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第1章

  MorethanthirtyyearsagotwoatomsoftheeternalEnergyspedforthfromtheheartofitwhichwecallGod,andincarnatedthemselvesinthehumanshapesthatweredestinedtoholdthemforawhile,asvasesholdperfumes,orgobletswine,orassparksofeverlastingradiuminhabitthebowelsoftherock。Perhapsthesetwoatoms,oressences,ormonadsindestructible,didbutrepeatanadventure,ormany,manyadventures。PerhapsagainandagaintheyhadproceededfromthatHomeaugustandimperishableoncertainmorningsofthedaysofTime,toreturnthitheratnoonornightfall,ladenwiththefruitsofgainedexperience。Soatleastoneofthemseemedtotelltheotherbeforeallwasdoneandthatothercametobelieve。Ifso,overwhatfieldsdidtheyroamthroughoutthe?ons,theywhohavingnoend,couldhavenobeginning?Notthoseofthisworldonly,wemaybesure。Itissosmallandtherearesomanyothers,millionsuponmillionsofthem,andsuchaninfinitevarietyofknowledgeisneededtoshapethesoulofman,eventhoughitremainasyetimperfectandbutashadowofwhatitshallbe。
  GodfreyKnightwasbornthefirst,sixmonthslatershefollowedhernamewasIsobelBlake,asthoughtosearchforhim,orbecausewhitherhewent,thithershemustcome,thatbeingherdoomandhis。
  Theircircumstances,orratherthoseoftheirparents,wereverydifferentbut,asitchanced,thehousesinwhichtheydweltstoodscarcelythreehundredyardsapart。
  BetweentheriversBlackwaterandCrouchinEssex,isagreatstretchofland,flatforthemostpartandratherdreary,which,however,tojudgefromwhattheyhaveleftus,ourancestorsthoughtofmuchimportancebecauseofitssituation,itstradeandthecornitgrew。
  Soitcameaboutthattheybuiltgreathousesthereandrearedbeautifulabbeysandchurchesforthewelfareoftheirsouls。Amongstthese,notveryfarfromthecoast,isthatofMonk’sAcre,stillabeautifulfanethoughtheybebutfewthatworshipthereto-day。TheoldAbbeyhouseadjacentisnowtherectory。Ithasbeengreatlyaltered,andtheoutbuildingsareshutuporusedasgranariesandsoforthbyarrangementwithaneighbouringfarmer。Stillitsgreywallscontainsomefinebutratherunfurnishedchambers,reputedbythevulgartobehaunted。Itwasforthisreason,sosaystradition,thatthesonoftheoriginalgranteeofMonk’sAcreAbbey,whoboughtitforasmallsumfromHenryVIIIattheDissolutionoftheMonasteries,turnedtheAbbeyhouseintoarectoryandwenthimselftodwellinanotherknownasHawk’sHall,situateonthebankofthelittlestreamofthatname,Hawk’sCreekitiscalled,whichfindsitswaytotheBlackwater。
  Parsons,hesaid,werebetterfittedtodealwithghoststhanlaymen,especiallyifthesaidlaymenhaddispossessedtheoriginalsoftheghostsoftheirearthlyheritage。
  TheancientHawk’sHall,atimberbuildingofthesortcommoninEssexassomeofitspremisesstillshow,haslongsincedisappeared。AboutthebeginningoftheVictorianeraafish-merchantofthenameofBrown,erectedonitssiteacommodious,comfortable,butparticularlyhideousmansionofwhitebrick,wherehedweltinaffluenceinthemidstofthelargeestatethathadoncebelongedtothemonks。Anattempttocornerherrings,orsomethingofthesort,broughtthisworthy,orunworthytradesmantodisaster,andtheHallwasleasedtoaHarwichsmack-ownerofthenameofBlake,ashrewdperson,whoseoriginwashumble。HehadonesonnamedJohn,ofwhomhewasdeterminedto“makeagentleman。“WiththisviewJohnwassenttoagoodpublicschool,andtocollege。Butofhimnothingcouldmakeagentleman,becausetruegentilityandhisnaturewerefarapart。Heremained,notwithstandingallhisadvantages,acunning,andinhiswayanablemanofbusiness,likehisfatherbeforehim。Fortherest,hewasbig,floridandpresentable,withthebluffandheartymannerwhichsometimesdistinguishesa/fauxbonhomme/。“HonestJohn“theycalledhimintheneighbourhood,asoubriquetwhichwasofservicetohiminmanyways。
