Atfirstthistalkwithitsjargonofwordswhichhedidnotcomprehend,boredhimconsiderably,butbydegreeshefeltthathewasbeingdrawnintoavortex,andbegantounderstanditsdrift。Evenwhileitwasenigmaticitacquiredakindofunholyattractionforhim,andhebegantoseekoutitssecretmeaninginwhichhefoundthatcompanyreadyinstructors。
“Youngbrother,“saidMadameRiennes,“wedealwiththethingsnotofthebody,butofthesoul。Thebody,whatisit?Inafewyearsitwillbedustandashes,butthesoul——itiseternal——andallthosestarsyoustudyareitsinheritance,andyouandI,ifwecultivateourspiritualparts,shallruleinthem。“
Thenshewouldrollherbigeyesandbecomeinawaymagnificent,sothatGodfreyforgotheruglinessandtherepulsionwithwhichsheinspiredhim。
Intheendhisoutlookonlifeandtheworldbecamedifferent,andthisnotsomuchbecauseofwhathelearnedfromhisesotericteachers,asthroughsomechangeinhisinternalself。Hegrewtoappreciatethevastnessofthingsandtheinfinitepossibilitiesofexistence。Indeed,hisspiritualeducationwasafittingpendanttohisphysicalstudyoftheheavens,peopledwithunnumberedworlds,eachofthemthehome,doubtless,ofaninfinitevarietyoflife,andeachofthemkeepingitsawfulsecretslockedinitsfloatingorb。HetrembledinpresenceofthestupendousWhole,ofwhichthusbydegreeshebecameaware,andthoughitfrightenedhim,thoughtwithpityofthebusymillionsofmankindtowhomsuchmysteriesarenothingatall;whoarelostintheirbusinessoridleness,intheireating,drinking,sleeping,love-making,andgeneralsatisfactionoftheinstinctswhichtheypossessincommonwitheveryotheranimal。Theyearningforwisdom,thedesiretoknow,enteredhisyoungheartandpossessedit,asoncethesedidthatofSolomon,tosuchadegreeindeed,thatstandingonthethresholdofhisdays,hewouldhavepaidthemallaway,andwiththemhisshareinthiswarmandbreathingworld,couldhehavebeenassuredthatinexchangehewouldreceivethekeyofthetreasure-houseoftheInfinite。
Suchanattitudewasneitherhealthynornaturaltoanormal,vigorousladjustenteringuponmanhood,and,aswillbeseen,itdidnotendure。Likeeverythingelse,ithaditscauses。Hisastronomicalstudieswereoneofthese,butadeeperreasonwastobefoundinthoseSundayséancesattheVillaOgilvy。ForalongwhileGodfreydidnotknowwhathappenedtohimontheseoccasions。Thepartysatroundthelittletable,talkingofwonderfulthings;MadameRienneslookedathimandsometimestookhishand,whichhedidnotlike,andthenherememberednomoreuntilhewokeup,feelingtired,andyetinawayexhilarated,forwiththemysteriesofhypnoticsleephewasnotyetacquainted。Nordiditoccurtohimthathewasbeingusedamediumbycertainofthemostadvancedspiritualistsintheworld。
Bydegrees,however,inklingsofthetruthbegantocome。Thus,onedayhisconsciousnessawokewhilehisbodyseemedstilltobewraptintrance,andhesawthattherewasapersonpresentwhohadnotbeenofthepartywhenhewenttosleep。Ayoungwoman,cladinawhiterobe,withlovelyhairflowingdownherback,stoodbyhissideandheldhissupinefingersinherhand。
Shewasbeautiful,andyetunearthly,sheworeornamentsalso,butashewatched,tohisamazementtheseseemedtochange。Whathadbeenafilletofwhitestones,likediamonds,whichboundherhair,turnedtooneofredstones,likerubies,andasitdidsothecolourofhereyes,whichwerelargeandverytranquil,altered。
Shewasspeakinginalow,richvoicetoMissOgilvy,whoanswered,addressingherasSisterEleanor,butwhatshesaidGodfreycouldnotunderstand。Somethingofhisinnershockandfearmusthavereflecteditselfuponhistrance-boundfeatures,forsuddenlyheheardMadameRiennesexclaim:
“Havedone!themediumawakes,andItellyouitisdangerouswhileourGuideishere。Backtohisbreast,Eleanor!Thencetoyourplace!“
Thetallfigurechanged;itbecamemisty,shapeless。Itseemedtofallonhimlikeacloudoficyvapour,chillinghimtotheheart,andthroughthatvapourhecouldseetheormoluclockwhichstoodonabracketintherecess,andevennotethetime,whichwasthirteenminutespastfour。Afterthishebecameunconscious,andinduecoursewokeupasusual。Thefirstthinghiseyesfellonwastheclock,ofwhichthehandsnowpointedtoaquartertofive,andthesightofitbroughteverythingbacktohim。Thenheobservedthatallthecircleseemedmuchagitated,anddistinctlyheardMadameRiennessaytoProfessorPeterseninEnglish:——
“Thethingwasverynear。Haditnotbeenforthatmedicineofyours——!Itwasbecausethatspeeritdotakehishand。Shegrowfondofhim;ithappensometimesifthemediumbeoftheothersexandattractive。Shewanttocarryhimawaywithher,thatControl,andI
expectsheneverquiteleavehimallhislife,because,yousee,shematerializeoutofhim,andthereforebelongtohim。Nexttimeshecome,Igivehermymind。Hush!Ourwonderfullittlebrotherwakeup——
