“Ican’tremember,“hemurmuredagain。
“Ofcourseyoucan’t,sodon’ttry,foryouseeyougotitinthehead,abitofshell;andaniceoperation,orratheroperations,theyhadoveryou。Ifitwasn’tforthatcleversurgeon——butthere,nevermind。“
“ShallIrecover?“
“Ofcourseyouwill。Wehavehadnodoubtaboutthatforthelastweek;youhavebeenherenearlythree,youknow;only,yousee,wethoughtyoumightbeblind,somethingtodowiththenervesoftheeyes。Butitappearsthatisn’tso。Nowbequiet,forIcan’tstoptalkingtoyouwithtwodyingjustoutside,andanotherwhomIhopetosave。“
“Onething,Nurse——aboutthewar。HavetheGermansgotParis?“
“That’sasillyquestion,Major,whichmakesmethinkyouain’tsorightasIbelieved。IfthosebruteshadParisdoyouthinkyouwouldbeatVersailles?Or,atanyrate,thatIshould?Don’tyoubotheraboutthewar。It’sallright,orasrightasitislikelytobeformanyalongday。“
Thenshewent。
AweeklaterGodfreywasallowedtogetoutofbedandwasevencarriedtositintheautumnsunshineamongothershatteredmen。Nowhelearnedalltherewastoknow;thattheGermanrushhadbeenstayed,thattheyhadbeenheadedofffromCalais,andthatthearmieswereentrenchingoppositetoeachotherandpreparingforthewinter,theAlliedcausehavingbeensaved,asitwere,byamiracle,atanyrateforthewhile。Hewasstillveryweak,withgreatpaininhishead,andcouldnotreadatall,whichgrievedhim。
Sothetimewentby,tillatlasthewastoldthathewastobesenttoEngland,ashisbedwaswantedandhecouldrecoverthereaswellasinFrance。Twodayslaterhestartedinahospitaltrainandsufferedmuchuponthejourney,althoughitwasbrokenforanightatBoulogne。StillhecamesafelytoLondon,andwastakentoacentralhospitalwherenextdayseveraldoctorsheldaconsultationoverhim。
WhenitwasovertheyaskedhimifhehadfriendsinLondonandwishedtostaythere。HerepliedthathehadnofriendsexceptanoldnurseatHampstead,ifshewerestillthere,andthathedidnotlikeLondon。Thentherewastalkamongthem,andthewordTorquaywasmentioned。Theheaddoctorseemedtoagree,butashewasleaving,changedhismind。
“Toolongajourney,“hesaid,“itwouldknockhimup。Givemethatlist。Here,thisplacewilldo;quitecloseandgotupregardless,I
amtold,forshe’sveryrich。That’swhathewants——comfortandfirst-
classfood,“andwithanodtoGodfrey,whowaslisteninginanidlefashion,quiteindifferentastohisdestination,hewasgone。
NextdaytheycarriedhimoffinanambulancethroughthecrowdedStrand,andpresentlyhefoundhimselfatLiverpoolStreet,wherehewasputintoaninvalidcarriage。Heaskedtheorderlywherehewasgoing,butthemandidnotseemtoknow,orhadforgottenthename。Sotroublingnomoreaboutithetookadoseofmedicineashehadbeenordered,andpresentlywenttosleep,asnodoubtitwasintendedthatheshoulddo。Whenhewokeupagainitwastofindhimselfbeingliftedfromanotherambulanceintoahousewhichwasverydark,perhapsbecauseofthelightingorders,fornownighthadfallen。Hewascarriedinachairupsomestairsintoaverynicebedroom,andthereputtobedbytwomen。Theywentaway,leavinghimalone。
Somethingpuzzledhimabouttheplace;atfirsthecouldnotthinkwhatitwas。Thenheknew。Thesmellofitwasfamiliartohim。Hedidnotrecognisetheroom,butthesmellhedidseemtorecognise,thoughbeingweakandshakenhecouldnotconnectitwithanyparticularhouseorlocality。Nowtherewerevoicesinthepassage,andheknewthathemustbedreaming,fortheonlyonethathecouldreallyhearsoundedexactlyliketothatofoldMrs。Parsons。Hesmiledatthethoughtandshuthiseyes。ThevoicethatwasliketothatofMrs。
Parsonsdiedaway,sayingasitwent:
“No,Ihaven’tgotthenames,butIdaresaytheyaredownstairs。I’llgoandlook。“
Thedooropenedandheheardsomeoneenter,awomanthistimebyhertread。Hedidnotsee,bothbecausehiseyeswerestillalmostclosedandforthereasonthattheelectriclightwasheavilyshaded。Sohejustlaythere,wonderingquitevaguelywherehewasandwhothewomanmightbe。Shecameneartothebedandlookeddownathim,forheheardherdressrustleasshebent。Thenhebecameawareofaverystrangesensation。Hefeltasthoughsomethingwereflowingfromthatwomantohim,somestrangeandconcentratedpowerofthoughtwhichwaschangingintoakindofagonyofjoy。Thewomanabovehimbegantobreathequickly,insighsasitwere,andheknewthatshewasstirred;heknewthatshewaswondering。
