Ihaveknownafogforafortnightatthesummersolstice,andfarmerstalkinginchurchaboutitwhentheyoughttobepraying。Butitalwayscontrivestocomerightintheend,asothervisitationsdo,ifwetakethemastruevisits,andreceivethemkindly。
NowthisfarmofSquireFaggusashetrulynowhadarighttobecalledwasoftheveryfinestpasture,whenitgotgoodstoreofrain。AndTom,whohadriddentheDevonshireroadswithmanyareekingjacket,knewrightwellthathemighttrusttheclimateforthatmatter。Theherbagewasoftheverysweetest,andtheshortest,andtheclosest,havingperhapsfromtentoeighteeninchesofwholesomesoilbetweenitandthesolidrock。Tomsawatoncewhatitwasfitfor——thebreedingoffinecattle。
Beingsuchahandashewasatmakingthemostofeverything,bothhisownandotherpeople’salthoughsofreeinscattering,whenthehumourlayuponhimhehadactuallyturnedtohisownadvantagethatextraordinaryweatherwhichhadsoimpoverishedeveryonearoundhim。ForhetaughthisWinniewhoknewhismeaningaswellasanychildcould,andobeyednotonlyhiswordofmouth,buteveryglancebegavehertogoforthinthesnowyeveningswhenhorsesareseekingeverywherebetheywildortameforfodderandforshelter;andtowhinnytotheforestponies,milesawayfromhomeperhaps,andleadthemallwithrareappetitesandpromiseofabundance,tohermaster’shomestead。HeshodgoodWinnieinsuchamannerthatshecouldnotsinkinthesnow;andhecladherovertheloinswithasheep-skindyedtoherowncolour,whichthewildhorseswerenevertiredofcomingupandsniffingat;takingitforanespecialgift,andproofofinspiration。AndWinnienevercamehomeatnightwithoutatleastascoreofponiestrottingshylyafterher,tossingtheirheadsandtheirtailsinturn,andmakingbelievetobeverywild,althoughhardpinchedbyfamine。OfcourseTomwouldgetthemallintohispoundinaboutfiveminutes,forhehimselfcouldneighinamannerwhichwenttotheheartofthewildesthorse。Andthenhefedthemwell,andturnedthemintohisgreatcattlepen,toabidetheirtimeforbreaking,whenthesnowandfrostshouldbeover。
Hehadgottenmorethanthreehundrednow,inthissagaciousmanner;andhesaiditwasthefinestsighttoseetheirmodeofcarryingon,howtheywouldsnort,andstamp,andfume,andpricktheirears,andrushbackwards,andlashthemselveswiththeirlongroughtails,andshaketheirjaggedmanes,andscream,andfallupononeanother,ifastrangemancameanighthem。Butasforfeedingtime,Tomsaiditwasbetterthanfiftyplaystowatchthem,andthetrickstheywereupto,tocheattheirfeeders,andoneanother。I
askedhimhowonearthhehadmanagedtogetfodder,insuchimpassableweather,forsuchaherdofhorses;buthesaidthattheyliveduponstrawandsawdust;andheknewthatIdidnotbelievehim,anymorethanabouthisstar-shavings。Andthiswasjustthethingheloved——tomystifyhonestpeople,andbeagreatdealtooknowing。However,Imayjudgehimharshly,becauseImyselftelleverything。
Iaskedhimwhathemeanttodowithallthatenormouslotofhorses,andwhyhehadnotexertedhiswitstocatchthereddeeraswell。Hesaidthatthelatterwouldhavebeenagainstthelawsofvenery,andmighthavebroughthimintotrouble,butasfordisposingofhisstud,itwouldgivehimlittledifficulty。Hewouldbreakthem,whenthespringweathercameon,anddealwiththemastheyrequired,andkeepthehandsomestforbreeding。TheresthewoulddespatchtoLondon,whereheknewplentyofhorse-dealers;andhedoubtednotthattheywouldfetchhimasmuchastenpoundsapieceallround,beingnowingreatdemand。I
toldhimIwishedthathemightgetit;butasitprovedafterwards,hedid。
Thenhepressedusbothonanotherpoint,thetimeforhismarriagetoAnnie;andmotherlookedatmetosaywhen,andIlookedbackatmother。However,knowingsomethingoftheworld,andunabletomakeanyfurtherobjection,byreasonofhisprosperity,Isaidthatwemustevendoasthefashionablepeopledid,andallowthemaidherselftosettle,whenshewouldleavehomeandall。AndthisIspokewithaverybadgrace,beingperhapsofanancientcast,andoverfondofhonesty——I
mean,ofcourse,amonglowerpeople。
ButTompaidlittleheedtothis,knowingtheworldagreatdealbetterthaneverIcouldpretendtodo;andbeingreadytotakeathing,uponwhichhehadsethismind,whetheritcamewithagoodgrace,orwhetheritcamewithabadone。Andseeingthatitwouldbeawkwardtoprovokemyanger,helefttheroom,beforemorewords,tosubmithimselftoAnnie。
