Notaword,norsoundbetweenus;notevenakisswasinterchanged;butman,ormaid,whohaseverlovedhathlearnedourunderstanding。
Thereforeitcametopass,thatwesawfittoenterSirEnsor’sroominthefollowingmanner。Lorna,withherrighthandswallowedentirelybythepalmofmine,andherwaistretiredfromviewbymeansofmyleftarm。
Allonesideofherhaircamedown,inawaytoberemembered,upontheleftandfairestpartofmyfavouriteotter-skinwaistcoat;andherheadaswellwouldhavelaintheredoubtless,butforthedangerofwalkingso。I,formypart,wastoofargonetolagbehindinthematter;butcarriedmylovebravely,fearingneitherdeathnorhell,whilesheabodebesideme。
OldSirEnsorlookedmuchastonished。Forfortyyearshehadbeenobeyedandfearedbyallaroundhim;andheknewthatIhadfearedhimvastly,beforeIgotholdofLorna。AndindeedIwasstillafraidofhim;onlyforlovingLornaso,andhavingtoprotecther。
ThenImadehimabow,totheverybestofallIhadlearnedbothatTivertonandinLondon;afterthatI
waitedforhimtobegin,asbecamehisageandrankinlife。
’Yetwofools!’hesaidatlast,withadepthofcontemptwhichnowordsmayexpress;’yetwofools!’
’Mayitpleaseyourworship,’Iansweredsoftly;’maybewearenotsuchfoolsaswelook。Butthoughwebe,wearewellcontent,solongaswemaybetwofoolstogether。’
’Why,John,’saidtheoldman,withaspark,asofsmilinginhiseyes;’thouartnotaltogethertheclumsyyokel,andtheclod,Itooktheefor。’
’Oh,no,grandfather;oh,deargrandfather,’criedLorna,withsuchzealandflashing,thatherhandswentforward;’nobodyknowswhatJohnRiddis,becauseheissomodest。Imean,nobodyexceptme,dear。’Andheresheturnedtomeagain,androseupontiptoe,andkissedme。
’Ihaveseenalittleo’theworld,’saidtheoldman,whileIwashalfashamed,althoughsoproudofLorna;
’butthisisbeyondallIhaveseen,andnearlyallI
haveheardof。ItismorefitforsouthernclimatesthanforthefogsofExmoor。’
’Itisfitforalltheworld,yourworship;withyourhonour’sgoodleave,andwill,’Iansweredinhumility,beingstillashamedofit;’whenithappenssotopeople,thereisnothingthatcanstopit,sir。’
NowSirEnsorDoonewasleaningbackuponhisbrownchair-rail,whichwasbuiltlikeatriangle,asinoldfarmhousesfromoneofwhichithadcome,nodoubt,freefromexpenseorgratitude;andasIspokehecoughedalittle;andhesighedagooddealmore;andperhapshisdyingheartdesiredtoopentimeagain,withsuchaliftofwarmthandhopeashedescriedinoureyes,andarms。Icouldnotunderstandhimthen;
anymorethanababyplayingwithhisgrandfather’sspectacles;neverthelessIwonderedwhether,athistimeoflife,orratheronthebrinkofdeath,hewasthinkingofhisyouthandpride。
’Foolsyouare;befoolsforever,’saidSirEnsorDoone,atlast;whilewefearedtobreakhisthoughts,butleteachotherknowourown,withlittlewaysofpressure;’itisthebestthingIcanwishyou;boyandgirl,beboyandgirl,untilyouhavegrandchildren。’
Partlyinbitternesshespoke,andpartlyinpureweariness,andthenheturnedsoasnottoseeus;andhiswhitehairfell,likeashroud,aroundhim。
Allthingsbeingfullofflaw,allthingsbeingfullofholes,thestrengthofallthingsisinshortness。
IfSirEnsorDoonehaddwelledforhalfanhouruponhimself,andanhourperhapsuponLornaandme,wemustbothhaveweariedofhim,andrequiredchangeofair。
ButnowIlongedtoseeandknowagreatdealmoreabouthim,andhopedthathemightnotgotoHeavenforatleastaweekormore。However,hewastoogoodforthisworldaswesayofallpeoplewholeaveit;andIverilybelievehisheartwasnotabadone,afterall。
Evilhehaddone,nodoubt,asevilhadbeendonetohim;yethowmanyhavedoneevil,whilereceivingonlygood!Bethatasitmay;andnotvexingaquestionsettledforeverwithoutourvotes,letusownthathewas,atleast,abraveandcourteousgentleman。
Andhislossarousedgreatlamentation,notamongtheDoonesalone,andthewomentheyhadcarriedoff,butalsoofthegeneralpublic,andmanyevenofthemagistrates,forseveralmilesroundExmoor。Andthis,notonlyfromfearlestonemorewickedmightsucceedhimasappearedindeedtooprobable,butfromtrueadmirationofhisstrongwill,andsympathywithhismisfortunes。
