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第5章

  ’Iwouldoftenbeacowardbutfortheshameofit.’
  AndsotheLeaguewaitedforthemantocome,whowastobeResidentManagerandmakethenewenterpriseasuccess.Andcomehedid;butthemannerofhiscomingwassoextraordinary,thatI
  havebelievedinthedoctrineofaspecialprovidenceeversince;
  forasCraigsaid,’IfhehadcomestraightfromHeavenIcouldnothavebeenmoresurprised.’
  WhiletheLeaguewasthuswaiting,itsinterestcentreduponSlavin,chieflybecauseherepresentedmorethananyothertheforcesoftheenemy;andthoughBillyBreenstoodbetweenhimandthevengeanceoftheangrymenwhowouldhavemadeshortworkofhimandhissaloon,nothingcouldsavehimfromhimself,andafterthefuneralSlavinwenttohisbaranddrankwhiskyashehadneverdrunkbefore.Butthemorehedrankthefiercerandgloomierhebecame,andwhenthemendrinkingwithhimchaffedhim,hesworedeeplyandwithsuchthreatsthattheylefthimalone.
  ItdidnothelpSlavineithertohaveNixonstrideinthroughthecrowddrinkingathisbarandgivehimwordsofwarning.
  ’Itisnotyourfault,Slavin,’hesaidinslow,coolvoice,’thatyouandyourpreciouscrewdidn’tsentmetomydeath,too.You’vewonyourbet,butIwanttosay,thatnexttime,thoughyouareseventoone,ortentimesthat,whenanyofyouboysoffermeadrinkI’lltakeyoutomeanfight,andI’llnotdisappointyou,andsomeonewillbekilled,’andsosayinghestrodeoutagain,leavingamean—lookingcrowdofmenbehindhim.AllwhohadnotbeenconcernedinthebusinessatNixon’sshackexpressedapprovalofhisposition,andhopedhewould’seeitthrough.’
  ButtheimpressionofNixon’swordsuponSlavinwasasnothingcomparedwiththatmadebyGeordieCrawford.Itwasnotwhathesaidsomuchasthemannerofawfulsolemnityhecarried.Geordiewasstrugglingconscientiouslytokeephispromiseto’notbe’ardontheboys,’andfoundconsiderablereliefinrememberingthathehadagreed’toleavethemtaetheAlmichty.’Butthemannerofleavingthemwassosolemnlyawful,thatIcouldnotwonderthatSlavin’ssuperstitiousIrishnaturesuppliedhimwithsupernaturalterrors.ItwastheseconddayafterthefuneralthatGeordieandIwerewalkingtowardsSlavin’s.Therewasagreatshoutoflaughteraswedrewnear.
  Geordiestoppedshort,andsaying,’We’lljuistganginameenute,’
  passedthroughthecrowdanduptothebar.
  ’MichaelSlavin,’beganGeordie,andthemenstaredindead,silence,withtheirglassesintheirhands.’MichaelSlavin,a’
  promisedthelada’dbearyenaeillwull,butjuistleaveyetaetheAlmichty;an’Iwanttaetellyethata’mkeepin’mawur—r—d.
  But’——andhereheraisedhishand,andhisvoicebecamepreternaturallysolemn——’hisbluidisuponyerhan’s.Doyeno’
  seeit?’
  Hisvoicerosesharply,andashepointed,Slavininstinctivelyglancedathishands,andGeordieadded——
  ’Ay,andtheLordwillrequireito’youandyerhoose.’
  TheytoldmethatSlavinshiveredasiftakenwithagueafterGeordiewentout,andthoughhelaughedandswore,hedidnotstopdrinkingtillhesankintoadrunkenstuporandhadtobecarriedtobed.HislittleFrench—Canadianwifecouldnotunderstandthechangethathadcomeoverherhusband.
  ’He’slikeonebear,’sheconfidedtoMrs.Mavor,towhomshewasshowingherbabyofayearold.’He’snotkeesmeonetamdisday.
  He’smoshawfulbad,he’snotevenlookatdebaby.’Andthisseemedsufficientproofthatsomethingwasseriouslywrong;forshewentontosay——
  ’He’stinkmorefordatleelbabydanfordewholeworl’;he’stinkmorefordatbabydanforme,’butsheshruggedherprettylittleshouldersindeprecationofherspeech.
  ’Youmustprayforhim,’saidMrs.Mavor,’andallwillcomeright.’
  ’Ah!madame!’sherepliedearnestly,’everyday,everyday,IpraylasainteViergeettouslessaintsforhim.’
  ’YoumustpraytoyourFatherinheavenforhim.’
  ’Ah!oui!Iweelpray,’andMrs.Mavorsentherawaybrightwithsmiles,andwithnewhopeandcourageinherheart.
  Shehadverysoonneedofallhercourage,forattheweek’sendherbabyfelldangerouslyill.Slavin’sanxietyandfearwerenotrelievedmuchbythereportsthemenbroughthimfromtimetotimeofGeordie’sominousforebodings;forGeordiehadnodoubtbutthattheAvengerofBloodwashotuponSlavin’strail;andasthesicknessgrew,hebecameconfirmedinthisconviction.WhilehecouldnotbesaidtofindsatisfactioninSlavin’simpendingaffliction,hecouldhardlyhidehiscomplacencyinthepromptnessofProvidenceinvindicatinghistheoryofretribution.
  ButGeordie’scomplacencywassomewhatrudelyshockedbyMr.
  Craig’sanswertohistheoryoneday.
  ’YoureadyourBibletolittleprofit,itseemstome,Geordie:or,perhaps,youhaveneverreadtheMaster’steachingabouttheTowerofSiloam.Betterreadthatandtakethatwarningtoyourself.’
  GeordiegazedafterMr.Craigasheturnedaway,andmuttered——
  ’Thetooro’Siloam,isit?Ay,a’kenfineabootthetooro’
  Siloam,andabootthetooro’Babelasweel;an’a’veread,too,abouttheblaspheemiousHerod,an’siclike.Man,buthe’sahot—
  heidedladdie,andlacksdiscreemeenation.’
  ’WhataboutHerod,Geordie?’Iasked.
  ’AbootHerod?’——withastrongtingeofcontemptinhistone.
  ’AbootHerod?Man,haeyeno’readintheScreeptursabootHerodan’thewur—r—msinthewameo’him?’
  ’Ohyes,Isee,’Ihastenedtoanswer.
  ’Ay,afulecanseewhat’sflappedinhisface,’withwhichbitofproverbialphilosophyhesuddenlyleftme.ButGeordiethenceforthcontentedhimself,inMr.Craig’spresenceatleast,withominoushead—shakings,equallyaggravating,andimpossibletoanswer.
  Thatsamenight,however,Geordieshowedthatwithallhistheorieshehadaman’strueheart,forhecameinhastetoMrs.Mavortosay:
  ’Ye’llbeneededoweryonder,a’mthinkin’.’
  ’Why?Isthebabyworse?Haveyoubeenin?’
  ’Na,na,’repliedGeordiecautiously,’a’llnogangwherea’mnowanted.Butyonpuirthing,yecanhearootsideweepin’andmoanin’.’
