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第47章

  “Ican’tremember,“hemurmuredagain。
  “Ofcourseyoucan’t,sodon’ttry,foryouseeyougotitinthehead,abitofshell;andaniceoperation,orratheroperations,theyhadoveryou。Ifitwasn’tforthatcleversurgeon——butthere,nevermind。“
  “ShallIrecover?“
  “Ofcourseyouwill。Wehavehadnodoubtaboutthatforthelastweek;youhavebeenherenearlythree,youknow;only,yousee,wethoughtyoumightbeblind,somethingtodowiththenervesoftheeyes。Butitappearsthatisn’tso。Nowbequiet,forIcan’tstoptalkingtoyouwithtwodyingjustoutside,andanotherwhomIhopetosave。“
  “Onething,Nurse——aboutthewar。HavetheGermansgotParis?“
  “That’sasillyquestion,Major,whichmakesmethinkyouain’tsorightasIbelieved。IfthosebruteshadParisdoyouthinkyouwouldbeatVersailles?Or,atanyrate,thatIshould?Don’tyoubotheraboutthewar。It’sallright,orasrightasitislikelytobeformanyalongday。“
  Thenshewent。
  AweeklaterGodfreywasallowedtogetoutofbedandwasevencarriedtositintheautumnsunshineamongothershatteredmen。Nowhelearnedalltherewastoknow;thattheGermanrushhadbeenstayed,thattheyhadbeenheadedofffromCalais,andthatthearmieswereentrenchingoppositetoeachotherandpreparingforthewinter,theAlliedcausehavingbeensaved,asitwere,byamiracle,atanyrateforthewhile。Hewasstillveryweak,withgreatpaininhishead,andcouldnotreadatall,whichgrievedhim。
  Sothetimewentby,tillatlasthewastoldthathewastobesenttoEngland,ashisbedwaswantedandhecouldrecoverthereaswellasinFrance。Twodayslaterhestartedinahospitaltrainandsufferedmuchuponthejourney,althoughitwasbrokenforanightatBoulogne。StillhecamesafelytoLondon,andwastakentoacentralhospitalwherenextdayseveraldoctorsheldaconsultationoverhim。
  WhenitwasovertheyaskedhimifhehadfriendsinLondonandwishedtostaythere。HerepliedthathehadnofriendsexceptanoldnurseatHampstead,ifshewerestillthere,andthathedidnotlikeLondon。Thentherewastalkamongthem,andthewordTorquaywasmentioned。Theheaddoctorseemedtoagree,butashewasleaving,changedhismind。
  “Toolongajourney,“hesaid,“itwouldknockhimup。Givemethatlist。Here,thisplacewilldo;quitecloseandgotupregardless,I
  amtold,forshe’sveryrich。That’swhathewants——comfortandfirst-
  classfood,“andwithanodtoGodfrey,whowaslisteninginanidlefashion,quiteindifferentastohisdestination,hewasgone。
  NextdaytheycarriedhimoffinanambulancethroughthecrowdedStrand,andpresentlyhefoundhimselfatLiverpoolStreet,wherehewasputintoaninvalidcarriage。Heaskedtheorderlywherehewasgoing,butthemandidnotseemtoknow,orhadforgottenthename。Sotroublingnomoreaboutithetookadoseofmedicineashehadbeenordered,andpresentlywenttosleep,asnodoubtitwasintendedthatheshoulddo。Whenhewokeupagainitwastofindhimselfbeingliftedfromanotherambulanceintoahousewhichwasverydark,perhapsbecauseofthelightingorders,fornownighthadfallen。Hewascarriedinachairupsomestairsintoaverynicebedroom,andthereputtobedbytwomen。Theywentaway,leavinghimalone。
  Somethingpuzzledhimabouttheplace;atfirsthecouldnotthinkwhatitwas。Thenheknew。Thesmellofitwasfamiliartohim。Hedidnotrecognisetheroom,butthesmellhedidseemtorecognise,thoughbeingweakandshakenhecouldnotconnectitwithanyparticularhouseorlocality。Nowtherewerevoicesinthepassage,andheknewthathemustbedreaming,fortheonlyonethathecouldreallyhearsoundedexactlyliketothatofoldMrs。Parsons。Hesmiledatthethoughtandshuthiseyes。ThevoicethatwasliketothatofMrs。
  Parsonsdiedaway,sayingasitwent:
  “No,Ihaven’tgotthenames,butIdaresaytheyaredownstairs。I’llgoandlook。“
  Thedooropenedandheheardsomeoneenter,awomanthistimebyhertread。Hedidnotsee,bothbecausehiseyeswerestillalmostclosedandforthereasonthattheelectriclightwasheavilyshaded。Sohejustlaythere,wonderingquitevaguelywherehewasandwhothewomanmightbe。Shecameneartothebedandlookeddownathim,forheheardherdressrustleasshebent。Thenhebecameawareofaverystrangesensation。Hefeltasthoughsomethingwereflowingfromthatwomantohim,somestrangeandconcentratedpowerofthoughtwhichwaschangingintoakindofagonyofjoy。Thewomanabovehimbegantobreathequickly,insighsasitwere,andheknewthatshewasstirred;heknewthatshewaswondering。
