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第14章

  Isthatit?’heasked;andthesilencetheelderspreservedplainlysaid,OnMary’sheangbosomthisbegging-petitionwasread。
  AndthatitwasscarcelyabargainthatshewhohaddrenhimwildShouldsharenowthefruitsofhisvalour,thewomenexpressed,astheysmiled。
  ThefamilyprideoftheBridgemanswascomforted;still,withcontempt,Theylookedonamonieddamselofmodestyquitesoexempt。
  ’Ogemeforcetotellthem!’criedMary,andevenasshespoke,Ashoutandahushofthechildren:asiononallofthembroke。
  Wheeled,pale,inachair,andshattered,thewreckoftheirherowasseen;
  TheghostofTomdrawnslowo’ertheorchard’sshadowygreen。
  Couldthisbethemartialdarlingtheyjoyedinamomentago?
  ’Heknowsit?’toMaryTommurmured,andclosedhisweaklidsather’No。’
  ’Beloved!’shesaid,fallingbyhim,’Ihavebeenacoward:I
  thoughtYoulayintheforeigncountry,andsomestrangegoodmightbewrought。
  ’EachdayIhavecometotellhim,andfailed,withmyhandonthegate。
  Iborethedreadfulknowledge,andcrushedmyheartwithitsweight。
  Theletterbroughtbyyourcomrade——hehasbutjustreaditaloud!
  Itonlyreachedhimthismorning!’Herheadonhisshouldershebowed。
  ThenTomwithpity’stenderestlordlinesspattedherarm,Andeyedtheoldwhite-headfondly,withsomethingofdoubtandalarm。
  O,taketoyourfancyasculptorwhosefreshmarbleoffspringappearsBeforehim,shininglyperfect,thelaurel-crown’dissueofyears:
  Isheavenoffended?forlightningbeholdfromitsbosomescape,Andthosearemockingfragmentsthatmadetheharmoniousshape!
  Hecannotlovetheruins,till,feelingthatruinsaloneAreleft,helovesthemthreefold。Sopassedtheoldgrandfather’smoan。
  John’stextforasermononSlaughterheheard,andhedidnotprotest。
  AllrigidasAprilsnowdrifts,hestood,hardandfeeble;hischestJustshowingtheswellofthefireasitmeltedhim。Smitingarib,’Heigh!whathavewebeenabout,Tom!Wasthisallaterriblefib?’
  Hecried,andtheletterforth-trembled。Tomtoldwhatthecannonhaddone。
  Fewpresentbutachedtoseefallingthoseagedtearsonhisheart’sson!
  Uplanesofthequietllage,andwherethemill-watersrushredThro’browningsummermeadowstocatchthesun’scrimsoninghead,YoumeetanoldmanandamaidenwhohasthesoftwaysofawifeWithonewhomtheywheel,alternate;whosedelicateflushofnewlifeIsprizedliketheearlyprimrose。Thenshakehisrighthand,inthechair-
  Theoldmanfailsnevertotellyou:’You’vegottheFrenchGeneral’sthere!’
  Howlowwhenangelsfalltheirblackdescent,Ourprimalthundertells:knownisthepainOfmusic,thatnighthroningwisdomwent,Andonefalsenotecastwailfultotheinsane。
  NowseemsthelanguageheardofLoveasrainTomakeamirewherefruitfulnesswasmeant。
  Thegoldenharpgesoutajangledstrain,Toolikerevoltfromheaven’sOmnipotent。
  Butlisteninthethought;somaytherecomeConceptionofanewly-addedchord,Commandingspacebeyondwhereearhashome。
  Inlabourofthetroubleatitsfount,LeadsLifetoanintelligibleLordTherebeldiscordsupthesacredmount。
  Bythisheknewsheweptwithwakingeyes:
  That,athishand’slightquerbyherhead,ThestrangelowsobsthatshooktheircommonbedWerecalledintoherwithasharpsurprise,Andstrangledmute,likelittlegapingsnakes,Dreadfullyvenomoustohim。ShelayStone-still,andthelongdarknessflowedawayWithmuffledpulses。Then,asmidnightmakesHergiantheartofMemoryandTearsDrinkthepaledrugofsilence,andsobeatSleep’sheavymeasure,theyfromheadtofeetWeremoveless,lookingthroughtheirdeadblackyears,Byvainregretscrawledovertheblankwall。
  LikesculpturedeffigiestheymightbeseenUpontheirmarriage-tomb,theswordbetween;
  Eachwishingfortheswordthatseversall。
  Itended,andthemorrowbroughtthetask。
  Hereyeswereguiltygates,thatlethiminByshuttingalltoozealousfortheirsin:
  Eachsuckedasecret,andeachworeamask。
  But,oh,thebittertasteherbeautyhad!
