’Mother,Iwillhaveitout,’wasallthatIcouldanswerher;’leavehertomealtogether;onlyyousitthereandwatch。’ForIfeltthatLornaknewme,andnoothersoulbutme;andthatifnotinterferedwith,shewouldsooncomehometome。ThereforeIsatgentlybyher,leavingnature,asitwere,toherowngoodtimeandwill。Andpresentlytheglancethatwatchedme,asatdistanceandindoubt,begantoflutterandtobrighten,andtodeepenintokindness,thentobeamwithtrustandlove,andthenwithgatheringtearstofalter,andinshametoturnaway。Butthesmallentreatinghandsfoundtheirway,asifbyinstinct,tomygreatprojectingpalms;andtrembledthere,andrestedthere。
Foralittlewhilewelingeredthus,neitherwishingtomoveaway,neithercaringtolookbeyondthepresenceoftheother;bothalikesofullofhope,andcomfort,andtruehappiness;ifonlytheworldwouldletusbe。
Andthenalittlesobdisturbedus,andmothertriedtomakebelievethatshewasonlycoughing。ButLorna,guessingwhoshewas,jumpedupsoveryrashlythatshealmostsetherfrockonfirefromthegreatashlog;
andawaysherantotheoldoakchair,wheremotherwasbytheclock-casepretendingtobeknitting,andshetooktheworkfrommother’shands,andlaidthembothuponherhead,kneelinghumbly,andlookingup。
’Godblessyou,myfairmistress!’saidmother,bendingnearer,andthenasLorna’sgazeprevailed,’Godblessyou,mysweetchild!’
Andsoshewenttomother’sheartbytheverynearestroad,evenasshehadcometomine;Imeantheroadofpity,smoothedbygrace,andyouth,andgentleness。
JeremyStickleswasgonesouth,ereeverthefrostsetin,forthepurposeofmusteringforcestoattacktheDooneGlen。But,ofcourse,thisweatherhadputastoptoeverykindofmovement;forevenifmencouldhavebornethecold,theycouldscarcelybebroughttofacetheperilsofthesnow-drifts。AndtotellthetruthIcarednothowlongthisweatherlasted,solongaswehadenoughtoeat,andcouldkeepourselvesfromfreezing。NotonlythatIdidnotwantMasterSticklesbackagain,tomakemoredisturbances;butalsothattheDoonescouldnotcomeprowlingafterLornawhilethesnowlaypiledbetweenus,withthesurfacesoftanddry。Ofcoursetheywouldverysoondiscoverwheretheirlawfulqueenwas,althoughthetrackofsleddandsnow-shoeshadbeenquiteobliteratedbyanothershower,beforetherevellerscouldhavegrownhalfasdrunkastheyintended。ButMarwooddeWhichehalse,whohadbeensnowedupamongthemasGwennysaid,afterhelpingtostripthebeacon,thatyoungSquirewasalmostcertaintohaverecognisedme,andtohavetoldthevileCarver。AnditgavemenolittlepleasuretothinkhowmadthatCarvermustbewithme,forrobbinghimofthelovelybridewhomhewasstarvingintomatrimony。However,Iwasnotpleasedatallwiththeprospectoftheconsequences;butsetallhandsontothreshthecorn,eretheDoonescouldcomeandburnthericks。ForIknewthattheycouldnotcomeyet,inasmuchasevenaforestponycouldnottraversethecountry,muchlesstheheavyhorsesneededtocarrysuchmenastheywere。Andhundredsoftheforestponiesdiedinthishardweather,somebeingburiedinthesnow,andmoreofthemstarvedforwantofgrass。
Goingthroughthisstateofthings,andlayingdownthelawaboutitsubjecttocorrection,IverysoonpersuadedLornathatforthepresentshewassafe,andwhichmadeherstillmorehappythatshewasnotonlywelcome,butasgladdeningtooureyesastheflowersofMay。Ofcourse,sofarasregardedmyself,thiswasnotahundredthpartoftherealtruth;andevenasregardedothers,Imighthavesaidittentimesover。
ForLornahadsowonthemall,byherkindandgentleways,andhermodeofhearkeningtoeverybody’strouble,andreplyingwithoutwords,aswellasbyherbeauty,andsimplegraceofallthings,thatIcouldalmostwishsometimestherestwouldleavehermoretome。Butmothercouldnotdoenough;andAnniealmostworshippedher;andevenLizziecouldnotkeepherbitternesstowardsher;especiallywhenshefoundthatLornaknewasmuchofbooksasneedbe。
AsforJohnFry,andBetty,andMolly,theywereaperfectplaguewhenLornacameintothekitchen。ForbetwixttheircuriositytoseealiveDooneinthefleshwhencertainnottoeatthem,andtheirhighrespectforbirthwithorwithouthonesty,andtheirintensedesiretoknowallaboutMasterJohn’ssweetheartdropped,astheysaid,fromthesnow-clouds,andmostofalltheiradmirationofabeautysuchasnevereventheirangelscouldhaveseen——betwixtandbetweenallthis,Isay,therewasnogettingthedinnercooked,withLornainthekitchen。
AndtheworstofitwasthatLornatookthestrangestofallstrangefanciesforthisverykitchen;anditwashardtokeepheroutofit。Notthatshehadanyspecialbentforcooking,asourAnniehad;ratherindeedthecontrary,forshelikedtohaveherfoodreadycooked;butthatshelovedthelookoftheplace,andthecheerfulfireburning,andtheracksofbacontobeseen,andtherichness,andthehomeliness,andthepleasantsmellofeverything。Andwhoknowsbutwhatshemayhavelikedastheverybestofmaidensdotobeadmired,nowandthen,betweenthetimesofbusiness?
