’Iwouldoftenbeacowardbutfortheshameofit.’
AndsotheLeaguewaitedforthemantocome,whowastobeResidentManagerandmakethenewenterpriseasuccess.Andcomehedid;butthemannerofhiscomingwassoextraordinary,thatI
havebelievedinthedoctrineofaspecialprovidenceeversince;
forasCraigsaid,’IfhehadcomestraightfromHeavenIcouldnothavebeenmoresurprised.’
WhiletheLeaguewasthuswaiting,itsinterestcentreduponSlavin,chieflybecauseherepresentedmorethananyothertheforcesoftheenemy;andthoughBillyBreenstoodbetweenhimandthevengeanceoftheangrymenwhowouldhavemadeshortworkofhimandhissaloon,nothingcouldsavehimfromhimself,andafterthefuneralSlavinwenttohisbaranddrankwhiskyashehadneverdrunkbefore.Butthemorehedrankthefiercerandgloomierhebecame,andwhenthemendrinkingwithhimchaffedhim,hesworedeeplyandwithsuchthreatsthattheylefthimalone.
ItdidnothelpSlavineithertohaveNixonstrideinthroughthecrowddrinkingathisbarandgivehimwordsofwarning.
’Itisnotyourfault,Slavin,’hesaidinslow,coolvoice,’thatyouandyourpreciouscrewdidn’tsentmetomydeath,too.You’vewonyourbet,butIwanttosay,thatnexttime,thoughyouareseventoone,ortentimesthat,whenanyofyouboysoffermeadrinkI’lltakeyoutomeanfight,andI’llnotdisappointyou,andsomeonewillbekilled,’andsosayinghestrodeoutagain,leavingamean—lookingcrowdofmenbehindhim.AllwhohadnotbeenconcernedinthebusinessatNixon’sshackexpressedapprovalofhisposition,andhopedhewould’seeitthrough.’
ButtheimpressionofNixon’swordsuponSlavinwasasnothingcomparedwiththatmadebyGeordieCrawford.Itwasnotwhathesaidsomuchasthemannerofawfulsolemnityhecarried.Geordiewasstrugglingconscientiouslytokeephispromiseto’notbe’ardontheboys,’andfoundconsiderablereliefinrememberingthathehadagreed’toleavethemtaetheAlmichty.’Butthemannerofleavingthemwassosolemnlyawful,thatIcouldnotwonderthatSlavin’ssuperstitiousIrishnaturesuppliedhimwithsupernaturalterrors.ItwastheseconddayafterthefuneralthatGeordieandIwerewalkingtowardsSlavin’s.Therewasagreatshoutoflaughteraswedrewnear.
Geordiestoppedshort,andsaying,’We’lljuistganginameenute,’
passedthroughthecrowdanduptothebar.
’MichaelSlavin,’beganGeordie,andthemenstaredindead,silence,withtheirglassesintheirhands.’MichaelSlavin,a’
promisedthelada’dbearyenaeillwull,butjuistleaveyetaetheAlmichty;an’Iwanttaetellyethata’mkeepin’mawur—r—d.
But’——andhereheraisedhishand,andhisvoicebecamepreternaturallysolemn——’hisbluidisuponyerhan’s.Doyeno’
seeit?’
Hisvoicerosesharply,andashepointed,Slavininstinctivelyglancedathishands,andGeordieadded——
’Ay,andtheLordwillrequireito’youandyerhoose.’
TheytoldmethatSlavinshiveredasiftakenwithagueafterGeordiewentout,andthoughhelaughedandswore,hedidnotstopdrinkingtillhesankintoadrunkenstuporandhadtobecarriedtobed.HislittleFrench—Canadianwifecouldnotunderstandthechangethathadcomeoverherhusband.
’He’slikeonebear,’sheconfidedtoMrs.Mavor,towhomshewasshowingherbabyofayearold.’He’snotkeesmeonetamdisday.
He’smoshawfulbad,he’snotevenlookatdebaby.’Andthisseemedsufficientproofthatsomethingwasseriouslywrong;forshewentontosay——
’He’stinkmorefordatleelbabydanfordewholeworl’;he’stinkmorefordatbabydanforme,’butsheshruggedherprettylittleshouldersindeprecationofherspeech.
’Youmustprayforhim,’saidMrs.Mavor,’andallwillcomeright.’
’Ah!madame!’sherepliedearnestly,’everyday,everyday,IpraylasainteViergeettouslessaintsforhim.’
’YoumustpraytoyourFatherinheavenforhim.’
’Ah!oui!Iweelpray,’andMrs.Mavorsentherawaybrightwithsmiles,andwithnewhopeandcourageinherheart.
Shehadverysoonneedofallhercourage,forattheweek’sendherbabyfelldangerouslyill.Slavin’sanxietyandfearwerenotrelievedmuchbythereportsthemenbroughthimfromtimetotimeofGeordie’sominousforebodings;forGeordiehadnodoubtbutthattheAvengerofBloodwashotuponSlavin’strail;andasthesicknessgrew,hebecameconfirmedinthisconviction.WhilehecouldnotbesaidtofindsatisfactioninSlavin’simpendingaffliction,hecouldhardlyhidehiscomplacencyinthepromptnessofProvidenceinvindicatinghistheoryofretribution.
ButGeordie’scomplacencywassomewhatrudelyshockedbyMr.
Craig’sanswertohistheoryoneday.
’YoureadyourBibletolittleprofit,itseemstome,Geordie:or,perhaps,youhaveneverreadtheMaster’steachingabouttheTowerofSiloam.Betterreadthatandtakethatwarningtoyourself.’
GeordiegazedafterMr.Craigasheturnedaway,andmuttered——
’Thetooro’Siloam,isit?Ay,a’kenfineabootthetooro’
Siloam,andabootthetooro’Babelasweel;an’a’veread,too,abouttheblaspheemiousHerod,an’siclike.Man,buthe’sahot—
heidedladdie,andlacksdiscreemeenation.’
’WhataboutHerod,Geordie?’Iasked.
’AbootHerod?’——withastrongtingeofcontemptinhistone.
’AbootHerod?Man,haeyeno’readintheScreeptursabootHerodan’thewur—r—msinthewameo’him?’
’Ohyes,Isee,’Ihastenedtoanswer.
’Ay,afulecanseewhat’sflappedinhisface,’withwhichbitofproverbialphilosophyhesuddenlyleftme.ButGeordiethenceforthcontentedhimself,inMr.Craig’spresenceatleast,withominoushead—shakings,equallyaggravating,andimpossibletoanswer.
Thatsamenight,however,Geordieshowedthatwithallhistheorieshehadaman’strueheart,forhecameinhastetoMrs.Mavortosay:
’Ye’llbeneededoweryonder,a’mthinkin’.’
’Why?Isthebabyworse?Haveyoubeenin?’
’Na,na,’repliedGeordiecautiously,’a’llnogangwherea’mnowanted.Butyonpuirthing,yecanhearootsideweepin’andmoanin’.’
