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第37章

  “Nothingatall。Whydoyouasksuchsillyquestions?IonlymeantthatifIhadmarriedIshouldnothavebeenhere,andweshouldneverhavemetagain。“
  “Well,youarehereandwehavemetinthischurch,whereweparted。“
  “Yes,it’sodd,isn’tit?Iwishithadbeensomewhereelse。Idon’tlikethisgloomyoldplacewithitsatmosphereofdeath。Comeoutside。“
  Theywent,andwhentheywerethroughthechurchyardgateswalkedathazardtowardsthestreamwhichranthroughthegroundsofHawk’sHall。Heretheysatdownuponafallenwillow,watchingtheswallowsskimoverthesurfaceoftheplacidwaters,andforawhileweresilent。Theyhadsomuchtosaytoeachotherthatitseemedasthoughscarcelytheyknewwheretocommence。
  “Tellme,“shesaidatlength,“wereyouinthesquaregardenonthenightofthatdanceatwhichIcameout?Oh!Iseebyyourlookthatyouwere。Thenwhydidyounotspeaktomeinsteadofstandingbehindabush,watchinginthatmeanfashion?“
  “Iwasn’tproperlydressedforparties,and——and——youseemedtobe——
  verymuchengaged——witharoseandaknightinarmour。“
  “Engaged!Itwasonlypartofagame。Iwroteandtoldyouallaboutitintheletteryoudidnotget。Didyouneverkissaflowerforajokeandgiveittosomeone,notknowingthatyouwerebeingwatched?“
  Godfreycolouredandshifteduneasilyonhislog。
  “Well,asamatteroffact,“hesaid,“itisoddthatyoushouldhaveguessed——forsomethingofthesortdidoncehappenquitebyaccident。
  AlsoI/was/watched。“
  “I!——youmean/we/。Onedoesn’tkissflowersbyoneselfandgivethemtotheair。Itwouldbemoreridiculouseventhantheotherthing。“
  “Iwilltellyouallaboutitifyoulike,“hestammeredconfusedly。
  Shelookedathimwithherlarge,steadygreyeyes,andansweredinacoldvoice:
  “No,thankyou,Idon’tlike。Nothingboresmesomuchasotherpeople’ssillyloveaffairs。“
  Baffledindefence,Godfreyresortedtoattack。
  “Whathasbecomeoftheknightinarmour?“heasked。
  “Heismarriedandhastwins。Isawtheannouncementoftheirbirthinthepaperyesterday。Andwhathasbecomeoftheladywiththeflower?
  Forsincetherewasaflower,theremusthavebeenalady;Isupposethesamewhomyoupulleduptheprecipice。“
  “Sheismarriedalso,tohercousin,butIdon’tknowthatshehasanychildrenyet,andIneverpulledherupanyprecipice。ItwasamanI
  pulled,averyheavyone。Myarmisn’tquiterightyet。“
  “Oh!“saidIsobel。Thenwithanothersuddenchangeofvoiceshewenton。“Nowtellmeallaboutyourself,Godfrey。Theremustbesuchlotstosay,andIlongtohear。“
  Sohetoldher,andshetoldhimofherself,andtheytalkedandtalkedtilltheshadowsofadvancingnightbegantoclosearoundthem。
  SuddenlyGodfreylookedathiswatch,ofwhichhecouldonlyjustseethehands。
  “Mygoodness!“hesaid,“itishalf-pastseven。“
  “Well,whataboutit?Itdoesn’tmatterwhenIdine,forIhavecomedownalonehereforafewdays,aweekperhaps,togetthehousereadyformyfatherandhisfriends。“
  “Yes,butmyfatherdinesatseven,andifthereisonethinghehatesitisbeingkeptwaitingfordinner。“
  ShelookedasthoughshethoughtthatitdidnotmuchmatterwhetherornoMr。Knightwaitedforhisdinner,thensaid:
  “Well,youcancomeuptotheHallanddinewithme。“
  “IthinkIhadbetternot,“heanswered。“Yousee,wearegettingonsowelltogether——ImeanmyfatherandI,andIdon’twanttobeginarowagain。Hewouldhateit。“
  “Youmean,Godfrey,thathewouldhateyourdiningwithme。Well,thatistrue,forhealwaysloathedmelikepoison,andIdon’tthinkheisamantochangehismind。Soperhapsyouhadbettergo。Doyouthinkweshallbeallowedtoseeeachotheragain?“sheaddedwithsarcasm。
  “Ofcourse。Let’smeethereto-morrowateleven。MyfatherisgoingtoaDiocesanmeetingandwon’tbebacktilltheevening。Sowemightspendthedaytogetherifyouhavenothingbettertodo。“
  “Letmesee。No,Ihavenoengagement。Yousee,Ionlycamedownhalfanhourbeforewemetinthechurch。“
  Thentheyrosefromtheirwillowlogandstoodlookingateachother,averyproperpair。Somethingwelledupinhimandburstfromhislips。