  “Icannotseehisface,Icannotseehisface!“shewhisperedinastrained,unnaturaltone。Thenwithsomeswiftmovementsheliftedtheshadethatwasoverthelamp。He,too,turnedhisheadandopenedhiseyes。
  Oh,God!thereoverhimleantIsobel,cladinanurse’srobes——yes,Isobel——unlessheweremad。
  Nextmomentheknewthathewasnotmad,forshesaidoneword,onlyone,butitwasenough。
  “Godfrey!“
  “Isobel!“hegasped。“Isityou?“
  Shemadenoanswer,atleastinwords。Onlyshebentdownandkissedhimonthelips。
  “Youmustn’tdothat,“hewhispered。“Remember——ourpromise?“
  “Iremember,“sheanswered。“AmIlikelytoforget?Itwasthatyouwouldneverseemenorcomeintothishousewhilemyfatherlived。
  Well,hediedamonthago。“Thenadoubtstruckher,andsheaddedswiftly:“Didn’tyouwanttocomehere?“
  “Want,Isobel!WhatelsehaveIwantedfortenyears?ButIdidn’tknow;mycomingherewasjustanaccident。“
  “Aretheresuchthingsasaccidents?“shequeried。“WasitanaccidentwhentwentyyearsagoIfoundyousleepingintheschoolroomattheAbbeyandkissedyouontheforehead,orwhenIfoundyousleepingafewminutesagotwentywholeyearslater——?“andshepaused。
  “Andkissedme——/not/upontheforehead,“saidGodfreyreflective,adding,“Ineverknewaboutthatfirstkiss。Thankyouforit。“
  “Notupontheforehead,“sherepeatedafterhim,colouringalittle。
  “YouseeIhavefaithandtakeagreatdealforgranted。IfIshouldbemistaken——“
  “Oh!don’ttroubleaboutthat,“hebrokein,“becauseyouknowitcouldn’tbe。Tenyears,ortenthousand,anditwouldmakenodifference。“
  “Iwonder,“shemused,“oh!howIwonder。Doyouthinkitpossiblethatweshallbelivingtenthousandyearshence?“
  “Quite,“heansweredwithcheerfulassurance,“muchmorepossiblethanthatIshouldbelivingto-day。What’stenthousandyears?It’squiteahundredthousandsinceIsawyou。“
  “Don’tlaughatme,“sheexclaimed。
  “Whynot,dear,whenthere’snothinginthewholeworldatwhichI
  wouldn’tlaughatjustnow?althoughIwouldratherlookatyou。AlsoIwasn’tlaughing,Iwasloving,andwhenoneislovingverymuch,thetruthcomesout。“
  “Thenyoureallythinkittrue——aboutthetenthousandyears,Imean?“
  “Ofcourse,dear,“heanswered,andthistimehisvoicewasseriousenough。“DidwenottelleachotheryonderintheAbbeythatourswastheloveeternal?“
  “Yes,butwordscannotmakeeternity。“
  “No,butthoughtsandthewillbehindthemcan,forwereapwhatwesow。“
  “Whydoyousaythat?“sheaskedquickly。
  “Ican’ttellyou,exceptbecauseIknowthatitisso。Wecometostrangeconclusionsoutyonder,whereonlydeathseemstobetrueandalltherestadream。Whatwecalltherealandtheunrealgetmixed。“
  Akindofwaveofhappinesspassedthroughher,soobviousthatitwasvisibletothewatchingGodfrey。
  “IfyoubelieveitIdaresaythatitisso,foryoualwayshadwhattheycallvision,hadyounot?“Thenwithoutwaitingforananswer,shewenton,“Whatnonsensewearetalking。Don’tyouunderstand,Godfrey,thatIamquiteold?“
  “Yes,“heanswered,“gettingon;sixmonthsyoungerthanIam,I
  think。“
  “Oh!it’sdifferentwithaman。AnotherdozenyearsandI’mfinished。“
  “Possibly,exceptforthateternitybeforeyou。“
  “Also,“shecontinued,“Iameven——“
  “Evenmorebeautifulthanyouweretenyearsago,atanyratetome,“
  hebrokein。
  “YoufoolishGodfrey,“shemurmured,andmovedalittleawayfromhim。
  Justthenthedooropened,andMrs。Parsons,lookingveryoddinanurse’sdresswiththecapawryuponhergreyhair,entered,carryingabitofpaper。
  “ThehuntIhad!“shebegan;“thatsilly,new-fangledkindofagirl-
  clerkhavingstuckthepaperawayundertheletterO——forofficers,youknow,Miss——insomefancyboxofhers,andthengoneofftotea。
  Herearethenames,butIcan’tseewithoutmyspecs。“
  Atthispointsomethingintheattitudeofthetwostruckher,somethingthatherinstinctstoldherwasuncommon,andshestoodirresolute。Isobelsteppedtoherasthoughtotakethelist,and,bendingdown,whisperedintoherear。
  “What?“saidMrs。Parsons。“SurelyIdidn’tunderstand;youknowI’mgettingdeafaswellasblind。Saythenameagain。“
  Isobelobeyed,stillinawhisper。
  “/Him/!“exclaimedtheoldwoman,“him!OurGodfrey,andyou’vebeenandletonwhoyouwere——youwhocallyourselfanursingCommandant?
  Why,Idaresayyou’llbethedeathofhim。Outyougo,Miss,anyway;
  I’lltakechargeofthiscaseforthepresent,“andasitseemedtoGodfrey,watchingfromthefarcorner,literallyshebundledIsobelfromtheroom。
  Thensheshutandlockedthedoor。Comingtothebedsideshekneltdownratherstiffly,lookedathimforawhiletomakesure,andkissedhim,notonce,butmanytimes。