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第45章

  ThenGodfreytoldherthattherewassomethingelse,andindeedallaboutthebusiness。
  “Well,thereyouare,andthere’snothingtobesaid,oratleastsomuchthatitcomestothesamething,“remarkedMrs。Parsons,inareflectivetone,whenhehadfinishedhisstory。“ButwhatIwanttoknow,“shewenton,“iswhythesekindofthingshappen。Youtwo——I
  meanyouandMissIsobel——arejustfittedtoeachother,appointedtogetherbyNature,sotospeak,andfondasacoupleofdovesuponaperch。Sowhyshouldn’tyoutakeeachotherandhavedone?Whatistheretocomebetweenayoungmanandayoungwomansuchasyouare?“
  “Idon’tknow,“groanedGodfrey。
  “No,nordon’tI;andyetsomethingdoescomebetween。What’sthemeaningofitall?Whydothingsalwaysgocussedinthis’ereworld?
  Isthereadevilaboutwhatmanagesit,orisitjustchance?Whyshouldn’tpeoplehavewhattheywantandwhenit’swanted,insteadofbeingforcedtowaituntilperhapsitisn’t,orcan’tbeenjoyed,oroftenenoughtoloseitaltogether?Youcan’tanswer,andnorcan’tI;
  onlyattimesIdothink,notwithstandingallmyChristianteachingsandhundredsandhundredsofyourfather’ssermons,thatthedevil,he’stop-doghere。Andasforthatthereforeignwomanwhoseletteryou’vereadtome,she’shishousemaid。NotbutwhatI’msureitwillallcomerightatlast,“sheadded,withanattemptatcheerfulness。
  “Ihopeso,“repliedGodfrey,withoutconviction,andwenttobed。
  Presentlyhedescendedfromhisroomagain,bearingapill-boxinwhichwasenclosedacertainringthatyearsbeforehehadboughtatLucerne,aringsetwithtwoheartsofturquoise。
  “Ipromisednottowrite,“hesaid,“butyoumightaddressthistoher。She’llknowwhatitis,forItoldheraboutit。“
  “Yes,“saidMrs。Parsons,“theyoungladyshallhavethatboxofpills。Beingupset,itmaydohergood。“
  InduecourseIsobeldidhaveit;alsotheboxcamebackaddressedtoMrs。Parsons。Initwasanotherring,asimplebandofancientgold——
  asamatteroffact,itwasRoman,abetrothalringoftwothousandyearsago。Rounditwasascrapofpaperonwhichwaswritten:
  “Thiswasdugupinagrave。Mygreat-grandmothergaveittomygreat-grandfatherwhentheybecameengagedaboutahundredyearsago,andheworeitallhislife,asinabygoneagesomeoneelsehaddone。Nowthegreat-granddaughtergivesittoanother。Lethimwearitallhislife,whateverhappenstoher,ortohim。Thenletitgotothegraveagain,perhapstobewornbyothersfarcenturieshence。“
  Godfreyunderstoodandsetitonthethirdfingerofhislefthand,whereitremainednightandday,andyearbyyear。
  Sothatmatterended,andafterwardscamesilenceanddarknesswhichenduredfortenyearsormore。Fromhisfatherheheardnothing,noronhispartdidheeverwritetohimagain。IndeedthefirstnewsconcerninghimwhichreachedGodfreywasthatofhisdeathwhichhappenedsomesevenyearslater,apparentlyafterabriefillness。
  Evenofthishewouldnothavelearned,sincenoonetookthetroubletoputitinanypaperthathesaw,haditnotchancedthattheRev。
  Mr。Knightdiedintestate,andthatthereforehissmallbelongingsdescendedtoGodfreyashisnaturalheir。Withthemwereanumberofpapers,amongwhichintheafterdaysGodfreyfoundtheveryletterthatIsobelwrotetohimwhichhisfather“posted“inhisdesk。
  Forhissontherewasnoword,acircumstancethatshowedtheimplacabilityofthisman’scharacter。NotwithstandinghiscontinualprofessionofthehighestChristianprincipleshecouldneverforgetorforgive,andthisalthoughitwashewhowasinfault。ForwhatwronghadGodfreydonetohiminlovingawomanwhomhedidnotchancetolike?Sohediedsilent,bearinghisresentmenttothegrave。AndyetsomeoddsenseofjusticepreventedhimfromrobbingGodfreyofhislittleinheritance,somethingundertwothousandpounds,thatcameonapolicyofinsuranceandcertainsavings,asumwhichinafteryearswhenmoneywasplentifulwithhimGodfreyappointedtotherepairandbeautifyingoftheAbbeyChurchatMonk’sAcre。
  Strangelyenough,althoughfromhischildhoodtheyhadbeenalwaysestranged,Godfreyfeltthisconductofhisfatherverymuchindeed。
  Itseemeddreadfultohimthatheshouldvanishthusintothedarkness,takinghiswrathwithhim;andoftenhewonderedifitstillanimatedhimthere。Alsohewonderedwhatcouldbethepossiblepurposeofitall,andindeedwhyhisfatherwassofashionedthathecouldgrowvenomousoversuchamatter。Toallofwhichquestionsnoanswercame,althoughonesuggesteditselftohim——namely,thathewasthevictimofsomehereditarytaint,andthereforenotinfacttoblame。
  InthecaseofIsobelthedarknesswasequallydense,forbothofthemkepttheirword,andwiththesingleexceptionoftheepisodeoftheexchangeofrings,neitherattemptedtocommunicatewiththeotherdirectlyorindirectly。FromMrs。ParsonsheheardthatHawk’sHallwasshutup,andthatSirJohnandhisdaughterlivedmostlyinLondonorataplacethattheformerhadboughtinScotland。OnceindeedMrs。
  Parsonsdidwrite,orgotsomeoneelsetowrite,tohimthatshehadseenIsobeldrivepastherinthestreet,andthatshelookedwell,thoughrather“sternandquiet-like。“
  ThatwasallthenewsGodfreyhadofIsobelduringthosetenyears,sinceshewasnotapersonwhoadvertisedhermovementsinthepapers,althoughforhersakehebecameagreatstudentofsocietygossip。
  Alsohereadwithcareallannouncementsofengagementsandmarriagesin/TheTimes/,andthedeaths,too,forthematterofthat,buthappilyquitewithoutresult。Indeedinviewofherdeclarationheoughttohavebeen,and,infact,was,ashamedofhisresearch;butthen,whocouldbequitesureofanythinginthisworld?
