“Itisverystrange,“thoughtEmma,“howuglythischildis!“
Whenateleveno’clockCharlescamebackfromthechemist’sshop,whitherhehadgoneafterdinnertoreturntheremainderofthesticking-plaster,hefoundhiswifestandingbythecradle。
“Iassureyouit’snothing。“hesaid,kissingherontheforehead。“Don’tworry,mypoordarling;youwillmakeyourselfill。“
Hehadstayedalongtimeatthechemist’s。Althoughhehadnotseemedmuchmoved,Homais,nevertheless,hadexertedhimselftobuoyhimup,to“keepuphisspirits。“Thentheyhadtalkedofthevariousdangersthatthreatenchildhood,ofthecarelessnessofservants。MadameHomaisknewsomethingofit,havingstilluponherchestthemarksleftbyabasinfullofsoupthatacookhadformerlydroppedonherpinafore,andhergoodparentstooknoendoftroubleforher。Thekniveswerenotsharpened,northefloorswaxed;therewereirongratingstothewindowsandstrongbarsacrossthefireplace;thelittleHomais,inspiteoftheirspirit,couldnotstirwithoutsomeonewatchingthem;attheslightestcoldtheirfatherstuffedthemwithpectorals;anduntiltheywereturnedfourtheyall,withoutpity,hadtowearwaddedhead-protectors。This,itistrue,wasafancyofMadameHomais’;herhusbandwasinwardlyafflictedatit。Fearingthepossibleconsequencesofsuchcompressiontotheintellectualorgans。Heevenwentsofarastosaytoher,“DoyouwanttomakeCaribsorBotocudosofthem?“
Charles,however,hadseveraltimestriedtointerrupttheconversation。“Ishouldliketospeaktoyou,“hehadwhisperedintheclerk’sear,whowentupstairsinfrontofhim。
“Canhesuspectanything?“Leonaskedhimself。Hisheartbeat,andherackedhisbrainwithsurmises。
Atlast,Charles,havingshutthedoor,askedhimtoseehimselfwhatwouldbethepriceatRouenofafinedaguerreotypes。Itwasasentimentalsurpriseheintendedforhiswife,adelicateattention——hisportraitinafrock-coat。Buthewantedfirsttoknow“howmuchitwouldbe。“TheinquirieswouldnotputMonsieurLeonout,sincehewenttotownalmosteveryweek。
Why?MonsieurHomaissuspectedsome“youngman’saffair“atthebottomofit,anintrigue。Buthewasmistaken。Leonwasafternolove-making。Hewassadderthanever,asMadameLefrancoissawfromtheamountoffoodheleftonhisplate。Tofindoutmoreaboutitshequestionedthetax-collector。Binetansweredroughlythathe“wasn’tpaidbythepolice。“
Allthesame,hiscompanionseemedverystrangetohim,forLeonoftenthrewhimselfbackinhischair,andstretchingouthisarms。Complainedvaguelyoflife。
“It’sbecauseyoudon’ttakeenoughrecreation,“saidthecollector。
“Whatrecreation?“
“IfIwereyouI’dhavealathe。“
“ButIdon’tknowhowtoturn,“answeredtheclerk。
“Ah!that’strue,“saidtheother,rubbinghischinwithanairofmingledcontemptandsatisfaction。
Leonwaswearyoflovingwithoutanyresult;moreoverhewasbeginningtofeelthatdepressioncausedbytherepetitionofthesamekindoflife,whennointerestinspiresandnohopesustainsit。HewassoboredwithYonvilleanditsinhabitants,thatthesightofcertainpersons,ofcertainhouses,irritatedhimbeyondendurance;andthechemist,goodfellowthoughhewas,wasbecomingabsolutelyunbearabletohim。Yettheprospectofanewconditionoflifefrightenedasmuchasitseducedhim。
Thisapprehensionsoonchangedintoimpatience,andthenParisfromafarsoundeditsfanfareofmaskedballswiththelaughofgrisettes。Ashewastofinishreadingthere,whynotsetoutatonce?Whatpreventedhim?Andhebeganmakinghome-preparations;
hearrangedhisoccupationsbeforehand。Hefurnishedinhisheadanapartment。Hewouldleadanartist’slifethere!Hewouldtakelessonsontheguitar!Hewouldhaveadressing-gown,aBasquecap,bluevelvetslippers!Heevenalreadywasadmiringtwocrossedfoilsoverhischimney-piece,withadeath’sheadontheguitarabovethem。