quiterightthistime。“
ThenGodfreyreallyopenedhiseyes;hithertohehadbeenfeigningtobestillintrance,butthoughtitwisesttosaynothing。AtthismomentMissOgilvyturnedverypaleandwentintoakindoflightfaint。
TheProfessorproducedsomekindofsmelling-bottlefromhispocket,whichheheldtohernostrils。Shecametoatonce,andbegantolaughatherownsilliness,butbeggedthemalltogoawayandleaveherquiet,whichtheydid。Godfreywasgoingtoo,butshestoppedhim,sayingthatthecarriagewouldnotbereadytillaftertea,andthatitwastoowetforhimtowalkinthegarden,fornowautumnhadcomeinearnest。Theteaarrived,asubstantialtea,withpoachedeggs,ofwhichshemadehimeattwo,asshedidalwaysafterthesesittings。
Thensuddenlysheaskedhimifhehadseenanything。Hetoldherall,adding:
“Iamfrightened。Idonotlikethisbusiness,MissOgilvy。Whoandwhatwasthatladyinwhite,whostoodbymeandheldmyhand?Myfingersarestilltingling,andacoldwindseemstoblowuponme。“
“Itwasaspirit,Godfrey,butthereisnoneedtobeafraid,shewillnotdoyouanyharm。“
“Idon’tknow,andIdon’tthinkthatyouhaveanyrighttobringspiritstome,oroutofme,asIheardthatdreadfulMadamesayhadhappened。Itisagreatliberty。“
“Oh!don’tbeangrywithme,“shesaidpiteously。“Ifonlyyouunderstood。Youareawonderfulmedium,themostwonderfulthatanyofushaseverknown,andthroughyouwehavelearnedthings;holy,marvellousthings,whichtillnowhavenotbeenheardofintheworld。
Yourfameisalreadygreatamongleadingspiritualistsoftheearth,thoughofcoursetheydonotknowwhoyouare。“
“Thatdoesnotbettermatters,“saidGodfrey,“youknowitisnotright。“
“Perhapsnot,butmydearboy,ifonlyyouguessedallitmeanstome!
Listen;Iwilltellyou;youwillnotbetrayme,willyou?OnceIwasveryfondofsomeone;hewasallmylife,andhedied,andmyheartbroke。Ionlyhopeandpraythatsuchathingmayneverhappentoyou。
Well,fromthathourtothisIhavebeentryingtofindhimandfailed,alwaysfailed,thoughonceortwiceIthought。AndnowthroughyouIhavefoundhim。Yes,hehasspokentometellingmemuchwhichprovestomethathestillliveselsewhereandawaitsme。Andoh!Iamhappy,anddonotcarehowsoonIgotojoinhim。Anditisallthroughyou。Soyouwillforgiveme,willyounot?“
“Yes,Isupposeso,“saidGodfrey,“butallthesameIdon’twanttohaveanythingmoretodowiththatwhiteladywhoiscalledEleanorandchangesherjewelssooften;especiallyasMadamesaidshewasgrowingfondofmeandwouldneverleaveme。Sopleasedon’taskmehereagainonSundays。“
MissOgilvytriedtosoothehim。
“Youshouldn’tbefrightenedofher,“shesaid。“Sheisreallyadelightfulspirit,anddeclaresthatsheknewyouveryintimatelyindeed,whenyouwereanearlyEgyptian,alsomuchbeforethatonthelostcontinent,whichiscalledAtlantis,tosaynothingofdeepfriendshipswhichhaveexistedbetweenyouinotherplanets。“
“Isay!“exclaimedGodfrey,“doyoubelieveallthis?“
“Well,ifyouaskme,ImustsaythatIdo。Iamsurethatwehaveallofuslivedmanylives,hereandelsewhere,andifthisisso,itisobviousthatinthecourseofthemwemusthavemetanenormousnumberofpeople,withcertainofwhomwehavebeencloselyassociatedinthevariousrelationshipsoflife。Someofthese,nodoubt,comeroundwithusagain,butothersdonot,thoughwecangetintotouchwiththemunderexceptionalcircumstances。ThatisyourcaseandEleanor’s。
Atpresentyouareupondifferentspheres,butinthefuture,nodoubt,youwillfindyourselvessidebysideagain,asyouhaveoftenbeen,induecoursetobedrivenapartoncemorebythewindsofDestiny,andperhaps,afterages,finallytobeunited。Meanwhilesheplaysthepartofoneofyourguardianangels。“
“ThenIwishshewouldn’t,“saidGodfrey,withvigour。“Idon’tcareforaguardianangelofwhomIhavenomemory,andwhoseemstofallonyoulikesnowuponahotday。IfanybodydoesthatkindofthingI
shouldpreferalivingwoman。“
“Whichdoubtlessshehasbeen,andwillbeagain。Foryousee,wheresheis,shehasmemoryandforeknowledge,whicharelackingtotheincarnated。Meanwhile,throughyou,andbecauseofyou,shecantellusmuch。YouarethewirewhichconnectsustoherintheUnseen。“
“ThenIhopeyouwillfindanotherwire;Ireallydo,foritupsetsmeandmakesmefeelill。IknowthatIshallbeafraidtogotobedto-night,andevenforyou,MissOgilvy,Iwon’tcomenextSunday。“
Then,asthecarriagewasnowatthedoor,hejumpedintoitanddepartedwithoutwaitingforananswer。
Moreover,onthenextSunday,when,asusual,itarrivedtofetchhimatKleindorf,Godfreykepthisword,sothatitwentbackempty。BythecoachmanhesentanawkwardlywordednotetoMissOgilvy,sayingthathewassufferingfromtoothachewhichhadpreventedhimfromsleepingforseveralnights,andwasnotwellenoughtocomeout。
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