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第7章

  Ough!“Quickjerksasofgalvanicshocksdisclosedundertheflatcoverlettheoutlinesofmeagreandagitatedlegs;heletgomyshoulderandreachedaftersomethingintheair;hisbodytrembledtenselylikeareleasedharp-string;
  andwhileIlookeddown,thespectralhorrorinhimbrokethroughhisglassygaze。Instantlyhisfaceofanoldsoldier,withitsnobleandcalmoutlines,becamedecomposedbeforemyeyesbythecorruptionofstealthycunning,ofanabominablecautionandofdesperatefear。Herestrainedacry——“Ssh!
  whataretheydoingnowdownthere?“heasked,pointingtothefloorwithfantasticprecautionsofvoiceandgesture,whosemeaning,borneuponmymindinaluridflash,mademeverysickofmycleverness。“Theyareallasleep,“Ianswered,watchinghimnarrowly。Thatwasit。That’swhathewantedtohear;theseweretheexactwordsthatcouldcalmhim。Hedrewalongbreath。“Ssh!Quiet,steady。Iamanoldstagerouthere。Iknowthembrutes。Bashintheheadofthefirstthatstirs。There’stoomanyofthem,andshewon’tswimmorethantenminutes。“Hepantedagain。“Hurryup,“heyelledsuddenly,andwentoninasteadyscream:“Theyareallawake——millionsofthem。Theyaretramplingonme!Wait!Oh,wait!I’llsmashtheminheapslikeflies。Waitforme!Help!H-e-lp!“Aninterminableandsustainedhowlcompletedmydiscomfiture。Isawinthedistancetheaccidentcaseraisedeplorablybothhishandstohisbandagedhead;adresser,apronedtotheshin,showedhimselfinthevistaoftheward,asifseeninthesmallendofatelescope。Iconfessedmyselffairlyrouted,andwithoutmoreado,steppingoutthroughoneofthelongwindows,escapedintotheoutsidegallery。Thehowlpursuedmelikeavengeance。Iturnedintoadesertedlanding,andsuddenlyallbecameverystillandquietaroundme,andIdescendedthebareandshinystaircaseinasilencethatenabledmetocomposemydistractedthoughts。DownbelowImetoneoftheresidentsurgeonswhowascrossingthecourtyardandstoppedme。“Beentoseeyourman,captain?Ithinkwemaylethimgoto-morrow。Thesefoolshavenonotionoftakingcareofthemselves,though。Isay,we’vegotthechiefengineerofthatpilgrimshiphere。Acuriouscase。D。T。’softheworstkind。HehasbeendrinkinghardinthatGreek’sorItalian’sgrog-shopforthreedays。Whatcanyouexpect?Fourbottlesofthatkindofbrandyaday,Iamtold。Wonderful,iftrue。Sheetedwithboiler-ironinside,Ishouldthink。Thehead,ah!thehead,ofcourse,gone,butthecuriouspartisthere’ssomesortofmethodinhisraving。Iamtryingtofindout。Mostunusual——thatthreadoflogicinsuchadelirium。Traditionallyheoughttoseesnakes,buthedoesn’t。Goodoldtradition’satadiscountnowadays。Eh!His——er——visionsarebatrachian。Ha!ha!No,seriously,I
  neverrememberbeingsointerestedinacaseofjimjamsbefore。Heoughttobedead,don’tyouknow,aftersuchafestiveexperiment。Oh!heisatoughobject。Four-and-twentyyearsofthetropicstoo。Yououghtreallytotakeapeepathim。Noble-lookingoldboozer。MostextraordinarymanIevermet——medically,ofcourse。Won’tyou?“
  `Ihadbeenallalongexhibitingtheusualpolitesignsofinterest,butnowassuminganairofregretImurmuredofwantoftime,andshookhandsinahurry。“Isay,“hecriedafterme,“hecan’tattendthatinquiry。
  Ishisevidencematerial,youthink?“
  “`Notintheleast,“Icalledbackfromthegateway。’
  authoritieswereevidentlyofthesameopinion。
  Theinquirywasnotadjourned。Itwasheldontheappointeddaytosatisfythelaw,anditwaswellattendedbecauseofitshumaninterest,nodoubt。
  Therewasnoincertitudeastofacts——astotheonematerialfact,Imean。
  HowthePatnacamebyherhurtitwasimpossibletofindout;thecourtdidnotexpecttofindout;andinthewholeaudiencetherewasnotamanwhocared。Yet,asI’vetoldyou,allthesailorsintheportattended,andthewatersidebusinesswasfullyrepresented。Whethertheyknewitornot,theinterestthatdrewthemtherewaspurelypsychological——theexpectationofsomeessentialdisclosureastothestrength,thepower,thehorror,ofhumanemotions。Naturallynothingofthekindcouldbedisclosed。