  Hesickenedasatbreathofpoison-flowers:
  Alanguidhumourstoleamongthehours,Andiftheirsmilesencountered,hewentmad,Andrageddeepinward,tillthelightwasbrownBeforehission,andtheworld,forgot,Lookedwickedassomeolddullmurder-spot。
  Astarwithluridbeams,sheseemedtocrownThepitofinfamy:andthenagainHefaintedonhisvengefulness,andstroveToapethemagnanimityoflove,Andsmotehimself,ashudderingheapofpain。
  Thiswasthewoman;whatnowoftheman?
  Butpasshim。Ifhecomesbeneathaheel,Heshallbecrusheduntilhecannotfeel,Or,beingcallous,haplytillhecan。
  Butheisnothing:-nothing?OnlymarkTherichlightstrikingoutfromheronhim!
  Ha!whatasenseitiswhenhereyesswimAcrossthemanshesingles,leangdarkAllelse!LordGod,whomad’stthethingsofair,SeethatIamdrawntoherevennow!
  ItcannotbesuchharmonhercoolbrowToputakiss?YetifImeethimthere!
  Butsheismine!Ah,no!IknowtoowellIclaimastarwhoselightisovercast:
  Iclaimaphantom-womaninthePast。
  Thehourhasstruck,thoughIheardnotthebell!
  Allotherjoysoflifehestrovetowarm,Andmagnify,andcatchthemtohislip:
  Buttheyhadsufferedshipwreckwiththeship,Andgazeduponhimsallowfromthestorm。
  OrifDelusioncame,’twasbuttoshowThecomingminutemocktheonethatwent。
  Coldasamountaininitsstar-pitchedtent,StoodhighPhilosophy,lessfriendthanfoe:
  Whomself-cagedPassion,fromitsprison-bars,Isalwayswatchingwithawonderinghate。
  Nottillthefireisdyinginthegrate,Lookweforanykinshipwiththestars。
  Oh,wisdomnevercomeswhenitisgold,Andthegreatpricewepayforitfullworth:
  Wehaveitonlywhenwearehalfearth。
  Littleavailsthatcoinagetotheold!
  Amessagefromhersethisbrainaflame。
  Aworldofhouseholdmattersfilledhermind,Whereinhesawhypocrisydesigned:
  Shetreatedhimassomethingthatistame,Andbutatotherprovocationbites。
  Familiarwashershoulderintheglass,Throughthatdarkrain:yetitmaycometopassThatachangedeyefindssuchfamiliarsightsMorekeenlytemptingthannewloveliness。
  The’Whathasbeen’amomentseemedhisown:
  Thesplendours,mysteries,dearerbecauseknown,Norlessdine:Love’sinmostsacrednessCalledtohim,’Come!’——Inhisrestrainingstart,EyesnurturedtobelookedatscarcecouldseeAwaveofthegreatwavesofDestinyConvulsedatacheckedimpulseoftheheart。
  Itchancedhislipsdidmeetherforeheadcool。
  Shehadnoblush,butslanteddownhereye。
  Shamednature,then,confesseslovecandie:
  AndmostshepunishesthetenderfoolWhowillbelievewhathonoursherthemost!
  Dead!isitdead?Shehasapulse,andflowOftears,thepriceofblood-drops,asIknow,ForwhomthemidnightsobsaroundLove’sghost,SincethenIheardher,andsowillsobon。
  Theloveishere;ithasbutchangeditsaim。
  Obitterbarrenwoman!what’sthename?
  Thename,thename,thenewnamethouhastwon?
  Beholdmestrikingtheworld’scowardstroke!