ThereforeifyouwantedLornaasIwasalwayssuretodo,Godknowshowmanytimesaday,theverysurestplacetofindherwasourownoldkitchen。Notgossiping,Imean,norloitering,neitherseekingintothings,butseemingtobequiteathome,asifshehadknownitfromachild,andseemingtomyeyesatleasttolightitup,andmakelifeandcolouroutofallthedullness;asIhaveseenthebreakingsundoamongbrownshocksofwheat。
Butanyonewhowishedtolearnwhethergirlscanchangeornot,asthethingsaroundthemchangewhileyettheirheartsaresteadfast,andforeveranchored,heshouldjusthaveseenmyLorna,afterafortnightofourlife,andfreedomfromanxiety。Itispossiblethatmycompany——althoughIamaccountedstupidbyfolkwhodonotknowmyway——mayhavehadsomethingtodowithit;butuponthisIwillnotsaymuch,lestIlosemycharacter。Andindeed,asregardscompany,Ihadallthethreshingtoseeto,andmorethanhalftodomyselfthoughanyonewouldhavethoughtthatevenJohnFrymustworkhardthisweather,elseIcouldnothopeatalltogetourcornintosuchcompassthatagoodgunmightprotectit。
ButtocomebacktoLornaagainwhichIalwayslongedtodo,andmustlongforever,allthechangebetweennightandday,alltheshiftsofcloudandsun,allthedifferencebetweenblackdeathandbrightsomeliveliness,scarcelymaysuggestorequalLorna’stransformation。Quickshehadalwaysbeenand’peart’
aswesayonExmoorandgiftedwithaleapofthoughttooswiftformetofollow;andhenceyoumayfindfaultwithmuch,whenIreporthersayings。Butthroughthewholehadalwaysrun,asablackstringgoesthroughpearls,somethingdarkandtouchedwithshadow,colouredaswithanearlyend。
But,now,behold!therewasnoneofthis!Therewasnogettingher,foramoment,eventobeserious。Allherbrightyoungwitwasflashing,likeanewly-awakenedflame,andallherhighyoungspiritsleaped,asifdancingtoitsfire。Andyetsheneverspokeawordwhichgavemorepainthanpleasure。
Andeveninheroutwardlooktherewasmuchofdifference。Whetheritwasourwarmth,andfreedom,andourharmlessloveofGod,andtrustinoneanother;
orwhetheritwereourair,andwater,andthepea-fedbacon;anyhowmyLornagrewricherandmorelovely,moreperfectandmorefirmoffigure,andmorelightandbuoyant,witheverypassingdaythatlaiditstributeonhercheeksandlips。Iwasallowedonekissaday;onlyoneformanners’sake,becauseshewasourvisitor;andImighthaveitbeforebreakfast,orelsewhenIcametosay’good-night!’accordingasI
decided。AndIdecidedeverynight,nottotakeitinthemorning,butputitofftilltheeveningtime,andhavethepleasuretothinkabout,throughallthedayofworking。Butwhenmydarlingcameuptomeintheearlydaylight,fresherthanthedaystar,andwithnoonelooking;onlyherbrighteyessmiling,andsweetlipsquiteready,wasitlikelyIcouldwait,andthinkalldayaboutit?ForsheworeafrockofAnnie’s,nicelymadetofither,takeninatthewaistandcurved——Inevercouldexplainit,notbeingamantua-maker;butIknowhowherfigurelookedinit,andhowitcametowardsme。
Butthisisneitherherenorthere;andImustonwithmystory。Thosedaysareverysacredtome,andifI
speaklightlyofthem,trustme,’tiswithlipalone;
whilefromheartreproachpeepssadlyattheflippanttricksofmind。
Althoughitwasthelongestwintereverknowninourpartsneverhavingceasedtofreezeforasinglenight,andscarcelyforasingleday,fromthemiddleofDecembertillthesecondweekinMarch,tomeitwastheveryshortestandthemostdelicious;andverilyIdobelieveitwasthesametoLorna。ButwhentheIdesofMarchwerecomeofwhichIdoremembersomethingdimfromschool,andsomethingclearfrommyfavouritewriterlo,therewereincreasingsignalsofachangeofweather。
Oneleadingfeatureofthatlongcold,andathingremarkedbyeveryonehoweverunobservanthadbeenthehollowmoaningsoundeverpresentintheair,morning,noon,andnight-time,andespeciallyatnight,whetheranywindwerestirring,orwhetheritwereaperfectcalm。Ourpeoplesaidthatitwasawitchcursingallthecountryfromthecavernsbythesea,andthatfrostandsnowwouldlastuntilwecouldcatchanddrownher。Buttheland,beingthoroughlyblockedwithsnow,andtheinshorepartsoftheseawithicefloatingingreatfieldsalong,MotherMelldrumifsheitwerehadthecavernsalltoherself,fortherewasnogettingather。Andspeakingofthesearemindsmeofathingreportedtous,andongoodauthority;