  Theexaminationoftheonlymanableandwillingtofaceitwasbeatingfutilelyroundthewell-knownfact,andtheplayofquestionsuponitwasasinstructiveasthetappingwithahammeronanironbox,weretheobjecttofindoutwhat’sinside。However,anofficialinquirycouldnotbeanyotherthing。Itsobjectwasnotthefundamentalwhy,butthesuperficialhow,ofthisaffair。
  `Theyoungchapcouldhavetoldthem,and,thoughthatverythingwasthethingthatinterestedtheaudience,thequestionsputtohimnecessarilyledhimawayfromwhattome,forinstance,wouldhavebeentheonlytruthworthknowing。Youcan’texpecttheconstitutedauthoritiestoinquireintothestateofaman’ssoul——orisitonlyofhisliver?Theirbusinesswastocomedownupontheconsequences,andfrankly,acasualpolicemagistrateandtwonauticalassessorsarenotmuchgoodforanythingelse。Idon’tmeantoimplythesefellowswerestupid。Themagistratewasverypatient。
  Oneoftheassessorswasasailing-shipskipperwithareddishbeard,andofapiousdisposition。Brierlywastheother。BigBrierly。SomeofyoumusthaveheardofBigBrierly——thecaptainofthecrackshipoftheBlueStarline。That’stheman。
  `Heseemedconsumedlyboredbythehonourthrustuponhim。Hehadneverinhislifemadeamistake,neverhadanaccident,neveramishap,neveracheckinhissteadyrise,andheseemedtobeoneofthoseluckyfellowswhoknownothingofindecision,muchlessofself-mistrust。Atthirty-twohehadoneofthebestcommandsgoingintheEasterntrade——and,what’smore,hethoughtalotofwhathehad。Therewasnothinglikeitintheworld,andIsupposeifyouhadaskedhimpoint-blankhewouldhaveconfessedthatinhisopiniontherewasnotsuchanothercommander。Thechoicehadfallenupontherightman。Therestofmankindthatdidnotcommandthesixteen-knotsteelsteamerOssawereratherpoorcreatures。Hehadsavedlivesatsea,hadrescuedshipsindistress,hadagoldchronometerpresentedtohimbytheunderwriters,andapairofbinocularswithasuitableinscriptionfromsomeforeignGovernment,incommemorationoftheseservices。
  Hewasacutelyawareofhismeritsandofhisrewards。Ilikedhimwellenough,thoughsomeIknow——meek,friendlymenatthat——couldn’tstandhimatanyprice。Ihaven’ttheslightestdoubtheconsideredhimselfvastlymysuperior——indeed,youbeenEmperorofEastandWest,youcouldnothaveignoredyourinferiorityinhispresence——butIcouldn’tgetupanyrealsentimentofoffence。HedidnotdespisemeforanythingIcouldhelp,foranythingIwas——don’tyouknow?IwasanegligiblequantitysimplybecauseIwasnotthefortunatemanoftheearth,notMontagueBrierlyincommandoftheOssa,nottheownerofaninscribedgoldchronometerandofsilver-mountedbinocularstestifyingtotheexcellenceofmyseamanshipandtomyindomitablepluck;notpossessedofanacutesenseofmymeritsandofmyrewards,besidestheloveandworshipofablackretriever,themostwonderfulofitskind——forneverwassuchamanlovedthusbysuchadog。Nodoubt,tohaveallthisforceduponyouwasexasperatingenough;
  butwhenIreflectedthatIwasassociatedinthesefataldisadvantageswithtwelvehundredmillionsofothermoreorlesshumanbeings,IfoundIcouldbearmyshareofhisgood-naturedandcontemptuouspityforthesakeofsomethingindefiniteandattractiveintheman。Ihaveneverdefinedtomyselfthisattraction,butthereweremomentswhenIenviedhim。Thestingoflifecoulddonomoretohiscomplacentsoulthanthescratchofapintothesmoothfaceofarock。Thiswasenviable。AsIlookedathimflankingononesidetheunassumingpalefacedmagistratewhopresidedattheinquiry,hisself-satisfactionpresentedtomeandtotheworldasurfaceashardasgranite。Hecommittedsuicideverysoonafter。