  ’She’llmaybeneedyetae,’hewentondubiouslytome.’Ye’reakindo’doctor,a’hear,’notcommittinghimselftoanyopinionastomyprofessionalvalue.ButSlavinwouldhavenoneofme,havinggotthedoctorsoberenoughtoprescribe.
  TheinterestofthecampinSlavinwasgreatlyincreasedbytheillnessofhisbaby,whichwastohimastheappleofhiseye.
  Therewereafewwho,impressedbyGeordie’sprofoundconvictionsuponthematter,wereinclinedtofavourtheretributiontheory,andconnectthebaby’sillnesswiththevengeanceoftheAlmighty.
  AmongthesefewwasSlavinhimself,andgoadedbyhisremorsefulterrorshesoughtreliefindrink.Butthisbroughthimonlydeeperandfiercergloom;sothatbetweenhersufferingchildandhersavagelydespairinghusband,thepoormotherwasdesperatewithterrorandgrief.
  ’Ah!madame,’shesobbedtoMrs.Mavor,’myheartisbrokeforhim.
  He’sheetnotingfortreedays,butjisdreenk,dreenk,dreenk.’
  Thenextdayamancameformeinhaste.Thebabywasdyingandthedoctorwasdrunk.IfoundthelittleoneinaconvulsionlyingacrossMrs.Mavor’sknees,themotherkneelingbesideit,wringingherhandsinadumbagony,andSlavinstandingnear,silentandsuffering.IglancedatthebottleofmedicineuponthetableandaskedMrs.Mavorthedose,andfoundthebabyhadbeenpoisoned.
  MylookofhorrortoldSlavinsomethingwaswrong,andstridingtomehecaughtmyarmandasked——
  ’Whatisit?Isthemedicinewrong?’
  Itriedtoputhimoff,buthisgriptightenedtillhisfingersseemedtoreachthebone.
  ’Thedoseiscertainlytoolarge;butletmego,Imustdosomething.’
  Heletmegoatonce,sayinginavoicethatmademyheartsoreforhim,’Hehaskilledmybaby;hehaskilledmybaby.’Andthenhecursedthedoctorwithawfulcurses,andwithalookofsuchmurderousfuryonhisfacethatIwasgladthedoctorwastoodrunktoappear.
  Hiswifehearinghiscurses,andunderstandingthecause,brokeoutintowailinghardtobear.
  ’Ah!monpetitange!Itisdatwheeskeydat’skeelmonbaby.Ah!
  moncheri,monamour.Ah!monDieu!Ah,Michael,howoftenIsaythatwheeskeyhe’snotgoodting.’
  ItwasmorethanSlavincouldbear,andwithawfulcurseshepassedout.Mrs.Mavorlaidthebabyinitscrib,fortheconvulsionhadpassedaway;andputtingherarmsaboutthewailinglittleFrenchwoman,comfortedandsoothedherasamothermightherchild.
  ’Andyoumusthelpyourhusband,’Iheardhersay.’Hewillneedyoumorethanever.Thinkofhim.’
  ’Ahoui!Iweel,’wasthequickreply,andfromthatmomenttherewasnomorewailing.
  ItseemednomorethanaminutetillSlavincameinagain,sober,quiet,andsteady;thepassionwasallgonefromhisface,andonlythegriefremained.
  Aswestoodleaningoverthesleepingchildthelittlethingopeneditseyes,sawitsfather,andsmiled.Itwastoomuchforhim.
  Thebigmandroppedonhiskneeswithadrysob.
  ’Istherenochanceatall,atall?’hewhispered,butIcouldgivehimnohope.Heimmediatelyrose,andpullinghimselftogether,stoodperfectlyquiet.
  Anewterrorseizeduponthemother.
  ’Mybabyisnot——whatyoucallit?’goingthroughtheformofbaptism.’An’hewillnotcometolasainteVierge,’shesaid,crossingherself.
  ’Donotfearforyourlittleone,’saidMrs.Mavor,stillwithherarmsabouther.’ThegoodSaviourwilltakeyourdarlingintoHisownarms.’
  Butthemotherwouldnotbecomfortedbythis.AndSlavintoo,wasuneasy.
  ’WhereisFatherGoulet?’heasked.
  ’Ah!youwerenotgoodtotheholyperedelastam,Michael,’sherepliedsadly.’Thesaintsarenotpleaseforyou.’
  ’Whereisthepriest?’hedemanded.
  ’Iknownotforsure.AtdeLandin’,dat’slak.’
  ’I’llgoforhim,’hesaid.Buthiswifeclungtohim,beseechinghimnottoleaveher,andindeedhewaslothtoleavehislittleone.
  IfoundCraigandtoldhimthedifficulty.Withhisusualpromptness,hewasreadywithasolution.
  ’Nixonhasateam.Hewillgo.’Thenheadded,’Iwonderiftheywouldnotlikemetobaptizetheirlittleone.FatherGouletandI
  haveexchangedofficesbeforenow.Irememberhowhecametooneofmypeopleinmyabsence,whenshewasdying,readwithher,prayedwithher,comfortedher,andhelpedheracrosstheriver.
  Heisagoodsoul,andhasnononsenseabouthim.Sendformeifyouthinkthereisneed.Itwillmakenodifferencetothebaby,butitwillcomfortthemother.’
  Nixonwaswillingenoughtogo;butwhenhecametothedoorMrs.
  Mavorsawthehardlookinhisface.Hehadnotforgottenhiswrong,fordaybydayhewasstillfightingthedevilwithinthatSlavinhadcalledtolife.ButMrs.Mavor,undercoverofgettinghiminstructions,drewhimintotheroom.Whilelisteningtoher,hiseyeswanderedfromonetotheotherofthegrouptilltheyresteduponthelittlewhitefaceinthecrib.Shenoticedthechangeinhisface.
  ’TheyfearthelittleonewillneverseetheSaviourifitisnotbaptized,’shesaid,inalowtone.
  Hewaseagertogo.
  ’I’lldomybesttogetthepriest,’hesaid,andwasgoneonhissixtymiles’racewithdeath.
  Thelongafternoonworeon,butbeforeitwashalfgoneIsawNixoncouldnotwin,andthatthepriestwouldbetoolate,soIsentforMr.Craig.Fromthemomentheenteredtheroomhetookcommandofusall.Hewassosimple,somanly,sotender,theheartsoftheparentsinstinctivelyturnedtohim.
  Ashewasabouttoproceedwiththebaptism,themotherwhisperedtoMrs.Mavor,whohesitatinglyaskedMr.Craigifhewouldobjecttousingholywater.
  ’Tomeitisthesameasanyother,’herepliedgravely.
  ’An’willhemakethegoodsign?’askedthemothertimidly.
  AndsothechildwasbaptizedbythePresbyterianministerwithholywaterandwiththesignofthecross.Idon’tsupposeitwasorthodox,anditrenderedchaoticsomeofmyreligiousnotions,butIthoughtmoreofCraigthatmomentthaneverbefore.Hewasmoremanthanminister,orperhapshewassogoodaministerthatdaybecausesomuchaman.AshereadabouttheSaviourandthechildrenandthediscipleswhotriedtogetinbetweenthem,andashetoldusthestoryinhisownsimpleandbeautifulway,andthenwentontopicturethehomeofthelittlechildren,andthesameSaviourinthemidstofthem,Ifeltmyheartgrowwarm,andI
  couldeasilyunderstandthecryofthemother——
  ’Oh,monJesu,prenezmoiaussi,takemewizmonmignon.’
