Isthatit?’heasked;andthesilencetheelderspreservedplainlysaid,OnMary’sheangbosomthisbegging-petitionwasread。
AndthatitwasscarcelyabargainthatshewhohaddrenhimwildShouldsharenowthefruitsofhisvalour,thewomenexpressed,astheysmiled。
ThefamilyprideoftheBridgemanswascomforted;still,withcontempt,Theylookedonamonieddamselofmodestyquitesoexempt。
’Ogemeforcetotellthem!’criedMary,andevenasshespoke,Ashoutandahushofthechildren:asiononallofthembroke。
Wheeled,pale,inachair,andshattered,thewreckoftheirherowasseen;
TheghostofTomdrawnslowo’ertheorchard’sshadowygreen。
Couldthisbethemartialdarlingtheyjoyedinamomentago?
’Heknowsit?’toMaryTommurmured,andclosedhisweaklidsather’No。’
’Beloved!’shesaid,fallingbyhim,’Ihavebeenacoward:I
thoughtYoulayintheforeigncountry,andsomestrangegoodmightbewrought。
’EachdayIhavecometotellhim,andfailed,withmyhandonthegate。
Iborethedreadfulknowledge,andcrushedmyheartwithitsweight。
Theletterbroughtbyyourcomrade——hehasbutjustreaditaloud!
Itonlyreachedhimthismorning!’Herheadonhisshouldershebowed。
ThenTomwithpity’stenderestlordlinesspattedherarm,Andeyedtheoldwhite-headfondly,withsomethingofdoubtandalarm。
O,taketoyourfancyasculptorwhosefreshmarbleoffspringappearsBeforehim,shininglyperfect,thelaurel-crown’dissueofyears:
Isheavenoffended?forlightningbeholdfromitsbosomescape,Andthosearemockingfragmentsthatmadetheharmoniousshape!
Hecannotlovetheruins,till,feelingthatruinsaloneAreleft,helovesthemthreefold。Sopassedtheoldgrandfather’smoan。
John’stextforasermononSlaughterheheard,andhedidnotprotest。
AllrigidasAprilsnowdrifts,hestood,hardandfeeble;hischestJustshowingtheswellofthefireasitmeltedhim。Smitingarib,’Heigh!whathavewebeenabout,Tom!Wasthisallaterriblefib?’
Hecried,andtheletterforth-trembled。Tomtoldwhatthecannonhaddone。
Fewpresentbutachedtoseefallingthoseagedtearsonhisheart’sson!
Uplanesofthequietllage,andwherethemill-watersrushredThro’browningsummermeadowstocatchthesun’scrimsoninghead,YoumeetanoldmanandamaidenwhohasthesoftwaysofawifeWithonewhomtheywheel,alternate;whosedelicateflushofnewlifeIsprizedliketheearlyprimrose。Thenshakehisrighthand,inthechair-
Theoldmanfailsnevertotellyou:’You’vegottheFrenchGeneral’sthere!’
Howlowwhenangelsfalltheirblackdescent,Ourprimalthundertells:knownisthepainOfmusic,thatnighthroningwisdomwent,Andonefalsenotecastwailfultotheinsane。
NowseemsthelanguageheardofLoveasrainTomakeamirewherefruitfulnesswasmeant。
Thegoldenharpgesoutajangledstrain,Toolikerevoltfromheaven’sOmnipotent。
Butlisteninthethought;somaytherecomeConceptionofanewly-addedchord,Commandingspacebeyondwhereearhashome。
Inlabourofthetroubleatitsfount,LeadsLifetoanintelligibleLordTherebeldiscordsupthesacredmount。
Bythisheknewsheweptwithwakingeyes:
That,athishand’slightquerbyherhead,ThestrangelowsobsthatshooktheircommonbedWerecalledintoherwithasharpsurprise,Andstrangledmute,likelittlegapingsnakes,Dreadfullyvenomoustohim。ShelayStone-still,andthelongdarknessflowedawayWithmuffledpulses。Then,asmidnightmakesHergiantheartofMemoryandTearsDrinkthepaledrugofsilence,andsobeatSleep’sheavymeasure,theyfromheadtofeetWeremoveless,lookingthroughtheirdeadblackyears,Byvainregretscrawledovertheblankwall。
LikesculpturedeffigiestheymightbeseenUpontheirmarriage-tomb,theswordbetween;
Eachwishingfortheswordthatseversall。
Itended,andthemorrowbroughtthetask。
Hereyeswereguiltygates,thatlethiminByshuttingalltoozealousfortheirsin:
Eachsuckedasecret,andeachworeamask。
But,oh,thebittertasteherbeautyhad!