  SuddenlyHonestJohn’sfatherdied,leavinghimwelloff,thoughnotsorichashewouldhavelikedtobe。AtfirsthethoughtofleavingHawk’sHallandgoingtoliveatHarwich,wheremostofhisbusinessinterestswere。But,rememberingthattheoccupationofitgavehimacertainstandinginthecounty,whereasinHarwichhewouldhavebeenonlyasuperiortradesman,hegaveuptheidea。Itwasreplacedbyanother——tomarrywell。
  NowJohnBlakewasnotanidealist,norinanysenseromantic;
  therefore,frommarriageheexpectedlittle。Hedidnotevenaskthathiswifeshouldbegood-looking,knowingthatanyaspirationswhichhehadtowardsbeautycouldbesatisfiedotherwise。Nordidheseekmoney,beingwellawarethathecouldmakethisforhimself。Whathedesiredwerebirthandassociations。Afteralittlewaitinghefoundexactlywhathewanted。
  AcertainLordLynfieldfromtheSouthofEngland,wholivedinLondon,andwasadirectorofmanyBoards,tookapheasant-shootingintheneighbourhoodofHawk’sHall,andwithitahouse。Herehelivedmoreorlessduringthewintermonths,goinguptotownwhennecessary,toattendhisBoards。LordLynfieldwascursedwithseveralextravagantsons,withwhomJohnBlake,whowasagoodshot,soonbecamefriendly。Alsohemadehimselfusefulbylendingoneofthemaconsiderablesumofmoney。WhenthiscametoLordLynfield’sears,asHonestJohnwascarefulthatitshould,hewasdisturbedandofferedrepayment,thoughasamatteroffacthedidnotknowwheretoturnforthecash。InhisbluffestandheartiestwayBlakerefusedtohearofsuchathing。
  “No,no,myLord,letitstand。Yoursonwillrepaymeoneday,andifhedoesn’t,whatwillatriflelikethatmatter?“
  “Hecertainlyshallrepayyou。Butallthesame,Mr。Blake,youhavebehavedverywellandIthankyoumuch,“repliedhisLordshipcourteously。
  ThusdidJohnBlakebecomeanintimateofthataristocraticfamily。
  NowLordLynfield,whowasawidower,hadoneunmarrieddaughter。Shewasanoddandtimidlittleperson,withstrongreligiousviews,whoadoredsecretlyahigh-churchcurateinLondon。This,indeed,wasthereasonwhyshehadbeenbroughttoEssexwhenherinfatuationwasdiscoveredbyoneofhermarriedsisters,who,liketherestofthefamily,wasextremely“low。“LadyJanewassmallinbodyandshrinkinganddelicateincharacter,somewhatmouselikeindeed。Evenhereyeswerelargeandtimidasarethoseofamouse。InherJohnBlakeperceivedtheexact/parti/whomhedesiredforawife。
  Itisnotnecessarytofollowthepitifulstorytoitsinevitableend,one,happily,morecommonatthattimethanitisto-day。Mr。Blakeplayedtheearnest,ardentlover,andonalloccasionsproclaimedhisownunworthinessatthetopofhisloudvoice。Alsohehintedatlargesettlementstothemarriedsisters,whoputthematterbeforeJaneveryplainlyindeed。Intheend,afterafewwordswithherfather,whopointedoutthattheprovisionwhichcouldbemadeforherwasbutsmall,andthathewoulddiemorehappilyifheknewhertobecomfortablysettledinlifewithareallytrustworthyandgenerousmansuchasMr。Blakehadprovedhimselftobe,shegaveway,andinduecoursetheyweremarried。
  Infact,thetragedywascomplete,sinceJaneloathedherhusband,whoserealnatureshehadreadfromthebeginning,asmuchassheadoredthehigh-churchcuratefromwhominsometerriblehourshepartedwithbrokenwords。Evenwhenhediedafewyearslater,shecontinuedtoadorehim,somuchthatheronehopewasthatshemightmeethimagaininthelandwherethereisnomarryingorgivinginmarriage。Butallofthisshekeptlockedinherpoorlittleheart,andmeanwhiledidherdutybyherhusbandwithanuntroubledbrow,thoughthosemouse-likeeyesofhersgrewevermorepiteous。