UponthisIwentinsearchofLorna,totellherofourcousin’sarrival,andtoaskwhethershewouldthinkfittoseehim,ortodinebyherselfthatday;forsheshoulddoexactlyasitpleasedherineverything,whileremainingstillourguest。ButIratherwishedthatshemightchoosenottositinTom’scompany,thoughshemightbeintroducedtohim。Notbutwhathecouldbehavequiteaswellascould,andmuchbetter,asregardedeleganceandassurance,onlythathishonestyhadnotbeenasonemightdesire。ButLornahadsomecuriositytoknowwhatthisfamousmanwaslike,anddeclaredthatshewouldbyallmeanshavethepleasureofdiningwithhim,ifhedidnotobjecttohercompanyonthegroundoftheDoones’dishonesty;
moreover,shesaidthatitwouldseemamostfoolishaironherpart,andonewhichwouldcausethegreatestpaintoAnnie,whohadbeensogoodtoher,ifsheshouldrefusetositattablewithamanwhoheldtheKing’spardon,andwasnowapatternofhonesty。
AgainstthisIhadnotawordtosay;andcouldnothelpacknowledginginmyheartthatshewasright,aswellaswise,inherdecision。AndafterwardsI
discoveredthatmotherwouldhavebeenmuchdispleased,ifshehaddecidedotherwise。
Accordinglysheturnedaway,withoneofherverysweetestsmileswhosebeautynonecandescribesayingthatshemustnotmeetamanofsuchfashionandrenown,inhercommongardeningfrock;butmusttrytolookasniceasshecould,ifonlyinhonourofdearAnnie。Andtruthtotell,whenshecametodinner,everythingaboutherwastheneatestandprettiestthatcanpossiblybeimagined。Shecontrivedtomatchthecoloursso,tosuitoneanotherandherown,andyetwithacertaindelicateharmonyofcontrast,andtheshapeofeverythingwassonice,sothatwhenshecameintotheroom,withacrownofwinningmodestyupontheconsciousnessofbeauty,IwasquiteasproudasiftheQueenofEnglandentered。
Mymothercouldnothelpremarking,thoughsheknewthatitwasnotmannerly,howlikeaprincessLornalooked,nowshehadherbestthingson;buttwothingscaughtSquireFaggus’seyes,afterhehadmadeamostgallantbow,andreceivedamostgracefulcourtesy;andhekepthisbrightboldgazeuponthem,firstonone,andthenontheother,untilmydarlingwashotwithblushes,andIwasreadytoknockhimdownifhehadnotbeenourvisitor。ButhereagainIshouldhavebeenwrong,asIwasapttobeinthosedays;forTomintendednoharmwhatever,andhisgazewasofpurecuriosity;thoughAnnieherselfwasvexedwithit。Thetwoobjectsofhiscloseregard,werefirst,andmostworthily,Lorna’sface,andsecondly,theancientnecklacerestoredtoherbySirEnsorDoone。
Nowwishingtosavemydarling’scomfort,andtokeepthingsquiet,Ishoutedoutthatdinnerwasready,sothathalftheparishcouldhearme;uponwhichmymotherlaughed,andchidme,anddespatchedherguestsbeforeher。Andaverygooddinnerwemade,I
remember,andaveryhappyone;attendingtothewomenfirst,asnowisthemannerofeating;exceptamongtheworkmen。Withthem,ofcourse,itisneedfulthatthemanwhohashishoursfixedshouldbeservedfirst,andmaketheutmostofhistimeforfeeding,whilethewomenmaygoon,asmuchasevertheyplease,afterwards。Butwithus,whoarenotboundtotime,thereisnosuchreasontobequoted;andthewomenbeingtheweakervessels,shouldbethefirsttobegintofill。Andsowealwaysarrangedit。
Now,thoughourAnniewasagracefulmaid,andLizzieaverylearnedone,youshouldhaveseenhowdifferentlyLornamanagedherdining;shenevertookmorethanaboutaquarterofamouthfulatatime,andsheneverappearedtobechewingthat,althoughshemusthavedoneso。Indeed,sheappearedtodineasifitwereamatterofnoconsequence,andasifshecouldthinkofotherthingsmorethanofherbusiness。Allthis,andherownmannerofeating,IdescribedtoElizaonce,whenIwantedtovexherforsomethingveryspitefulthatshehadsaid;andIneversucceededsowellbefore,forthegirlwasquiteoutrageous,havingherownperceptionofit,whichmademyobservationtentimesasbittertoher。AndIamnotsurebutwhatsheceasedtolikepoorLornafromthatday;andifso,I
wasquitepaidout,asIwelldeserved,formybitofsatire。
Foritstrikesmethatofallhumandealings,satireistheverylowest,andmostmeanandcommon。Itistheequivalentinwordsofwhatbullyingisindeeds;andnomorebespeaksacleverman,thantheotherdoesabraveone。Thesetwowretchedtricksexaltafoolinhisownlowesteem,butneverinhisneighbour’s;forthedeepcommonsenseofournaturetellsthatnomanofagenialheart,orofanyspreadofmind,cantakeprideineither。Andthoughagoodmanmaycommittheonefaultortheother,nowandthen,bywayofoutlet,heissuretohavecompunctionssoon,andtoscornhimselfmorethanthesufferer。
Nowwhentheyoungmaidensweregone——forwehadquiteahighdinneroffashionthatday,withBettyMuxworthywaiting,andGwennyCarfaxatthegravy——andonlymother,andTom,andIremainedatthewhitedealtable,withbrandy,andschnapps,andhotwaterjugs;
SquireFaggussaidquitesuddenly,andperhapsonpurposetotakeusaback,incaseofourhidinganything,——’Whatdoyouknowofthehistoryofthatbeautifulmaiden,goodmother?’
