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第15章

  Atfirstthistalkwithitsjargonofwordswhichhedidnotcomprehend,boredhimconsiderably,butbydegreeshefeltthathewasbeingdrawnintoavortex,andbegantounderstanditsdrift。Evenwhileitwasenigmaticitacquiredakindofunholyattractionforhim,andhebegantoseekoutitssecretmeaninginwhichhefoundthatcompanyreadyinstructors。
  “Youngbrother,“saidMadameRiennes,“wedealwiththethingsnotofthebody,butofthesoul。Thebody,whatisit?Inafewyearsitwillbedustandashes,butthesoul——itiseternal——andallthosestarsyoustudyareitsinheritance,andyouandI,ifwecultivateourspiritualparts,shallruleinthem。“
  Thenshewouldrollherbigeyesandbecomeinawaymagnificent,sothatGodfreyforgotheruglinessandtherepulsionwithwhichsheinspiredhim。
  Intheendhisoutlookonlifeandtheworldbecamedifferent,andthisnotsomuchbecauseofwhathelearnedfromhisesotericteachers,asthroughsomechangeinhisinternalself。Hegrewtoappreciatethevastnessofthingsandtheinfinitepossibilitiesofexistence。Indeed,hisspiritualeducationwasafittingpendanttohisphysicalstudyoftheheavens,peopledwithunnumberedworlds,eachofthemthehome,doubtless,ofaninfinitevarietyoflife,andeachofthemkeepingitsawfulsecretslockedinitsfloatingorb。HetrembledinpresenceofthestupendousWhole,ofwhichthusbydegreeshebecameaware,andthoughitfrightenedhim,thoughtwithpityofthebusymillionsofmankindtowhomsuchmysteriesarenothingatall;whoarelostintheirbusinessoridleness,intheireating,drinking,sleeping,love-making,andgeneralsatisfactionoftheinstinctswhichtheypossessincommonwitheveryotheranimal。Theyearningforwisdom,thedesiretoknow,enteredhisyoungheartandpossessedit,asoncethesedidthatofSolomon,tosuchadegreeindeed,thatstandingonthethresholdofhisdays,hewouldhavepaidthemallaway,andwiththemhisshareinthiswarmandbreathingworld,couldhehavebeenassuredthatinexchangehewouldreceivethekeyofthetreasure-houseoftheInfinite。
  Suchanattitudewasneitherhealthynornaturaltoanormal,vigorousladjustenteringuponmanhood,and,aswillbeseen,itdidnotendure。Likeeverythingelse,ithaditscauses。Hisastronomicalstudieswereoneofthese,butadeeperreasonwastobefoundinthoseSundayséancesattheVillaOgilvy。ForalongwhileGodfreydidnotknowwhathappenedtohimontheseoccasions。Thepartysatroundthelittletable,talkingofwonderfulthings;MadameRienneslookedathimandsometimestookhishand,whichhedidnotlike,andthenherememberednomoreuntilhewokeup,feelingtired,andyetinawayexhilarated,forwiththemysteriesofhypnoticsleephewasnotyetacquainted。Nordiditoccurtohimthathewasbeingusedamediumbycertainofthemostadvancedspiritualistsintheworld。
  Bydegrees,however,inklingsofthetruthbegantocome。Thus,onedayhisconsciousnessawokewhilehisbodyseemedstilltobewraptintrance,andhesawthattherewasapersonpresentwhohadnotbeenofthepartywhenhewenttosleep。Ayoungwoman,cladinawhiterobe,withlovelyhairflowingdownherback,stoodbyhissideandheldhissupinefingersinherhand。
  Shewasbeautiful,andyetunearthly,sheworeornamentsalso,butashewatched,tohisamazementtheseseemedtochange。Whathadbeenafilletofwhitestones,likediamonds,whichboundherhair,turnedtooneofredstones,likerubies,andasitdidsothecolourofhereyes,whichwerelargeandverytranquil,altered。
  Shewasspeakinginalow,richvoicetoMissOgilvy,whoanswered,addressingherasSisterEleanor,butwhatshesaidGodfreycouldnotunderstand。Somethingofhisinnershockandfearmusthavereflecteditselfuponhistrance-boundfeatures,forsuddenlyheheardMadameRiennesexclaim:
  “Havedone!themediumawakes,andItellyouitisdangerouswhileourGuideishere。Backtohisbreast,Eleanor!Thencetoyourplace!“
  Thetallfigurechanged;itbecamemisty,shapeless。Itseemedtofallonhimlikeacloudoficyvapour,chillinghimtotheheart,andthroughthatvapourhecouldseetheormoluclockwhichstoodonabracketintherecess,andevennotethetime,whichwasthirteenminutespastfour。Afterthishebecameunconscious,andinduecoursewokeupasusual。Thefirstthinghiseyesfellonwastheclock,ofwhichthehandsnowpointedtoaquartertofive,andthesightofitbroughteverythingbacktohim。Thenheobservedthatallthecircleseemedmuchagitated,anddistinctlyheardMadameRiennessaytoProfessorPeterseninEnglish:——
  “Thethingwasverynear。Haditnotbeenforthatmedicineofyours——!Itwasbecausethatspeeritdotakehishand。Shegrowfondofhim;ithappensometimesifthemediumbeoftheothersexandattractive。Shewanttocarryhimawaywithher,thatControl,andI
  expectsheneverquiteleavehimallhislife,because,yousee,shematerializeoutofhim,andthereforebelongtohim。Nexttimeshecome,Igivehermymind。Hush!Ourwonderfullittlebrotherwakeup——
