintended。
Theconsultationupontheplaystillwenton,andMissCrawford’sattentionwasfirstcalledfromFannybyTomBertram’stellingher,withinfiniteregret,thathefounditabsolutelyimpossibleforhimtoundertakethepartofAnhaltinadditiontotheButler:hehadbeenmostanxiouslytryingtomakeitouttobefeasible,butitwouldnotdo;hemustgiveitup。“Buttherewillnotbethesmallestdifficultyinfillingit,“headded。
“Wehavebuttospeaktheword;wemaypickandchuse。
Icouldname,atthismoment,atleastsixyoungmenwithinsixmilesofus,whoarewildtobeadmittedintoourcompany,andthereareoneortwothatwouldnotdisgraceus:
IshouldnotbeafraidtotrusteitheroftheOliversorCharlesMaddox。TomOliverisaverycleverfellow,andCharlesMaddoxisasgentlemanlikeamanasyouwillseeanywhere,soIwilltakemyhorseearlyto-morrowmorningandrideovertoStoke,andsettlewithoneofthem。“
Whilehespoke,MariawaslookingapprehensivelyroundatEdmundinfullexpectationthathemustopposesuchanenlargementoftheplanasthis:socontrarytoalltheirfirstprotestations;butEdmundsaidnothing。
Afteramoment’sthought,MissCrawfordcalmlyreplied,“AsfarasIamconcerned,Icanhavenoobjectiontoanythingthatyouallthinkeligible。HaveIeverseeneitherofthegentlemen?Yes,Mr。CharlesMaddoxdinedatmysister’soneday,didnothe,Henry?Aquiet-lookingyoungman。Irememberhim。Let_him_beappliedto,ifyouplease,foritwillbelessunpleasanttomethantohaveaperfectstranger。“
CharlesMaddoxwastobetheman。Tomrepeatedhisresolutionofgoingtohimearlyonthemorrow;andthoughJulia,whohadscarcelyopenedherlipsbefore,observed,inasarcasticmanner,andwithaglancefirstatMariaandthenatEdmund,that“theMansfieldtheatricalswouldenliventhewholeneighbourhoodexceedingly,“Edmundstillheldhispeace,andshewedhisfeelingsonlybyadeterminedgravity。
“Iamnotverysanguineastoourplay,“saidMissCrawford,inanundervoicetoFanny,aftersomeconsideration;
“andIcantellMr。MaddoxthatIshallshortensomeof_his_speeches,andagreatmanyof_my__own_,beforewerehearsetogether。Itwillbeverydisagreeable,andbynomeanswhatIexpected。“
ItwasnotinMissCrawford’spowertotalkFannyintoanyrealforgetfulnessofwhathadpassed。Whentheeveningwasover,shewenttobedfullofit,hernervesstillagitatedbytheshockofsuchanattackfromhercousinTom,sopublicandsoperseveredin,andherspiritssinkingunderheraunt’sunkindreflectionandreproach。
Tobecalledintonoticeinsuchamanner,tohearthatitwasbutthepreludetosomethingsoinfinitelyworse,tobetoldthatshemustdowhatwassoimpossibleastoact;
andthentohavethechargeofobstinacyandingratitudefollowit,enforcedwithsuchahintatthedependenceofhersituation,hadbeentoodistressingatthetimetomaketheremembrancewhenshewasalonemuchlessso,especiallywiththesuperaddeddreadofwhatthemorrowmightproduceincontinuationofthesubject。
MissCrawfordhadprotectedheronlyforthetime;
andifshewereappliedtoagainamongthemselveswithalltheauthoritativeurgencythatTomandMariawerecapableof,andEdmundperhapsaway,whatshouldshedo?Shefellasleepbeforeshecouldanswerthequestion,andfounditquiteaspuzzlingwhensheawokethenextmorning。
Thelittlewhiteattic,whichhadcontinuedhersleeping-roomeversinceherfirstenteringthefamily,provingincompetenttosuggestanyreply,shehadrecourse,assoonasshewasdressed,toanotherapartmentmorespaciousandmoremeetforwalkingaboutinandthinking,andofwhichshehadnowforsometimebeenalmostequallymistress。
Ithadbeentheirschool-room;socalledtilltheMissBertramswouldnotallowittobecalledsoanylonger,andinhabitedassuchtoalaterperiod。ThereMissLeehadlived,andtheretheyhadreadandwritten,andtalkedandlaughed,tillwithinthelastthreeyears,whenshehadquittedthem。Theroomhadthenbecomeuseless,andforsometimewasquitedeserted,exceptbyFanny,whenshevisitedherplants,orwantedoneofthebooks,whichshewasstillgladtokeepthere,fromthedeficiencyofspaceandaccommodationinherlittlechamberabove:
butgradually,ashervalueforthecomfortsofitincreased,shehadaddedtoherpossessions,andspentmoreofhertimethere;andhavingnothingtoopposeher,hadsonaturallyandsoartlesslyworkedherselfintoit,thatitwasnowgenerallyadmittedtobehers。TheEastroom,asithadbeencalledeversinceMariaBertramwassixteen,wasnowconsideredFanny’s,almostasdecidedlyasthewhiteattic:thesmallnessoftheonemakingtheuseoftheothersoevidentlyreasonablethattheMissBertrams,witheverysuperiorityintheirownapartmentswhichtheirownsenseofsuperioritycoulddemand,wereentirelyapprovingit;andMrs。Norris,havingstipulatedforthereneverbeingafireinitonFanny’saccount,wastolerablyresignedtoherhavingtheuseofwhatnobodyelsewanted,thoughthetermsinwhichshesometimesspokeoftheindulgenceseemedtoimplythatitwasthebestroominthehouse。
TheaspectwassofavourablethatevenwithoutafireitwashabitableinmanyanearlyspringandlateautumnmorningtosuchawillingmindasFanny’s;
andwhiletherewasagleamofsunshineshehopednottobedrivenfromitentirely,evenwhenwintercame。
Thecomfortofitinherhoursofleisurewasextreme。
Shecouldgothereafteranythingunpleasantbelow,andfindimmediateconsolationinsomepursuit,orsometrainofthoughtathand。Herplants,herbooks
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