  ThecrywakenedSlavin’sheart,andhesaidhuskily——
  ’Oh!Annette!Annette!’
  ’Ah,oui!an’Michaeltoo!’ThentoMr.Craig——
  ’YoutinkHe’stakmesomeday?Eh?’
  ’AllwholoveHim,’hereplied.
  ’An’Michaeltoo?’sheasked,hereyessearchinghisface,’An’
  Michaeltoo?’
  ButCraigonlyreplied:’AllwholoveHim.’
  ’Ah,Michael,youmustpraylebonJesu.He’sgardenotremignon.’
  Andthenshebentoverthebabe,whispering——
  ’Ah,moncheri,monamour,adieu!adieu!monange!’tillSlavinputhisarmsaboutherandtookheraway,forasshewaswhisperingherfarewells,herbaby,withalittleansweringsigh,passedintotheHousewithmanyrooms.
  ’Whisht,Annettedarlin’;don’tcryforthebaby,’saidherhusband.’Shureit’sbetteroffthantherestavus,itis.An’
  didn’tyehearwhattheministersaidaboutthebeautifulplaceitis?An’shurehewouldn’tlietousatall.’Butamothercannotbecomfortedforherfirst—bornson.
  AnhourlaterNixonbroughtFatherGoulet.HewasalittleFrenchmanwithgentlemannersandthefaceofasaint.Craigwelcomedhimwarmly,andtoldhimwhathehaddone.
  ’Thatisgood,mybrother,’hesaid,withgentlecourtesy,and,turningtothemother,’Yourlittleoneissafe.’
  BehindFatherGouletcameNixonsoftly,andgazeddownuponthelittlequietface,beautifulwiththemagicofdeath.Slavincamequietlyandstoodbesidehim.Nixonturnedandofferedhishand.
  ButSlavinsaid,movingslowlyback——
  ’Ididyeawrong,Nixon,an’it’sasorrymanIamthisdayforit.’
  ’Don’tsayaword,Slavin,’answeredNixon,hurriedly.’Iknowhowyoufeel.I’vegotababytoo.Iwanttoseeitagain.That’swhythebreakhurtmeso.’
  ’AsGod’sabove,’repliedSlavinearnestly,’I’llhinderyenomore.’Theyshookhands,andwepassedout.
  Welaidthebabyunderthepines,notfarfromBillyBreen,andthesweetspringwindblewthroughtheGap,andcamesoftlydownthevalley,whisperingtothepinesandthegrassandthehidingflowersoftheNewLifecomingtotheworld.Andthemothermusthaveheardthewhisperinherheart,for,asthePriestwassayingthewordsoftheService,shestoodwithMrs.Mavor’sarmsabouther,andhereyeswerelookingfarawaybeyondthepurplemountain—
  tops,seeingwhatmadehersmile.AndSlavin,too,lookeddifferent.Hisveryfeaturesseemedfiner.Thecoarsenesswasgoneoutofhisface.WhathadcometohimIcouldnottell.
  ButwhenthedoctorcameintoSlavin’shousethatnightitwastheoldSlavinIsaw,butwithalookofsuchdeadlyfuryonhisfacethatItriedtogetthedoctoroutatonce.Buthewashalfdrunkandafterhismannerwashideouslyhumorous.
  ’Howdo,ladies!Howdo,gentlemen!’washisloud—voicedsalutation.
  ’Quiteaprofessionalgathering,clergypredominating.LionandLambtoo,ha!ha!whichisthelamb,eh?ha!ha!verygood!awfullysorrytohearofyourloss,Mrs.Slavin;didourbestyouknow,can’thelpthissortofthing.’
  Beforeanyonecouldmove,Craigwasathisside,andsayinginaclear,firmvoice,’Onemoment,doctor,’caughthimbythearmandhadhimoutoftheroombeforeheknewit.Slavin,whohadbeencrouchinginhischairwithhandstwitchingandeyesglaring,roseandfollowed,stillcrouchingashewalked.Ihurriedafterhim,callinghimback.Turningatmyvoice,thedoctorsawSlavinapproaching.Therewassomethingsoterrifyinginhisswiftnoiselesscrouchingmotion,thatthedoctor,cryingoutinfear’Keephimoff,’fairlyturnedandfled.Hewastoolate.LikeatigerSlavinleapeduponhimandwithoutwaitingtostrikehadhimbythethroatwithbothhands,andbearinghimtotheground,worriedhimthereasadogmightacat.
  ImmediatelyCraigandIwereuponhim,butthoughweliftedhimclearoffthegroundwecouldnotloosenthattwo—handedstranglinggrip.Atwewerestrugglingtherealighthandtouchedmyshoulder.ItwasFatherGoulet.
  ’Pleaselethimgo,andstandawayfromus,’hesaid,wavingusback.Weobeyed.HeleanedoverSlavinandspokeafewwordstohim.Slavinstartedasifstruckaheavyblow,lookedupatthepriestwithfearinhisface,butstillkeepinghisgrip.
  ’Lethimgo,’saidthepriest.Slavinhesitated.’Lethimgo!
  quick!’saidthepriestagain,andSlavinwithasnarlletgohisholdandstoodsullenlyfacingthepriest.
  FatherGouletregardedhimsteadilyforsomesecondsandthenasked——
  ’Whatwouldyoudo?’Hisvoicewasgentleenough,evensweet,buttherewassomethinginitthatchilledmymarrow.’Whatwouldyoudo?’herepeated.
  ’Hemurderedmychild,’growledSlavin.
  ’Ah!how?’
  ’Hewasdrunkandpoisonedhim.’
  ’Ah!whogavehimdrink?Whomadehimadrunkardtwoyearsago?
  Whohaswreckedhislife?’
  Therewasnoanswer,andtheeven—tonedvoicewentrelentlesslyon——
  ’Whoisthemurdererofyourchildnow?’
  Slavingroanedandshuddered.
  ’Go!’andthevoicegrewstern.’Repentofyoursinandaddnotanother.’
  Slavinturnedhiseyesuponthemotionlessfigureonthegroundandthenuponthepriest.FatherGoulettookonesteptowardshim,and,stretchingouthishandandpointingwithhisfinger,said——
  ’Go!’
  AndSlavinslowlybackedawayandwentintohishouse.Itwasanextraordinaryscene,anditisoftenwithmenow:thedarkfigureontheground,theslighterectformofthepriestwithoutstretchedarmandfinger,andSlavinbackingaway,fearandfurystrugglinginhisface.
  Itwasanearthingforthedoctor,however,andtwominutesmoreofthatgripwouldhavedoneforhim.Asitwas,wehadthegreatestdifficultyinrevivinghim.