  quiterightthistime。“
  ThenGodfreyreallyopenedhiseyes;hithertohehadbeenfeigningtobestillintrance,butthoughtitwisesttosaynothing。AtthismomentMissOgilvyturnedverypaleandwentintoakindoflightfaint。
  TheProfessorproducedsomekindofsmelling-bottlefromhispocket,whichheheldtohernostrils。Shecametoatonce,andbegantolaughatherownsilliness,butbeggedthemalltogoawayandleaveherquiet,whichtheydid。Godfreywasgoingtoo,butshestoppedhim,sayingthatthecarriagewouldnotbereadytillaftertea,andthatitwastoowetforhimtowalkinthegarden,fornowautumnhadcomeinearnest。Theteaarrived,asubstantialtea,withpoachedeggs,ofwhichshemadehimeattwo,asshedidalwaysafterthesesittings。
  Thensuddenlysheaskedhimifhehadseenanything。Hetoldherall,adding:
  “Iamfrightened。Idonotlikethisbusiness,MissOgilvy。Whoandwhatwasthatladyinwhite,whostoodbymeandheldmyhand?Myfingersarestilltingling,andacoldwindseemstoblowuponme。“
  “Itwasaspirit,Godfrey,butthereisnoneedtobeafraid,shewillnotdoyouanyharm。“
  “Idon’tknow,andIdon’tthinkthatyouhaveanyrighttobringspiritstome,oroutofme,asIheardthatdreadfulMadamesayhadhappened。Itisagreatliberty。“
  “Oh!don’tbeangrywithme,“shesaidpiteously。“Ifonlyyouunderstood。Youareawonderfulmedium,themostwonderfulthatanyofushaseverknown,andthroughyouwehavelearnedthings;holy,marvellousthings,whichtillnowhavenotbeenheardofintheworld。
  Yourfameisalreadygreatamongleadingspiritualistsoftheearth,thoughofcoursetheydonotknowwhoyouare。“
  “Thatdoesnotbettermatters,“saidGodfrey,“youknowitisnotright。“
  “Perhapsnot,butmydearboy,ifonlyyouguessedallitmeanstome!
  Listen;Iwilltellyou;youwillnotbetrayme,willyou?OnceIwasveryfondofsomeone;hewasallmylife,andhedied,andmyheartbroke。Ionlyhopeandpraythatsuchathingmayneverhappentoyou。
  Well,fromthathourtothisIhavebeentryingtofindhimandfailed,alwaysfailed,thoughonceortwiceIthought。AndnowthroughyouIhavefoundhim。Yes,hehasspokentometellingmemuchwhichprovestomethathestillliveselsewhereandawaitsme。Andoh!Iamhappy,anddonotcarehowsoonIgotojoinhim。Anditisallthroughyou。Soyouwillforgiveme,willyounot?“
  “Yes,Isupposeso,“saidGodfrey,“butallthesameIdon’twanttohaveanythingmoretodowiththatwhiteladywhoiscalledEleanorandchangesherjewelssooften;especiallyasMadamesaidshewasgrowingfondofmeandwouldneverleaveme。Sopleasedon’taskmehereagainonSundays。“
  MissOgilvytriedtosoothehim。
  “Youshouldn’tbefrightenedofher,“shesaid。“Sheisreallyadelightfulspirit,anddeclaresthatsheknewyouveryintimatelyindeed,whenyouwereanearlyEgyptian,alsomuchbeforethatonthelostcontinent,whichiscalledAtlantis,tosaynothingofdeepfriendshipswhichhaveexistedbetweenyouinotherplanets。“
  “Isay!“exclaimedGodfrey,“doyoubelieveallthis?“
  “Well,ifyouaskme,ImustsaythatIdo。Iamsurethatwehaveallofuslivedmanylives,hereandelsewhere,andifthisisso,itisobviousthatinthecourseofthemwemusthavemetanenormousnumberofpeople,withcertainofwhomwehavebeencloselyassociatedinthevariousrelationshipsoflife。Someofthese,nodoubt,comeroundwithusagain,butothersdonot,thoughwecangetintotouchwiththemunderexceptionalcircumstances。ThatisyourcaseandEleanor’s。
  Atpresentyouareupondifferentspheres,butinthefuture,nodoubt,youwillfindyourselvessidebysideagain,asyouhaveoftenbeen,induecoursetobedrivenapartoncemorebythewindsofDestiny,andperhaps,afterages,finallytobeunited。Meanwhilesheplaysthepartofoneofyourguardianangels。“
  “ThenIwishshewouldn’t,“saidGodfrey,withvigour。“Idon’tcareforaguardianangelofwhomIhavenomemory,andwhoseemstofallonyoulikesnowuponahotday。IfanybodydoesthatkindofthingI
  shouldpreferalivingwoman。“
  “Whichdoubtlessshehasbeen,andwillbeagain。Foryousee,wheresheis,shehasmemoryandforeknowledge,whicharelackingtotheincarnated。Meanwhile,throughyou,andbecauseofyou,shecantellusmuch。YouarethewirewhichconnectsustoherintheUnseen。“
  “ThenIhopeyouwillfindanotherwire;Ireallydo,foritupsetsmeandmakesmefeelill。IknowthatIshallbeafraidtogotobedto-night,andevenforyou,MissOgilvy,Iwon’tcomenextSunday。“
  Then,asthecarriagewasnowatthedoor,hejumpedintoitanddepartedwithoutwaitingforananswer。
  Moreover,onthenextSunday,when,asusual,itarrivedtofetchhimatKleindorf,Godfreykepthisword,sothatitwentbackempty。BythecoachmanhesentanawkwardlywordednotetoMissOgilvy,sayingthathewassufferingfromtoothachewhichhadpreventedhimfromsleepingforseveralnights,andwasnotwellenoughtocomeout。