  “Howbeautifulyouhavegrown,“hesaid。
  Shelaughedalittle,verysoftly,andsaid:
  “Beautiful!/I/?ThoseAlpinesnowsaffectthesight,don’tthey?I
  feltlikethatonPopocatepetl。OrisitthetwilightthatIhavetothank?Oh!yousillyoldGodfrey,youmusthavebeenlivingamongveryplainpeople。“
  “You/are/beautiful,“herepliedstubbornly,“themostbeautifulwomanIeversaw。Youalwayswere,andyoualwayswillbe。“
  Againshelaughed,forwhoofhersexistherethatdoesnotliketobecalledbeautiful,especiallywhensheknowsthatitismeant,andthatwhateverherpersonalshortcomings,tothespeakersheisbeautiful?Butthistimetheonlyanswersheattemptedwas:
  “Yousaidyouwerelate,andyouaregettinglater。Runhome,there’sagoodlittleboy。“
  “Whydoyoulaughatme?“heasked。
  “BecauseIamlaughingatmyself,“sheanswered,“andyoushouldhaveyourshare。“
  Thenverynearlyhekissedher,onlyhewasinsuchahurry,alsothewillowlog,alargeone,wasbetweenthem;possiblyshehadarrangedthatthisshouldbeso。Sohecouldonlypressherhandanddepart,mutteringsomethingindistinguishable。Shewatchedhimvanish,afterwhichshesatdownagainonthelogandreallydidlaugh。Still,itwasaqueerkindofmerriment,forbydegreesitturnedintolittlesobsandtears。
  “Youlittlefool,whathashappenedtoyou?“sheaskedherself。“Areyou——areyou——andifso,ishe——?Oh!nonsense,andyet,somethinghashappened,forIneverfeltlikethisbefore。Ithoughtitwasallrubbish,merenaturalattraction,partofNature’sschemeandsoon,astheywriteinthecleverbooks。Butit’smorethanthat——atleastitwouldbeifIwere——Besides,I’magesolderthanheis,althoughIwasbornsixmonthslater。I’mawomanfull-grown,andheisonlyaboy。Ifhehadn’tbeenaboyhewouldhavetakenhisadvantagewhenhemusthaveknownthatIwasweakaswater,justforthejoyofseeinghimagain。Nowhehaslosthischance,ifhewantedone,forbyto-morrowIshallbestrongagain,andthereshallbenomore——“
  Thenshelookedatthebacksofherhandswhichshecouldnotseebecauseofthegatheringdarkness,andastheywereinvisible,kissedtheminstead,justasthoughtheybelongedtosomeoneelse。Afterthisshesatawhilebroodingandlisteningtothepulsingofherheart,whichwasbeatingwithunusualstrengththisnight。AsshedidsointhatmysterioushourwhichsometimescomestousinEnglishsummers,agreatchangefelluponher。Whenshesatdownuponthatfallentreeshewasstillagirlandvirginal;whensherosefromitshewasadeveloped,lovingwoman。Itwasasthoughaspirithadvisitedherandwhisperedinherear。Shecouldalmosthearthewords。Theywere:
  “Fulfilyourfate。Loveandbelovedwithbodyandwithspirit,withheartandsoulandstrength。“
  Atlengthsherose,andasshedidsosaidaloud:
  “IdonotknowwhoorwhatIhavetothankforlifeandallthatmakesme,me。ButIamgladtohavebeenborn,now,whohaveoftenwishedthatIhadneverbeenborn。EvenifIknewthatImustpassawayto-night,Ishouldstillbeglad,sinceIhavelearnedthatthereissomethinginmewhichcannotdie。Itcamewhenthatmankissedmyhands,anditwillendureforever。“
  Godfreywaslatefordinner,verylate,andwhatwasworse,hisfather/had/waitedforhim。
  “IsupposeyouforgotthatIdinedatseven,notateight,“washiscoldgreeting,forMr。Knight,alargeeaterlikemanyteetotallers,wasoneofthosepeoplewhomakeafetishofpunctualityatmeals,andalwaysgrowcrosswhentheyarehungry。
  Godfrey,whosemindhadnotbeensteadiedbytheeventsoftheafternoon,becameconfusedandrepliedthathewasextremelysorry,butthefactwashehadmetIsobeland,intalkingtoher,hadnotnoticedthetime。
  “Isobel!“exclaimedhisfather,whosevoicewasnowicy。“WhatIsobel?“
  “Ineverknewbutone,Father。“
  “Oh!IsupposeyoumeanMissBlake。Ihadnoideashewashere;
  indeed,IthoughtshewasstillinMexico。Butdoubtlessyouwerebetterinformed。“
  “No,Father,Imetheraccidentally。ShehasreturnedtoEngland。“
  “Thatisobvious,Godfrey——“
  “Shehascomedown,“hecontinuedinahurry,“togetthehousereadyforSirJohn,whoarrivesshortly。“