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第16章

  Butwhenthearrowstrikeshim,there’sachange。
  Hemovesbutinthetrackofhisspentpain,Whosereddropsarethelinksofaharshchain,Bindinghimtotheground,withnarrowrange。
  AsubtleserpentthenhasLovebecome。
  Ihadtheeagleinmybosomerst:
  HenceforwardwiththeserpentIamcursed。
  Icaninterpretwherethemouthisdumb。
  Speak,andIseetheside-lieofatruth。
  Perchancemyheartmaypardonyouthisdeed:
  Butbenocoward:-youthatmadeLovebleed,Youmustbearallthevenomofhistooth!
  Distractionisthepanacea,Sir!
  IhearmyoracleofMedicinesay。
  Doctor!thatsamespecificyesterdayItried,andtheresultwillnotdeterAsecondtrial。Isthedel’slineOfgoldenhair,orravenblack,composed?
  Anddoesacheek,likeanysea-shellrosed,Orclearaswidowedsky,seemmostdine?
  Nomatter,soItasteforgetfulness。
  Andifthedelsnareme,bodyandmind,HeregratefullyIscore:-heseemedkind,Whennotasoulwouldcomfortmydistress!
  Osweetnewworld,inwhichIrisenewmade!
  OLady,onceIgavelove:nowItake!
  Lady,Imustbeflattered。ShouldstthouwakeThepassionofademon,benotafraid。
  Imustbeflattered。TheimperiousDesirespeaksout。Lady,IamcontentToplaywithyouthegameofSentiment,Andwithyouenteronpathsperilous;
  ButifacrossyourbeautyIthrowlight,Tomakeitthreefold,itmustbeallmine。
  Firstsecret;thenavowed。ForImustshineEned,——I,lessenedinmypropersight!
  Bewatchfulofyourbeauty,Ladydear!
  Howmuchhangsonthatlampyoucannottell。
  MostearnestlyIprayyou,tenditwell:
  Andmenshallseemeasaburningsphere;
  Andmenshallmarkyoueyeingme,andgroanTobetheGodofsuchagrandsunflower!
  IfeelthepromptingsofSatanicpower,Whileyoudohomageuntomealone。
  AmIfailing?FornolongercanIcastAgloryroundaboutthisheadofgold。
  Gloryshewears,butspringingfromthemould;
  NotliketheconsecrationofthePast!
  Ismysoulbeggared?SomethingmorethanearthIcryforstill:IcannotbeatpeaceInhangLoveuponamortallease。
  Icannottakethewomanatherworth!
  WhereistheancientwealthwherewithIclothedOurhumannakedness,andcouldendowWithspiritualsplendourawhitebrowThatelsehadgrinnedatmethefactIloathed?
  Akissisbutakissnow!andnowaveOfagreatfloodthatwhirlsmetothesea。
  But,asyouwill!we’llsitcontentedly,Andeatourpotofhoneyonthegrave。
  Whatarewefirst?First,animals;andnextIntelligencesataleap;onwhomPaleliesthedistantshadowofthetomb,Andallthatdrawethonthetombfortext。
  IntowhichstatecomesLove,thecrowningsun:
  Beneathwhoselighttheshadowlosesform。
  Wearethelordsoflife,andlifeiswarm。
  Intelligenceandinstinctnowareone。
  Butnaturesays:’MychildrenmosttheyseemWhentheyleastknowme:thereforeIdecreeThattheyshallsuffer。’SwiftdothyoungLoveflee,Andwestandwakened,sheringfromourdream。
  ThenifwestudyNaturewearewise。
  Thusdothefewwholebutwiththeday:
  Thescientificanimalsarethey-
  Lady,thisismysonnettoyoureyes。
  Thisgoldenheadhaswitinit。IleAgain,andafarhigherlife,nearher。
  Somewomenlikeayoungphilosopher;
  Perchancebecauseheisdiminute。
  Forwoman’smanlygodmustnotexceedProportionsofthenaturalnursingsize。
  GreatpoetsandgreatsagesdrawnoprizeWithwomen:butthelittlelap-dogbreed,Whocanbehugged,oronamantel-piecePerchedupforadoration,theseobtainHerhomage。Andofthiswemenarevain?
