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第50章

  `Tamb’ItamtookthepaddlefromJim’shands,itbeingunseemlythatheshouldsitwhilehislordpaddled。Whentheyreachedtheothershorehismasterforbadehimtocomeanyfarther;butTamb’Itamdidfollowhimatadistance,walkinguptheslopetoDoramin’scampong。
  `Itwasbeginningtogrowdark。Torchestwinkledhereandthere。Thosetheymetseemedawestruck,andstoodasidehastilytoletJimpass。Thewailingofwomencamefromabove。ThecourtyardwasfullofarmedBugiswiththeirfollowers,andofPatusanpeople。
  `Idonotknowwhatthisgatheringreallymeant。Werethesepreparationsforwar,orforvengeance,ortorepulseathreatenedinvasion?Manydayselapsedbeforethepeoplehadceasedtolookout,quaking,forthereturnofthewhitemenwithlongbeardsandinrags,whoseexactrelationtotheirownwhitemantheycouldneverunderstand。EvenforthosesimplemindspoorJimremainsunderacloud。
  `Doramin,alone,immenseanddesolate,satinhisarm-chairwiththepairofflintlockpistolsonhisknees,facedbyanarmedthrong。WhenJimappeared,atsomebody’sexclamation,alltheheadsturnedroundtogether,andthenthemassopenedrightandleft,andhewalkedupalaneofavertedglances。Whispersfollowedhim;murmurs:“Hehasworkedalltheevil。“
  “Hehathacharm。“……Heheardthem——perhaps!
  `Whenhecameupintothelightoftorchesthewailingofthewomenceasedsuddenly。Doramindidnotlifthishead,andJimstoodsilentbeforehimforatime。Thenhelookedtotheleft,andmovedinthatdirectionwithmeasuredsteps。DainWaris’smothercrouchedattheheadofthebody,andthegreydishevelledhairconcealedherface。Jimcameupslowly,lookedathisdeadfriend,liftingthesheet,thendroppeditwithoutaword。
  Slowlyhewalkedback。
  “`Hecame!Hecame!“wasrunningfromliptolip,makingamurmurtowhichhemoved。“Hehathtakenituponhisownhead,“avoicesaidaloud。
  Heheardthisandturnedtothecrowd。“Yes。Uponmyhead。“Afewpeoplerecoiled。JimwaitedawhilebeforeDoramin,andthensaidgently:“Iamcomeinsorrow。“Hewaitedagain。“Iamcomereadyandunarmed,“herepeated。
  `Theunwieldlyoldman,loweringhisbigforeheadlikeanoxunderayoke,madeanefforttorise,clutchingattheflintlockpistolsonhisknees。Fromhisthroatcamegurgling,choking,inhumansounds,andhistwoattendantshelpedhimfrombehind。Peopleremarkedthattheringwhichhehaddroppedonhislapfellandrolledagainstthefootofthewhiteman,andthatpoorJimglanceddownatthetalismanthathadopenedforhimthedooroffame,love,andsuccesswithinthewallofforestsfringedwithwhitefoam,withinthecoastthatunderthewesternsunlooksliketheverystrongholdofthenight。Doramin,strugglingtokeephisfeet,madewithhistwosupportersaswaying,totteringgroup;hislittleeyesstaredwithanexpressionofmadpain,ofrage,withaferociousglitter,whichthebystandersnoticed;andthen,whileJimstoodstiffenedandwithbaredheadinthelightoftorches,lookinghimstraightintheface,heclungheavilywithhisleftarmroundtheneckofabowedyouth,andliftingdeliberatelyhisright,shothisson’sfriendthroughthechest。
  `Thecrowd,whichhadfallenapartbehindJimassoonasDoraminhadraisedhishand,rushedtumultuouslyforwardaftertheshot。Theysaythatthewhitemansentrightandleftatallthosefacesaproudandunflinchingglance。Thenwithhishandoverhislipshefellforward,dead。
  `Andthat’stheend。Hepassesawayunderacloud,inscrutableatheart,forgotten,unforgiven,andexcessivelyromantic。Notinthewildestdaysofhisboyishvisionscouldhehaveseenthealluringshapeofsuchanextraordinarysuccess!Foritmayverywellbethatintheshortmomentofhislastproudandunflinchingglance,hehadbeheldthefaceofthatopportunitywhich,likeanEasternbride,hadcomeveiledtohisside。
  `Butwecanseehim,anobscureconqueroroffame,tearinghimselfoutofthearmsofajealousloveatthesign,atthecallofhisexaltedegoism。
  Hegoesawayfromalivingwomantocelebratehispitilessweddingwithashadowyidealofconduct。Ishesatisfied——quite,now,Iwonder?Weoughttoknow。Heisoneofus——andhaveInotstooduponce,likeanevokedghost,toanswerforhiseternalconstancy?WasIsoverywrongafterall?
  Nowheisnomore,therearedayswhentherealityofhisexistencecomestomewithanimmense,withanover-whelmingforce;andyetuponmyhonourtherearemoments,too,whenhepassesfrommyeyeslikeadisembodiedspiritastrayamongstthepassionsofthisearth,readytosurrenderhimselffaithfullytotheclaimofhisownworldofshades。
  `Whoknows?Heisgone,inscrutableatheart,andthepoorgirlisleadingasortofsoundless,inertlifeinStein’shouse。Steinhasagedgreatlyoflate。Hefeelsithimself,andsaysoftenthatheis“preparingtoleaveallthis;preparingtoleave……“whilehewaveshishandsadlyathisbutterflies。’
  September1899——July1900