’She’llmaybeneedyetae,’hewentondubiouslytome.’Ye’reakindo’doctor,a’hear,’notcommittinghimselftoanyopinionastomyprofessionalvalue.ButSlavinwouldhavenoneofme,havinggotthedoctorsoberenoughtoprescribe.
TheinterestofthecampinSlavinwasgreatlyincreasedbytheillnessofhisbaby,whichwastohimastheappleofhiseye.
Therewereafewwho,impressedbyGeordie’sprofoundconvictionsuponthematter,wereinclinedtofavourtheretributiontheory,andconnectthebaby’sillnesswiththevengeanceoftheAlmighty.
AmongthesefewwasSlavinhimself,andgoadedbyhisremorsefulterrorshesoughtreliefindrink.Butthisbroughthimonlydeeperandfiercergloom;sothatbetweenhersufferingchildandhersavagelydespairinghusband,thepoormotherwasdesperatewithterrorandgrief.
’Ah!madame,’shesobbedtoMrs.Mavor,’myheartisbrokeforhim.
He’sheetnotingfortreedays,butjisdreenk,dreenk,dreenk.’
Thenextdayamancameformeinhaste.Thebabywasdyingandthedoctorwasdrunk.IfoundthelittleoneinaconvulsionlyingacrossMrs.Mavor’sknees,themotherkneelingbesideit,wringingherhandsinadumbagony,andSlavinstandingnear,silentandsuffering.IglancedatthebottleofmedicineuponthetableandaskedMrs.Mavorthedose,andfoundthebabyhadbeenpoisoned.
MylookofhorrortoldSlavinsomethingwaswrong,andstridingtomehecaughtmyarmandasked——
’Whatisit?Isthemedicinewrong?’
Itriedtoputhimoff,buthisgriptightenedtillhisfingersseemedtoreachthebone.
’Thedoseiscertainlytoolarge;butletmego,Imustdosomething.’
Heletmegoatonce,sayinginavoicethatmademyheartsoreforhim,’Hehaskilledmybaby;hehaskilledmybaby.’Andthenhecursedthedoctorwithawfulcurses,andwithalookofsuchmurderousfuryonhisfacethatIwasgladthedoctorwastoodrunktoappear.
Hiswifehearinghiscurses,andunderstandingthecause,brokeoutintowailinghardtobear.
’Ah!monpetitange!Itisdatwheeskeydat’skeelmonbaby.Ah!
moncheri,monamour.Ah!monDieu!Ah,Michael,howoftenIsaythatwheeskeyhe’snotgoodting.’
ItwasmorethanSlavincouldbear,andwithawfulcurseshepassedout.Mrs.Mavorlaidthebabyinitscrib,fortheconvulsionhadpassedaway;andputtingherarmsaboutthewailinglittleFrenchwoman,comfortedandsoothedherasamothermightherchild.
’Andyoumusthelpyourhusband,’Iheardhersay.’Hewillneedyoumorethanever.Thinkofhim.’
’Ahoui!Iweel,’wasthequickreply,andfromthatmomenttherewasnomorewailing.
ItseemednomorethanaminutetillSlavincameinagain,sober,quiet,andsteady;thepassionwasallgonefromhisface,andonlythegriefremained.
Aswestoodleaningoverthesleepingchildthelittlethingopeneditseyes,sawitsfather,andsmiled.Itwastoomuchforhim.
Thebigmandroppedonhiskneeswithadrysob.
’Istherenochanceatall,atall?’hewhispered,butIcouldgivehimnohope.Heimmediatelyrose,andpullinghimselftogether,stoodperfectlyquiet.
Anewterrorseizeduponthemother.
’Mybabyisnot——whatyoucallit?’goingthroughtheformofbaptism.’An’hewillnotcometolasainteVierge,’shesaid,crossingherself.
’Donotfearforyourlittleone,’saidMrs.Mavor,stillwithherarmsabouther.’ThegoodSaviourwilltakeyourdarlingintoHisownarms.’
Butthemotherwouldnotbecomfortedbythis.AndSlavintoo,wasuneasy.
’WhereisFatherGoulet?’heasked.
’Ah!youwerenotgoodtotheholyperedelastam,Michael,’sherepliedsadly.’Thesaintsarenotpleaseforyou.’
’Whereisthepriest?’hedemanded.
’Iknownotforsure.AtdeLandin’,dat’slak.’
’I’llgoforhim,’hesaid.Buthiswifeclungtohim,beseechinghimnottoleaveher,andindeedhewaslothtoleavehislittleone.
IfoundCraigandtoldhimthedifficulty.Withhisusualpromptness,hewasreadywithasolution.
’Nixonhasateam.Hewillgo.’Thenheadded,’Iwonderiftheywouldnotlikemetobaptizetheirlittleone.FatherGouletandI
haveexchangedofficesbeforenow.Irememberhowhecametooneofmypeopleinmyabsence,whenshewasdying,readwithher,prayedwithher,comfortedher,andhelpedheracrosstheriver.
Heisagoodsoul,andhasnononsenseabouthim.Sendformeifyouthinkthereisneed.Itwillmakenodifferencetothebaby,butitwillcomfortthemother.’
Nixonwaswillingenoughtogo;butwhenhecametothedoorMrs.
Mavorsawthehardlookinhisface.Hehadnotforgottenhiswrong,fordaybydayhewasstillfightingthedevilwithinthatSlavinhadcalledtolife.ButMrs.Mavor,undercoverofgettinghiminstructions,drewhimintotheroom.Whilelisteningtoher,hiseyeswanderedfromonetotheotherofthegrouptilltheyresteduponthelittlewhitefaceinthecrib.Shenoticedthechangeinhisface.
’TheyfearthelittleonewillneverseetheSaviourifitisnotbaptized,’shesaid,inalowtone.
Hewaseagertogo.
’I’lldomybesttogetthepriest,’hesaid,andwasgoneonhissixtymiles’racewithdeath.
Thelongafternoonworeon,butbeforeitwashalfgoneIsawNixoncouldnotwin,andthatthepriestwouldbetoolate,soIsentforMr.Craig.Fromthemomentheenteredtheroomhetookcommandofusall.Hewassosimple,somanly,sotender,theheartsoftheparentsinstinctivelyturnedtohim.
Ashewasabouttoproceedwiththebaptism,themotherwhisperedtoMrs.Mavor,whohesitatinglyaskedMr.Craigifhewouldobjecttousingholywater.
’Tomeitisthesameasanyother,’herepliedgravely.
’An’willhemakethegoodsign?’askedthemothertimidly.
AndsothechildwasbaptizedbythePresbyterianministerwithholywaterandwiththesignofthecross.Idon’tsupposeitwasorthodox,anditrenderedchaoticsomeofmyreligiousnotions,butIthoughtmoreofCraigthatmomentthaneverbefore.Hewasmoremanthanminister,orperhapshewassogoodaministerthatdaybecausesomuchaman.AshereadabouttheSaviourandthechildrenandthediscipleswhotriedtogetinbetweenthem,andashetoldusthestoryinhisownsimpleandbeautifulway,andthenwentontopicturethehomeofthelittlechildren,andthesameSaviourinthemidstofthem,Ifeltmyheartgrowwarm,andI
couldeasilyunderstandthecryofthemother——
’Oh,monJesu,prenezmoiaussi,takemewizmonmignon.’