  Ofthis!’Tisorderedfortheworld’sincrease!
  Smallflattery!YetshehasthatraregiftTobeauty,CommonSense。Iamapproved。
  Itisnothalfsoniceasbeingloved,AndyetIdopreferit。What’smydrift?
  FullfaithIhavesheholdsthatrarestgiftTobeauty,CommonSense。ToseeherlieWithherfairsageaninvertedskyBloom-covered,whiletheunderlidsuplift,Wouldalmostwreckthefaith;butwhenhermouthCanitkisssweetly?sweetly!wouldaddressTheinnermethatthirstsforhernoless,Andhassolongbeenlanguishingindrouth,IfeelthatIammatched;thatIamman!
  Onerestlesscornerofmyheartorhead,Thatholdsadyingsomethingneverdead,Stillfrets,thoughNaturegethallshecan。
  Itmeans,thatwomanisnot,Iopine,Hersex’santidote。WhoseekstheaspForserpent’sbites?’TwouldcalmmecouldIclaspShriekingBacchanteswiththeirsoulsofwine!
  ’InParis,attheLouvre,therehaveIseenThesumptuously-featheredangelpierceProneLucifer,descending。Lookedhefierce,Showingthefightafairone?Tooserene!
  TheyoungPharsaliansdidnotdisarrayLesswillinglytheirlocksoffloatingsilk:
  ThatsucklingmouthofhisuponthemilkOfheavenmightstillbefeastingthroughthefray。
  Oh,Raphael!whenmentheFienddofight,Theyconquernotuponsucheasyterms。
  Halfserpentinthestrugglegrowtheseworms。
  Anddoeshegrowhalfhuman,allisright。’
  ThistomyLadyinadistantspot,Uponthetheme:WHILEMINDISMASTERINGCLAY,GROSSCLAYINVADESIT。Ifthespyyouplay,Mywife,readthis!Strangelovetalk,isitnot?
  Madamwouldspeakwithme。So,nowitcomes:
  TheDelugeorelseFire!She’swell;shethanksMyhusbandship。Ourchainonsilenceclanks。
  Timeleersbetween,abovehistwiddlingthumbs。
  AmIquitewell?Mostexcellentinhealth!
  Thejournals,too,Idiligentlyperuse。
  Vesuusisexpectedtogenews:
  Niagaraisnonoisier。BystealthOureyesdartscrutinizingsnakes。She’sgladI’mhappy,saysherqueringunder-lip。
  ’Andarenotyou?’’HowcanIbe?’’Takeship!
  Forhappinessissomewheretobehad。’
  ’Nowhereforme!’Hervoiceisbarelyheard。
  Iamnotmelted,andmakenopretence。
  WithcommonplaceIfreezeher,tongueandsense。
  NiagaraorVesuusisdeferred。
  ItisnovulgarnatureIhavewed。
  Secrete,sensite,shetakesawoundDeeptohersoul,asifthesensehadswooned,Andnotathoughtofvengeancehadsurved。
  Noconfidenceshasshe:butreliefMustcometoonewhosesufferingisacute。
  Ohaveacareofnaturesthataremute!
  Theypunishyouinacts:theirstepsarebrief。
  Whatisshedoing?WhatdoesshedemandFromProdenceorme?SheisnotoneLongtoendurethistorpidly,andshunThedrugsthatcrowdaboutawoman’shand。
  AtForfeitsduringsnowweplayed,andI
  Mustkissher。’Wellperformed!’Isaid:thenshe:
  “Tishardlyworththemoney,youagree?’
  Saveher?Whatfor?Toactthisweddedlie!
