Thedivisionofgratifyingsensationsoughtnot,instrictjustice,tohavebeenequal;forSirThomaswasfullyresolvedtobetherealandconsistentpatronoftheselectedchild,andMrs。Norrishadnottheleastintentionofbeingatanyexpensewhateverinhermaintenance。
Asfaraswalking,talking,andcontrivingreached,shewasthoroughlybenevolent,andnobodyknewbetterhowtodictateliberalitytoothers;butherloveofmoneywasequaltoherloveofdirecting,andsheknewquiteaswellhowtosaveherownastospendthatofherfriends。
Havingmarriedonanarrowerincomethanshehadbeenusedtolookforwardto,shehad,fromthefirst,fanciedaverystrictlineofeconomynecessary;
andwhatwasbegunasamatterofprudence,soongrewintoamatterofchoice,asanobjectofthatneedfulsolicitudewhichtherewerenochildrentosupply。
Hadtherebeenafamilytoprovidefor,Mrs。Norrismightneverhavesavedhermoney;buthavingnocareofthatkind,therewasnothingtoimpedeherfrugality,orlessenthecomfortofmakingayearlyadditiontoanincomewhichtheyhadneverlivedupto。Underthisinfatuatingprinciple,counteractedbynorealaffectionforhersister,itwasimpossibleforhertoaimatmorethanthecreditofprojectingandarrangingsoexpensiveacharity;
thoughperhapsshemightsolittleknowherselfastowalkhometotheParsonage,afterthisconversation,inthehappybeliefofbeingthemostliberal-mindedsisterandauntintheworld。
Whenthesubjectwasbroughtforwardagain,herviewsweremorefullyexplained;and,inreplytoLadyBertram’scalminquiryof“Whereshallthechildcometofirst,sister,toyouortous?“SirThomasheardwithsomesurprisethatitwouldbetotallyoutofMrs。Norris’spowertotakeanyshareinthepersonalchargeofher。
HehadbeenconsideringherasaparticularlywelcomeadditionattheParsonage,asadesirablecompaniontoanauntwhohadnochildrenofherown;buthefoundhimselfwhollymistaken。Mrs。Norriswassorrytosaythatthelittlegirl’sstayingwiththem,atleastasthingsthenwere,wasquiteoutofthequestion。
PoorMr。Norris’sindifferentstateofhealthmadeitanimpossibility:hecouldnomorebearthenoiseofachildthanhecouldfly;if,indeed,heshouldevergetwellofhisgoutycomplaints,itwouldbeadifferentmatter:
sheshouldthenbegladtotakeherturn,andthinknothingoftheinconvenience;butjustnow,poorMr。Norristookupeverymomentofhertime,andtheverymentionofsuchathingshewassurewoulddistracthim。
“Thenshehadbettercometous,“saidLadyBertram,withtheutmostcomposure。AfterashortpauseSirThomasaddedwithdignity,“Yes,letherhomebeinthishouse。
Wewillendeavourtodoourdutybyher,andshewill,atleast,havetheadvantageofcompanionsofherownage,andofaregularinstructress。“
“Verytrue,“criedMrs。Norris,“whicharebothveryimportantconsiderations;anditwillbejustthesametoMissLeewhethershehasthreegirlstoteach,oronlytwo——therecanbenodifference。IonlywishI
couldbemoreuseful;butyouseeIdoallinmypower。
Iamnotoneofthosethatsparetheirowntrouble;
andNannyshallfetchher,howeveritmayputmetoinconveniencetohavemychiefcounsellorawayforthreedays。Isuppose,sister,youwillputthechildinthelittlewhiteattic,neartheoldnurseries。
Itwillbemuchthebestplaceforher,sonearMissLee,andnotfarfromthegirls,andclosebythehousemaids,whocouldeitherofthemhelptodressher,youknow,andtakecareofherclothes,forIsupposeyouwouldnotthinkitfairtoexpectEllistowaitonheraswellastheothers。Indeed,Idonotseethatyoucouldpossiblyplaceheranywhereelse。“
LadyBertrammadenoopposition。
“Ihopeshewillproveawell-disposedgirl,“
continuedMrs。Norris,“andbesensibleofheruncommongoodfortuneinhavingsuchfriends。“
“Shouldherdispositionbereallybad,“saidSirThomas,“wemustnot,forourownchildren’ssake,continueherinthefamily;butthereisnoreasontoexpectsogreatanevil。Weshallprobablyseemuchtowishalteredinher,andmustprepareourselvesforgrossignorance,somemeannessofopinions,andverydistressingvulgarityofmanner;butthesearenotincurablefaults;nor,Itrust,cantheybedangerousforherassociates。Hadmydaughtersbeen_younger_thanherself,Ishouldhaveconsideredtheintroductionofsuchacompanionasamatterofveryseriousmoment;but,asitis,Ihopetherecanbenothingtofearfor_them_,andeverythingtohopefor_her_,fromtheassociation。“
“ThatisexactlywhatIthink,“criedMrs。Norris,“andwhatIwassayingtomyhusbandthismorning。
Itwillbeaneducationforthechild,saidI,onlybeingwithhercousins;ifMissLeetaughthernothing,shewouldlearntobegoodandcleverfrom_them_。“
“Ihopeshewillnotteasemypoorpug,“saidLadyBertram;
“IhavebutjustgotJuliatoleaveitalone。“
“Therewillbesomedifficultyinourway,Mrs。Norris,“
observedSirThomas,“astothedistinctionpropertobemadebetweenthegirlsastheygrowup:howtopreserveinthemindsofmy_daughters_theconsciousnessofwhattheyare,withoutmakingthemthinktoolowlyoftheircousin;