Hesickenedasatbreathofpoison-flowers:
Alanguidhumourstoleamongthehours,Andiftheirsmilesencountered,hewentmad,Andrageddeepinward,tillthelightwasbrownBeforehission,andtheworld,forgot,Lookedwickedassomeolddullmurder-spot。
Astarwithluridbeams,sheseemedtocrownThepitofinfamy:andthenagainHefaintedonhisvengefulness,andstroveToapethemagnanimityoflove,Andsmotehimself,ashudderingheapofpain。
Thiswasthewoman;whatnowoftheman?
Butpasshim。Ifhecomesbeneathaheel,Heshallbecrusheduntilhecannotfeel,Or,beingcallous,haplytillhecan。
Butheisnothing:-nothing?OnlymarkTherichlightstrikingoutfromheronhim!
Ha!whatasenseitiswhenhereyesswimAcrossthemanshesingles,leangdarkAllelse!LordGod,whomad’stthethingsofair,SeethatIamdrawntoherevennow!
ItcannotbesuchharmonhercoolbrowToputakiss?YetifImeethimthere!
Butsheismine!Ah,no!IknowtoowellIclaimastarwhoselightisovercast:
Iclaimaphantom-womaninthePast。
Thehourhasstruck,thoughIheardnotthebell!
Allotherjoysoflifehestrovetowarm,Andmagnify,andcatchthemtohislip:
Buttheyhadsufferedshipwreckwiththeship,Andgazeduponhimsallowfromthestorm。
OrifDelusioncame,’twasbuttoshowThecomingminutemocktheonethatwent。
Coldasamountaininitsstar-pitchedtent,StoodhighPhilosophy,lessfriendthanfoe:
Whomself-cagedPassion,fromitsprison-bars,Isalwayswatchingwithawonderinghate。
Nottillthefireisdyinginthegrate,Lookweforanykinshipwiththestars。
Oh,wisdomnevercomeswhenitisgold,Andthegreatpricewepayforitfullworth:
Wehaveitonlywhenwearehalfearth。
Littleavailsthatcoinagetotheold!
Amessagefromhersethisbrainaflame。
Aworldofhouseholdmattersfilledhermind,Whereinhesawhypocrisydesigned:
Shetreatedhimassomethingthatistame,Andbutatotherprovocationbites。
Familiarwashershoulderintheglass,Throughthatdarkrain:yetitmaycometopassThatachangedeyefindssuchfamiliarsightsMorekeenlytemptingthannewloveliness。
The’Whathasbeen’amomentseemedhisown:
Thesplendours,mysteries,dearerbecauseknown,Norlessdine:Love’sinmostsacrednessCalledtohim,’Come!’——Inhisrestrainingstart,EyesnurturedtobelookedatscarcecouldseeAwaveofthegreatwavesofDestinyConvulsedatacheckedimpulseoftheheart。
Itchancedhislipsdidmeetherforeheadcool。
Shehadnoblush,butslanteddownhereye。
Shamednature,then,confesseslovecandie:
AndmostshepunishesthetenderfoolWhowillbelievewhathonoursherthemost!
Dead!isitdead?Shehasapulse,andflowOftears,thepriceofblood-drops,asIknow,ForwhomthemidnightsobsaroundLove’sghost,SincethenIheardher,andsowillsobon。
Theloveishere;ithasbutchangeditsaim。
Obitterbarrenwoman!what’sthename?
Thename,thename,thenewnamethouhastwon?
Beholdmestrikingtheworld’scowardstroke!
