withoutsomuchasfallingonce,orgettingmystaffentangled。
Butoh,theachingofmyankles,whenIwenttobedthatnight;Iwasforcedtohelpmyselfupstairswithacoupleofmopsticks!andIrubbedthejointswithneatsfootoil,whichcomfortedthemgreatly。AndlikelyenoughIwouldhaveabandonedanyfurthertrial,butforLizzie’sridicule,andpretendedsympathy;
askingifthestrongJohnRiddwouldhaveoldBettytoleanupon。ThereforeIsettoagain,withafixedresolvenottonoticepainorstiffness,buttowarmthemoutofme。Andsureenough,beforedarkthatday,Icouldgetalongprettyfreely;especiallyimprovingeverytime,afterleavingoffandresting。TheastonishmentofpoorJohnFry,BillDadds,andJemSlocombe,whentheysawmecomingdownthehilluponthem,inthetwilight,wheretheywereclearingthefurzerickandtrussingitforcattle,wasmorethanI
cantellyou;becausetheydidnotletmeseeit,butranawaywithoneaccord,andflounderedintoasnowdrift。Theybelieved,andsodideveryoneelseespeciallywhenIgrewabletoglidealongprettyrapidly,thatIhadstolenMotherMelldrum’ssieves,onwhichshewassaidtoflyovertheforelandatmidnighteverySaturday。
Uponthefollowingday,Iheldsomecouncilwithmymother;notlikingtogowithoutherpermission,yetscarcelydaringtoaskforit。Buthereshedisappointedme,ontherightsideofdisappointment;
sayingthatshehadseenmypiningwhichshenevercouldhavedone;becauseIhadbeentoohardatwork,andratherthanwatchmegrievingso,forsomebodyorother,whonowwasallinalltome,Imightgouponmycourse,andGod’sprotectiongowithme!AtthisIwasamazed,becauseitwasnotatalllikemother;andknowinghowwellIhadbehaved,eversincethetimeofoursnowingup,Iwasalittlemovedtotellherthatshecouldnotunderstandme。Howevermysenseofdutykeptme,andmyknowledgeofthecatechism,fromsayingsuchathingasthat,oreventhinkingtwiceofit。
AndsoItookheratherword,whichshewasnotpreparedfor;andtellingherhowproudIwasofhertrustinProvidence,andhowIcouldruninmynewsnow-shoes,Itookashortpipeinmymouth,andstartedforthaccordingly。
WhenIstartedonmyroadacrossthehillsandvalleyswhichnowwereprettymuchalike,theutmostIcouldhopetodowastogainthecrestofhills,andlookintotheDooneGlen。HenceImightatleastdescrywhetherLornastillwassafe,bythesixnestsstillremaining,andtheviewoftheCaptain’shouse。WhenI
wascometotheopencountry,farbeyondtheshelteredhomestead,andinthefullbruntofthewind,thekeenblastofthecoldbrokeonme,andthemightybreadthofsnow。Moorandhighland,fieldandcommon,cliffandvale,andwatercourse,overalltherollingfoldsofmistywhitewereflung。Therewasnothingsquareorjaggedleft,therewasnothingperpendicular;alltheruggedlineswereeased,andallthebreachessmoothlyfilled。Curves,andmounds,androundedheavings,tooktheplaceofrockandstump;andallthecountrylookedasifawoman’shandhadbeenonit。
Throughthesparklingbreadthofwhite,whichseemedtoglancemyeyesaway,andoutsidethehumpsofladentrees,bowingtheirbackslikeawoodman,Icontrivedtogetalong,half-slidingandhalf-walking,inplaceswhereaplain-shoddenmanmusthavesunk,andwaitedfreezingtillthethawshouldcometohim。Foralthoughtherehadbeensuchviolentfrost,everynight,uponthesnow,thesnowitself,havingneverthawed,evenforanhour,hadnevercoatedover。Henceitwasassoftandlightasifallhadfallenyesterday。Inplaceswherenodrifthadbeen,butratheroffthanontothem,threefeetwastheleastofdepth;butwherethewindhadchaseditround,oranydraughtledlikeafunnel,oranythingopposedit;
thereyoumightverysafelysaythatitranuptotwentyfeet,orthirty,orevenfifty,andIbelievesometimesahundred。
AtlastIgottomyspy-hillasIhadbeguntocallit,althoughInevershouldhaveknownitbutforwhatitlookedon。Andeventoknowthislastagainrequiredalltheeyesoflove,soeversharpandvigilant。ForallthebeautifulGlenDooneshapedfromoutthemountains,asifonpurposefortheDoones,andlookinginthesummer-timelikeasharpcutvaseofgreennowwasbesnowedhalfupthesides,andateitherendso,thatitwasmorelikethewhitebasinswhereinweboilplum-puddings。Notapatchofgrasswasthere,notablackbranchofatree;allwaswhite;andthelittleriverflowedbeneathanarchofsnow;ifitmanagedtoflowatall。
Nowthiswasagreatsurprisetome;notonlybecauseI
