`Tamb’ItamtookthepaddlefromJim’shands,itbeingunseemlythatheshouldsitwhilehislordpaddled。Whentheyreachedtheothershorehismasterforbadehimtocomeanyfarther;butTamb’Itamdidfollowhimatadistance,walkinguptheslopetoDoramin’scampong。
`Itwasbeginningtogrowdark。Torchestwinkledhereandthere。Thosetheymetseemedawestruck,andstoodasidehastilytoletJimpass。Thewailingofwomencamefromabove。ThecourtyardwasfullofarmedBugiswiththeirfollowers,andofPatusanpeople。
`Idonotknowwhatthisgatheringreallymeant。Werethesepreparationsforwar,orforvengeance,ortorepulseathreatenedinvasion?Manydayselapsedbeforethepeoplehadceasedtolookout,quaking,forthereturnofthewhitemenwithlongbeardsandinrags,whoseexactrelationtotheirownwhitemantheycouldneverunderstand。EvenforthosesimplemindspoorJimremainsunderacloud。
`Doramin,alone,immenseanddesolate,satinhisarm-chairwiththepairofflintlockpistolsonhisknees,facedbyanarmedthrong。WhenJimappeared,atsomebody’sexclamation,alltheheadsturnedroundtogether,andthenthemassopenedrightandleft,andhewalkedupalaneofavertedglances。Whispersfollowedhim;murmurs:“Hehasworkedalltheevil。“
“Hehathacharm。“……Heheardthem——perhaps!
`Whenhecameupintothelightoftorchesthewailingofthewomenceasedsuddenly。Doramindidnotlifthishead,andJimstoodsilentbeforehimforatime。Thenhelookedtotheleft,andmovedinthatdirectionwithmeasuredsteps。DainWaris’smothercrouchedattheheadofthebody,andthegreydishevelledhairconcealedherface。Jimcameupslowly,lookedathisdeadfriend,liftingthesheet,thendroppeditwithoutaword。
Slowlyhewalkedback。
“`Hecame!Hecame!“wasrunningfromliptolip,makingamurmurtowhichhemoved。“Hehathtakenituponhisownhead,“avoicesaidaloud。
Heheardthisandturnedtothecrowd。“Yes。Uponmyhead。“Afewpeoplerecoiled。JimwaitedawhilebeforeDoramin,andthensaidgently:“Iamcomeinsorrow。“Hewaitedagain。“Iamcomereadyandunarmed,“herepeated。
`Theunwieldlyoldman,loweringhisbigforeheadlikeanoxunderayoke,madeanefforttorise,clutchingattheflintlockpistolsonhisknees。Fromhisthroatcamegurgling,choking,inhumansounds,andhistwoattendantshelpedhimfrombehind。Peopleremarkedthattheringwhichhehaddroppedonhislapfellandrolledagainstthefootofthewhiteman,andthatpoorJimglanceddownatthetalismanthathadopenedforhimthedooroffame,love,andsuccesswithinthewallofforestsfringedwithwhitefoam,withinthecoastthatunderthewesternsunlooksliketheverystrongholdofthenight。Doramin,strugglingtokeephisfeet,madewithhistwosupportersaswaying,totteringgroup;hislittleeyesstaredwithanexpressionofmadpain,ofrage,withaferociousglitter,whichthebystandersnoticed;andthen,whileJimstoodstiffenedandwithbaredheadinthelightoftorches,lookinghimstraightintheface,heclungheavilywithhisleftarmroundtheneckofabowedyouth,andliftingdeliberatelyhisright,shothisson’sfriendthroughthechest。
`Thecrowd,whichhadfallenapartbehindJimassoonasDoraminhadraisedhishand,rushedtumultuouslyforwardaftertheshot。Theysaythatthewhitemansentrightandleftatallthosefacesaproudandunflinchingglance。Thenwithhishandoverhislipshefellforward,dead。
`Andthat’stheend。Hepassesawayunderacloud,inscrutableatheart,forgotten,unforgiven,andexcessivelyromantic。Notinthewildestdaysofhisboyishvisionscouldhehaveseenthealluringshapeofsuchanextraordinarysuccess!Foritmayverywellbethatintheshortmomentofhislastproudandunflinchingglance,hehadbeheldthefaceofthatopportunitywhich,likeanEasternbride,hadcomeveiledtohisside。
`Butwecanseehim,anobscureconqueroroffame,tearinghimselfoutofthearmsofajealousloveatthesign,atthecallofhisexaltedegoism。
Hegoesawayfromalivingwomantocelebratehispitilessweddingwithashadowyidealofconduct。Ishesatisfied——quite,now,Iwonder?Weoughttoknow。Heisoneofus——andhaveInotstooduponce,likeanevokedghost,toanswerforhiseternalconstancy?WasIsoverywrongafterall?
Nowheisnomore,therearedayswhentherealityofhisexistencecomestomewithanimmense,withanover-whelmingforce;andyetuponmyhonourtherearemoments,too,whenhepassesfrommyeyeslikeadisembodiedspiritastrayamongstthepassionsofthisearth,readytosurrenderhimselffaithfullytotheclaimofhisownworldofshades。
`Whoknows?Heisgone,inscrutableatheart,andthepoorgirlisleadingasortofsoundless,inertlifeinStein’shouse。Steinhasagedgreatlyoflate。Hefeelsithimself,andsaysoftenthatheis“preparingtoleaveallthis;preparingtoleave……“whilehewaveshishandsadlyathisbutterflies。’
September1899——July1900
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