  SirJohn,heknew,wasliving,becausefromtimetotimehesawhisnameinlistsofsubscriptionsofasortthatappearunderroyalpatronageandarelargelyadvertised。
  Sobetweenthesetwoswungaveilofdarkness,although,hadhebutknownit,thiswasnotnearlysoimpenetrabletoIsobelastohimself。
  Somehow——possiblyArthurThorburnhadfriendswithwhomhecorrespondedinEnglandwhoknewIsobel——sheacquiredinformationastoeverydetailofhiscareer。Indeedwhenhecametolearneverythinghewasabsolutelyamazedattheparticularswithwhichshewasacquainted,whereoftherewerecertainthathewouldhavepreferredtohavekepttohimself。Butshehadthemall,withdatesandsurroundingcircumstancesandtherest;thousandsofmilesofoceanhadbeennobartohersearchinggaze。
  Forhisparthewasnotwithoutconsolations,since,strangelyenough,heneverfeltasifshewerelosttohim,orindeedfaraway;itwasalwaysasthoughshewereinthenextroom,oratanyrateinthenextstreet。Thereareindividualsofsensitivemind,andhewasoneofthem,whoknowwellenoughwhensuchatotallosshasoccurred。Ithasbeenwellsaidthatthedeadareneverreallydeadtousuntiltheyareforgotten,andthesameappliestotheliving。Whiletheyrememberus,theyareneversoveryfaraway,andwhatismorewe,orsomeofus,arequiteawareiftheyhaveceasedtoremember,forthenthedoorisshutandthedoorwaybuiltupandourheartstellusthatthishasbeendone。
  InGodfrey’scasewithIsobel,notonlydidthedoorwayremainedunfilled——thedooritselfwasalwaysajar。Althoughseasdividedthemandoverthesenowhispercame,yethefeltherthoughtleapingtohimacrosstheworld。Especiallydidthishappenatnightwhenhelaidhimselfdowntosleep,perhapsbecausethenhismindwasmostreceptive,andsincetheirhoursofgoingtorestmusthavebeendifferent,hebeinginIndiaandsheinEngland,shecouldscarcelyhavebeenreflectingonhimashefondlybelieved,atthemomentwhenshe,too,enteredintotheworldcalledsleep。
  Therefore,eitheritwasallimaginationorhecaughtherwakingthoughts,orperhapsthosethathauntedheruponthisborderlandweredelayeduntilhissubtlerbeingcouldinterpretthem。Whoknows?Atleast,unlesssomethinghadhappenedtodisturbhim,thosenightswererarewhenashewasshuttinghiseyes,GodfreydidnotseemtobesensibleofIsobel’spresence。Atanyrate,heknewthatshehadnotforgotten;heknewthatsomewhereinthevastworldshewaseverthinkingofhimwithmoreintensitythanshethoughtofanyothermanorthing。Andduringallthoselonelyyearsthisknowledgeorbeliefwashisgreatestcomfort。
  NotthatGodfrey’slifeinIndiawasinanywayunhappy。Onthecontraryitwasafullandactivelife。Heworkedhardathisprofessionandsucceededinittoalimitedextent,andhehadhisfriends,especiallyhisgreatfriendArthurThorburn,whoalwaysclungtohim。Hehadhisflirtationsalso;beingamanofsusceptibilitywhowaspopularwithwomen,howcouldtheybeavoided?ForaboveallthingsGodfreywasaman,notahermitorasaintoran?sthete,butjustamanwithmoregiftsofasortthanhavesomeothers。Helivedthelifeoftherest,hehunted,heshottigers,doingthosethingsthattheAnglo-Indianofficerdoes,butallthesamehestudied。
  Whetheritwereofhistradeofsoldiering,orofthenatives,orofEasternthoughtandlaw,hewasalwayslearningsomething,tillatlastheknewagreatdeal,oftenhewonderedtowhatend。
  Andyet,withallhisfriendsandacquaintances,inawayheremainedaverylonelyman,asthosewhoarealittleoutoftheordinaryoftendo。Inthecommongroovewerubagainsttheothermarblesrunningdownit,butonceweleapoveritsedge,thenwherearewe?Wecannotwanderoffintospacebecauseoftheattractionoftheearththatissoneartous,andyetwearealoneintheairuntilwithabumpwemeetournativeground。Thereforeforthemostofusthegrooveismuchbetter。Andyetsomewholeaveithavebeencarriedelsewhere,ifonlyforalittlewhile,likeSt。Paulintothethirdheaven。