believedGlenDoonetobeaplaceoutsideallfrost,butalsobecauseIthoughtperhapsthatitwasquiteimpossibletobecoldnearLorna。Andnowitstruckmeallatoncethatperhapsherewerwasfrozenasminehadbeenforthelastthreeweeks,requiringembersaroundit,andperhapsherwindowwouldnotshut,anymorethanminewould;andperhapsshewantedblankets。
Thisideaworkedmeuptosuchachillofsympathy,thatseeingnoDoonesnowabout,anddoubtingifanygunswouldgooff,inthisstateoftheweather,andknowingthatnomancouldcatchmeupexceptwithshoeslikemine,Ievenresolvedtoslidethecliffs,andbravelygotoLorna。
Ithelpedmemuchinthisresolve,thatthesnowcameonagain,thickenoughtoblindamanwhohadnotspenthistimeamongit,asIhaddonenowfordaysanddays。
ThereforeItookmyneatsfootoil,whichnowwascloggedlikehoney,andrubbedithardintomyleg-joints,sofarasIcouldreachthem。AndthenI
setmybackandelbowswellagainstasnowdrift,hangingfaradownthecliff,andsayingsomeoftheLord’sPrayer,threwmyselfonProvidence。Beforetherewastimetothinkordream,Ilandedverybeautifullyuponaridgeofrun-upsnowinaquietcorner。Mygoodshoes,orboots,preservedmefromgoingfarbeneathit;thoughoneofthemwassadlystrained,whereagrubhadgnawedtheash,intheearlysummer-time。Havingsetmyselfaright,andbeingingoodspirits,Imadeboldlyacrossthevalleywherethesnowwasfurrowedhard,beingnowafraidofnobody。
IfLornahadlookedoutofthewindowshewouldnothaveknownme,withthosebootsuponmyfeet,andawell-cleanedsheepskinoverme,bearingmyownJ。R。
inred,justbetweenmyshoulders,butcoverednowinsnow-flakes。Thehousewaspartlydriftedup,thoughnotsomuchasourswas;andIcrossedthelittlestreamalmostwithoutknowingthatitwasunderme。Atfirst,beingprettysafefrominterferencefromtheotherhuts,byvirtueoftheblindingsnowandthedifficultyofwalking,Iexaminedallthewindows;butthesewerecoatedsowithice,likefernsandflowersanddazzlingstars,thatnoonecouldsomuchasguesswhatmightbeinsideofthem。MoreoverIwasafraidofpryingnarrowlyintothem,asitwasnotaproperthingwhereamaidenmightbe;onlyIwantedtoknowjustthis,whethershewerethereornot。
Takingnothingbythismovement,Iwasforced,muchagainstmywill,toventuretothedoorandknock,inahesitatingmanner,notbeingsurebutwhatmyanswermightbethemouthofacarbine。Howeveritwasnotso,forIheardapatteringoffeetandawhisperinggoingon,andthenashrillvoicethroughthekeyhole,asking,’Who’sthere?’
’Onlyme,JohnRidd,’Ianswered;uponwhichIheardalittlelaughter,andalittlesobbing,orsomethingthatwaslikeit;andthenthedoorwasopenedaboutacoupleofinches,withabarbehinditstill;andthenthelittlevoicewenton,——
’Putthyfingerin,youngman,withtheoldringonit。
Butmindthee,ifitbethewrongone,thoushaltneverdrawitbackagain。’
LaughingatGwenny’smightythreat,Ishowedmyfingerintheopening;uponwhichsheletmein,andbarredthedooragainlikelightning。
’Whatisthemeaningofallthis,Gwenny?’Iasked,asIslippedaboutonthefloor,forIcouldnotstandtherefirmlywithmygreatsnow-shoeson。
’Maningenough,andbadmaningtoo,’theCornishgirlmadeanswer。Usbeshutinhere,andstarving,anddurstn’tletanybodyinuponus。Iwishthouwer’tgoodtoate,youngman:Icouldmanagemostofthee。’
Iwassofrightenedbyhereyes,fullofwolfishhunger,thatIcouldonlysay’GoodGod!’havingneverseenthelikebefore。ThendrewIforthalargepieceofbread,whichIhadbroughtincaseofaccidents,andplaceditinherhands。Sheleapedatit,asastarvingdogleapsatsightofhissupper,andshesetherteethinit,andthenwithhelditfromherlips,withsomethingverylikeanoathatherownvilegreediness;andthenawayroundthecornerwithit,nodoubtforheryoungmistress。Imeanwhilewasoccupied,tothebestofmyability,intakingmysnow-shoesoff,yetwonderingmuchwithinmyselfwhyLornadidnotcometome。
ButpresentlyIknewthecause,forGwennycalledme,andIran,andfoundmydarlingquiteunabletosaysomuchas,’John,howareyou?’Betweenthehungerandthecold,andtheexcitementofmycoming,shehadfaintedaway,andlaybackonachair,aswhiteasthesnowaroundus。Inbetwixtherdelicatelips,Gwennywasthrustingwithallherstrengththehardbrowncrustoftherye-bread,whichshehadsnatchedfrommeso。
’Getwater,orgetsnow,’Isaid;’don’tyouknowwhatfaintingis,youverystupidchild?’
