ShehurriedofftotellMadameCaron,andthetwoladieswentuptotheattic,and,hiddenbysomelinenspreadacrossprops,stationedthemselvescomfortablyforoverlookingthewholeofBinet’sroom。
Hewasaloneinhisgarret,busyimitatinginwoodoneofthoseindescribablebitsofivory,composedofcrescents,ofsphereshollowedoutonewithintheother,thewholeasstraightasanobelisk,andofnousewhatever;andhewasbeginningonthelastpiece——hewasnearinghisgoal。Inthetwilightoftheworkshopthewhitedustwasflyingfromhistoolslikeashowerofsparksunderthehoofsofagallopinghorse;thetwowheelswereturning,droning;Binetsmiled,hischinlowered,hisnostrilsdistended,and,inaword,seemedlostinoneofthosecompletehappinessesthat,nodoubt,belongonlytocommonplaceoccupations,whichamusethemindwithfaciledifficulties,andsatisfybyarealisationofthatbeyondwhichsuchmindshavenotadream。
“Ah!theresheis!“exclaimedMadameTuvache。
Butitwasimpossiblebecauseofthelathetohearwhatshewassaying。
Atlasttheseladiesthoughttheymadeouttheword“francs,“andMadameTuvachewhisperedinalowvoice——
“Sheisbegginghimtogivehertimeforpayinghertaxes。“
“Apparently!“repliedtheother。
Theysawherwalkingupanddown,examiningthenapkin-rings,thecandlesticks,thebanisterrailsagainstthewalls,whileBinetstrokedhisbeardwithsatisfaction。
“Doyouthinkshewantstoordersomethingofhim?“saidMadameTuvache。
“Why,hedoesn’tsellanything,“objectedherneighbour。
Thetax-collectorseemedtobelisteningwithwide-openeyes,asifhedidnotunderstand。Shewentoninatender,suppliantmanner。Shecamenearertohim,herbreastheaving;theynolongerspoke。
“Isshemakinghimadvances?“saidMadameTuvache。Binetwasscarlettohisveryears。Shetookholdofhishands。
“Oh,it’stoomuch!“
Andnodoubtshewassuggestingsomethingabominabletohim;forthetax-collector——yethewasbrave,hadfoughtatBautzenandatLutzen,hadbeenthroughtheFrenchcampaign,andhadevenbeenrecommendedforthecross——suddenly,asatthesightofaserpent,recoiledasfarashecouldfromher,crying——
“Madame!whatdoyoumean?“
“Womenlikethatoughttobewhipped,“saidMadameTuvache。
“Butwhereisshe?“continuedMadameCaron,forshehaddisappearedwhilsttheyspoke;thencatchingsightofhergoinguptheGrandeRue,andturningtotherightasifmakingforthecemetery,theywerelostinconjectures。
“NurseRollet,“shesaidonreachingthenurse’s,“Iamchoking;
unlaceme!“Shefellonthebedsobbing。NurseRolletcoveredherwithapetticoatandremainedstandingbyherside。Then,asshedidnotanswer,thegoodwomanwithdrew,tookherwheelandbeganspinningflax。
“Oh,leaveoff!“shemurmured,fancyingsheheardBinet’slathe。
“What’sbotheringher?“saidthenursetoherself。“Whyhasshecomehere?“
Shehadrushedthither;impelledbyakindofhorrorthatdroveherfromherhome。
Lyingonherback,motionless,andwithstaringeyes,shesawthingsbutvaguely,althoughshetriedtowithidioticpersistence。Shelookedatthescalesonthewalls,twobrandssmokingendtoend,andalongspidercrawlingoverherheadinarentinthebeam。Atlastshebegantocollectherthoughts。Sheremembered——oneday——Leon——Oh!howlongagothatwas——thesunwasshiningontheriver,andtheclematiswereperfumingtheair。
Then,carriedawayasbyarushingtorrent,shesoonbegantorecallthedaybefore。
“Whattimeisit?“sheasked。
MereRolletwentout,raisedthefingersofherrighthandtothatsideoftheskythatwasbrightest,andcamebackslowly,saying——
“Nearlythree。“
“Ahlthanks,thanks!“
Forhewouldcome;hewouldhavefoundsomemoney。Buthewould,perhaps,godownyonder,notguessingshewashere,andshetoldthenursetoruntoherhousetofetchhim。
“Bequick!“
“But,mydearlady,I’mgoing,I’mgoing!“
Shewonderednowthatshehadnotthoughtofhimfromthefirst。
Yesterdayhehadgivenhisword;hewouldnotbreakit。AndshealreadysawherselfatLheureux’sspreadingoutherthreebank-notesonhisbureau。ThenshewouldhavetoinventsomestorytoexplainmatterstoBovary。Whatshoulditbe?