ThecrywakenedSlavin’sheart,andhesaidhuskily——
’Oh!Annette!Annette!’
’Ah,oui!an’Michaeltoo!’ThentoMr.Craig——
’YoutinkHe’stakmesomeday?Eh?’
’AllwholoveHim,’hereplied.
’An’Michaeltoo?’sheasked,hereyessearchinghisface,’An’
Michaeltoo?’
ButCraigonlyreplied:’AllwholoveHim.’
’Ah,Michael,youmustpraylebonJesu.He’sgardenotremignon.’
Andthenshebentoverthebabe,whispering——
’Ah,moncheri,monamour,adieu!adieu!monange!’tillSlavinputhisarmsaboutherandtookheraway,forasshewaswhisperingherfarewells,herbaby,withalittleansweringsigh,passedintotheHousewithmanyrooms.
’Whisht,Annettedarlin’;don’tcryforthebaby,’saidherhusband.’Shureit’sbetteroffthantherestavus,itis.An’
didn’tyehearwhattheministersaidaboutthebeautifulplaceitis?An’shurehewouldn’tlietousatall.’Butamothercannotbecomfortedforherfirst—bornson.
AnhourlaterNixonbroughtFatherGoulet.HewasalittleFrenchmanwithgentlemannersandthefaceofasaint.Craigwelcomedhimwarmly,andtoldhimwhathehaddone.
’Thatisgood,mybrother,’hesaid,withgentlecourtesy,and,turningtothemother,’Yourlittleoneissafe.’
BehindFatherGouletcameNixonsoftly,andgazeddownuponthelittlequietface,beautifulwiththemagicofdeath.Slavincamequietlyandstoodbesidehim.Nixonturnedandofferedhishand.
ButSlavinsaid,movingslowlyback——
’Ididyeawrong,Nixon,an’it’sasorrymanIamthisdayforit.’
’Don’tsayaword,Slavin,’answeredNixon,hurriedly.’Iknowhowyoufeel.I’vegotababytoo.Iwanttoseeitagain.That’swhythebreakhurtmeso.’
’AsGod’sabove,’repliedSlavinearnestly,’I’llhinderyenomore.’Theyshookhands,andwepassedout.
Welaidthebabyunderthepines,notfarfromBillyBreen,andthesweetspringwindblewthroughtheGap,andcamesoftlydownthevalley,whisperingtothepinesandthegrassandthehidingflowersoftheNewLifecomingtotheworld.Andthemothermusthaveheardthewhisperinherheart,for,asthePriestwassayingthewordsoftheService,shestoodwithMrs.Mavor’sarmsabouther,andhereyeswerelookingfarawaybeyondthepurplemountain—
tops,seeingwhatmadehersmile.AndSlavin,too,lookeddifferent.Hisveryfeaturesseemedfiner.Thecoarsenesswasgoneoutofhisface.WhathadcometohimIcouldnottell.
ButwhenthedoctorcameintoSlavin’shousethatnightitwastheoldSlavinIsaw,butwithalookofsuchdeadlyfuryonhisfacethatItriedtogetthedoctoroutatonce.Buthewashalfdrunkandafterhismannerwashideouslyhumorous.
’Howdo,ladies!Howdo,gentlemen!’washisloud—voicedsalutation.
’Quiteaprofessionalgathering,clergypredominating.LionandLambtoo,ha!ha!whichisthelamb,eh?ha!ha!verygood!awfullysorrytohearofyourloss,Mrs.Slavin;didourbestyouknow,can’thelpthissortofthing.’
Beforeanyonecouldmove,Craigwasathisside,andsayinginaclear,firmvoice,’Onemoment,doctor,’caughthimbythearmandhadhimoutoftheroombeforeheknewit.Slavin,whohadbeencrouchinginhischairwithhandstwitchingandeyesglaring,roseandfollowed,stillcrouchingashewalked.Ihurriedafterhim,callinghimback.Turningatmyvoice,thedoctorsawSlavinapproaching.Therewassomethingsoterrifyinginhisswiftnoiselesscrouchingmotion,thatthedoctor,cryingoutinfear’Keephimoff,’fairlyturnedandfled.Hewastoolate.LikeatigerSlavinleapeduponhimandwithoutwaitingtostrikehadhimbythethroatwithbothhands,andbearinghimtotheground,worriedhimthereasadogmightacat.
ImmediatelyCraigandIwereuponhim,butthoughweliftedhimclearoffthegroundwecouldnotloosenthattwo—handedstranglinggrip.Atwewerestrugglingtherealighthandtouchedmyshoulder.ItwasFatherGoulet.
’Pleaselethimgo,andstandawayfromus,’hesaid,wavingusback.Weobeyed.HeleanedoverSlavinandspokeafewwordstohim.Slavinstartedasifstruckaheavyblow,lookedupatthepriestwithfearinhisface,butstillkeepinghisgrip.
’Lethimgo,’saidthepriest.Slavinhesitated.’Lethimgo!
quick!’saidthepriestagain,andSlavinwithasnarlletgohisholdandstoodsullenlyfacingthepriest.
FatherGouletregardedhimsteadilyforsomesecondsandthenasked——
’Whatwouldyoudo?’Hisvoicewasgentleenough,evensweet,buttherewassomethinginitthatchilledmymarrow.’Whatwouldyoudo?’herepeated.
’Hemurderedmychild,’growledSlavin.
’Ah!how?’
’Hewasdrunkandpoisonedhim.’
’Ah!whogavehimdrink?Whomadehimadrunkardtwoyearsago?
Whohaswreckedhislife?’
Therewasnoanswer,andtheeven—tonedvoicewentrelentlesslyon——
’Whoisthemurdererofyourchildnow?’
Slavingroanedandshuddered.
’Go!’andthevoicegrewstern.’Repentofyoursinandaddnotanother.’
Slavinturnedhiseyesuponthemotionlessfigureonthegroundandthenuponthepriest.FatherGoulettookonesteptowardshim,and,stretchingouthishandandpointingwithhisfinger,said——
’Go!’
AndSlavinslowlybackedawayandwentintohishouse.Itwasanextraordinaryscene,anditisoftenwithmenow:thedarkfigureontheground,theslighterectformofthepriestwithoutstretchedarmandfinger,andSlavinbackingaway,fearandfurystrugglinginhisface.
Itwasanearthingforthedoctor,however,andtwominutesmoreofthatgripwouldhavedoneforhim.Asitwas,wehadthegreatestdifficultyinrevivinghim.