Iwillnotdeceiveanyone,bysayingthatSirEnsorDoonegaveinsomanywordshisconsenttomyresolveaboutLorna。Thisheneverdid,exceptbyhisspeechlastwrittendown;fromwhichashementionedgrandchildren,alawyerperhapsmighthavearguedit。
Notbutwhathemayhavemeanttobestowonushisblessing;onlythathediednextday,withouttakingthetroubletodoit。
Hecalledindeedforhisboxofsnuff,whichwasaveryhighthingtotake;andwhichhenevertookwithoutbeinginverygoodhumour,atleastforhim。Andthoughitwouldnotgouphisnostrils,throughthefailureofhisbreath,hewaspleasedtohaveitthere,andnottothinkofdying。
’Willyourhonourhaveitwiped?’Iaskedhimverysoftly,forthebrownappearanceofitspoiledtomyideahiswhitemostacchio;butheseemedtoshakehishead;andIthoughtitkepthisspiritsup。Ihadneverbeforeseenanyonedo,whatallofushavetodosomeday;anditgreatlykeptmyspiritsdown,althoughitdidnotsoverymuchfrightenme。
Forittakesamanbutalittlewhile,hisinstinctbeingofdeathperhaps,atleastasmuchasoflifewhichaccountsforhisslayinghisfellowmenso,andeveryothercreature,itdoesnottakeamanverylongtoenterintoanotherman’sdeath,andbringhisownmoodtosuitit。Heknowsthathisownissuretocome;andnatureisfondofthepractice。HenceitcametopassthatI,aftereasingmymother’sfears,andseeingalittletobusiness,returnedasifdrawnbyapolarneedletothedeath-bedofSirEnsor。
Therewassomelittleconfusion,peoplewantingtogetaway,andpeopletryingtocomein,fromdownrightcuriosityofallthingsthemosthateful,andothersmakinggreatto-do,andtalkingoftheirowntimetocome,tellingtheirownage,andsoon。Buteveryoneseemedtothink,orfeel,thatIhadarighttobethere;becausethewomentookthatviewofit。AsforCarverandCounsellor,theyweremindingtheirownaffairs,soastowinthesuccession;andneverfounditintheirbusinessatleastsolongasIwasthere
tocomenearthedyingman。
He,forhispart,neveraskedforanyonetocomenearhim,notevenapriest,noramonkorfriar;butseemedtobegoinghisownway,peaceful,andwellcontented。
Onlythechiefofthewomensaidthatfromhisfaceshebelievedandknewthathelikedtohavemeatonesideofhisbed,andLornaupontheother。Anhourortwoeretheoldmandied,whenonlywetwowerewithhim,helookedatusbothverydimlyandsoftly,asifhewishedtodosomethingforus,buthadleftitnowtoolate。Lornahopedthathewantedtoblessus;butheonlyfrownedatthat,andlethishanddropdownward,andcrookedoneknottedfinger。
’Hewantssomethingoutofthebed,dear,’Lornawhisperedtome;’seewhatitis,uponyourside,there。’
Ifollowedthebentofhispoorshrunkenhand,andsoughtamongthepilings;andthereIfeltsomethinghardandsharp,anddrewitforthandgaveittohim。
Itflashed,likethesprayofafountainuponus,inthedarkwinteroftheroom。Hecouldnottakeitinhishand,butletithang,asdaisiesdo;onlymakingLornaseethathemeanthertohaveit。
’Why,itismyglassnecklace!’Lornacried,ingreatsurprise;’mynecklacehealwayspromisedme;andfromwhichyouhavegotthering,John。Butgrandfatherkeptit,becausethechildrenwantedtopullitfrommyneck。MayIhaveitnow,deargrandfather?Notunlessyouwish,dear。’
DarlingLornaweptagain,becausetheoldmancouldnottellherexceptbyoneveryfeeblenodthatshewasdoingwhathewished。Thenshegavetomethetrinket,forthesakeofsafety;andIstoweditinmybreast。Heseemedtometofollowthis,andtobewellcontentwithit。
BeforeSirEnsorDoonewasburied,thegreatestfrostofthecenturyhadsetin,withitsironhand,andstepofstone,oneverything。Howitcameisnotmybusiness,norcanIexplainit;becauseIneverhavewatchedtheskies;aspeoplenowbegintodo,whenthegroundisnottotheirliking。ThoughofallthisI
knownothing,andlessthannothingImaysaybecauseIoughttoknowsomething;Icanhearwhatpeopletellme;andIcanseebeforemyeyes。