ThatwillInotdo,thoughthestingisdire-
Beneaththesurfacethis,whilebythefireTheysat,shelaughingataquietjoke。
Sheissuesradiantfromherdressing-room,Likeonepreparedtoscaleanuppersphere:-
Bystirringupalower,muchIfear!
Howdeftlythatoiledbarberlayshisbloom!
Thatlong-shankeddapperCupidwithfriskedcurlsCanmakeknownwomentorturinglyfair;
Thegold-eyedserpentdwellinginrichhairAwakesbeneathhismagicwhisksandtwirls。
Hisartcantaketheeyesfromoutmyhead,UntilIseewitheyesofothermen;
Whiledeeperknowledgecrouchesinitsden,Andsendsasparkup:-isittruewearewed?
Yea!filthinessofbodyismostle,ButfaithlessnessofheartIdoholdworse。
Theformer,itwerenotsogreatacurseToreadonthesteel-mirrorofhersmile。
Yetitwasplainshestruggled,andthatsaltOfrighteousfeelingmadeherpitiful。
Poortwistingworm,soqueenlybeautiful!
Wherecamethecleftbetweenus?whosethefault?
Mytearsareonthee,thathaverarelydroppedAsbalmforanybitterwoundofmine:
Mybreastwillopenfortheeatasign!
But,no:wearetworeed-pipes,coarselystopped:
TheGodoncefilledthemwithhismellowbreath;
Andtheyweremusictillheflungthemdown,Used!used!Hearnowthediscord-longclownPuffhisgrossspiritinthem,worsethandeath!
Idonotknowmyselfwithouttheemore:
InthisunholybattleIgrowbase:
Ifthesamesoulbeunderthesameface,Speak,andatasteofthatoldtimerestore!
HefeltthewildbeastinhimbetweenwhilesSomasterfullyrude,thathewouldgrieveToseethehelplessdelicatethingreceeHisguardianshipthroughcertaindarkdefiles。
Hadhenotteethtorend,andhungertoo?
Butstillhesparedher。Once:’Haveyounofear?’
Hesaid:’twasdusk;sheinhisgrasp;nonenear。
Shelaughed:’No,surely;amInotwithyou?’
Andutteringthatsoftstarry’you,’sheleanedHergentlebodynearhim,lookingup;
Andfromhereyes,asfromapoison-cup,Hedrankuntiltheflitteringeyelidsscreened。
Delishmalignantwitch!andoh,youngbeamOfheaven’scircle-glory!HerethyshapeTosqueezelikeanintocatinggrape-
Imight,andyetthougoestsafe,supreme。
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Butwherebeganthechange;andwhat’smycrime?
Thewretchcondemned,whohasnotbeenarraigned,Chafesathissentence。ShallI,unsustained,DragonLove’snervelessbodythro’alltime?
Imusthaveslept,sincenowIwake。Prepare,Youlovers,toknowLoveathingofmoods:
Not,likehardlife,oflaws。InLove’sdeepwoods,IdreamtofloyalLife:-theoffenceisthere!
Love’sjealouswoodsaboutthesunarecurled;
Atleast,thesunfarbrightertheredidbeam-
Mycrimeis,thatthepuppetofadream,Iplottedtobeworthyoftheworld。
Oh,hadIwithmydarlinghelpedtominceThefactsoflife,youstillhadseenmegoWithhindwardfeatherandwithforwardtoe,Hermuch-adoreddelightfulFairyPrince!
Outintheyellowmeadows,wherethebeeHumsbyuswiththehoneyoftheSpring,AndshowersofsweetnotesfromthelarksonwingAredroppinglikeanoon-dew,wanderwe。
Orisitnow?orwasitthen?fornow,Asthen,thelarksfromrunningringspourshowers:
ThegoldenfootofMayisontheflowers,Andfriendlyshadowsdanceuponherbrow。
What’sthis,whenNatureswearsthereisnochangeTochallengeeyesight?Now,asthen,thegraceOfheavenseemsholdingearthinitsembrace。
Noreyes,norheart,hasshetofeelitstrange?
Look,woman,intheWest。TherewiltthouseeAnambercradlenearthesun’sdecline:
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