WhatthepriestdidwithSlavinaftergettinghiminsideIknownot;thathasalwaysbeenamysterytome.ButwhenwewerepassingthesaloonthatnightaftertakingMrs.Mavorhome,wesawalightandheardstrangesoundswithin.Entering,wefoundanotherwhiskyraidinprogress,Slavinhimselfbeingtheraider.
Westoodsomemomentswatchinghimknockingintheheadsofcasksandemptyingbottles.Ithoughthehadgonemad,andapproachedhimcautiously.
’Hello,Slavin!’Icalledout;’whatdoesthismean?’
Hepausedinhisstrangework,andIsawthathisface,thoughresolute,wasquietenough.
’ItmeansI’mdonewidthebusiness,Iam,’hesaid,inadeterminedvoice.’I’llhelpnomoretokillanyman,or,’inalowertone,’anyman’sbaby.’Thepriest’swordshadstruckhome.
’ThankGod,Slavin!’saidCraig,offeringhishand;’youaremuchtoogoodamanforthebusiness.’
’Goodorbad,I’mdonewidit,’hereplied,goingonwithhiswork.
’Youarethrowingawaygoodmoney,Slavin,’Isaid,astheheadofacaskcrashedin.
’It’smeselfthatknowsit,forthepriceofwhiskyhasrizintownthisweek,’heanswered,givingmealookoutofthecornerofhiseye.’Bedad!itwasararecleverjob,’referringtoourBlackRockHotelaffair.
’Butwon’tyoubesorryforthis?’askedCraig.
’BeloikeIwill;an’that’swhyI’mdoin’itbeforeI’msorryforit,’hereplied,withadelightfulbull.
’Lookhere,Slavin,’saidCraigearnestly;’ifIcanbeofusetoyouinanyway,countonme.’
’It’sgoodtomethebothofyezhavebeen,an’I’llnotforgetittoyez,’hereplied,withlikeearnestness.
AswetoldMrs.Mavorthatnight,forCraigthoughtittoogoodtokeep,hereyesseemedtogrowdeeperandthelightinthemtoglowmoreintenseasshelistenedtoCraigpouringouthistale.Thenshegavehimherhandandsaid——
’Youhaveyourmanatlast.’
’Whatman?’
’Themanyouhavebeenwaitingfor.’
’Slavin!’
’Whynot?’
’Ineverthoughtofit.’
’Nomoredidhe,noranyofus.’Then,afterapause,sheaddedgently,’Hehasbeensenttous?’
’Doyouknow,Ibelieveyouareright,’Craigsaidslowly,andthenadded,’Butyoualwaysare.’
’Ifearnot,’sheanswered;butIthoughtshelikedtohearhiswords.
ThewholetownwasastoundednextmorningwhenSlavinwenttoworkinthemines,anditsastonishmentonlydeepenedasthedayswenton,andhestucktohiswork.BeforethreeweekshadgonetheLeaguehadboughtandremodelledthesaloonandhadsecuredSlavinasResidentManager.
TheeveningofthereopeningofSlavin’ssaloon,asitwasstillcalled,waslongrememberedinBlackRock.Itwastheoccasionofthefirstappearanceof’TheLeagueMinstrelandDramaticTroupe,’
inwhatwasdescribedasa’hair—liftingtragedywithappropriatemusicalselections.’Thentherewasagrandsupperandspeechesandgreatenthusiasm,whichreacheditsclimaxwhenNixonrosetoproposethetoastoftheevening——’OurSaloon.’Hisspeechwassimplyaquiet,manlyaccountofhislongstrugglewiththedeadlyenemy.Whenhecametospeakofhisrecentdefeathesaid——
’AndwhileIamblamingnoonebutmyself,Iamgladto—nightthatthissaloonisonourside,formyownsakeandforthesakeofthosewhohavebeenwaitinglongtoseeme.ButbeforeIsitdownIwanttosaythatwhileIliveIshallnotforgetthatIowemylifetothemanthattookmethatnighttohisownshackandputmeinhisownbed,andmetmenextmorningwithanopenhand;forI
tellyouIhadsworntoGodthatthatmorningwouldbemylast.’
Geordie’sspeechwascharacteristic.Afterabriefreferencetothe’mysteeriouswayso’Providence,’whichheacknowledgedhemightsometimesfailtounderstand,hewentontoexpresshisunqualifiedapprovalofthenewsaloon.
’It’sacosyplace,an’there’snaesulphuraboot.Besidesa’
that,’hewentonenthusiastically,’it’llbeaterriblesavin’.
I’vejuistbeencoontin’.’
’Youbet!’ejaculatedavoicewithgreatemphasis.
’I’vejuistbeencoontin’,’wentonGeordie,ignoringtheremarkandthelaughwhichfollowed,’an’it’sanawfu’—likemoneyyepitowerwi’thewhusky.Yeseeyecannadaewi’anebitglass;yemaunhaetwaorthreeattheverraleast,forit’snoverraforrityegetwi’aneglass.Butwi’yoncoffeeyejuistgetasaxpence—
worthan’yewantnaemair.’
Therewasanothershoutoflaughter,whichpuzzledGeordiemuch.
’Idinnaseethejowk,butI’veslippitowerinwhuskymairnorahunnerdollars.’
Thenhepaused,lookinghardbeforehim,andtwistinghisfaceintoextraordinaryshapestillthemenlookedathiminwonder.
’I’mraleglado’thissaloon,butit’sowerlatefortheladthatcannabehelpitthenoo.He’llnotbeneedin’helpo’oors,I
doot,butthereareithers’——andhestoppedabruptlyandsatdown,withnoapplausefollowing.
ButwhenSlavin,oursaloon—keeper,rosetoreply,themenjumpedupontheseatsandyelledtilltheycouldyellnomore.Slavinstood,evidentlyintroublewithhimself,andfinallybrokeout——
’It’sspachelessIamentirely.What’scometomeIknownot,norhowit’scome.ButI’lldomybestforyez.’Andthentheyellingbrokeoutagain.
Ididnotyellmyself.IwastoobusywatchingthevaryinglightsinMrs.Mavor’seyesasshelookedfromCraigtotheyellingmenonthebenchesandtables,andthentoSlavin,andIfoundmyselfwonderingifsheknewwhatitwasthatcametoSlavin.
CHAPTERXI
THETWOCALLS
WiththecalltoMr.CraigIfancyIhadsomethingtodomyself.
Thecallcamefromayoungcongregationinaneasterncity,andwasbasedpartlyuponhiscollegerecordandmoreupontheadviceofthoseamongtheauthoritieswhoknewhisworkinthemountains.
ButIflattermyselfthatmyletterstofriendswhowereofimportanceinthatcongregationwerenotwithoutinfluence,forI
wasofthemindthatthemanwhocouldhandleBlackRockminersashecouldwasreadyforsomethinglargerthanamountainmission.
ThathewouldrefuseIhadnotimagined,thoughIoughttohaveknownhimbetter.Hewasbutlittletroubledoverit.HewentwiththecallandthelettersurginghisacceptancetoMrs.Mavor.