’Nothalfsomuchasmysondoes,’motheranswered,withasoftsmileatme;’andwhenJohndoesnotchoosetotellathing,wildhorseswillnotpullitoutofhim。’
’Thatisnotatalllikeme,mother,’Irepliedrathersadly;’youknowalmosteverywordaboutLorna,quiteaswellasIdo。’
’Almosteveryword,Ibelieve,John;foryounevertellafalsehood。Butthefewunknownmaybeofallthemostimportanttome。’
TothisImadenoanswer,forfearofgoingbeyondthetruth,orelseofmakingmischief。NotthatIhad,orwishedtohave,anymysterywithmother;neitherwasthereinpuresttruth,anymysteryinthematter;totheutmostofmyknowledge。AndtheonlythingsthatI
hadkeptback,solelyformother’scomfort,werethedeathofpoorLordAlanBrandirifindeedheweredeadandtheconnectionofMarwooddeWhichehalsewiththedealingsoftheDoones,andthethreatsofCarverDooneagainstmyownprosperity;and,maybe,oneortwolittlethingsharrowingmorethanedifying。
’Come,come,’saidMasterFaggus,smilingverypleasantly,’youtwounderstandeachother,ifanytwoonearthdo。Ah,ifIhadonlyhadamother,howdifferentImighthavebeen!’Andwiththathesighed,inthetonewhichalwaysovercamemotheruponthatsubject,andhadsomethingtodowithhisgettingAnnie;andthenheproducedhisprettybox,fullofrolledtobacco,andofferedmeone,asInowhadjoinedthegoodlycompanyofsmokers。SoItookit,andwatchedwhathedidwithhisown,lestImightgowrongaboutmine。
Butwhenourcylinderswerebothlighted,andI
enjoyingminewonderfully,andastonishingmotherbymyskill,TomFaggustoldusthathewassurehehadseenmyLorna’sfacebefore,manyandmanyyearsago,whenshewasquitealittlechild,buthecouldnotrememberwhereitwas,oranythingmoreaboutitatpresent;
thoughhewouldtrytodosoafterwards。Hecouldnotbemistaken,hesaid,forhehadnoticedhereyesespecially;andhadneverseensucheyesbefore,neitheragain,untilthisday。IaskedhimifhehadeverventuredintotheDoone-valley;butheshookhishead,andrepliedthathevaluedhislifeadealtoomuchforthat。Thenweputittohim,whetheranythingmightassisthismemory;buthesaidthatheknewnotofaughttodoso,unlessitwereanotherglassofschnapps。
Thisbeingprovided,hegrewverywise,andtoldusclearlyandcandidlythatwewerebothveryfoolish。
ForhesaidthatwewerekeepingLorna,attherisknotonlyofourstock,andthehouseaboveourheads,butalsoofourpreciouslives;andafterallwassheworthit,althoughsoverybeautiful?UponwhichItoldhim,withindignation,thatherbeautywastheleastpartofhergoodness,andthatIwouldthankhimforhisopinionwhenIhadrequestedit。
’Bravo,ourJohnRidd!’heanswered;’foolswillbefoolstilltheendofthechapter;andImightbeasbigaone,ifIwereinthyshoes,John。Nevertheless,inthenameofGod,don’tletthathelplesschildgoaboutwithathingworthhalfthecountyonher。’
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