  MyLadyuntoMadammakesherbow。
  Thecharmofwomenis,thatevenwhileYou’reprobedbythemfortears,youyetmaysmile,Nay,laughoutright,asIhavedonejustnow。
  Theinterewwasgracious:theyanointTomeasideeachotherwithfinepraise:
  Discriminatingcomplimentstheyraise,Thathitwithwondrousaimontheweakpoint:
  MyLady’snoseofNaturemightcomplain。
  ItisnotfashionedaptlytoexpressHercharacteroflarge-browedsteadfastness。
  ButMadamsays:Thereofshemaybevain!
  Now,Madam’sfaultyfeatureisaglazedAndinaccessibleeye,thathassoftfires,Widegates,atlove-time,only。ThisadmiresMyLady。AtthetwoIstandamazed。
  Alongthegardenterrace,underwhichApurplevalleylightedatitsedgeBysmokytorch-flameonthelongcloud-ledgeWhereunderdroppedthechariotglimmersrich,Aquietcompanywepace,andwaitThedinner-bellinprae-digestecalm。
  SosweetupoletbankstheSouthernbalmBreathesround,wecarenotifthebellbelate:
  ThoughhereandtheregreyseniorsquestionTimeInirritablecoughings。WithslowfootThelowrosedmoon,thefaceofMusicmute,Beginsamonghersilentbarstoclimb。
  Asinandout,insilverydusk,wethread,IhearthelaughofMadam,anddiscernMyLady’sheelbeforemeateachturn。
  Ourtragedy,isitaleordead?
  GetoimaginationsomepurelightInhumanformtofit,oryoushameThedelswiththathideoushumangame:-
  Imaginationurgingappetite!
  Thusfallenhaveearth’sgreatestGogmagogs,Whodazzleus,whomwecannotrevere:
  ImaginationisthecharioteerThat,indefaultofbetter,dresthehogs。
  So,therefore,mydearLady,letmelove!
  Mysoulisarrowytothelightinyou。
  YouknowmethatInevercanrenewThebondthatwomanbroke:whatwouldyouhave?
  ’TisLove,orleness!notachoicebetween,Savepetrifaction!WhatdoesPityhere?
  Shekilledathing,andnowit’sdead,’tisdear。
  Oh,whenyoucounselme,thinkwhatyoumean!
  Sheyields:myLadyinhernoblestmoodHasyielded:she,mygolden-crownedrose!
  Thebrideofeverysense!moresweetthanthoseWhobreathetheoletbreathofmaidenhood。
  Osageofstillmusicinthesky!
  Softmoon!Ifeelthysong,myfairestfriend!
  TrueharmonywithincanapprehendDumbharmonywithout。Andhark!’tisnigh!
  Beliefhasstruckthenoteofsound:agleamOflingsilvershowsmewheresheshookHerlongwhitefingersdowntheshadowybrook,Thatsingshersong,halfwaking,halfindream。
  Whattwocomeheretomarthisheavenlytune?
  Amanisone:thewomanbearsmyname,Andhonour。Theirhandstouch!AmIstilltame?
  God,whatadancingspectreseemsthemoon!
  IbademyLadythinkwhatshemightmean。
  KnowImymeaning,I?CanIloveone,Andyetbejealousofanother?NoneCommitssuchfolly。TerribleLove,Iween,Hasmight,evendead,halfsighingtoupheaveThelightlessseasofselfishnessamain:
  Seasthatinaman’shearthavenorainTofallandstillthem。PeacecanIachieve,Byturningtothisfountain-sourceofwoe,Thiswoman,who’stoLoveasfiretowood?
  ShebreathedtheoletbreathofmaidenhoodAgainstmykissesonce!butIsay,No!
  Thethingismockedat!Helplesslyafloat,IknownotwhatIdo,wheretoIstre。
  ThedreadthatmyoldlovemaybealeHasseizedmynurslingnewlovebythethroat。
  Howmanyathingwhichwecasttotheground,Whenotherspickitupbecomesagem!