IwasputtingthelasttouchestosomeofmyworkintheroomatthebackofMrs.Mavor’shousewhenhecamein.Shereadthelettersandthecallquietly,andwaitedforhimtospeak.
"Well?’hesaid;’shouldIgo?’
Shestarted,andgrewalittlepale.Hisquestionsuggestedapossibilitythathadnotoccurredtoher.ThathecouldleavehisworkinBlackRockshehadhithertoneverimagined;buttherewasotherwork,andhewasfitforgoodworkanywhere.Whyshouldhenotgo?Isawthefearinherface,butIsawmorethanfearinhereyes,asforamomentortwosheletthemrestuponCraig’sface.Ireadherstory,andIwasnotsorryforeitherofthem.
Butshewastoomuchawomantoshowherhearteasilytothemansheloved,andhervoicewasevenandcalmassheansweredhisquestion.
’Isthisaverylargecongregation?’
’OneofthefinestinalltheEast,’Iputinforhim.’ItwillbeagreatthingforCraig.’
Craigwasstudyinghercuriously.Ithinkshenoticedhiseyesuponher,forshewentonevenmorequietly——
’Itwillbeagreatchanceforwork,andyouareableforalargersphere,youknow,thanpoorBlackRockaffords.’
’WhowilltakeBlackRock?’heasked.
’Letsomeotherfellowhaveatryatit,’Isaid.’Whyshouldyouwasteyourtalentshere?’
’Waste?’criedMrs.Mavorindignantly.
’Well,"bury,"ifyoulikeitbetter,’Ireplied.
’Itwouldnottakemuchofagraveforthatfuneral,’saidCraig,smiling.
’Oh,’saidMrs.Mavor,’youwillbeagreatmanIknow,andperhapsyououghttogonow.’
Butheansweredcoolly:’TherearefiftymenwantingthatEasterncharge,andthereisonlyonewantingBlackRock,andIdon’tthinkBlackRockisanxiousforachange,soIhavedeterminedtostaywhereIamyetawhile.’
EvenmydeepdisgustanddisappointmentdidnotpreventmefromseeingthesuddenleapofjoyinMrs.Mavor’seyes,butshe,withagreateffort,answeredquietly——
’BlackRockwillbeveryglad,andsomeofusvery,veryglad.’
Nothingcouldchangehismind.Therewasnooneheknewwhocouldtakehisplacejustnow,andwhyshouldhequithiswork?Itannoyedmeconsiderablytofeelhewasright.Whyisitthattherightthingsaresofrequentlyunpleasant?
AndifIhadhadanydoubtaboutthematternextSabbatheveningwouldhaveremovedit.Forthemencameabouthimaftertheserviceandlethimfeelintheirownwayhowmuchtheyapprovedhisdecision,thoughtheself—sacrificeinvolveddidnotappealtothem.TheyweretootrulyWesterntoimaginethatanyinducementstheEastcouldoffercouldcompensateforhislossoftheWest.ItwasonlyfittingthattheWestshouldhavethebest,andsotheminerstookalmostasamatterofcourse,andcertainlyastheirright,thatthebestmantheyknewshouldstaywiththem.Buttherewerethosewhoknewhowmuchofwhatmostmenconsiderworthwhilehehadgivenup,andtheylovedhimnolessforit.
Mrs.Mavor’scallwasnotsoeasilydisposedof.Itcamecloseupontheother,andstirredBlackRockasnothingelsehadeverstirreditbefore.
Ifoundheroneafternoongazingvacantlyatsomelegaldocumentsspreadoutbeforeheronthetable,andevidentlyovercomebytheircontents.Therewasfirstalawyer’sletterinformingherthatbythedeathofherhusband’sfathershehadcomeintothewholeoftheMavorestates,andallthewealthpertainingthereto.Theletteraskedforinstructions,andurgedanimmediatereturnwithaviewtoapersonalsuperintendenceoftheestates.Aletter,too,fromadistantcousinofherhusbandurgedherimmediatereturnformanyreasons,butchieflyonaccountoftheoldmotherwhohadbeenleftalonewithnonenearerofkinthanhimselftocareforherandcheerheroldage.
Withthesetwocameanotherletterfromhermother—in—lawherself.
Thecrabbed,tremblingcharacterswereevenmoreeloquentthanthewordswithwhichtheletterclosed.
’Ihavelostmyboy,andnowmyhusbandisgone,andIamalonelywoman.Ihavemanyservants,andsomefriends,butnoneneartome,nonesonearanddearasmydeadson’swife.Mydaysarenottobemany.Cometome,mydaughter;IwantyouandLewis’schild.’
’MustIgo?’sheaskedwithwhitelips.
’Doyouknowherwell?’Iasked.
’Ionlysawheronceortwice,’sheanswered;’butshehasbeenverygoodtome.’
’Shecanhardlyneedyou.Shehasfriends.Andsurelyyouareneededhere.’
Shelookedatmeeagerly.
’Doyouthinkso?’shesaid.
’Askanymaninthecamp——Shaw,Nixon,youngWinton,Geordie.AskCraig,’Ireplied.
’Yes,hewilltellme,’shesaid.
EvenasshespokeCraigcameupthesteps.Ipassedintomystudioandwentonwithmywork,formydaysatBlackRockweregettingfew,andmanysketchesremainedtobefilledin.
ThroughmyopendoorIsawMrs.MavorlayherlettersbeforeMr.
Craig,saying,’Ihaveacalltoo.’Theythoughtnotofme.
Hewentthroughthepapers,carefullylaidthemdownwithoutawordwhileshewaitedanxiously,almostimpatiently,forhimtospeak.
’Well?’sheasked,usinghisownwordstoher;’shouldIgo?’
’Idonotknow,’hereplied;’thatisforyoutodecide——youknowallthecircumstances.’
’Theletterstellall.’Hertonecarriedafeelingofdisappointment.Hedidnotappeartocare.
’Theestatesarelarge?’heasked.
’Yes,largeenough——twelvethousandayear.’
’Andhasyourmother—in—lawanyonewithher?’
’Shehasfriends,but,asshesays,nonenearofkin.Hernephewlooksaftertheworks——ironworks,youknow——hehassharesinthem.’
’Sheisevidentlyverylonely,’heansweredgravely.
’WhatshallIdo?’sheasked,andIknewshewaswaitingtohearhimurgehertostay;buthedidnotsee,oratleastgavenoheed.
’Icannotsay,’herepeatedquietly.’Therearemanythingstoconsider;theestates——’
’Theestatesseemtotroubleyou,’shereplied,almostfretfully.
Helookedupinsurprise.Iwonderedathisslowness.
’Yes,theestates,’hewenton,’andtenants,Isuppose——yourmother—in—law,yourlittleMarjorie’sfuture,yourownfuture.’
’Theestatesareincapablehands,Ishouldsuppose,’sheurged,’andmyfuturedependsuponwhatIchoosemyworktobe.’
’Butonecannotshiftone’sresponsibilities,’herepliedgravely.