thoughpeoplemightbefoundhereafterwhowouldnotbelieveit,unlessItoldthemthatfromwhatImyselfbeheldofthechannelIplaceperfectfaithinit:andthisis,thatadozensailorsatthebeginningofMarchcrossedtheice,withtheaidofpolesfromClevedontoPenarth,orwheretheHolmrocksbarredtheflotage。
Butnow,aboutthetenthofMarch,thatmiserablemoaningnoise,whichhadbothforegoneandaccompaniedtherigour,diedawayfromouttheair;andwe,beingnowsousedtoit,thoughtatfirstthatwemustbedeaf。Andthenthefog,whichhadhungabouteveninfullsunshinevanished,andtheshroudedhillsshoneforthwithbrightnessmanifold。Andnowtheskyatlengthbegantocometoitstruemanner,whichwehadnotseenformonths,amixtureifIsomayspeakofvariousexpressions。WhereastillnowfromAllhallows-tide,sixweekserethegreatfrostsetin,theheavenshadwornoneheavymaskofashengraywhenclouded,orelseoneamethystinetingewithahazyrim,whencloudless。Soitwaspleasanttobehold,afterthatmonotony,thefickleskywhichsuitsourEngland,thoughabusedbyforeignfolk。
Andsoonthedappledsofteningskygavesomeearnestofitsmood;forabrisksouthwindarose,andtheblessedraincamedriving,coldindeed,yetmostrefreshingtotheskin,allparchedwithsnow,andtheeyeballssolongdazzled。NeitherwastheheartmoresluggishinitsthankfulnesstoGod。Peoplehadbeguntothink,andsomebodyhadprophesied,thatweshouldhavenospringthisyear,noseed-time,andnoharvest;forthattheLordhadsentajudgmentonthiscountryofEngland,andthenationdwellinginit,becauseofthewickednessoftheCourt,andtheencouragementshowntoPapists。Andthiswasproved,theysaid,bywhathadhappenedinthetownofLondon;where,formorethanafortnight,suchachillofdarknesslaythatnomanmightbeholdhisneighbour,evenacrossthenarroweststreet;andwheretheiceupontheThameswasmorethanfourfeetthick,andcrushingLondonBridgeintwain。
NowtotheseprophetsIpaidnoheed,believingnotthatProvidencewouldfreezeusforotherpeople’ssins;neitherseeinghowEnglandcouldformanygenerationshaveenjoyedgoodsunshine,ifPoperymeantfrostandfogs。Besides,whycouldnotProvidencesettlethebusinessonceforallbyfreezingthePopehimself;eventhoughaccordingtoourviewheweredestinedtoextremesofheat,togetherwithallwhofollowedhim?
Nottomeddlewiththatsubject,beingbeyondmyjudgment,letmetellthethingsIsaw,andthenyoumustbelieveme。Thewind,ofcourse,Icouldnotsee,nothavingthepowersofapig;butIcouldseetheladenbranchesofthegreatoaksmoving,hopingtoshakeofftheloadpackedandsaddledonthem。AndherebyImaynoteathingwhichsomeonemayexplainperhapsintheafterages,whenpeoplecometolookatthings。Thisisthatindesperatecoldallthetreeswerepulledawry,eventhoughthewindhadscatteredthesnowburdenfromthem。Ofsomesortsthebranchesbendeddownwards,likeanarchway;ofothersortstheboughscurvedupwards,likeareddeer’sfrontlet。
ThisIknownoreason*for;butamreadytoswearthatIsawit。
*Thereasonisverysimple,asallnature’sreasonsare;thoughthesubjecthasnotyetbeeninvestigatedthoroughly。Insometreesthevasculartissueismoreopenontheupperside,inothersontheunderside,ofthespreadingbranches;accordingtotheformofgrowth,andhabitofthesap。Henceinveryseverecold,whenthevesselscomparativelyemptyareconstricted,somehavemorepowerofcontractionontheupperside,andsomeupontheunder。
Nowwhenthefirstoftherainbegan,andtheoldfamiliarsoftnessspreaduponthewindowglass,andranalittlewayinchannelsthoughfromthecoldnessoftheglassitfrozebeforereachingthebottom,knowingatoncethedifferencefromtheshortsharpthudofsnow,weallranout,andfilledoureyesandfilledourheartswithgazing。True,thesnowwaspiledupnowallinmountainsroundus;true,theairwasstillsocoldthatourbreathfrozeonthedoorway,andtherainwasturnedtoicewhereveritstruckanything;
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