Thenurse,however,wasalongwhilegone。But,astherewasnoclockinthecot,Emmafearedshewasperhapsexaggeratingthelengthoftime。Shebeganwalkingroundthegarden,stepbystep;
shewentintothepathbythehedge,andreturnedquickly,hopingthatthewomanwouldhavecomebackbyanotherroad。Atlast,wearyofwaiting,assailedbyfearsthatshethrustfromher,nolongerconsciouswhethershehadbeenhereacenturyoramoment,shesatdowninacorner,closedhereyes,andstoppedherears。
Thegategrated;shesprangup。BeforeshehadspokenMereRolletsaidtoher——
“Thereisnooneatyourhouse!“
“What?“
“Oh,noone!Andthedoctoriscrying。Heiscallingforyou;
they’relookingforyou。“
Emmaanswerednothing。Shegaspedassheturnedhereyesabouther,whilethepeasantwoman,frightenedatherface,drewbackinstinctively,thinkinghermad。Suddenlyshestruckherbrowandutteredacry;forthethoughtofRodolphe,likeaflashoflightninginadarknight,hadpassedintohersoul。Hewassogood,sodelicate,sogenerous!Andbesides,shouldhehesitatetodoherthisservice,shewouldknowwellenoughhowtoconstrainhimtoitbyre-waking,inasinglemoment,theirlostlove。SoshesetouttowardsLaHuchette,notseeingthatshewashasteningtoofferherselftothatwhichbutawhileagohadsoangeredher,notintheleastconsciousofherprostitution。
ChapterEightSheaskedherselfasshewalkedalong,“WhatamIgoingtosay?
HowshallIbegin?“Andasshewentonsherecognisedthethickets,thetrees,thesea-rushesonthehill,thechateauyonder。Allthesensationsofherfirsttendernesscamebacktoher,andherpoorachingheartopenedoutamorously。Awarmwindblewinherface;themeltingsnowfelldropbydropfromthebudstothegrass。
Sheentered,assheusedto,throughthesmallpark-gate。Shereachedtheavenueborderedbyadoublerowofdenselime-trees。
Theywereswayingtheirlongwhisperingbranchestoandfro。Thedogsintheirkennelsallbarked,andthenoiseoftheirvoicesresounded,butbroughtoutnoone。
Shewentupthelargestraightstaircasewithwoodenbalustersthatledtothecorridorpavedwithdustyflags,intowhichseveraldoorsinarowopened,asinamonasteryoraninn。Hiswasatthetop,rightattheend,ontheleft。Whensheplacedherfingersonthelockherstrengthsuddenlydesertedher。Shewasafraid,almostwishedhewouldnotbethere,thoughthiswasheronlyhope,herlastchanceofsalvation。Shecollectedherthoughtsforonemoment,and,strengtheningherselfbythefeelingofpresentnecessity,wentin。
Hewasinfrontofthefire,bothhisfeetonthemantelpiece,smokingapipe。
“What!itisyou!“hesaid,gettinguphurriedly。
“Yes,itisI,Rodolphe。Ishouldliketoaskyouradvice。“
And,despiteallherefforts,itwasimpossibleforhertoopenherlips。
“Youhavenotchanged;youarecharmingasever!“
“Oh,“sherepliedbitterly,“theyarepoorcharmssinceyoudisdainedthem。“
Thenhebeganalongexplanationofhisconduct,excusinghimselfinvagueterms,indefaultofbeingabletoinventbetter。
Sheyieldedtohiswords,stillmoretohisvoiceandthesightofhim,sothat,shepretendedtobelieve,orperhapsbelieved;
inthepretexthegavefortheirrupture;thiswasasecretonwhichdependedthehonour,theverylifeofathirdperson。
“Nomatter!“shesaid,lookingathimsadly。“Ihavesufferedmuch。“
Herepliedphilosophically——
“Suchislife!“
“Haslife,“Emmawenton,“beengoodtoyouatleast,sinceourseparation?“
“Oh,neithergoodnorbad。“
“Perhapsitwouldhavebeenbetternevertohaveparted。“
“Yes,perhaps。“
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