  He,forhispart,didnotdohisdutybyher。Ofonesideofhisconductshewascareless,beingtotallyindifferentastowhomheadmired。Othersshefoundithardtobear。Themanwasbynatureabully,onewhofoundpleasureinoppressingthehelpless,andwholoved,intheprivacyofhishome,towreaktheill-temperwhichhewasforcedtoconcealabroad。Incompany,andespeciallybeforeanyofherpeople,hetreatedherwiththegreatestdeference,andwouldevenmakeloudlaudatoryremarksconcerningher;whentheywerealonetherewasadifferenttaletotell,particularlyifshehadinanywayfailedinpromotingthatsocialadvancementforwhichhehadmarriedher。
  “WhatdoyousupposeIgiveyouallthosejewelsandfineclothesfor,tosaynothingofthemoneyyouwasteinkeepingupthehouse?“hewouldaskbrutally。
  Janemadenoanswer;silencewasheronlyshield,butherheartburnedwithinher。Itisprobable,notwithstandinghersomewhatexaggeratedideasofdutyandwifelyobedience,thatshewouldhavepluckeduphercourageandlefthim,evenifshemustearnherownlivingasasempstress,haditnotbeenforonecircumstance。Thatcircumstancewasthearrivalintheworldofherdaughter,Isobel。Insomewaysthiseventdidnotaddtoherhappiness,ifthatcanbeaddedtowhichdoesnotexist,forthereasonthatherhusbandneverforgaveherbecausethischild,heronlyone,wasnotaboy。Nordidheloseanyopportunityoftellingherthistoherface,asthoughthematterwereoneoverwhichshehadcontrol。Inothers,however,forthefirsttimeinherbatteredlittlelife,shedrankdeepofthecupofjoy。Shelovedthatinfant,andfromthefirstitlovedherandheronly,whiletothefatheritwasindifferent,andattimesantagonistic。
  FromthecradleIsobelshowedherselftobeanindividualofcharacter。Evenasalittlegirlsheknewwhatshewantedandformedherownopinionsquiteindependentlyofthoseofothers。Moreover,inacertainwayshewasagood-lookingchild,butofastamptotallydifferentfromthatofeitherofherparents。Hereyeswerenotrestlessandprominent,likeherfather’s,ordarkandplaintive,likehermother’s,butlarge,greyandsteady,withlongcurvedlashes。Infact,theywerefine,butitwasheronlybeauty,sincethebrowabovethemwasalmosttoopronouncedforthatofawoman,themouthwasalittlelarge,andthenosesomewhatirregular。Herhair,too,thoughlongandthick,wasstraightandratherlight-coloured。Fortherestshewaswell-groundandvigorous,withastrong,fullvoice,andassheapproachedmaturityshedevelopedafinefigure。
  WhenshewasnotmuchmorethantenIsobelhadherfirsttroublewithherfather。Somethinghadgonewrongwithoneofhisshippingspeculations,andasusual,heventedituponhiswife。Socruellydidhespeaktoheronahouseholdmatterforwhichshewasnottheleasttoblame,thatthepoorwomanatlastroseandlefttheroomtohidehertears。Isobel,however,remainedbehind,andwalkinguptoherfather,whostoodwithhisbacktothefire,askedhimwhyhetreatedhermotherthus。
  “Mindyourownbusiness,youimpertinentbrat,“heanswered。
  “Mummyismybusiness,andyouare——abrute,“sheexclaimed,clenchingherlittlefists。Heliftedhishandasthoughtostrikeher,thenchangedhismindandwentaway。Shehadconquered。ThenceforwardMr。
  BlakewascarefulnottomaltreathiswifeinIsobel’spresence。Hecomplainedtoher,however,ofthechild’sconduct,which,hesaid,wasduetoherbringingupandencouragement,andLadyJaneinturn,scoldedherinhergentlefashionforher“wickedwords。“
  Isobellistened,thenasked,withoutattemptingtodefendherself,“Werenotfather’swordstoyouwickedalso,Mummy?ItwasnotyourfaultifJamesforgottobringroundthedog-cartandmadehimmissthetraintoLondon。Oughtyoutobeswornatforthat?“
  “No,dear,butyousee,heismyhusband,andhusbandscansaywhattheywishtotheirwives。“
  “ThenIwillneverhaveahusband;atleast,notonelikefather,“
  Isobelannouncedwithdecision。
  Therethematterended。Orratheritdidnotend,sincefromthatmomentIsobelbegantoreflectmuchonmatrimonyandothercivilizedinstitutions,astowhichatlastsheformedviewsthatwerenotcommonamonggirlsofhergeneration。Inshort,shetookthefirststeptowardsRadicalism,andenteredontheroadofrebellionagainsttheExistingandAcknowledged。