’Theseestates,thesetenants,havecometoyou,andwiththemcomeduties.’
’Idonotwantthem,’shecried.
’Thatlifehasgreatpossibilitiesofgood,’hesaidkindly.
’Ihadthoughtthatperhapstherewasworkformehere,’shesuggestedtimidly.
’Greatwork,’hehastenedtosay.’Youhavedonegreatwork.Butyouwilldothatwhereveryougo.Theonlyquestioniswhereyourworklies.’
’YouthinkIshouldgo,’shesaidsuddenlyandalittlebitterly.
’Icannotbidyoustay,’heansweredsteadily.
’HowcanIgo?’shecried,appealingtohim.’MustIgo?’
HowhecouldresistthatappealIcouldnotunderstand.Hisfacewascoldandhard,andhisvoicewasalmostharshashereplied——
’Ifitisright,youwillgo——youmustgo.’
Thensheburstforth——
’Icannotgo.Ishallstayhere.Myworkishere;myheartishere.HowcanIgo?Youthoughtitworthyourwhiletostayhereandwork,whyshouldnotI?’
Themomentarygleaminhiseyesdiedout,andagainhesaidcoldly——
’Thisworkwasclearlymine.Iamneededhere.’
’Yes,yes!’shecried,hervoicefullofpain;’youareneeded,butthereisnoneedofme.’
’Stop,stop!’hesaidsharply;’youmustnotsayso.’
’Iwillsayit,Imustsayit,’shecried,hervoicevibratingwiththeintensityofherfeeling.’Iknowyoudonotneedme;youhaveyourwork,yourminers,yourplans;youneednoone;youarestrong.But,’andhervoicerosetoacry,’Iamnotstrongbymyself;youhavemademestrong.Icamehereafoolishgirl,foolishandselfishandnarrow.Godsentmegrief.Threeyearsagomyheartdied.NowIamlivingagain.Iamawomannow,nolongeragirl.Youhavedonethisforme.Yourlife,yourwords,yourself——youhaveshowedmeabetter,ahigherlife,thanIhadeverknownbefore,andnowyousendmeaway.’
Shepausedabruptly.
’Blind,stupidfool!’Isaidtomyself.
Heheldhimselfresolutelyinhand,answeringcarefully,buthisvoicehadlostitscoldnessandwassweetandkind.
’HaveIdonethisforyou?ThensurelyGodhasbeengoodtome.
Andyouhavehelpedmemorethananywordscouldtellyou.’
’Helped!’sherepeatedscornfully.
’Yes,helped,’heanswered,wonderingatherscorn.
’Youcandowithoutmyhelp,’shewenton.’Youmakepeoplehelpyou.Youwillgetmanytohelpyou;butIneedhelp,too.’Shewasstandingbeforehimwithherhandstightlyclasped;herfacewaspale,andhereyesdeeperthanever.Hesatlookingupatherinakindofmazeasshepouredoutherwordshotandfast.
’Iamnotthinkingofyou.’Hiscoldnesshadhurtherdeeply.’I
amselfish;Iamthinkingofmyself.HowshallIdo?Ihavegrowntodependonyou,tolooktoyou.ItisnothingtoyouthatIgo,buttome——’Shedidnotdaretofinish.
BythistimeCraigwasstandingbeforeher,hisfacedeadlypale.
Whenshecametotheendofherwords,hesaid,inavoicelow,sweet,andthrillingwithemotion——
’Ah,ifyouonlyknew!Donotmakemeforgetmyself.Youdonotguesswhatyouaredoing.’
’WhatamIdoing?Whatistheretoknow,butthatyoutellmeeasilytogo?Shewasstrugglingwiththetearsshewastooproudtolethimsee.
Heputhishandsresolutelybehindhim,lookingatherasifstudyingherfaceforthefirsttime.Underhissearchinglookshedroppedhereyes,andthewarmcolourcameslowlyupintoherneckandface;then,asifwithasuddenresolve,sheliftedhereyestohis,andlookedbackathimunflinchingly.
Hestarted,surprised,drewslowlynear,puthishandsuponhershoulders,surprisegivingplacetowildjoy.Shenevermovedhereyes;theydrewhimtowardsher.Hetookherfacebetweenhishands,smiledintohereyes,kissedherlips.Shedidnotmove;hestoodbackfromher,threwuphishead,andlaughedaloud.Shecametohim,putherheaduponhisbreast,andliftingupherfacesaid,’Kissme.’Heputhisarmsabouther,bentdownandkissedherlipsagain,andthenreverentlyherbrow.Thenputtingherbackfromhim,butstillholdingbothherhands,hecried——
’Notyoushallnotgo.Ishallneverletyougo.’
Shegavealittlesighofcontent,and,smilingupathim,said——
’Icangonow’;butevenasshespoketheflushdiedfromherface,andsheshuddered.
’Never!’healmostshouted;’nothingshalltakeyouaway.Weshallworkheretogether.’
’Ah,ifwecould,ifweonlycould,’shesaidpiteously.
’Whynot?’hedemandedfiercely.
’Youwillsendmeaway.Youwillsayitisrightformetogo,’
sherepliedsadly.
’Dowenotloveeachother?’washisimpatientanswer.
’Ah!yes,love,’shesaid;’butloveisnotall.’
’No!’criedCraig;’butloveisthebest’
’Yes!’shesaidsadly;’loveisthebest,anditisforlove’ssakewewilldothebest.’
’Thereisnobetterworkthanhere.Surelythisisbest,’andhepicturedhisplansbeforeher.Shelistenedeagerly.
’Oh!ifitshouldberight,’shecried,’Iwilldowhatyousay.
Youaregood,youarewise,youshalltellme.’
Shecouldnothaverecalledhimbetter.Hestoodsilentsomemoments,thenburstoutpassionately——
’Whythenhaslovecometous?Wedidnotseekit.SurelyloveisofGod.DoesGodmockus?’
Hethrewhimselfintohischair,pouringouthiswordsofpassionateprotestation.Shelistened,smiling,thencametohimand,touchinghishairasamothermightherchild’s,said——
’Oh,Iamveryhappy!Iwasafraidyouwouldnotcare,andIcouldnotbeartogothatway.’
’Youshallnotgo,’hecriedaloud,asifinpain.’Nothingcanmakethatright.’
Butsheonlysaid,’Youshalltellmeto—morrow.Youcannotseeto—night,butyouwillsee,andyouwilltellme.’
Hestoodupand,holdingbothherhands,lookedlongintohereyes,thenturnedabruptlyawayandwentout.
Shestoodwhereheleftherforsomemoments,herfaceradiant,andherhandspresseduponherheart.Thenshecametowardmyroom.
Shefoundmebusywithmypainting,butasIlookedupandmethereyessheflushedslightly,andsaid——
’Iquiteforgotyou.’
’Soitappearedtome.’
’Youheard?’
’Andsaw,’Irepliedboldly.’Itwouldhavebeenrudetointerrupt,yousee.’