  `NowonderJim’scaseboredhim,andwhileIthoughtwithsomethingakintofearoftheimmensityofhiscontemptfortheyoungmanunderexamination,hewasprobablyholdingsilentinquiryintohisowncase。Theverdictmusthavebeenofunmitigatedguilt,andhetookthesecretoftheevidencewithhiminthatleapintothesea。IfIunderstandanythingofmen,thematterwasnodoubtofthegravestimport,oneofthosetriflesthatawakenideas——startintolifesomethoughtwithwhichamanunusedtosuchcompanionshipfindsitimpossibletolive。Iaminapositiontoknowthatitwasn’tmoney,anditwasn’tdrink,anditwasn’twoman。Hejumpedoverboardatseabarelyaweekaftertheendoftheinquiry,andlessthanthreedaysafterleavingportonhisoutwardpassage;asthoughonthatexactspotinthemidstofwatershehadsuddenlyperceivedthegatesoftheotherworldflungopenwideforhisreception。
  `Yetitwasnotasuddenimpulse。Hisgrey-headedmate,afirst-ratesailorandaniceoldchapwithstrangers,butinhisrelationswithhiscommanderthesurliestchiefofficerI’veeverseen,wouldtellthestorywithtearsinhiseyes。ItappearsthatwhenhecameondeckinthemorningBrierlyhadbeenwritinginthechart-room。“Itwastenminutestofour,“
  hesaid,“andthemiddlewatchwasnotrelievedyetofcourse。Heheardmyvoiceonthebridgespeakingtothesecondmate,andcalledmein。I
  wasloathtogo,andthat’sthetruth,CaptainMarlow——Icouldn’tstandpoorCaptainBrierly,Itellyouwithshame;weneverknowwhatamanismadeof。Hehadbeenpromotedovertoomanyheads,notcountingmyown,andhehadadamnabletrickofmakingyoufeelsmall,nothingbutbythewayhesaid`Goodmorning。’Ineveraddressedhim,sir,butonmattersofduty,andthenitwasasmuchasIcoulddotokeepaciviltongueinmyhead。“Heflatteredhimselfthere。IoftenwonderedhowBrierlycouldputupwithhismannersformorethanhalfavoyage。“I’veawifeandchildren,“hewenton,“andIhadtenyearsintheCompany,alwaysexpectingthenextcommand——morefoolI。Sayshe,justlikethis:`Comeinhere,Mr。Jones,’inthatswaggervoiceofhis——`Comeinhere,Mr。Jones。’InIwent。`We’lllaydownherposition,’hesays,stoopingoverthechart,apairofdividersinhand。Bythestandingorders,theofficergoingoffdutywouldhavedonethatattheendofhiswatch。However,Isaidnothing,andlookedonwhilehemarkedofftheship’spositionwithatinycrossandwrotethedateandtime。Icanseehimthismomentwritinghisneatfigures:seventeen,eight,fourA。M。Theyearwouldbewritteninredinkatthetopofthechart。Heneverusedhischartsmorethanayear,CaptainBrierlydidn’t。I’vethechartnow。Whenhehaddonehestandslookingdownatthemarkhehadmadeandsmilingtohimself,thenlooksupatme。`Thirty-twomilesmoreasshegoes,’sayshe,`andthenweshallbeclear,andyoumayalterthecoursetwentydegreestothesouthward。’
  “`WewerepassingtothenorthoftheHectorBankthatvoyage。Isaid,`Allright,sir,’wonderingwhathewasfussingabout,sinceIhadtocallhimbeforealteringthecourseanyhow。Justtheneightbellswerestruck:
  wecameoutonthebridge,andthesecondmatebeforegoingoffmentionsintheusualway——`Seventy-oneonthelog。’CaptainBrierlylooksatthecompassandthenallround。Itwasdarkandclear,andallthestarswereoutasplainasonafrostynightinhighlatitudes。Suddenlyhesayswithasortofalittlesigh:`Iamgoingaft,andshallsetthelogatzeroforyoumyself,sothattherecanbenomistake。Thirty-twomilesmoreonthiscourseandthenyouaresafe。Let’ssee——thecorrectiononthelogissixpercentadditive;say,then,thirtybythedialtorun,andyoumaycometwentydegreestostarboardatonce。Nouselosinganydistance——isthere?’Ihadneverheardhimtalksomuchatastretch,andtonopurposeasitseemedtome。Isaidnothing。Hewentdowntheladder,andthedog,thatwasalwaysathisheelswheneverhemoved,nightorday,slidingnosefirst,afterhim。Iheardhisboot-heelstap,tapontheafter-deck,thenhestoppedandspoketothedog——`Goback,Rover。Onthebridge,boy!Goon——get。’Thenhecallsouttomefromthedark,`Shutthatdogupinthechart-room,Mr。Jones——willyou?’