  ThatwillInotdo,thoughthestingisdire-
  Beneaththesurfacethis,whilebythefireTheysat,shelaughingataquietjoke。
  Sheissuesradiantfromherdressing-room,Likeonepreparedtoscaleanuppersphere:-
  Bystirringupalower,muchIfear!
  Howdeftlythatoiledbarberlayshisbloom!
  Thatlong-shankeddapperCupidwithfriskedcurlsCanmakeknownwomentorturinglyfair;
  Thegold-eyedserpentdwellinginrichhairAwakesbeneathhismagicwhisksandtwirls。
  Hisartcantaketheeyesfromoutmyhead,UntilIseewitheyesofothermen;
  Whiledeeperknowledgecrouchesinitsden,Andsendsasparkup:-isittruewearewed?
  Yea!filthinessofbodyismostle,ButfaithlessnessofheartIdoholdworse。
  Theformer,itwerenotsogreatacurseToreadonthesteel-mirrorofhersmile。
  Yetitwasplainshestruggled,andthatsaltOfrighteousfeelingmadeherpitiful。
  Poortwistingworm,soqueenlybeautiful!
  Wherecamethecleftbetweenus?whosethefault?
  Mytearsareonthee,thathaverarelydroppedAsbalmforanybitterwoundofmine:
  Mybreastwillopenfortheeatasign!
  But,no:wearetworeed-pipes,coarselystopped:
  TheGodoncefilledthemwithhismellowbreath;
  Andtheyweremusictillheflungthemdown,Used!used!Hearnowthediscord-longclownPuffhisgrossspiritinthem,worsethandeath!
  Idonotknowmyselfwithouttheemore:
  InthisunholybattleIgrowbase:
  Ifthesamesoulbeunderthesameface,Speak,andatasteofthatoldtimerestore!
  HefeltthewildbeastinhimbetweenwhilesSomasterfullyrude,thathewouldgrieveToseethehelplessdelicatethingreceeHisguardianshipthroughcertaindarkdefiles。
  Hadhenotteethtorend,andhungertoo?
  Butstillhesparedher。Once:’Haveyounofear?’
  Hesaid:’twasdusk;sheinhisgrasp;nonenear。
  Shelaughed:’No,surely;amInotwithyou?’
  Andutteringthatsoftstarry’you,’sheleanedHergentlebodynearhim,lookingup;
  Andfromhereyes,asfromapoison-cup,Hedrankuntiltheflitteringeyelidsscreened。
  Delishmalignantwitch!andoh,youngbeamOfheaven’scircle-glory!HerethyshapeTosqueezelikeanintocatinggrape-
  Imight,andyetthougoestsafe,supreme。
  X
  Butwherebeganthechange;andwhat’smycrime?
  Thewretchcondemned,whohasnotbeenarraigned,Chafesathissentence。ShallI,unsustained,DragonLove’snervelessbodythro’alltime?
  Imusthaveslept,sincenowIwake。Prepare,Youlovers,toknowLoveathingofmoods:
  Not,likehardlife,oflaws。InLove’sdeepwoods,IdreamtofloyalLife:-theoffenceisthere!
  Love’sjealouswoodsaboutthesunarecurled;
  Atleast,thesunfarbrightertheredidbeam-
  Mycrimeis,thatthepuppetofadream,Iplottedtobeworthyoftheworld。
  Oh,hadIwithmydarlinghelpedtominceThefactsoflife,youstillhadseenmegoWithhindwardfeatherandwithforwardtoe,Hermuch-adoreddelightfulFairyPrince!
  Outintheyellowmeadows,wherethebeeHumsbyuswiththehoneyoftheSpring,AndshowersofsweetnotesfromthelarksonwingAredroppinglikeanoon-dew,wanderwe。
  Orisitnow?orwasitthen?fornow,Asthen,thelarksfromrunningringspourshowers:
  ThegoldenfootofMayisontheflowers,Andfriendlyshadowsdanceuponherbrow。
  What’sthis,whenNatureswearsthereisnochangeTochallengeeyesight?Now,asthen,thegraceOfheavenseemsholdingearthinitsembrace。
  Noreyes,norheart,hasshetofeelitstrange?
  Look,woman,intheWest。TherewiltthouseeAnambercradlenearthesun’sdecline: