’Oh,John,hereisthemostwonderfulthing!Motherhasnevershownitbefore;andIcan’tthinkhowshecouldmakeuphermind。Shehadgottenitinagreatwellofacupboard,withcamphor,andspirits,andlavender。
Lizziesaysitisamostmagnificentsealskincloak,worthfiftypounds,orafarthing。’
’Atanyrateitissoftandwarm,’saidI,verycalmlyflingingitintothebottomofthesledd。’TellmotherIwillputitoverLorna’sfeet。’
’Lorna’sfeet!Oh,yougreatfool,’criedAnnie,forthefirsttimerevilingme;’overhershoulders;andbeproud,youverystupidJohn。’
’Itisnotgoodenoughforherfeet,’Ianswered,withstrongemphasis;’butdon’ttellmotherIsaidso,Annie。Onlythankherverykindly。’
WiththatIdrewmytraceshard,andsetmyashenstaffintothesnow,andstruckoutwithmybestfootforemostthebestoneatsnow-shoes,Imean,andthesleddcameaftermeaslightlyasadogmightfollow;
andAnnie,withthelanthorn,seemedtobeleftbehindandwaitinglikeaprettylamp-post。
Thefullmoonroseasbrightbehindmeasapatenofpuresilver,castingonthesnowlongshadowsofthefewthingsleftabove,burdenedrock,andshaggyforeland,andthelabouringtrees。Inthegreatwhitedesolation,distancewasamockingvision;hillslookednigh,andvalleysfar;whenhillswerefarandvalleysnigh。Andthemistybreathoffrost,piercingthroughtheribsofrock,strikingtothepithoftrees,creepingtotheheartofman,layalongthehollowplaces,likeaserpentsloughing。EvenasmyowngauntshadowtravestiedasifIwerethemoonlight’sdaddy-
longlegs,wentbeforemedowntheslope;evenI,theshadow’smaster,whohadtriedinvaintocough,whencoughingbroughtgoodliquorice,feltapressureonmybosom,andahuskinginmythroat。
However,Iwentonquietly,andataverytidyspeed;
beingonlytoothankfulthatthesnowhadceased,andnowindasyetarisen。Andfromtheringoflowwhitevapourgirdingallthevergeofsky,andfromtherosyblueabove,andtheshaftsofstarlightsetuponaquiveringbow,aswellasfromthemoonitselfandthelightbehindit,havinglearnedthesignsoffrostfromitsbittertwinges,IknewthatweshouldhaveanightaskeenaseverEnglandfelt。Nevertheless,IhadworkenoughtokeepmewarmifImanagedit。Thequestionwas,couldIcontrivetosavemydarlingfromit?
Daringnottoriskmysleddbyanyfallfromthevalley-cliffs,Idraggeditverycarefullyupthesteepinclineofice,throughthenarrowchasm,andsototheverybrinkandvergewherefirstIhadseenmyLorna,inthefishingdaysofboyhood。AsIthenhadatridentfork,forstickingoftheloaches,soInowhadastrongashstake,tolayacrossfromrocktorock,andbreakthespeedofdescending。WiththisImooredthesleddquitesafe,attheverylipofthechasm,whereallwasnowsubstantialice,greenandblackinthemoonlight;andthenIsetoffupthevalley,skirtingalongonesideofit。
Thestack-firestillwasburningstrongly,butwithmoreofheatthanblaze;andmanyoftheyoungerDooneswereplayingonthevergeofit,thechildrenmakingringsoffire,andtheirmotherswatchingthem。Allthegraveandreverendwarriorshavingheardofrheumatism,wereinsideoflogandstone,inthetwolowesthouses,withenoughofcandlesburningtomakeourlistofsheepcomeshort。
AlltheseIpassed,withoutthesmallestriskordifficulty,walkingupthechannelofdriftwhichI
spokeofoncebefore。AndthenIcrossed,withmoreofcare,andtothedoorofLorna’shouse,andmadethesign,andlistened,aftertakingmysnow-shoesoff。
Butnoonecame,asIexpected,neithercouldIespyalight。AndIseemedtohearafaintlowsound,likethemoaningofthesnow-wind。ThenIknockedagainmoreloudly,withaknockingatmyheart:andreceivingnoanswer,setallmypoweratonceagainstthedoor。
Inamomentitflewinwards,andIglidedalongthepassagewithmyfeetstillslippery。ThereinLorna’sroomIsaw,bythemoonlightflowingin,asightwhichdrovemebeyondsense。
Lornawasbehindachair,crouchinginthecorner,withherhandsup,andacrucifix,orsomethingthatlookedlikeit。InthemiddleoftheroomlayGwennyCarfax,stupid,yetwithonehandclutchingtheankleofastrugglingman。AnothermanstoodabovemyLorna,tryingtodrawthechairaway。InamomentIhadhimroundthewaist,andhewentoutofthewindowwithamightycrashofglass;luckilyforhimthatwindowhadnobarslikesomeofthem。ThenItooktheothermanbytheneck;andhecouldnotpleadformercy。IborehimoutofthehouseaslightlyasIwouldbearababy,yetsqueezinghisthroatalittlemorethanIfainwoulddotoaninfant。BythebrightmoonlightIsawthatIcarriedMarwooddeWhichehalse。Forhisfather’ssakeIsparedhim,andbecausehehadbeenmyschoolfellow;butwitheverymuscleofmybodystrungwithindignation,Icasthim,likeaskittle,frommeintoasnowdrift,whichclosedoverhim。ThenIlookedfortheotherfellow,tossedthroughLorna’swindow,andfoundhimlyingstunnedandbleeding,neitherabletogroanyet。CharleworthDoone,ifhisgushingblooddidnotmuchmisleadme。
Itwasnotimetolingernow;Ifastenedmyshoesinamoment,andcaughtupmyowndarlingwithherheaduponmyshoulder,whereshewhisperedfaintly;andtellingGwennytofollowme,orelseIwouldcomebackforher,ifshecouldnotwalkthesnow,Iranthewholedistancetomysledd,caringnotwhomightfollowme。
ThenbythetimeIhadsetupLorna,beautifulandsmiling,withtheseal-skincloakalloverher,sturdyGwennycamealong,havingtrudgedinthetrackofmysnow-shoes,althoughwithtwobagsonherback。Isetherinbesidehermistress,tosupporther,andkeepwarm;andthenwithonelookbackattheglen,whichhadbeensolongmyhomeofheart,Ihungbehindthesledd,andlauncheditdownthesteepanddangerousway。
Thoughthecliffswereblackaboveus,andtheroadunseeninfront,andagreatwhitegraveofsnowmightatasinglewordcomedown,Lornawasascalmandhappyasaninfantinitsbed。SheknewthatIwaswithher;
andwhenItoldhernottospeak,shetouchedmyhandinsilence。Gwennywasinamuchgreaterfright,havingneverseensuchathingbefore,neitherknowingwhatitistoyieldtopurelove’sconfidence。Icouldhardlykeepherquiet,withoutmakinganoisemyself。
Withmystafffromrocktorock,andmyweightthrownbackward,Ibrokethesledd’stoorapidway,andbroughtmygrownlovesafelyout,bytheselfsameroadwhichfirsthadledmetohergirlishfancy,andmyboyishslavery。
Unpursued,yetlookingbackasifsomeonemustbeafterus,weskirtedroundtheblackwhirlingpool,andgainedthemeadowsbeyondit。Heretherewashardcollarwork,thetrackbeingalluphillandrough;andGwennywantedtojumpout,tolightenthesleddandtopushbehind。ButIwouldnothearofit;becauseitwasnowsodeadlycold,andIfearedthatLornamightgetfrozen,withouthavingGwennytokeepherwarm。
Andafterall,itwasthesweetestlabourIhadeverknowninallmylife,tobesurethatIwaspullingLorna,andpullinghertoourownfarmhouse。
Gwenny’snosewastouchedwithfrost,beforewehadgonemuchfarther,becauseshewouldnotkeepitquietandsnugbeneaththesealskin。AndhereIhadtostopinthemoonlightwhichwasverydangerousandrubitwithacloveofsnow,asElizahadtaughtme;andGwennyscoldingallthetime,asifmyselfhadfrozenit。Lornawasnowsofaroppressedwithallthetroublesoftheevening,andthejoythatfollowedthem,aswellasbythepiercingcoldanddifficultyofbreathing,thatshelayquitemotionless,likefairestwaxinthemoonlight——whenwestoleaglanceather,beneaththedarkfoldsofthecloak;andIthoughtthatshewasfallingintotheheavysnow-sleep,whencethereisnoawaking。
Therefore,Idrewmytracestight,andsetmywholestrengthtothebusiness;andweslippedalongatamerrypace,althoughwithmanyjoltings,whichmusthavesentmydarlingoutintothecoldsnowdriftsbutfortheshortstrongarmofGwenny。Andsoinaboutanhour’stime,inspiteofmanyhindrances,wecamehometotheoldcourtyard,andallthedogssalutedus。Myheartwasquivering,andmycheeksashotastheDoones’bonfire,withwonderingbothwhatLornawouldthinkofourfarm-yard,andwhatmymotherwouldthinkofher。Upontheformersubjectmyanxietywaswasted,forLornaneithersawathing,norevenopenedherheavyeyes。Andastowhatmotherwouldthinkofher,shewascertainnottothinkatall,untilshehadcriedoverher。