Thestrongmenbrokethreegoodpickaxes,eretheygotthroughthehardbrownsod,streakedwithlittlemapsofgraywhereoldSirEnsorwastolie,uponhisback,awaitingthedarknessoftheJudgment-day。Itwasinthelittlechapel-yard;Iwillnottellthenameofit;
becausewearenowsuchProtestants,thatImightdoitanevilturn;onlyitwasthelittleplacewhereLorna’sAuntSabinalay。
HerewasI,remaininglong,withalittlecuriosity;
becausesomepeopletoldmeplainlythatImustbedamnedforeverbyaPapistfuneral;andherecameLorna,scarcelybreathingthroughthethickofstuffaroundher,yetwithallherlittlebreathsteamingontheair,likefrost。
Istoodapartfromtheceremony,inwhichofcourseI
wasnotentitled,eitherbybirthorreligion,tobearanyportion;andindeeditwouldhavebeenwiserinmetohavekeptawayaltogether;fornowtherewasnoonetoprotectmeamongthosewildandlawlessmen;andbothCarverandtheCounsellorhadvowedafearfulvengeanceonme,asIheardfromGwenny。Theyhadnotdaredtomeddlewithmewhilethechieflaydying;norwasitintheirpolicy,forashorttimeafterthat,toendangertheirsuccessionbyanopenbreachwithLorna,whosetenderageandbeautyheldsomanyoftheyouthsinthrall。
Theancientoutlaw’sfuneralwasagrandandmovingsight;moreperhapsfromthesenseofcontrastthanfromthatoffitness。Toseethosedarkandmightymen,inuredtoallofsinandcrime,recklessbothofmanandGod,yetnowwithheadsdevoutlybent,claspedhands,anddowncasteyes,followingthelongblackcoffinoftheircommonancestor,totheplacewheretheymustjoinhimwhentheirsumofillwasdone;andtoseethefeeblepriestchanting,overthedeadform,wordsthelivingwouldhavelaughedat,sprinklingwithhislittlebroomdropsthatcouldnotpurify;whilethechildren,robedinwhite,swungtheirsmokingcensersslowlyoverthecoldandtwilightgrave;andafterseeingall,toask,withashudderunexpressed,’IsthistheendthatGodintendedforamansoproudandstrong?’
Notatearwassheduponhim,exceptfromthesweetestofallsweeteyes;notasighpursuedhimhome。Exceptinhotanger,hislifehadbeencold,andbitter,anddistant;andnowaweekhadexhaustedallthesorrowofthosearoundhim,agriefflowinglessfromaffectionthanfear。Agedmenwillshowhistombstone;mothershastewiththeirinfantsbyit;childrenshrinkfromthenameuponit,untilintimehishistoryshalllapseandbeforgottenbyallexceptthegreatJudgeandGod。
Afterallwasover,Istrodeacrossthemoorsverysadly;tryingtokeepthecoldawaybyvirtueofquickmovement。Notaflakeofsnowhadfallenyet;alltheearthwascakedandhard,withadrybrowncrustuponit;alltheskywasbankedwithdarkness,hard,austere,andfrowning。Thefogofthelastthreeweekswasgone,neitherdidanyrimeremain;butallthingshadalookofsameness,andakindoffurzycolour。Itwasfreezinghardandsharp,withapiercingwindtobackit;andIhadobservedthattheholywaterfrozeuponSirEnsor’scoffin。
Onethingstruckmewithsomesurprise,asImadeoffforourfiresidewithastrongdeterminationtoheaveanash-treeupthechimney-place,andthatwashowthebirdsweregoing,ratherthanflyingastheyusedtofly。Allthebirdsweresetinonedirection,steadilyjourneyingwestward,notwithanyheatofspeed,neitherflyingfaratonce;butallasifonbusinessbound,partlyrunning,partlyflying,partlyflutteringalong;silently,andwithoutavoice,neitherprickingheadnortail。Thismovementofthebirdswenton,evenforaweekormore;everykindofthrushespassedus,everykindofwildfowl,evenploverswentaway,andcrows,andsnipesandwood-cocks。Andbeforehalfthefrostwasover,allwehadinthesnowyditcheswereharessotamethatwecouldpatthem;partridgesthatcametohand,withadrynoiseintheircrops;heath-poults,makingcupsofsnow;andafewpoorhoppingredwings,flippinginandoutthehedge,havinglostthepowertofly。Andallthetimetheirgreatblackeyes,setwithgoldaroundthem,seemedtolookatanyman,formercyandforcomfort。
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