  WhatthepriestdidwithSlavinaftergettinghiminsideIknownot;thathasalwaysbeenamysterytome.ButwhenwewerepassingthesaloonthatnightaftertakingMrs.Mavorhome,wesawalightandheardstrangesoundswithin.Entering,wefoundanotherwhiskyraidinprogress,Slavinhimselfbeingtheraider.
  Westoodsomemomentswatchinghimknockingintheheadsofcasksandemptyingbottles.Ithoughthehadgonemad,andapproachedhimcautiously.
  ’Hello,Slavin!’Icalledout;’whatdoesthismean?’
  Hepausedinhisstrangework,andIsawthathisface,thoughresolute,wasquietenough.
  ’ItmeansI’mdonewidthebusiness,Iam,’hesaid,inadeterminedvoice.’I’llhelpnomoretokillanyman,or,’inalowertone,’anyman’sbaby.’Thepriest’swordshadstruckhome.
  ’ThankGod,Slavin!’saidCraig,offeringhishand;’youaremuchtoogoodamanforthebusiness.’
  ’Goodorbad,I’mdonewidit,’hereplied,goingonwithhiswork.
  ’Youarethrowingawaygoodmoney,Slavin,’Isaid,astheheadofacaskcrashedin.
  ’It’smeselfthatknowsit,forthepriceofwhiskyhasrizintownthisweek,’heanswered,givingmealookoutofthecornerofhiseye.’Bedad!itwasararecleverjob,’referringtoourBlackRockHotelaffair.
  ’Butwon’tyoubesorryforthis?’askedCraig.
  ’BeloikeIwill;an’that’swhyI’mdoin’itbeforeI’msorryforit,’hereplied,withadelightfulbull.
  ’Lookhere,Slavin,’saidCraigearnestly;’ifIcanbeofusetoyouinanyway,countonme.’
  ’It’sgoodtomethebothofyezhavebeen,an’I’llnotforgetittoyez,’hereplied,withlikeearnestness.
  AswetoldMrs.Mavorthatnight,forCraigthoughtittoogoodtokeep,hereyesseemedtogrowdeeperandthelightinthemtoglowmoreintenseasshelistenedtoCraigpouringouthistale.Thenshegavehimherhandandsaid——
  ’Youhaveyourmanatlast.’
  ’Whatman?’
  ’Themanyouhavebeenwaitingfor.’
  ’Slavin!’
  ’Whynot?’
  ’Ineverthoughtofit.’
  ’Nomoredidhe,noranyofus.’Then,afterapause,sheaddedgently,’Hehasbeensenttous?’
  ’Doyouknow,Ibelieveyouareright,’Craigsaidslowly,andthenadded,’Butyoualwaysare.’
  ’Ifearnot,’sheanswered;butIthoughtshelikedtohearhiswords.
  ThewholetownwasastoundednextmorningwhenSlavinwenttoworkinthemines,anditsastonishmentonlydeepenedasthedayswenton,andhestucktohiswork.BeforethreeweekshadgonetheLeaguehadboughtandremodelledthesaloonandhadsecuredSlavinasResidentManager.
  TheeveningofthereopeningofSlavin’ssaloon,asitwasstillcalled,waslongrememberedinBlackRock.Itwastheoccasionofthefirstappearanceof’TheLeagueMinstrelandDramaticTroupe,’
  inwhatwasdescribedasa’hair—liftingtragedywithappropriatemusicalselections.’Thentherewasagrandsupperandspeechesandgreatenthusiasm,whichreacheditsclimaxwhenNixonrosetoproposethetoastoftheevening——’OurSaloon.’Hisspeechwassimplyaquiet,manlyaccountofhislongstrugglewiththedeadlyenemy.Whenhecametospeakofhisrecentdefeathesaid——
  ’AndwhileIamblamingnoonebutmyself,Iamgladto—nightthatthissaloonisonourside,formyownsakeandforthesakeofthosewhohavebeenwaitinglongtoseeme.ButbeforeIsitdownIwanttosaythatwhileIliveIshallnotforgetthatIowemylifetothemanthattookmethatnighttohisownshackandputmeinhisownbed,andmetmenextmorningwithanopenhand;forI
  tellyouIhadsworntoGodthatthatmorningwouldbemylast.’
  Geordie’sspeechwascharacteristic.Afterabriefreferencetothe’mysteeriouswayso’Providence,’whichheacknowledgedhemightsometimesfailtounderstand,hewentontoexpresshisunqualifiedapprovalofthenewsaloon.
  ’It’sacosyplace,an’there’snaesulphuraboot.Besidesa’
  that,’hewentonenthusiastically,’it’llbeaterriblesavin’.
  I’vejuistbeencoontin’.’
  ’Youbet!’ejaculatedavoicewithgreatemphasis.
  ’I’vejuistbeencoontin’,’wentonGeordie,ignoringtheremarkandthelaughwhichfollowed,’an’it’sanawfu’—likemoneyyepitowerwi’thewhusky.Yeseeyecannadaewi’anebitglass;yemaunhaetwaorthreeattheverraleast,forit’snoverraforrityegetwi’aneglass.Butwi’yoncoffeeyejuistgetasaxpence—
  worthan’yewantnaemair.’
  Therewasanothershoutoflaughter,whichpuzzledGeordiemuch.
  ’Idinnaseethejowk,butI’veslippitowerinwhuskymairnorahunnerdollars.’
  Thenhepaused,lookinghardbeforehim,andtwistinghisfaceintoextraordinaryshapestillthemenlookedathiminwonder.
  ’I’mraleglado’thissaloon,butit’sowerlatefortheladthatcannabehelpitthenoo.He’llnotbeneedin’helpo’oors,I
  doot,butthereareithers’——andhestoppedabruptlyandsatdown,withnoapplausefollowing.
  ButwhenSlavin,oursaloon—keeper,rosetoreply,themenjumpedupontheseatsandyelledtilltheycouldyellnomore.Slavinstood,evidentlyintroublewithhimself,andfinallybrokeout——
  ’It’sspachelessIamentirely.What’scometomeIknownot,norhowit’scome.ButI’lldomybestforyez.’Andthentheyellingbrokeoutagain.
  Ididnotyellmyself.IwastoobusywatchingthevaryinglightsinMrs.Mavor’seyesasshelookedfromCraigtotheyellingmenonthebenchesandtables,andthentoSlavin,andIfoundmyselfwonderingifsheknewwhatitwasthatcametoSlavin.
  CHAPTERXI
  THETWOCALLS
  WiththecalltoMr.CraigIfancyIhadsomethingtodomyself.
  Thecallcamefromayoungcongregationinaneasterncity,andwasbasedpartlyuponhiscollegerecordandmoreupontheadviceofthoseamongtheauthoritieswhoknewhisworkinthemountains.
  ButIflattermyselfthatmyletterstofriendswhowereofimportanceinthatcongregationwerenotwithoutinfluence,forI
  wasofthemindthatthemanwhocouldhandleBlackRockminersashecouldwasreadyforsomethinglargerthanamountainmission.
  ThathewouldrefuseIhadnotimagined,thoughIoughttohaveknownhimbetter.Hewasbutlittletroubledoverit.HewentwiththecallandthelettersurginghisacceptancetoMrs.Mavor.
  IwasputtingthelasttouchestosomeofmyworkintheroomatthebackofMrs.Mavor’shousewhenhecamein.Shereadthelettersandthecallquietly,andwaitedforhimtospeak.
  "Well?’hesaid;’shouldIgo?’
  Shestarted,andgrewalittlepale.Hisquestionsuggestedapossibilitythathadnotoccurredtoher.ThathecouldleavehisworkinBlackRockshehadhithertoneverimagined;buttherewasotherwork,andhewasfitforgoodworkanywhere.Whyshouldhenotgo?Isawthefearinherface,butIsawmorethanfearinhereyes,asforamomentortwosheletthemrestuponCraig’sface.Ireadherstory,andIwasnotsorryforeitherofthem.
  Butshewastoomuchawomantoshowherhearteasilytothemansheloved,andhervoicewasevenandcalmassheansweredhisquestion.
  ’Isthisaverylargecongregation?’
  ’OneofthefinestinalltheEast,’Iputinforhim.’ItwillbeagreatthingforCraig.’
  Craigwasstudyinghercuriously.Ithinkshenoticedhiseyesuponher,forshewentonevenmorequietly——
  ’Itwillbeagreatchanceforwork,andyouareableforalargersphere,youknow,thanpoorBlackRockaffords.’
  ’WhowilltakeBlackRock?’heasked.
  ’Letsomeotherfellowhaveatryatit,’Isaid.’Whyshouldyouwasteyourtalentshere?’
  ’Waste?’criedMrs.Mavorindignantly.
  ’Well,"bury,"ifyoulikeitbetter,’Ireplied.
  ’Itwouldnottakemuchofagraveforthatfuneral,’saidCraig,smiling.
  ’Oh,’saidMrs.Mavor,’youwillbeagreatmanIknow,andperhapsyououghttogonow.’
  Butheansweredcoolly:’TherearefiftymenwantingthatEasterncharge,andthereisonlyonewantingBlackRock,andIdon’tthinkBlackRockisanxiousforachange,soIhavedeterminedtostaywhereIamyetawhile.’
  EvenmydeepdisgustanddisappointmentdidnotpreventmefromseeingthesuddenleapofjoyinMrs.Mavor’seyes,butshe,withagreateffort,answeredquietly——
  ’BlackRockwillbeveryglad,andsomeofusvery,veryglad.’
  Nothingcouldchangehismind.Therewasnooneheknewwhocouldtakehisplacejustnow,andwhyshouldhequithiswork?Itannoyedmeconsiderablytofeelhewasright.Whyisitthattherightthingsaresofrequentlyunpleasant?
  AndifIhadhadanydoubtaboutthematternextSabbatheveningwouldhaveremovedit.Forthemencameabouthimaftertheserviceandlethimfeelintheirownwayhowmuchtheyapprovedhisdecision,thoughtheself—sacrificeinvolveddidnotappealtothem.TheyweretootrulyWesterntoimaginethatanyinducementstheEastcouldoffercouldcompensateforhislossoftheWest.ItwasonlyfittingthattheWestshouldhavethebest,andsotheminerstookalmostasamatterofcourse,andcertainlyastheirright,thatthebestmantheyknewshouldstaywiththem.Buttherewerethosewhoknewhowmuchofwhatmostmenconsiderworthwhilehehadgivenup,andtheylovedhimnolessforit.
  Mrs.Mavor’scallwasnotsoeasilydisposedof.Itcamecloseupontheother,andstirredBlackRockasnothingelsehadeverstirreditbefore.
  Ifoundheroneafternoongazingvacantlyatsomelegaldocumentsspreadoutbeforeheronthetable,andevidentlyovercomebytheircontents.Therewasfirstalawyer’sletterinformingherthatbythedeathofherhusband’sfathershehadcomeintothewholeoftheMavorestates,andallthewealthpertainingthereto.Theletteraskedforinstructions,andurgedanimmediatereturnwithaviewtoapersonalsuperintendenceoftheestates.Aletter,too,fromadistantcousinofherhusbandurgedherimmediatereturnformanyreasons,butchieflyonaccountoftheoldmotherwhohadbeenleftalonewithnonenearerofkinthanhimselftocareforherandcheerheroldage.
  Withthesetwocameanotherletterfromhermother—in—lawherself.
  Thecrabbed,tremblingcharacterswereevenmoreeloquentthanthewordswithwhichtheletterclosed.
  ’Ihavelostmyboy,andnowmyhusbandisgone,andIamalonelywoman.Ihavemanyservants,andsomefriends,butnoneneartome,nonesonearanddearasmydeadson’swife.Mydaysarenottobemany.Cometome,mydaughter;IwantyouandLewis’schild.’
  ’MustIgo?’sheaskedwithwhitelips.
  ’Doyouknowherwell?’Iasked.
  ’Ionlysawheronceortwice,’sheanswered;’butshehasbeenverygoodtome.’
  ’Shecanhardlyneedyou.Shehasfriends.Andsurelyyouareneededhere.’
  Shelookedatmeeagerly.
  ’Doyouthinkso?’shesaid.
  ’Askanymaninthecamp——Shaw,Nixon,youngWinton,Geordie.AskCraig,’Ireplied.
  ’Yes,hewilltellme,’shesaid.
  EvenasshespokeCraigcameupthesteps.Ipassedintomystudioandwentonwithmywork,formydaysatBlackRockweregettingfew,andmanysketchesremainedtobefilledin.
  ThroughmyopendoorIsawMrs.MavorlayherlettersbeforeMr.
  Craig,saying,’Ihaveacalltoo.’Theythoughtnotofme.
  Hewentthroughthepapers,carefullylaidthemdownwithoutawordwhileshewaitedanxiously,almostimpatiently,forhimtospeak.
  ’Well?’sheasked,usinghisownwordstoher;’shouldIgo?’
  ’Idonotknow,’hereplied;’thatisforyoutodecide——youknowallthecircumstances.’
  ’Theletterstellall.’Hertonecarriedafeelingofdisappointment.Hedidnotappeartocare.
  ’Theestatesarelarge?’heasked.
  ’Yes,largeenough——twelvethousandayear.’
  ’Andhasyourmother—in—lawanyonewithher?’
  ’Shehasfriends,but,asshesays,nonenearofkin.Hernephewlooksaftertheworks——ironworks,youknow——hehassharesinthem.’
  ’Sheisevidentlyverylonely,’heansweredgravely.
  ’WhatshallIdo?’sheasked,andIknewshewaswaitingtohearhimurgehertostay;buthedidnotsee,oratleastgavenoheed.
  ’Icannotsay,’herepeatedquietly.’Therearemanythingstoconsider;theestates——’
  ’Theestatesseemtotroubleyou,’shereplied,almostfretfully.
  Helookedupinsurprise.Iwonderedathisslowness.
  ’Yes,theestates,’hewenton,’andtenants,Isuppose——yourmother—in—law,yourlittleMarjorie’sfuture,yourownfuture.’
  ’Theestatesareincapablehands,Ishouldsuppose,’sheurged,’andmyfuturedependsuponwhatIchoosemyworktobe.’
  ’Butonecannotshiftone’sresponsibilities,’herepliedgravely.
  ’Theseestates,thesetenants,havecometoyou,andwiththemcomeduties.’
  ’Idonotwantthem,’shecried.
  ’Thatlifehasgreatpossibilitiesofgood,’hesaidkindly.
  ’Ihadthoughtthatperhapstherewasworkformehere,’shesuggestedtimidly.
  ’Greatwork,’hehastenedtosay.’Youhavedonegreatwork.Butyouwilldothatwhereveryougo.Theonlyquestioniswhereyourworklies.’
  ’YouthinkIshouldgo,’shesaidsuddenlyandalittlebitterly.
  ’Icannotbidyoustay,’heansweredsteadily.
  ’HowcanIgo?’shecried,appealingtohim.’MustIgo?’
  HowhecouldresistthatappealIcouldnotunderstand.Hisfacewascoldandhard,andhisvoicewasalmostharshashereplied——
  ’Ifitisright,youwillgo——youmustgo.’
  Thensheburstforth——
  ’Icannotgo.Ishallstayhere.Myworkishere;myheartishere.HowcanIgo?Youthoughtitworthyourwhiletostayhereandwork,whyshouldnotI?’
  Themomentarygleaminhiseyesdiedout,andagainhesaidcoldly——
  ’Thisworkwasclearlymine.Iamneededhere.’
  ’Yes,yes!’shecried,hervoicefullofpain;’youareneeded,butthereisnoneedofme.’
  ’Stop,stop!’hesaidsharply;’youmustnotsayso.’
  ’Iwillsayit,Imustsayit,’shecried,hervoicevibratingwiththeintensityofherfeeling.’Iknowyoudonotneedme;youhaveyourwork,yourminers,yourplans;youneednoone;youarestrong.But,’andhervoicerosetoacry,’Iamnotstrongbymyself;youhavemademestrong.Icamehereafoolishgirl,foolishandselfishandnarrow.Godsentmegrief.Threeyearsagomyheartdied.NowIamlivingagain.Iamawomannow,nolongeragirl.Youhavedonethisforme.Yourlife,yourwords,yourself——youhaveshowedmeabetter,ahigherlife,thanIhadeverknownbefore,andnowyousendmeaway.’
  Shepausedabruptly.
  ’Blind,stupidfool!’Isaidtomyself.
  Heheldhimselfresolutelyinhand,answeringcarefully,buthisvoicehadlostitscoldnessandwassweetandkind.
  ’HaveIdonethisforyou?ThensurelyGodhasbeengoodtome.
  Andyouhavehelpedmemorethananywordscouldtellyou.’
  ’Helped!’sherepeatedscornfully.
  ’Yes,helped,’heanswered,wonderingatherscorn.
  ’Youcandowithoutmyhelp,’shewenton.’Youmakepeoplehelpyou.Youwillgetmanytohelpyou;butIneedhelp,too.’Shewasstandingbeforehimwithherhandstightlyclasped;herfacewaspale,andhereyesdeeperthanever.Hesatlookingupatherinakindofmazeasshepouredoutherwordshotandfast.
  ’Iamnotthinkingofyou.’Hiscoldnesshadhurtherdeeply.’I
  amselfish;Iamthinkingofmyself.HowshallIdo?Ihavegrowntodependonyou,tolooktoyou.ItisnothingtoyouthatIgo,buttome——’Shedidnotdaretofinish.
  BythistimeCraigwasstandingbeforeher,hisfacedeadlypale.
  Whenshecametotheendofherwords,hesaid,inavoicelow,sweet,andthrillingwithemotion——
  ’Ah,ifyouonlyknew!Donotmakemeforgetmyself.Youdonotguesswhatyouaredoing.’
  ’WhatamIdoing?Whatistheretoknow,butthatyoutellmeeasilytogo?Shewasstrugglingwiththetearsshewastooproudtolethimsee.
  Heputhishandsresolutelybehindhim,lookingatherasifstudyingherfaceforthefirsttime.Underhissearchinglookshedroppedhereyes,andthewarmcolourcameslowlyupintoherneckandface;then,asifwithasuddenresolve,sheliftedhereyestohis,andlookedbackathimunflinchingly.
  Hestarted,surprised,drewslowlynear,puthishandsuponhershoulders,surprisegivingplacetowildjoy.Shenevermovedhereyes;theydrewhimtowardsher.Hetookherfacebetweenhishands,smiledintohereyes,kissedherlips.Shedidnotmove;hestoodbackfromher,threwuphishead,andlaughedaloud.Shecametohim,putherheaduponhisbreast,andliftingupherfacesaid,’Kissme.’Heputhisarmsabouther,bentdownandkissedherlipsagain,andthenreverentlyherbrow.Thenputtingherbackfromhim,butstillholdingbothherhands,hecried——
  ’Notyoushallnotgo.Ishallneverletyougo.’
  Shegavealittlesighofcontent,and,smilingupathim,said——
  ’Icangonow’;butevenasshespoketheflushdiedfromherface,andsheshuddered.
  ’Never!’healmostshouted;’nothingshalltakeyouaway.Weshallworkheretogether.’
  ’Ah,ifwecould,ifweonlycould,’shesaidpiteously.
  ’Whynot?’hedemandedfiercely.
  ’Youwillsendmeaway.Youwillsayitisrightformetogo,’
  sherepliedsadly.
  ’Dowenotloveeachother?’washisimpatientanswer.
  ’Ah!yes,love,’shesaid;’butloveisnotall.’
  ’No!’criedCraig;’butloveisthebest’
  ’Yes!’shesaidsadly;’loveisthebest,anditisforlove’ssakewewilldothebest.’
  ’Thereisnobetterworkthanhere.Surelythisisbest,’andhepicturedhisplansbeforeher.Shelistenedeagerly.
  ’Oh!ifitshouldberight,’shecried,’Iwilldowhatyousay.
  Youaregood,youarewise,youshalltellme.’
  Shecouldnothaverecalledhimbetter.Hestoodsilentsomemoments,thenburstoutpassionately——
  ’Whythenhaslovecometous?Wedidnotseekit.SurelyloveisofGod.DoesGodmockus?’
  Hethrewhimselfintohischair,pouringouthiswordsofpassionateprotestation.Shelistened,smiling,thencametohimand,touchinghishairasamothermightherchild’s,said——
  ’Oh,Iamveryhappy!Iwasafraidyouwouldnotcare,andIcouldnotbeartogothatway.’
  ’Youshallnotgo,’hecriedaloud,asifinpain.’Nothingcanmakethatright.’
  Butsheonlysaid,’Youshalltellmeto—morrow.Youcannotseeto—night,butyouwillsee,andyouwilltellme.’
  Hestoodupand,holdingbothherhands,lookedlongintohereyes,thenturnedabruptlyawayandwentout.
  Shestoodwhereheleftherforsomemoments,herfaceradiant,andherhandspresseduponherheart.Thenshecametowardmyroom.
  Shefoundmebusywithmypainting,butasIlookedupandmethereyessheflushedslightly,andsaid——
  ’Iquiteforgotyou.’
  ’Soitappearedtome.’
  ’Youheard?’
  ’Andsaw,’Irepliedboldly.’Itwouldhavebeenrudetointerrupt,yousee.’