“Icannotseehisface,Icannotseehisface!“shewhisperedinastrained,unnaturaltone。Thenwithsomeswiftmovementsheliftedtheshadethatwasoverthelamp。He,too,turnedhisheadandopenedhiseyes。
Oh,God!thereoverhimleantIsobel,cladinanurse’srobes——yes,Isobel——unlessheweremad。
Nextmomentheknewthathewasnotmad,forshesaidoneword,onlyone,butitwasenough。
“Godfrey!“
“Isobel!“hegasped。“Isityou?“
Shemadenoanswer,atleastinwords。Onlyshebentdownandkissedhimonthelips。
“Youmustn’tdothat,“hewhispered。“Remember——ourpromise?“
“Iremember,“sheanswered。“AmIlikelytoforget?Itwasthatyouwouldneverseemenorcomeintothishousewhilemyfatherlived。
Well,hediedamonthago。“Thenadoubtstruckher,andsheaddedswiftly:“Didn’tyouwanttocomehere?“
“Want,Isobel!WhatelsehaveIwantedfortenyears?ButIdidn’tknow;mycomingherewasjustanaccident。“
“Aretheresuchthingsasaccidents?“shequeried。“WasitanaccidentwhentwentyyearsagoIfoundyousleepingintheschoolroomattheAbbeyandkissedyouontheforehead,orwhenIfoundyousleepingafewminutesagotwentywholeyearslater——?“andshepaused。
“Andkissedme——/not/upontheforehead,“saidGodfreyreflective,adding,“Ineverknewaboutthatfirstkiss。Thankyouforit。“
“Notupontheforehead,“sherepeatedafterhim,colouringalittle。
“YouseeIhavefaithandtakeagreatdealforgranted。IfIshouldbemistaken——“
“Oh!don’ttroubleaboutthat,“hebrokein,“becauseyouknowitcouldn’tbe。Tenyears,ortenthousand,anditwouldmakenodifference。“
“Iwonder,“shemused,“oh!howIwonder。Doyouthinkitpossiblethatweshallbelivingtenthousandyearshence?“
“Quite,“heansweredwithcheerfulassurance,“muchmorepossiblethanthatIshouldbelivingto-day。What’stenthousandyears?It’squiteahundredthousandsinceIsawyou。“
“Don’tlaughatme,“sheexclaimed。
“Whynot,dear,whenthere’snothinginthewholeworldatwhichI
wouldn’tlaughatjustnow?althoughIwouldratherlookatyou。AlsoIwasn’tlaughing,Iwasloving,andwhenoneislovingverymuch,thetruthcomesout。“
“Thenyoureallythinkittrue——aboutthetenthousandyears,Imean?“
“Ofcourse,dear,“heanswered,andthistimehisvoicewasseriousenough。“DidwenottelleachotheryonderintheAbbeythatourswastheloveeternal?“
“Yes,butwordscannotmakeeternity。“
“No,butthoughtsandthewillbehindthemcan,forwereapwhatwesow。“
“Whydoyousaythat?“sheaskedquickly。
“Ican’ttellyou,exceptbecauseIknowthatitisso。Wecometostrangeconclusionsoutyonder,whereonlydeathseemstobetrueandalltherestadream。Whatwecalltherealandtheunrealgetmixed。“
Akindofwaveofhappinesspassedthroughher,soobviousthatitwasvisibletothewatchingGodfrey。
“IfyoubelieveitIdaresaythatitisso,foryoualwayshadwhattheycallvision,hadyounot?“Thenwithoutwaitingforananswer,shewenton,“Whatnonsensewearetalking。Don’tyouunderstand,Godfrey,thatIamquiteold?“
“Yes,“heanswered,“gettingon;sixmonthsyoungerthanIam,I
think。“
“Oh!it’sdifferentwithaman。AnotherdozenyearsandI’mfinished。“
“Possibly,exceptforthateternitybeforeyou。“
“Also,“shecontinued,“Iameven——“
“Evenmorebeautifulthanyouweretenyearsago,atanyratetome,“
hebrokein。
“YoufoolishGodfrey,“shemurmured,andmovedalittleawayfromhim。
Justthenthedooropened,andMrs。Parsons,lookingveryoddinanurse’sdresswiththecapawryuponhergreyhair,entered,carryingabitofpaper。
“ThehuntIhad!“shebegan;“thatsilly,new-fangledkindofagirl-
clerkhavingstuckthepaperawayundertheletterO——forofficers,youknow,Miss——insomefancyboxofhers,andthengoneofftotea。
Herearethenames,butIcan’tseewithoutmyspecs。“
Atthispointsomethingintheattitudeofthetwostruckher,somethingthatherinstinctstoldherwasuncommon,andshestoodirresolute。Isobelsteppedtoherasthoughtotakethelist,and,bendingdown,whisperedintoherear。
“What?“saidMrs。Parsons。“SurelyIdidn’tunderstand;youknowI’mgettingdeafaswellasblind。Saythenameagain。“
Isobelobeyed,stillinawhisper。
“/Him/!“exclaimedtheoldwoman,“him!OurGodfrey,andyou’vebeenandletonwhoyouwere——youwhocallyourselfanursingCommandant?
Why,Idaresayyou’llbethedeathofhim。Outyougo,Miss,anyway;
I’lltakechargeofthiscaseforthepresent,“andasitseemedtoGodfrey,watchingfromthefarcorner,literallyshebundledIsobelfromtheroom。
Thensheshutandlockedthedoor。Comingtothebedsideshekneltdownratherstiffly,lookedathimforawhiletomakesure,andkissedhim,notonce,butmanytimes。
第47章