’Oh,Iamsogladandthankful.’
’Yes;itwasratherconsiderateofme.’
’Oh,Idon’tmeanthat,’theflushdeepening;’Iamgladyouknow.’
’Ihaveknownsometime.’
’Howcouldyou?Ionlyknewto—daymyself.’
’Ihaveeyes.’Sheflushedagain.
’Doyoumeanthatpeople——’shebegananxiously.
’No;Iamnot"people."Ihaveeyes,andmyeyeshavebeenopened.’
’Opened?’
’Yes,bylove.’
ThenItoldheropenlyhow,weeksago,Istruggledwithmyheartandmasteredit,forIsawitwasvaintoloveher,becauseshelovedabettermanwholovedherinreturn.Shelookedatmeshylyandsaid——
’Iamsorry.’
’Don’tworry,’Isaidcheerfully.’Ididn’tbreakmyheart,youknow;Istoppeditintime.’
’Oh!’shesaid,slightlydisappointed;thenherlipsbegantotwitch,andshewentoffintoafitofhystericallaughter.
’Forgiveme,’shesaidhumbly;’butyouspeakasifithadbeenafever.’
’Feverisnothingtoit,’Isaidsolemnly.’Itwasanearthing.’
Atwhichshewentoffagain.Iwasgladtoseeherlaugh.Itgavemetimetorecovermyequilibrium,anditrelievedherintenseemotionalstrain.SoIrattledonsomenonsenseaboutCraigandmyselftillIsawshewasgivingnoheed,butthinkingherownthoughts:andwhatthesewereitwasnothardtoguess.
Suddenlyshebrokeinuponmytalk——
’HewilltellmethatImustgofromhim.’
’Ihopeheisnosuchfool,’Isaidemphaticallyandsomewhatrudely,Ifear;forIconfessIwasimpatientwiththeverypossibilityofseparationforthesetwo,towhomlovemeantsomuch.Somepeopletakethissortofthingeasilyandsomenotsoeasily;butloveforawomanlikethiscomesonceonlytoaman,andthenhecarriesitwithhimthroughthelengthofhislife,andwarmshisheartwithitindeath.Andwhenamansmilesorsneersatsuchloveasthis,Ipityhim,andsaynoword,formyspeechwouldbeinanunknowntongue.SomyheartwassoreasIsatlookingupatthiswomanwhostoodbeforeme,overflowingwiththejoyofhernewlove,anddullyconsciousofthecomingpain.ButI
soonfounditwasvaintourgemyopinionthatsheshouldremainandsharetheworkandlifeofthemansheloved.Sheonlyanswered——
’Youwillhelphimallyoucan,foritwillhurthimtohavemego.’
Thequiverinhervoicetookoutalltheangerfrommyheart,andbeforeIknewIhadpledgedmyselftodoallIcouldtohelphim.
ButwhenIcameuponhimthatnight,sittinginthelightofhisfire,Isawhemustbeletalone.Somebattleswefightsidebyside,withcomradescheeringusandbeingcheeredtovictory;buttherearefightswemaynotshare,andthesearedeadlyfightswherelivesarelostandwon.SoIcouldonlylaymyhanduponhisshoulderwithoutaword.Helookedupquickly,readmyface,andsaid,withagroan——
’Youknow?’
’Icouldnothelpit.Butwhygroan?’
’Shewillthinkitrighttogo,’hesaiddespairingly.
’Thenyoumustthinkforher;youmustbringsomecommon—sensetobearuponthequestion.’
’Icannotseeclearlyyet,’hesaid;’thelightwillcome.’
’MayIshowyouhowIseeit?’Iasked.
’Goon,’hesaid.
ForanhourItalked;eloquently,evenvehementlyurgingthereasonandrightofmyopinion.Shewouldbedoingnomorethaneverywomandoes,nomorethanshedidbefore;hermother—in—lawhadacomfortablehome,allthatwealthcouldprocure,goodservants,andfriends;theestatescouldbemanagedwithoutherpersonalsupervision;afterafewyears’workheretheywouldgoeastforlittleMajorie’seducation;whyshouldtwolivesbebroken?——andsoIwenton.
Helistenedcarefully,eveneagerly.
’Youmakeagoodcase,’hesaid,withaslightsmile.’Iwilltaketime.Perhapsyouareright.Thelightwillcome.Surelyitwillcome.But,’andherehesprangupandstretchedhisarmstofulllengthabovehishead,’Iamnotsorry;whatevercomesIamnotsorry.Itisgreattohaveherlove,butgreatertoloveherasI
do.ThankGod!nothingcantakethataway.Iamwilling,gladtosufferforthejoyoflovingher.’
Nextmorning,beforeIwasawake,hewasgone,leavinganoteforme:——
’MYDEARCONNOR,——IamdueattheLanding.WhenIseeyouagainI
thinkmywaywillbeclear.Nowallisdark.AttimesIamacoward,andoften,asyousometimeskindlyinformme,anass;butI
hopeImayneverbecomeamule.
Iamwillingtobeled,orwanttobe,atanyrate.Imustdothebest——notsecondbest——forher,forme.ThebestonlyisGod’swill.Whatelsewouldyouhave?Begoodtoherthesedays,dearoldfellow.——Yours,CRAIG.’
Howoftenthosewordshavebracedmehewillneverknow,butIamabettermanforthem:’ThebestonlyisGod’swill.Whatelsewouldyouhave?’IresolvedIwouldrageandfretnomore,andthatI
wouldworryMrs.Mavorwithnomoreargumentorexpostulation,but,asmyfriendhadasked,’Begoodtoher.’
CHAPTERXII
LOVEISNOTALL
ThosedayswhenwewerewaitingCraig’sreturnwespentinthewoodsoronthemountainsides,ordowninthecanyonbesidethestreamthatdanceddowntomeettheBlackRockriver,Italkingandsketchingandreading,andshelisteninganddreaming,withoftenahappysmileuponherface.Butthereweremomentswhenacloudofshudderingfearwouldsweepthesmileaway,andthenIwouldtalkofCraigtillthesmilecamebackagain.
Butthewoodsandthemountainsandtheriverwereherbest,herwisest,friendsduringthosedays.Howsweettheministryofthewoodstoher!Thetreeswereintheirnewsummerleaves,freshandfulloflife.Theyswayedandrustledaboveus,flingingtheirinterlacingshadowsuponus,andtheirswayingandtheirrustlingsoothedandcomfortedlikethevoiceandtouchofamother.Andthemountains,too,inallthegloryoftheirvaryingrobesofbluesandpurples,stoodcalmly,solemnlyaboutus,upliftingoursoulsintoregionsofrest.Thechanginglightsandshadowsflittedswiftlyovertheirruggedfronts,butleftthemeverasbeforeintheirsteadfastmajesty.’God’sinHisheaven.’Whatwouldyouhave?Andeverthelittleriversangitscheerfulcourage,fearingnotthegreatmountainsthatthreatenedtobaritspassagetothesea.Mrs.Mavorheardthesongandhercouragerose.
