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第22章

  MadameBovaryhadopenedherwindowoverlookingthegardenandwatchedtheclouds。TheygatheredaroundthesunsetonthesideofRouenandthenswiftlyrolledbacktheirblackcolumns,behindwhichthegreatraysofthesunlookedoutlikethegoldenarrowsofasuspendedtrophy,whiletherestoftheemptyheavenswaswhiteasporcelain。Butagustofwindbowedthepoplars,andsuddenlytherainfell;itpatteredagainstthegreenleaves。
  Thenthesunreappeared,thehensclucked,sparrowsshooktheirwingsinthedampthickets,andthepoolsofwateronthegravelastheyflowedawaycarriedoffthepinkflowersofanacacia。
  “Ah!howfaroffhemustbealready!“shethought。
  MonsieurHomais,asusual,cameathalf-pastsixduringdinner。
  “Well,“saidhe,“sowe’vesentoffouryoungfriend!“
  “Soitseems,“repliedthedoctor。Thenturningonhischair;
  “Anynewsathome?“
  “Nothingmuch。Onlymywifewasalittlemovedthisafternoon。
  Youknowwomen——anothingupsetsthem,especiallymywife。Andweshouldbewrongtoobjecttothat,sincetheirnervousorganizationismuchmoremalleablethanours。“
  “PoorLeon!“saidCharles。“HowwillheliveatParis?Willhegetusedtoit?“
  MadameBovarysighed。
  “Getalong!“saidthechemist,smackinghislips。“Theoutingsatrestaurants,themaskedballs,thechampagne——allthat’llbejollyenough,Iassureyou。“
  “Idon’tthinkhe’llgowrong,“objectedBovary。
  “NordoI,“saidMonsieurHomaisquickly;“althoughhe’llhavetodoliketherestforfearofpassingforaJesuit。Andyoudon’tknowwhatalifethosedogsleadintheLatinquarterwithactresses。Besides,studentsarethoughtagreatdealofinParis。Providedtheyhaveafewaccomplishments,theyarereceivedinthebestsociety;thereareevenladiesoftheFaubourgSaint-Germainwhofallinlovewiththem,whichsubsequentlyfurnishesthemopportunitiesformakingverygoodmatches。“
  “But,“saidthedoctor,“Ifearforhimthatdownthere——“
  “Youareright,“interruptedthechemist;“thatisthereverseofthemedal。Andoneisconstantlyobligedtokeepone’shandinone’spocketthere。Thus,wewillsupposeyouareinapublicgarden。Anindividualpresentshimself,welldressed,evenwearinganorder,andwhomonewouldtakeforadiplomatist。Heapproachesyou,heinsinuateshimself;offersyouapinchofsnuff,orpicksupyourhat。Thenyoubecomemoreintimate;hetakesyoutoacafe,invitesyoutohiscountry-house,introducesyou,betweentwodrinks,toallsortsofpeople;andthree-fourthsofthetimeit’sonlytoplunderyourwatchorleadyouintosomeperniciousstep。
  “Thatistrue,“saidCharles;“butIwasthinkingespeciallyofillnesses——oftyphoidfever,forexample,thatattacksstudentsfromtheprovinces。“
  Emmashuddered。
  “Becauseofthechangeofregimen,“continuedthechemist,“andoftheperturbationthatresultstherefrominthewholesystem。
  AndthenthewateratParis,don’tyouknow!Thedishesatrestaurants,allthespicedfood,endbyheatingtheblood,andarenotworth,whateverpeoplemaysayofthem,agoodsoup。Formyownpart,Ihavealwayspreferredplainliving;itismorehealthy。SowhenIwasstudyingpharmacyatRouen,Iboardedinaboardinghouse;Idinedwiththeprofessors。“
  Andthushewenton,expoundinghisopinionsgenerallyandhispersonallikings,untilJustincametofetchhimforamulledeggthatwaswanted。
  “Notamoment’speace!“hecried;“alwaysatit!Ican’tgooutforaminute!Likeaplough-horse,Ihavealwaystobemoilingandtoiling。Whatdrudgery!“Then,whenhewasatthedoor,“Bytheway,doyouknowthenews?“
  “Whatnews?“
  “Thatitisverylikely,“Homaiswenton,raisinghiseyebrowsandassumingoneofhismostseriousexpression,“thattheagriculturalmeetingoftheSeine-InferieurewillbeheldthisyearatYonville-l’Abbaye。Therumour,atallevents,isgoingtheround。Thismorningthepaperalludedtoit。Itwouldbeoftheutmostimportanceforourdistrict。Butwe’lltalkitoverlateron。Icansee,thankyou;Justinhasthelantern。“
  ChapterSevenThenextdaywasadrearyoneforEmma。Everythingseemedtoherenvelopedinablackatmospherefloatingconfusedlyovertheexteriorofthings,andsorrowwasengulfedwithinhersoulwithsoftshriekssuchasthewinterwindmakesinruinedcastles。Itwasthatreveriewhichwegivetothingsthatwillnotreturn,thelassitudethatseizesyouaftereverythingwasdone;thatpain,infine,thattheinterruptionofeverywontedmovement,thesuddencessationofanyprolongedvibration,bringson。
  AsonthereturnfromVaubyessard,whenthequadrilleswererunninginherhead,shewasfullofagloomymelancholy,ofanumbdespair。Leonreappeared,taller,handsomer,morecharming,morevague。Thoughseparatedfromher,hehadnotlefther;hewasthere,andthewallsofthehouseseemedtoholdhisshadow。