andhow,withoutdepressingherspiritstoofar,tomakeherrememberthatsheisnota_MissBertram_。
Ishouldwishtoseethemverygoodfriends,andwould,onnoaccount,authoriseinmygirlsthesmallestdegreeofarrogancetowardstheirrelation;butstilltheycannotbeequals。Theirrank,fortune,rights,andexpectationswillalwaysbedifferent。Itisapointofgreatdelicacy,andyoumustassistusinourendeavourstochooseexactlytherightlineofconduct。“
Mrs。Norriswasquiteathisservice;andthoughsheperfectlyagreedwithhimastoitsbeingamostdifficultthing,encouragedhimtohopethatbetweenthemitwouldbeeasilymanaged。
ItwillbereadilybelievedthatMrs。Norrisdidnotwritetohersisterinvain。Mrs。Priceseemedrathersurprisedthatagirlshouldbefixedon,whenshehadsomanyfineboys,butacceptedtheoffermostthankfully,assuringthemofherdaughter’sbeingaverywell-disposed,good-humouredgirl,andtrustingtheywouldneverhavecausetothrowheroff。
Shespokeofherfartherassomewhatdelicateandpuny,butwassanguineinthehopeofherbeingmateriallybetterforchangeofair。Poorwoman!sheprobablythoughtchangeofairmightagreewithmanyofherchildren。
Thelittlegirlperformedherlongjourneyinsafety;
andatNorthamptonwasmetbyMrs。Norris,whothusregaledinthecreditofbeingforemosttowelcomeher,andintheimportanceofleadingherintotheothers,andrecommendinghertotheirkindness。
FannyPricewasatthistimejusttenyearsold,andthoughtheremightnotbemuchinherfirstappearancetocaptivate,therewas,atleast,nothingtodisgustherrelations。Shewassmallofherage,withnoglowofcomplexion,noranyotherstrikingbeauty;
exceedinglytimidandshy,andshrinkingfromnotice;
butherair,thoughawkward,wasnotvulgar,hervoicewassweet,andwhenshespokehercountenancewaspretty。
SirThomasandLadyBertramreceivedherverykindly;
andSirThomas,seeinghowmuchsheneededencouragement,triedtobeallthatwasconciliating:buthehadtoworkagainstamostuntowardgravityofdeportment;
andLadyBertram,withouttakinghalfsomuchtrouble,orspeakingonewordwherehespoketen,bythemereaidofagood-humouredsmile,becameimmediatelythelessawfulcharacterofthetwo。
Theyoungpeoplewereallathome,andsustainedtheirshareintheintroductionverywell,withmuchgoodhumour,andnoembarrassment,atleastonthepartofthesons,who,atseventeenandsixteen,andtalloftheirage,hadallthegrandeurofmenintheeyesoftheirlittlecousin。
Thetwogirlsweremoreatalossfrombeingyoungerandingreateraweoftheirfather,whoaddressedthemontheoccasionwithratheraninjudiciousparticularity。
Buttheyweretoomuchusedtocompanyandpraisetohaveanythinglikenaturalshyness;andtheirconfidenceincreasingfromtheircousin’stotalwantofit,theyweresoonabletotakeafullsurveyofherfaceandherfrockineasyindifference。
Theywerearemarkablyfinefamily,thesonsverywell-looking,thedaughtersdecidedlyhandsome,andallofthemwell-grownandforwardoftheirage,whichproducedasstrikingadifferencebetweenthecousinsinperson,aseducationhadgiventotheiraddress;andnoonewouldhavesupposedthegirlssonearlyofanageastheyreallywere。TherewereinfactbuttwoyearsbetweentheyoungestandFanny。
JuliaBertramwasonlytwelve,andMariabutayearolder。
Thelittlevisitormeanwhilewasasunhappyaspossible。
Afraidofeverybody,ashamedofherself,andlongingforthehomeshehadleft,sheknewnothowtolookup,andcouldscarcelyspeaktobeheard,orwithoutcrying。
Mrs。NorrishadbeentalkingtoherthewholewayfromNorthamptonofherwonderfulgoodfortune,andtheextraordinarydegreeofgratitudeandgoodbehaviourwhichitoughttoproduce,andherconsciousnessofmiserywasthereforeincreasedbytheideaofitsbeingawickedthingforhernottobehappy。Thefatigue,too,ofsolongajourney,becamesoonnotriflingevil。
Invainwerethewell-meantcondescensionsofSirThomas,andalltheofficiousprognosticationsofMrs。Norristhatshewouldbeagoodgirl;invaindidLadyBertramsmileandmakehersitonthesofawithherselfandpug,andvainwaseventhesightofagooseberrytarttowardsgivinghercomfort;shecouldscarcelyswallowtwomouthfulsbeforetearsinterruptedher,andsleepseemingtobeherlikeliestfriend,shewastakentofinishhersorrowsinbed。
“Thisisnotaverypromisingbeginning,“saidMrs。Norris,whenFannyhadlefttheroom。“AfterallthatIsaidtoheraswecamealong,Ithoughtshewouldhavebehavedbetter;
Itoldherhowmuchmightdependuponheracquittingherselfwellatfirst。Iwishtheremaynotbealittlesulkinessoftemper——herpoormotherhadagooddeal;
butwemustmakeallowancesforsuchachild——andI
donotknowthatherbeingsorrytoleaveherhomeisreallyagainsther,for,withallitsfaults,it_was_
herhome,andshecannotasyetunderstandhowmuchshehaschangedforthebetter;butthenthereismoderationinallthings。“
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