Andsoindeeditcametopass。Evenatthislengthoftime,Icanhardlytellit,althoughsobrightbeforemymind,becauseitmovesmyheartso。Thesleddwasattheopendoor,withonlyLornainit;forGwennyCarfaxhadjumpedout,andhungbackintheclearing,givinganyreasonratherthantheonlytrueone——thatshewouldnotbeintruding。Atthedoorwereallourpeople;first,ofcourse,BettyMuxworthy,teachingmehowtodrawthesledd,asifshehadbeenborninit,andflourishingwithagreatbroom,whereveraspeckofsnowlay。ThendearAnnie,andoldMollywhowasveryquiet,andcountedalmostfornobody,andbehindthem,mother,lookingasifshewantedtocomefirst,butdoubtedhowthemannerslay。InthedistanceLizziestood,fearfulofencouraging,butunabletokeepoutofit。
Bettywasgoingtopokeherbroomrightinunderthesealskincloak,whereLornalayunconscious,andwhereherpreciousbreathhungfrozen,likeasilvercobweb;
butIcaughtupBetty’sbroom,andflungitcleanawayoverthecornchamber;andthenIputtheothersby,andfetchedmymotherforward。
’Youshallseeherfirst,’Isaid:’isshenotyourdaughter?Holdthelightthere,Annie。’
Dearmother’shandswerequickandtrembling,assheopenedtheshiningfolds;andthereshesawmyLornasleeping,withherblackhairalldishevelled,andshebentandkissedherforehead,andonlysaid,’Godblessher,John!’Andthenshewastakenwithviolentweeping,andIwasforcedtoholdher。
’Usmaytichofhernow,Irackon,’saidBettyinhermostjealousway;’Annie,takherbythehead,andI’lltakherbythetoesen。Notaimetostandherelikegirtgawks。Don’eetakonzo,missus。Therbevainervishinthezea——Lor,but,herbeabooty!’
Withthis,theycarriedherintothehouse,Bettychatteringallthewhile,andgoingonnowaboutLorna’shands,andtheotherscrowdingroundher,sothatIthoughtIwasnotwantedamongsomanywomen,andshouldonlygettheworstofit,andperhapsdoharmtomydarling。ThereforeIwentandbroughtGwennyin,andgaveherapotfulofbaconandpeas,andanironspoontoeatitwith,whichshedidrightheartily。
ThenIaskedherhowshecouldhavebeensuchafoolastoletthosetwovilefellowsenterthehousewhereLornawas;andsheaccountedforitsonaturally,thatIcouldonlyblamemyself。Formyagreementhadbeentogiveoneloudknockifyouhappentorememberandafterthattwolittleknocks。Wellthesetwodrunkenrogueshadcome;andone,beingverydrunkindeed,hadgivenagreatthump;andthennothingmoretodowithit;andtheother,beingthree-quartersdrunk,hadfollowedhisleaderasonemightsaybutfeebly,andmakingtwoofit。WhereuponupjumpedLorna,anddeclaredthatherJohnwasthere。
AllthisGwennytoldmeshortly,betweenthewhilesofeating,andevenwhileshelickedthespoon;andthentherecameamessageformethatmylovewassensible,andwasseekingallaroundforme。ThenItoldGwennytoholdhertonguewhatevershedidamongus,andnottotrusttowomen’swords;andshetoldmetheyallwereliars,asshehadfoundoutlongago;andtheonlythingtobelieveinwasanhonestman,whenfound。
ThereuponIcouldhavekissedherasasortoftribute,likingtobeappreciated;yetthepeasuponherlipsmademethinkaboutit;andthoughtisfataltoaction。
SoIwenttoseemydear。
ThatsightIshallnotforget;tillmydyingheadfallsback,andmybreastcanliftnomore。IknownotwhetherIwerethenmoreblessed,orharrowedbyit。
ForinthesettlewasmyLorna,proppedwithpillowsroundher,andherclearhandsspreadsometimestotheblazingfireplace。Inhereyesnoknowledgewasofanythingaroundher,neitherinherneckthesenseofleaningtowardsanything。Onlybothherlovelyhandswereentreatingsomething,tospareher,ortoloveher;andthelinesofsupplicationquiveredinhersadwhiteface。
’Allgoaway,exceptmymother,’Isaidveryquietly,butsothatIwouldbeobeyed;andeverybodyknewit。
Thenmothercametomealone;andshesaid,’Thefrostisinherbrain;Ihaveheardofthisbefore,John。’
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