  Shecouldnotdetachhereyesfromthecarpetwherehehadwalked,fromthoseemptychairswherehehadsat。Theriverstillflowedon,andslowlydroveitsripplesalongtheslipperybanks。
  Theyhadoftenwalkedtheretothemurmurofthewavesoverthemoss-coveredpebbles。Howbrightthesunhadbeen!Whathappyafternoonstheyhadseenalongintheshadeattheendofthegarden!Hereadaloud,bareheaded,sittingonafootstoolofdrysticks;thefreshwindofthemeadowsettremblingtheleavesofthebookandthenasturtiumsofthearbour。Ah!hewasgone,theonlycharmofherlife,theonlypossiblehopeofjoy。Whyhadshenotseizedthishappinesswhenitcametoher?Whynothavekeptholdofitwithbothhands,withbothknees,whenitwasabouttofleefromher?AndshecursedherselffornothavinglovedLeon。Shethirstedforhislips。Thewishtookpossessionofhertorunafterandrejoinhim,throwherselfintohisarmsandsaytohim,“ItisI;Iamyours。“ButEmmarecoiledbeforehandatthedifficultiesoftheenterprise,andherdesires,increasedbyregret,becameonlythemoreacute。
  HenceforththememoryofLeonwasthecentreofherboredom;itburnttheremorebrightlythanthefiretravellershaveleftonthesnowofaRussiansteppe。Shesprangtowardshim,shepressedagainsthim,shestirredcarefullythedyingembers,soughtallaroundheranythingthatcouldreviveit;andthemostdistantreminiscences,likethemostimmediateoccasions,whatsheexperiencedaswellaswhatsheimagined,hervoluptuousdesiresthatwereunsatisfied,herprojectsofhappinessthatcrackledinthewindlikedeadboughs,hersterilevirtue,herlosthopes,thedomestictete-a-tete——shegathereditallup,tookeverything,andmadeitallserveasfuelforhermelancholy。
  Theflames,however,subsided,eitherbecausethesupplyhadexhausteditself,orbecauseithadbeenpileduptoomuch。Love,littlebylittle,wasquelledbyabsence;regretstifledbeneathhabit;andthisincendiarylightthathadempurpledherpaleskywasoverspreadandfadedbydegrees。Inthesupinenessofherconsciencesheeventookherrepugnancetowardsherhusbandforaspirationstowardsherlover,theburningofhateforthewarmthoftenderness;butasthetempeststillraged,andaspassionburntitselfdowntotheverycinders,andnohelpcame,nosunrose,therewasnightonallsides,andshewaslostintheterriblecoldthatpiercedher。
  ThentheevildaysofTostesbeganagain。Shethoughtherselfnowfarmoreunhappy;forshehadtheexperienceofgrief,withthecertaintythatitwouldnotend。
  Awomanwhohadlaidonherselfsuchsacrificescouldwellallowherselfcertainwhims。SheboughtaGothicprie-dieu,andinamonthspentfourteenfrancsonlemonsforpolishinghernails;
  shewrotetoRouenforabluecashmeregown;shechoseoneofLheureux’sfinestscarves,andworeitknottedaroundherwaistoverherdressing-gown;and,withclosedblindsandabookinherhand,shelaystretchedoutonacouchinthisgarb。
  Sheoftenchangedhercoiffure;shedidherhairalaChinoise,inflowingcurls,inplaitedcoils;shepartedinononesideandrolleditunderlikeaman’s。
  ShewantedtolearnItalian;sheboughtdictionaries,agrammar,andasupplyofwhitepaper。Shetriedseriousreading,history,andphilosophy。SometimesinthenightCharleswokeupwithastart,thinkinghewasbeingcalledtoapatient。“I’mcoming,“
  hestammered;anditwasthenoiseofamatchEmmahadstrucktorelightthelamp。Butherreadingfaredlikeherpieceofembroidery,allofwhich,onlyjustbegun,filledhercupboard;
  shetookitup,leftit,passedontootherbooks。
  Shehadattacksinwhichshecouldeasilyhavebeendriventocommitanyfolly。Shemaintainedoneday,inoppositiontoherhusband,thatshecoulddrinkoffalargeglassofbrandy,and,asCharleswasstupidenoughtodareherto,sheswallowedthebrandytothelastdrop。
  InspiteofhervapourishairsasthehousewivesofYonvillecalledthem,Emma,allthesame,neverseemedgay,andusuallyshehadatthecornersofhermouththatimmobilecontractionthatpuckersthefacesofoldmaids,andthoseofmenwhoseambitionhasfailed。Shewaspaleallover,whiteasasheet;theskinofhernosewasdrawnatthenostrils,hereyeslookedatyouvaguely。Afterdiscoveringthreegreyhairsonhertemples,shetalkedmuchofheroldage。
  Sheoftenfainted。Onedaysheevenspatblood,and,asCharlesfussedaroundhershowinghisanxiety——
  “Bah!“sheanswered,“whatdoesitmatter?“
  Charlesfledtohisstudyandweptthere,bothhiselbowsonthetable,sittinginanarm-chairathisbureauunderthephrenologicalhead。
  Thenhewrotetohismotherbegginghertocome,andtheyhadmanylongconsultationstogetheronthesubjectofEmma。
  Whatshouldtheydecide?Whatwastobedonesincesherejectedallmedicaltreatment?“Doyouknowwhatyourwifewants?“