Thedifficultywastheconsentofhismother;nothing,however,seemedmorereasonable。Evenhisemployeradvisedhimtogotosomeotherchamberswherehecouldadvancemorerapidly。Takingamiddlecourse,then,LeonlookedforsomeplaceassecondclerkatRouen;foundnone,andatlastwrotehismotheralongletterfullofdetails,inwhichhesetforththereasonsforgoingtoliveatParisimmediately。Sheconsented。
Hedidnothurry。EverydayforamonthHivertcarriedboxes,valises,parcelsforhimfromYonvilletoRouenandfromRouentoYonville;andwhenLeonhadpackeduphiswardrobe,hadhisthreearm-chairsrestuffed,boughtastockofneckties,inaword,hadmademorepreparationsthanforavoyagearoundtheworld,heputitofffromweektoweek,untilhereceivedasecondletterfromhismotherurginghimtoleave,sincehewantedtopasshisexaminationbeforethevacation。
Whenthemomentforthefarewellshadcome,MadameHomaiswept,Justinsobbed;Homais,asamanofnerve,concealedhisemotion;
hewishedtocarryhisfriend’sovercoathimselfasfarasthegateofthenotary,whowastakingLeontoRoueninhiscarriage。
ThelatterhadjusttimetobidfarewelltoMonsieurBovary。
Whenhereachedtheheadofthestairs,hestopped,hewassooutofbreath。Ashecamein,MadameBovaryarosehurriedly。
“ItisIagain!“saidLeon。
“Iwassureofit!“
Shebitherlips,andarushofbloodflowingunderherskinmadeherredfromtherootsofherhairtothetopofhercollar。Sheremainedstanding,leaningwithhershoulderagainstthewainscot。
“Thedoctorisnothere?“hewenton。
“Heisout。“Sherepeated,“Heisout。“
Thentherewassilence。Theylookedatoneanotherandtheirthoughts,confoundedinthesameagony,clungclosetogetherliketwothrobbingbreasts。
“IshouldliketokissBerthe,“saidLeon。
EmmawentdownafewstepsandcalledFelicite。
Hethrewonelonglookaroundhimthattookinthewalls,thedecorations,thefireplace,asiftopenetrateeverything,carryawayeverything。Butshereturned,andtheservantbroughtBerthe,whowasswingingawindmillroofdownwardsattheendofastring。Leonkissedherseveraltimesontheneck。
“Good-bye,poorchild!good-bye,dearlittleone!good-bye!“Andhegaveherbacktohermother。
“Takeheraway,“shesaid。
Theyremainedalone——MadameBovary,herbackturned,herfacepressedagainstawindow-pane;Leonheldhiscapinhishand,knockingitsoftlyagainsthisthigh。
“Itisgoingtorain,“saidEmma。
“Ihaveacloak,“heanswered。
“Ah!“
Sheturnedaround,herchinlowered,herforeheadbentforward。
Thelightfellonitasonapieceofmarble,tothecurveoftheeyebrows,withoutone’sbeingabletoguesswhatEmmawasseeingonthehorizonorwhatshewasthinkingwithinherself。
“Well,good-bye,“hesighed。
Sheraisedherheadwithaquickmovement。
“Yes,good-bye——go!“
Theyadvancedtowardseachother;heheldouthishand;shehesitated。
“IntheEnglishfashion,then,“shesaid,givingherownhandwhollytohim,andforcingalaugh。
Leonfeltitbetweenhisfingers,andtheveryessenceofallhisbeingseemedtopassdownintothatmoistpalm。Thenheopenedhishand;theireyesmetagain,andhedisappeared。
Whenhereachedthemarket-place,hestoppedandhidbehindapillartolookforthelasttimeatthiswhitehousewiththefourgreenblinds。Hethoughthesawashadowbehindthewindowintheroom;butthecurtain,slidingalongthepoleasthoughnooneweretouchingit,slowlyopeneditslongobliquefoldsthatspreadoutwithasinglemovement,andthushungstraightandmotionlessasaplasterwall。Leonsetoffrunning。
>Fromafarhesawhisemployer’sgigintheroad,andbyitamaninacoarseapronholdingthehorse。HomaisandMonsieurGuillauminweretalking。Theywerewaitingforhim。
“Embraceme,“saidthedruggistwithtearsinhiseyes。“Hereisyourcoat,mygoodfriend。Mindthecold;takecareofyourself;
lookafteryourself。“
“Come,Leon,jumpin,“saidthenotary。
Homaisbendoverthesplash-board,andinavoicebrokenbysobsutteredthesethreesadwords——
“Apleasantjourney!“
“Good-night,“saidMonsieurGuillaumin。“Givehimhishead。“Theysetout,andHomaiswentback。
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