  ’Oh,Iamsogladandthankful.’
  ’Yes;itwasratherconsiderateofme.’
  ’Oh,Idon’tmeanthat,’theflushdeepening;’Iamgladyouknow.’
  ’Ihaveknownsometime.’
  ’Howcouldyou?Ionlyknewto—daymyself.’
  ’Ihaveeyes.’Sheflushedagain.
  ’Doyoumeanthatpeople——’shebegananxiously.
  ’No;Iamnot"people."Ihaveeyes,andmyeyeshavebeenopened.’
  ’Opened?’
  ’Yes,bylove.’
  ThenItoldheropenlyhow,weeksago,Istruggledwithmyheartandmasteredit,forIsawitwasvaintoloveher,becauseshelovedabettermanwholovedherinreturn.Shelookedatmeshylyandsaid——
  ’Iamsorry.’
  ’Don’tworry,’Isaidcheerfully.’Ididn’tbreakmyheart,youknow;Istoppeditintime.’
  ’Oh!’shesaid,slightlydisappointed;thenherlipsbegantotwitch,andshewentoffintoafitofhystericallaughter.
  ’Forgiveme,’shesaidhumbly;’butyouspeakasifithadbeenafever.’
  ’Feverisnothingtoit,’Isaidsolemnly.’Itwasanearthing.’
  Atwhichshewentoffagain.Iwasgladtoseeherlaugh.Itgavemetimetorecovermyequilibrium,anditrelievedherintenseemotionalstrain.SoIrattledonsomenonsenseaboutCraigandmyselftillIsawshewasgivingnoheed,butthinkingherownthoughts:andwhatthesewereitwasnothardtoguess.
  Suddenlyshebrokeinuponmytalk——
  ’HewilltellmethatImustgofromhim.’
  ’Ihopeheisnosuchfool,’Isaidemphaticallyandsomewhatrudely,Ifear;forIconfessIwasimpatientwiththeverypossibilityofseparationforthesetwo,towhomlovemeantsomuch.Somepeopletakethissortofthingeasilyandsomenotsoeasily;butloveforawomanlikethiscomesonceonlytoaman,andthenhecarriesitwithhimthroughthelengthofhislife,andwarmshisheartwithitindeath.Andwhenamansmilesorsneersatsuchloveasthis,Ipityhim,andsaynoword,formyspeechwouldbeinanunknowntongue.SomyheartwassoreasIsatlookingupatthiswomanwhostoodbeforeme,overflowingwiththejoyofhernewlove,anddullyconsciousofthecomingpain.ButI
  soonfounditwasvaintourgemyopinionthatsheshouldremainandsharetheworkandlifeofthemansheloved.Sheonlyanswered——
  ’Youwillhelphimallyoucan,foritwillhurthimtohavemego.’
  Thequiverinhervoicetookoutalltheangerfrommyheart,andbeforeIknewIhadpledgedmyselftodoallIcouldtohelphim.
  ButwhenIcameuponhimthatnight,sittinginthelightofhisfire,Isawhemustbeletalone.Somebattleswefightsidebyside,withcomradescheeringusandbeingcheeredtovictory;buttherearefightswemaynotshare,andthesearedeadlyfightswherelivesarelostandwon.SoIcouldonlylaymyhanduponhisshoulderwithoutaword.Helookedupquickly,readmyface,andsaid,withagroan——
  ’Youknow?’
  ’Icouldnothelpit.Butwhygroan?’
  ’Shewillthinkitrighttogo,’hesaiddespairingly.
  ’Thenyoumustthinkforher;youmustbringsomecommon—sensetobearuponthequestion.’
  ’Icannotseeclearlyyet,’hesaid;’thelightwillcome.’
  ’MayIshowyouhowIseeit?’Iasked.
  ’Goon,’hesaid.
  ForanhourItalked;eloquently,evenvehementlyurgingthereasonandrightofmyopinion.Shewouldbedoingnomorethaneverywomandoes,nomorethanshedidbefore;hermother—in—lawhadacomfortablehome,allthatwealthcouldprocure,goodservants,andfriends;theestatescouldbemanagedwithoutherpersonalsupervision;afterafewyears’workheretheywouldgoeastforlittleMajorie’seducation;whyshouldtwolivesbebroken?——andsoIwenton.
  Helistenedcarefully,eveneagerly.
  ’Youmakeagoodcase,’hesaid,withaslightsmile.’Iwilltaketime.Perhapsyouareright.Thelightwillcome.Surelyitwillcome.But,’andherehesprangupandstretchedhisarmstofulllengthabovehishead,’Iamnotsorry;whatevercomesIamnotsorry.Itisgreattohaveherlove,butgreatertoloveherasI
  do.ThankGod!nothingcantakethataway.Iamwilling,gladtosufferforthejoyoflovingher.’
  Nextmorning,beforeIwasawake,hewasgone,leavinganoteforme:——
  ’MYDEARCONNOR,——IamdueattheLanding.WhenIseeyouagainI
  thinkmywaywillbeclear.Nowallisdark.AttimesIamacoward,andoften,asyousometimeskindlyinformme,anass;butI
  hopeImayneverbecomeamule.
  Iamwillingtobeled,orwanttobe,atanyrate.Imustdothebest——notsecondbest——forher,forme.ThebestonlyisGod’swill.Whatelsewouldyouhave?Begoodtoherthesedays,dearoldfellow.——Yours,CRAIG.’
  Howoftenthosewordshavebracedmehewillneverknow,butIamabettermanforthem:’ThebestonlyisGod’swill.Whatelsewouldyouhave?’IresolvedIwouldrageandfretnomore,andthatI
  wouldworryMrs.Mavorwithnomoreargumentorexpostulation,but,asmyfriendhadasked,’Begoodtoher.’
  CHAPTERXII
  LOVEISNOTALL
  ThosedayswhenwewerewaitingCraig’sreturnwespentinthewoodsoronthemountainsides,ordowninthecanyonbesidethestreamthatdanceddowntomeettheBlackRockriver,Italkingandsketchingandreading,andshelisteninganddreaming,withoftenahappysmileuponherface.Butthereweremomentswhenacloudofshudderingfearwouldsweepthesmileaway,andthenIwouldtalkofCraigtillthesmilecamebackagain.
  Butthewoodsandthemountainsandtheriverwereherbest,herwisest,friendsduringthosedays.Howsweettheministryofthewoodstoher!Thetreeswereintheirnewsummerleaves,freshandfulloflife.Theyswayedandrustledaboveus,flingingtheirinterlacingshadowsuponus,andtheirswayingandtheirrustlingsoothedandcomfortedlikethevoiceandtouchofamother.Andthemountains,too,inallthegloryoftheirvaryingrobesofbluesandpurples,stoodcalmly,solemnlyaboutus,upliftingoursoulsintoregionsofrest.Thechanginglightsandshadowsflittedswiftlyovertheirruggedfronts,butleftthemeverasbeforeintheirsteadfastmajesty.’God’sinHisheaven.’Whatwouldyouhave?Andeverthelittleriversangitscheerfulcourage,fearingnotthegreatmountainsthatthreatenedtobaritspassagetothesea.Mrs.Mavorheardthesongandhercouragerose.
