“Thenwemustalwayshavelived,sinceeternityisacircle。“
“Whynot,Isobel?ThatiswhatIwastryingtosay。Well,ifweliveeternally,wemustlivesomewhere,perhapsinthoseplanets,orothers,whichitwouldbeawastetokeepempty。“
“Idaresay——thoughNaturedoesnotmindwaste,orwhatseemstobewaste。Butwhyshouldyouthinkoflivingeternallyatall?Manypeopleliveagreatdealtoolongasitis,anditishorribletobelievethattheygoonforever。“
“Youseetheymightgrowtosomethingsplendidintheend,Isobel。Youmustnotjudgethembywhattheyarenow。“
“Oh!Iknow,thecaterpillarandthebutterfly,andalltherestofit。“
“TheBible“——continuedGodfreyimperturbably——whenshecuthimshort。
“Well,whatoftheBible?Howdoyouknowthatitistrue?“
“BecauseIdoknowit,thoughthetruthinitmaybedifferentforeveryone。Whatismore,Iknowthatonedayyouwillagreewithme。“
Shelookedathimcuriouslyintheflashingwaythatwaspeculiartoher,forsomethinginhistoneandmannerimpressedher。
“Perhaps。Ihopeso,Godfrey,butatpresentIoftenfeelasthoughI
believedinnothing,exceptthatIamIandyouareyou,andmyfatheris——therehe’scallingme。Goodbye,“andshewasgone。
Thisparticularconversation,oneofmany,had,asithappened,importantresultsonthelivesofthesetwoyoungcreatures。Isobel,inwhomtheloveofTruth,howeveruglyitmightbeandhoweverdestructiveofhope,faith,charityandallthevirtues,wasaburning,inbredpassion,tooktothesecretstudyoftheologyinordertofindoutwhyGodfreywassoconvincedastotheteachingsoftheBible。Shewasnotoldormellowedenoughtounderstandthattherealreasonmustbediscovered,notintheletterbutinthespirit,thatisintheesotericmeaningofthesayingsastoreceivingtheKingdomofHeavenlikeachildandthenecessityofbeingbornagain。
Thereforewithafierceintensity,thrustingasidethespiritanditspromptingswhichperhapsareshadowsoftheonlyrealtruths,shewrestledwiththeletter。ShereadtheDivines,alsomuchoftheHigherCriticism,thelivesofSaints,theSacredBooksthemselvesandmanyotherthings,onlytoarisebewildered,andtoagreatextentunbelieving。
“WhyshouldIbelievewhatIcannotprove?“shecriedinherheart,andoncewithherlipstoGodfrey。
Hemadeheraverywiseanswer,althoughatthemomentitdidnotstrikeeitheroftheminthatlight。
“Whenyoutellmeofanythingthatyoucanreallyprove,Iwillshowyouwhy,“hesaid。Tothisheaddedasuggestionthatwasmostunwise,namely,thatsheshouldconsulthisfather。
NowMr。Knightwas,itistrue,askilledtheologianofacertain,narrowschoolandlearnedinhisway。Itisprobable,however,thatinallthewideworlditwouldhavebeendifficulttofindanymanlesssympathetictoamindlikeIsobel’sormorelikelytoantagonizehereagerandbuddingintelligence。Everydoubthemetwithintolerantdenial;everyargumentwithoffensivecontradiction;everyquerywithreferencestotexts。
Finally,helosthistemper,forbeitacknowledged,thatthisgirlwaspersistent,farfromhumble,andinawayasdogmaticashimself。
HetoldherthatshewasnotaChristian,andinherwrathsheagreedwithhim。Hesaidthatshehadnorighttobeinchurch。Sherepliedthatifthisweresoshewouldnotcomeand,herfatherbeingindifferentuponthepointLadyJanedidnotcountinsuchmatters,ceasedherattendance。Itwastheoldstoryofastrait-mindedbigotforcingalarge-mindeddoubteroutofthefoldthatoughttohavebeenwideenoughforbothofthem。Moreover,thisdifferenceofopiniononmattersofpublicandspiritualinterestendedinaprivateandmundaneanimosity。Mr。Knightcouldneverforgiveapupilofhisown,whoseabilityherecognized,whodaredtoquestionhispontificalannouncements。Tohimthematterwaspersonalratherthanoneofreligioustruth,fortherearecertainmindsinwhosecrucibleseverythingisresolvedindividually,andhiswasoneofthem。Hewasthelargestmattersthroughhisownspecialandhighly-magnifyingspectacles。So,tobebrief,theyquarrelledonceandforall,andthenceforwardneverattemptedtoconcealtheircordialdislikeofeachother。
SuchwasoneresultofthisunluckydiscussionastotheexactconditionsoftheplanetMars,godofwar。AnotherwasthatGodfreydevelopedastronginterestinthestudyoftheheavenlybodiesandwhensomedomesticdebatearoseastohisfuturecareer,announcedwithmildfirmnessthatheintendedtobeanastronomer。Hisfather,towhomtheheavenlybodieswerelessthanthedustbeneathhishumanfeetandwhobelievedinhisheartthattheyhadbeencreated,everyoneofthem,togiveacertainamountoflighttotheinhabitantsofthisworldwhentherewasnomoon,wasfuriousinhisarcticfashion,especiallyashewasawarethatwithafewdistinguishedexceptions,thesehostsofheavendidnotrewardtheirvotarieswitheitherwealthorhonour。
“Iintendyouformyownprofession,theChurch,“hesaidbluntly。“Ifyouchoosetostar-gazeintheintervalsofyourreligiousduties,itisnoaffairofmine。Butpleaseunderstand,Godfrey,thateitheryouentertheChurchorIwashmyhandsofyou。Inthateventyoumayseekyourlivinginanywayyoulike。“