’Wetooshallfindourway,’shesaid,andIbelievedher.
ButthroughthesedaysIcouldnotmakeherout,andIfoundmyselfstudyingherasImightanewacquaintance.Yearshadfallenfromher;shewasagirlagain,fullofyoungwarmlife.Shewasassweetasbefore,buttherewasasoftshynessoverher,ahalf—
shamed,half—frankconsciousnessinherface,agladlightinhereyesthatmadeherallnewtome.HerperfecttrustinCraigwastouchingtosee.
’Hewilltellmewhattodo,’shewouldsay,tillIbegantorealisehowimpossibleitwouldbeforhimtobetraysuchtrust,andbeanythingbuttruetothebest.
SomuchdidIdreadCraig’shome—coming,thatIsentforGraemeandoldmanNelson,whowasmoreandmoreGraeme’strustedcounsellorandfriend.TheywerebothhighlyexcitedbythestoryIhadtotell,forIthoughtitbesttotellthemall;butIwasnotalittlesurprisedanddisgustedthattheydidnotseethematterinmylight.InvainIprotestedagainstthemadnessofallowinganythingtosendthesetwofromeachother.Graemesummedupthediscussioninhisownemphaticway,butwithanearnestnessinhiswordsnotusualwithhim.
’Craigwillknowbetterthananyofuswhatisrighttodo,andhewilldothat,andnomancanturnhimfromit;and,’headded,’I
shouldbesorrytotry.’
Thenmywrathrose,andIcried——
’It’satremendousshame!Theyloveeachother.Youaretalkingsentimentalhumbugandnonsense!’
’Hemustdotheright,’saidNelsoninhisdeep,quietvoice.
’Right!Nonsense!Bywhatrightdoeshesendfromhimthewomanheloves?’
’"HepleasednotHimself,"’quotedNelsonreverently.
’Nelsonisright,’saidGraeme.’Ishouldnotliketoseehimweaken.’
’Lookhere,’Istormed;’Ididn’tbringyoumentobackhimupinhisnonsense.Ithoughtyoucouldkeepyourheadslevel.’
’Now,Connor,’saidGraeme,’don’trage——leavethatfortheheathen;it’sbadform,anduselessbesides.Craigwillwalkhiswaywherehislightfalls;andbyallthat’sholy,Ishouldhatetoseehimfail;forifheweakensliketherestofusmyNorthStarwillhavedroppedfrommysky.’
’Niceselfishspirit,’Imuttered.
’Entirelyso.I’mnotasaint,butIfeellikesteeringbyonewhenIseehim.’
Whenafteraweekhadgone,Craigrodeuponeearlymorningtohisshackdoor,hisfacetoldmethathehadfoughthisfightandhadnotbeenbeaten.Hehadriddenallnightandwasreadytodropwithweariness.
’Connor,oldboy,’hesaid,puttingouthishand;’I’mratherplayed.TherewasabadrowattheLanding.IhavejustclosedpoorColley’seyes.Itwasawful.Imustgetsleep.LookafterDandy,willyou,likeagoodchap?’
’Oh,Dandybehanged,!’Isaid,forIknewitwasnotthefight,northewatching,northelongridethathadshakenhisironnerveandgivenhimthatface.’GoinandliedownI’llbringyousomething.’
’Wakemeintheafternoon,’hesaid;’sheiswaiting.Perhapsyouwillgotoher’——hislipsquivered——’mynerveisrathergone.’
Thenwithaverywansmileheadded,’Iamgivingyoualotoftrouble.’
’Yougotothunder!’Iburstout,formythroatwashotandsorewithgriefforhim.
’IthinkI’drathergotosleep,’hereplied,stillsmiling.I
couldnotspeak,andwasgladofthechanceofbeingalonewithDandy.
WhenIcameinIfoundhimsittingwithhisheadinhisarmsuponthetablefastasleep.Imadehimtea,forcedhimtotakeawarmbath,andsenthimtobed,whileIwenttoMrs.Mavor.Iwentwithafearfulheart,butthatwasbecauseIhadforgottenthekindofwomanshewas.
Shewasstandinginthelightofthewindowwaitingforme.Herfacewaspalebutsteady,therewasaproudlightinherfathomlesseyes,aslightsmilepartedherlips,andshecarriedherheadlikeaqueen.
’Comein,’shesaid.’Youneednotfeartotellme.Isawhimridehome.Hehasnotfailed,thankGod!Iamproudofhim;I
knewhewouldbetrue.Helovesme’——shedrewinherbreathsharply,andafaintcolourtingedhercheek——’butheknowsloveisnotall——ah,loveisnotall!Oh!Iamgladandproud!’
’Glad!’Igasped,amazed.
’Youwouldnothavehimprovefaithless!’shesaidwithprouddefiance.
’Oh,itishighsentimentalnonsense,’Icouldnothelpsaying.
’Youshouldnotsayso,’shereplied,andhervoicerangclear.
’Honour,faith,anddutyaresentiments,buttheyarenotnonsense.’
InspiteofmyrageIwaslostinamazedadmirationofthehighspiritofthewomanwhostoodupsostraightbeforeme.But,asI
toldhowwornandbrokenhewas,shelistenedwithchangingcolourandswellingbosom,herproudcourageallgone,andonlylove,anxiousandpitying,inhereyes.
’ShallIgotohim?’sheaskedwithtimideagernessanddeepeningcolour.
’Heissleeping.Hesaidhewouldcometoyou,’Ireplied.
’Ishallwaitforhim,’shesaidsoftly,andthetendernessinhertonewentstraighttomyheart,anditseemedtomeamanmightsuffermuchtobelovedwithlovesuchasthis.
IntheearlyafternoonGraemecametoher.Shemethimwithbothhandsoutstretched,sayinginalowvoice——
’Iamveryhappy.’
’Areyousure?’heaskedanxiously.
’Oh,yes,’shesaid,buthervoicewaslikeasob;’quite,quitesure.’
TheytalkedlongtogethertillIsawthatCraigmustsoonbecoming,andIcalledGraemeaway.Heheldherhands,lookingsteadilyintohereyesandsaid——
’YouarebettereventhanIthought;I’mgoingtobeabetterman.’
Hereyesfilledwithtears,buthersmiledidnotfadeassheanswered——
’Yes!youwillbeagoodman,andGodwillgiveyouworktodo.’
Hebenthisheadoverherhandsandsteppedbackfromherasfromaqueen,buthespokenowordtillwecametoCraig’sdoor.Thenhesaidwithhumilitythatseemedstrangeinhim,’Connor,thatisgreat,toconqueroneself.Itisworthwhile.Iamgoingtotry.’
IwouldnothavemissedhismeetingwithCraig.Nelsonwasbusywithtea.Craigwaswritingnearthewindow.HelookedupasGraemecamein,andnoddedaneasygood—evening;butGraemestrodetohimand,puttingonehandonhisshoulder,heldouthisotherforCraigtotake.
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