  ’Wetooshallfindourway,’shesaid,andIbelievedher.
  ButthroughthesedaysIcouldnotmakeherout,andIfoundmyselfstudyingherasImightanewacquaintance.Yearshadfallenfromher;shewasagirlagain,fullofyoungwarmlife.Shewasassweetasbefore,buttherewasasoftshynessoverher,ahalf—
  shamed,half—frankconsciousnessinherface,agladlightinhereyesthatmadeherallnewtome.HerperfecttrustinCraigwastouchingtosee.
  ’Hewilltellmewhattodo,’shewouldsay,tillIbegantorealisehowimpossibleitwouldbeforhimtobetraysuchtrust,andbeanythingbuttruetothebest.
  SomuchdidIdreadCraig’shome—coming,thatIsentforGraemeandoldmanNelson,whowasmoreandmoreGraeme’strustedcounsellorandfriend.TheywerebothhighlyexcitedbythestoryIhadtotell,forIthoughtitbesttotellthemall;butIwasnotalittlesurprisedanddisgustedthattheydidnotseethematterinmylight.InvainIprotestedagainstthemadnessofallowinganythingtosendthesetwofromeachother.Graemesummedupthediscussioninhisownemphaticway,butwithanearnestnessinhiswordsnotusualwithhim.
  ’Craigwillknowbetterthananyofuswhatisrighttodo,andhewilldothat,andnomancanturnhimfromit;and,’headded,’I
  shouldbesorrytotry.’
  Thenmywrathrose,andIcried——
  ’It’satremendousshame!Theyloveeachother.Youaretalkingsentimentalhumbugandnonsense!’
  ’Hemustdotheright,’saidNelsoninhisdeep,quietvoice.
  ’Right!Nonsense!Bywhatrightdoeshesendfromhimthewomanheloves?’
  ’"HepleasednotHimself,"’quotedNelsonreverently.
  ’Nelsonisright,’saidGraeme.’Ishouldnotliketoseehimweaken.’
  ’Lookhere,’Istormed;’Ididn’tbringyoumentobackhimupinhisnonsense.Ithoughtyoucouldkeepyourheadslevel.’
  ’Now,Connor,’saidGraeme,’don’trage——leavethatfortheheathen;it’sbadform,anduselessbesides.Craigwillwalkhiswaywherehislightfalls;andbyallthat’sholy,Ishouldhatetoseehimfail;forifheweakensliketherestofusmyNorthStarwillhavedroppedfrommysky.’
  ’Niceselfishspirit,’Imuttered.
  ’Entirelyso.I’mnotasaint,butIfeellikesteeringbyonewhenIseehim.’
  Whenafteraweekhadgone,Craigrodeuponeearlymorningtohisshackdoor,hisfacetoldmethathehadfoughthisfightandhadnotbeenbeaten.Hehadriddenallnightandwasreadytodropwithweariness.
  ’Connor,oldboy,’hesaid,puttingouthishand;’I’mratherplayed.TherewasabadrowattheLanding.IhavejustclosedpoorColley’seyes.Itwasawful.Imustgetsleep.LookafterDandy,willyou,likeagoodchap?’
  ’Oh,Dandybehanged,!’Isaid,forIknewitwasnotthefight,northewatching,northelongridethathadshakenhisironnerveandgivenhimthatface.’GoinandliedownI’llbringyousomething.’
  ’Wakemeintheafternoon,’hesaid;’sheiswaiting.Perhapsyouwillgotoher’——hislipsquivered——’mynerveisrathergone.’
  Thenwithaverywansmileheadded,’Iamgivingyoualotoftrouble.’
  ’Yougotothunder!’Iburstout,formythroatwashotandsorewithgriefforhim.
  ’IthinkI’drathergotosleep,’hereplied,stillsmiling.I
  couldnotspeak,andwasgladofthechanceofbeingalonewithDandy.
  WhenIcameinIfoundhimsittingwithhisheadinhisarmsuponthetablefastasleep.Imadehimtea,forcedhimtotakeawarmbath,andsenthimtobed,whileIwenttoMrs.Mavor.Iwentwithafearfulheart,butthatwasbecauseIhadforgottenthekindofwomanshewas.
  Shewasstandinginthelightofthewindowwaitingforme.Herfacewaspalebutsteady,therewasaproudlightinherfathomlesseyes,aslightsmilepartedherlips,andshecarriedherheadlikeaqueen.
  ’Comein,’shesaid.’Youneednotfeartotellme.Isawhimridehome.Hehasnotfailed,thankGod!Iamproudofhim;I
  knewhewouldbetrue.Helovesme’——shedrewinherbreathsharply,andafaintcolourtingedhercheek——’butheknowsloveisnotall——ah,loveisnotall!Oh!Iamgladandproud!’
  ’Glad!’Igasped,amazed.
  ’Youwouldnothavehimprovefaithless!’shesaidwithprouddefiance.
  ’Oh,itishighsentimentalnonsense,’Icouldnothelpsaying.
  ’Youshouldnotsayso,’shereplied,andhervoicerangclear.
  ’Honour,faith,anddutyaresentiments,buttheyarenotnonsense.’
  InspiteofmyrageIwaslostinamazedadmirationofthehighspiritofthewomanwhostoodupsostraightbeforeme.But,asI
  toldhowwornandbrokenhewas,shelistenedwithchangingcolourandswellingbosom,herproudcourageallgone,andonlylove,anxiousandpitying,inhereyes.
  ’ShallIgotohim?’sheaskedwithtimideagernessanddeepeningcolour.
  ’Heissleeping.Hesaidhewouldcometoyou,’Ireplied.
  ’Ishallwaitforhim,’shesaidsoftly,andthetendernessinhertonewentstraighttomyheart,anditseemedtomeamanmightsuffermuchtobelovedwithlovesuchasthis.
  IntheearlyafternoonGraemecametoher.Shemethimwithbothhandsoutstretched,sayinginalowvoice——
  ’Iamveryhappy.’
  ’Areyousure?’heaskedanxiously.
  ’Oh,yes,’shesaid,buthervoicewaslikeasob;’quite,quitesure.’
  TheytalkedlongtogethertillIsawthatCraigmustsoonbecoming,andIcalledGraemeaway.Heheldherhands,lookingsteadilyintohereyesandsaid——
  ’YouarebettereventhanIthought;I’mgoingtobeabetterman.’
  Hereyesfilledwithtears,buthersmiledidnotfadeassheanswered——
  ’Yes!youwillbeagoodman,andGodwillgiveyouworktodo.’
  Hebenthisheadoverherhandsandsteppedbackfromherasfromaqueen,buthespokenowordtillwecametoCraig’sdoor.Thenhesaidwithhumilitythatseemedstrangeinhim,’Connor,thatisgreat,toconqueroneself.Itisworthwhile.Iamgoingtotry.’
  IwouldnothavemissedhismeetingwithCraig.Nelsonwasbusywithtea.Craigwaswritingnearthewindow.HelookedupasGraemecamein,andnoddedaneasygood—evening;butGraemestrodetohimand,puttingonehandonhisshoulder,heldouthisotherforCraigtotake.