’Neverheerdonit,inCornwall,’sheanswered,trustingstilltothebread;’beunthesameasbleeding?’
’Itwillbedirectly,ifyougoonsqueezingawaywiththatcrustso。Eatapiece:Ihavegotsomemore。
Leavemydarlingnowtome。’
HearingthatIhadsomemore,thestarvinggirlcouldresistnolonger,buttoreitintwo,andhadswallowedhalfbeforeIhadcoaxedmyLornabacktosense,andhope,andjoy,andlove。
’Ineverexpectedtoseeyouagain。Ihadmadeupmymindtodie,John;andtodiewithoutyourknowingit。’
AsIrepelledthisfearfulthoughtinamannerhighlyfortifying,thetenderhueflowedbackagainintoherfamishedcheeksandlips,andasofterbrillianceglistenedfromthedepthofherdarkeyes。Shegavemeonelittleshrunkenhand,andIcouldnothelpatearforit。
’Afterall,MistressLorna,’Isaid,pretendingtobegay,forasmilemightdohergood;’youdonotlovemeasGwennydoes;forsheevenwantedtoeatme。’
’Andshall,aforeIhavedone,youngman,’Gwennyansweredlaughing;’youcomeinherewiththeyredchakes,andmakeusthinko’sirloin。’
’Eatupyourbitofbrownbread,Gwenny。Itisnotgoodenoughforyourmistress。Blessherheart,Ihavesomethingheresuchasshenevertastedthelikeof,beinginsuchappetite。Lookhere,Lorna;smellitfirst。IhavehaditeversinceTwelfthDay,andkeptitallthetimeforyou。Anniemadeit。Thatisenoughtowarrantitgoodcooking。’
AndthenIshowedmygreatmince-pieinabagoftissuepaper,andItoldthemhowthemince-meatwasmadeofgoldenpippinsfinelyshred,withtheundercutofthesirloin,andspiceandfruitaccordinglyandfarbeyondmyknowledge。ButLornawouldnottouchamorseluntilshehadthankedGodforit,andgivenmethekindestkiss,andputapieceinGwenny’smouth。
Ihaveeatenmanythingsmyself,withverygreatenjoyment,andkeenperceptionoftheirmerits,andsomethankstoGodforthem。ButIneverdidenjoyathing,thathadfounditswaybetweenmyownlips,half,orevenaquarterasmuchasInowenjoyedbeholdingLorna,sittingproudlyupwardstoshowthatshewasfaintnomoreenteringintothatmince-pie,andmovingallherpearlsofteethinsideherlittlemouth-placeexactlyasItoldher。ForIwasafraidlestsheshouldbetoofastingoingthroughit,andcauseherselfmoredamageso,thanshegotofnourishment。ButIhadnoneedtofearatall,andLornacouldnothelplaughingatmeforthinkingthatshehadnoself-control。
SomecreaturesrequireadealoffoodImyselfamongthenumber,andsomecandowithaverylittle;
making,nodoubt,thebestofit。AndIhaveoftennoticedthattheplumpestandmostperfectwomennevereatsohardandfastastheskinnyandthree-corneredones。Theselastbeoftenashamedofit,andeatmostwhenthemenbeabsent。HenceitcametopassthatLorna,beingtheloveliestofallmaidens,hadasmuchasshecoulddotofinishherownhalfofpie;whereasGwennyCarfaxthoughgenerousmorethangreedy,ateupherswithoutwinking,afterfinishingthebrownloaf;andthenIbeggedtoknowthemeaningofthisstateofthings。
’Themeaningissadenough,’saidLorna;’andIseenowayoutofit。WearebothtobestarveduntilIletthemdowhattheylikewithme。
’ThatistosayuntilyouchoosetomarryCarverDoone,andbeslowlykilledbyhim?’
’Slowly!No,John,quickly。Ihatehimsointensely,thatlessthanaweekwouldkillme。’
’Notadoubtofthat,’saidGwenny;’oh,shehateshimnicelythen;butnothalfsomuchasIdo。’
Itoldthemthatthisstateofthingscouldbeendurednolonger,onwhichpointtheyagreedwithme,butsawnomeanstohelpit。ForevenifLornacouldmakeuphermindtocomeawaywithmeandliveatPlover’sBarrowsfarm,undermygoodmother’scare,asIhadurgedsooften,beholdthesnowwasallaroundus,heapedashighasmountains,andhowcouldanydelicatemaidenevergetacrossit?
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