  “`ThiswasthelasttimeIheardhisvoice,CaptainMarlow。Thesearethelastwordshespokeinthehearingofanylivinghumanbeing,sir。“
  Atthispointtheoldchap’svoicegotquiteunsteady。“Hewasafraidthepoorbrutewouldjumpafterhim,don’tyousee?“hepursuedwithaquaver。
  “Yes,CaptainMarlow。Hesetthelogforme;he——wouldyoubelieveit?——heputadropofoilinittoo。Therewastheoil-feederwhereheleftitnearby。Theboatswain’smategotthehosealongafttowashdownathalf-pastfive;byandbyheknocksoffandrunsuponthebridge——`Willyoupleasecomeaft,Mr。Jones,’hesays。`There’safunnything。Idon’tliketotouchit。’ItwasCaptainBrierly’sgoldchronometerwatchcarefullyhungundertherailbyitschain。
  “`Assoonasmyeyesfellonitsomethingstruckme,andIknew,sir。
  Mylegsgotsoftunderme。ItwasasifIhadseenhimgoover;andIcouldtellhowfarbehindhewaslefttoo。Thetaffrail-logmarkedeighteenmilesandthree-quarters,andfourironbelaying-pinsweremissingroundthemainmast。Puttheminhispocketstohelphimdown,Isuppose;but,Lord!
  what’sfourironpinstoapowerfulmanlikeCaptainBrierly。Maybehisconfidenceinhimselfwasjustshookabitatthelast。That’stheonlysignofflusterhegaveinhiswholelife,Ishouldthink;butIamreadytoanswerforhim,thatonceoverhedidnottrytoswimastroke,thesameashewouldhavehadpluckenoughtokeepupalldaylongonthebarechancehadhefallenoverboardaccidentally。Yes,sir。Hewassecondtonone——ifhesaidsohimself,asIheardhimonce。Hehadwrittentwolettersinthemiddlewatch,onetotheCompanyandtheothertome。Hegavemealotofinstructionsastothepassage——Ihadbeeninthetradebeforehewasoutofhistime——andnoendofhintsastomyconductwithourpeopleinShanghai,sothatIshouldkeepthecommandoftheOssa。Hewrotelikeafatherwouldtoafavouriteson,CaptainMarlow,andIwasfive-and-twentyyearshisseniorandhadtastedsaltwaterbeforehewasfairlybreeched。
  Inhislettertotheowners——itwasleftopenformetosee——hesaidthathehadalwaysdonehisdutybythem——uptothatmoment——andevennowhewasnotbetrayingtheirconfidence,sincehewasleavingtheshiptoascompetentaseamanascouldbefound——meaningme,sir,meaningme!Hetoldthemthatifthelastactofhislifedidn’ttakeawayallhiscreditwiththem,theywouldgiveweighttomyfaithfulserviceandtohiswarmrecommendation,whenabouttofillthevacancybyhisdeath。Andmuchmorelikethis,sir。
  Icouldn’tbelievemyeyes。Itmademefeelqueerallover,“wentontheoldchapingreatperturbation,andsquashingsomethinginthecornerofhiseyewiththeendofathumbasbroadasaspatula。“Youwouldthink,sir,hehadjumpedoverboardonlytogiveanunluckymanalastshowtogeton。Whatwiththeshockofhimgoinginthisawfulrashway,andthinkingmyselfamademanbythatchance,Iwasnearlyoffmychumpforaweek。
  Butnofear。ThecaptainofthePelionwasshiftedintotheOssa——cameaboardinShanghai——alittlepopinjay,sir,inagreychecksuit,withhishairpartedinthemiddle。`AW——Iam-aw-yournewcaptain,mister——mister——aw——Jones。’Hewasdrownedinscent——fairlystunkwithit,CaptainMarlow。IdaresayitwasthelookIgavehimthatmadehimstammer。Hemumbledsomethingaboutmynaturaldisappointment——IhadbetterknowatoncethathischiefofficergotthepromotiontothePelion——hehadnothingtodowithit,ofcourse——supposedtheofficeknewbest——sorry。