GodfreyremonstratedmeeklytotheeffectthathehadnotmadeuphismindastohisfitnessforHolyOrdersorhiswishtoundertakethem。
“Youmean,“repliedhisfather,“thatyouhavebeeninfectedbythatperniciousgirl,Isobel。Well,atanyrate,Iwillremoveyoufromherevilinfluence。Iamgladtosaythatowingtothefactthatmylittleschoolherehasprospered,Iaminapositiontodothis。IwillsendyouforayeartoaworthySwisspastorwhomImetasadelegatetotherecentEvangelicalCongress,tolearnFrench。HetoldmehedesiredanEnglishpupiltobeinstructedinthattongueandgeneralknowledge。Iwillwritetohimatonce。Ihopethatinnewsurroundingsyouwillforgetallthesewildideasand,afteryourcourseatcollege,settledowntobeagoodandusefulmaninthewalkoflifetowhichyouaresoclearlycalled。“
Godfrey,whoonsuchoccasionsknewhowtobesilent,madenoanswer,althoughtheattackuponIsobelprovokedhimsorely。Inhisheartindeedhereflectedthatayear’sseparationfromhisparentwouldnotbedifficulttobear,especiallybeneaththeshadowoftheSwissmountainswhichsecretlyhelongedtoclimb。AlsohereallywishedtoacquireFrench,beingaladwithsomedesireforknowledgeandappreciationofitsadvantages。Sohelookedhumblemerelyandtookthefirstopportunitytoslipfromthepresenceofthefiercelittlemanwithsmalleyes,straight,sandyhairandaslitwherehislipsshouldbe,throughwhoseagency,althoughitwashardtobelieveit,hehadappearedinthisdisagreeableandyetmostinterestingworld。
Inpointoffacthehadanassignation,ofaninnocentsort。Ofcourseitwaswiththe“pernicious“IsobelandtheplaceappointedwasthebeautifuloldAbbeyChurch。Heretheyknewthattheywouldbeundisturbed,asMr。Knightwastosleepatacountytowntwentymilesaway,whereonthefollowingmorninghehadbusinessastheexaminerofalocalGrammarSchool,andmustleaveatoncetocatchhistrain。
So,whenwatchingfromanupperwindow,hehadseenthegigwellontheroad,Godfreydepartedtohistryst。
Arrivinginthedimandbeauteousoldfane,thefirstthinghesawwasIsobelstandingaloneinthechancel,rightintheheartofashaftoflightthatfellonherthroughtherich-colouredglassofthegreatwestwindow,fornowitwaslateintheafternoon。Sheworeaveryunusualwhitegarmentthatbecameherwell,buthadnohatonherhead。PerhapsthiswasbecauseshehadtakenthefancytodoherplentifulfairhairintheoldPlantagenetfashion,thatisintwohorns,which,withmuchingenuityshehadcopiedmoreorlesscorrectlyfromthebrassofanancient,noblelady,whereofthetwointendedtotakeanimpression。Alsoshehadimitatedsomeoftheotherpeculiaritiesofthatpicturesquecostume,includingthelong,hangingsleeves。Inshort,sheworeafancydresswhichsheproposedtouseafterwardsatadance,andoneoftheobjectsoftherubbingtheywereabouttomake,wasthatshemightstudythedetailsmorecarefully。Atleast,thatwasherobject。Godfrey’swastoobtainanimpressionofthecrabbedinscriptionatthefootoftheeffigy。
Thereshestood,tallandimposing,herarmsfoldedonheryoungbreast,thepaintedlightsstrikingfullonherbroad,intellectualforeheadandlargegreyeyes,shiningtooinapatchofcrimsonaboveherheart。Lostinthoughtandperfectlystill,shelookedstrangethus,almostunearthly,somuchsothattheimpressionableandimaginativeGodfrey,seeinghersuddenlyfromtheshadow,halted,startledandalmostfrightened。
Whatdidsheresemble?Whatmightshenotbe?hequeriedtohimself。
Hisquickmindsuggestedananswer。Theghostofsomeladydeadagessince,killed,fortherewasthepatchofblooduponherbosom,standingabovethetombwhereinherbonescrumbled,anddreamingofsomeonefromwhomshehadbeendivorcedbydoomandviolence。
Hesickenedalittleatthethought;somedreadfelluponhimlikeashadowofFate’supliftedandpointedfinger,stoppinghisbreathandcausinghiskneestoloosen。Inamomentitwasgone,tobereplacedbyanotherthatwasnearerandmorenatural。Hewastobesentawayforayear,andthismeantthathewouldnotseeIsobelforayear。ItwouldbeaverylongyearinwhichhedidnotseeIsobel。HehadforgottenthatwhenhisfathertoldhimthathewastogotoSwitzerland。Nowthefactwaspainfullypresent。
HecameonupthelongnaveandIsobel,awakening,sawhim。
“Youarelate,“shesaidinasoftervoicethanwasusualtoher。
“Well,Idon’tmind,forIhavebeendreaming。IthinkIwenttosleepuponmyfeet。Idreamed,“sheadded,pointingtothebrass,“thatI
wasthatladyand——oh!allsortsofthings。Well,shehadherdaynodoubt,andImeantohaveminebeforeIamasdeadandforgottenassheis。OnlyIwouldliketobeburiedhere。I’llbecrematedandhavemyashesputunderthatstone;theywon’thurther。“
“Don’ttalklikethat,“hesaidwithalittleshiver,forherwordsjarreduponhim。
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