Achainofislandssatbrokenandmassivefacingthewideestuary,displayedinasheetofpaleglassywaterreflectingfaithfullythecontouroftheshore。Highinthecolourlesssunshineasolitarybird,allblack,hovered,droppingandsoaringabovethesamespotwithaslightrockingmotionofthewings。Aragged,sootybunchofflimsymathovelswasperchedoveritsowninvertedimageuponacrookedmultitudeofhighpilesthecolourofebony。Atinyblackcanoeputofffromamongstthemwithtwotinymen,allblack,whotoiledexceedingly,strikingdownatthepalewater:andthecanoeseemedtoslidepainfullyonamirror。Thisbunchofmiserablehovelswasthefishingvillagethatboastedofthewhitelord’sespecialprotection,andthetwomencrossingoverweretheoldhead-manandhisson-in-law。Theylandedandwalkeduptousthewhitesand,lean,dark-brownasifdriedinsmoke,withashypatchesontheskinoftheirnakedshouldersandbreasts。Theirheadswereboundindirtybutcarefullyfoldedhandkerchiefs,andtheoldmanbeganatoncetostateacomplaint,voluble,stretchingalankarm,screwingupatJimhisoldblearedeyesconfidently。TheRajah’speoplewouldnotleavethemalone;therehadbeensometroubleaboutalotofturtles’eggshispeoplehadcollectedontheisletsthere——andleaningatarm’slengthuponhispaddle,hepointedwithabrownskinnyhandoverthesea。Jimlistenedforatimewithoutlookingup,andatlasttoldhimgentlytowait。Hewouldhearhimbyandby。Theywithdrewobedientlytosomelittledistance,andsatontheirheels,withtheirpaddleslyingbeforethemonthesand;thesilverygleamsintheireyesfollowedourmovementspatiently;andtheimmensityoftheoutspreadsea,thestillnessofthecoast,passingnorthandsouthbeyondthelimitsofmyvision,madeuponecolossalPresencewatchingusfourdwarfsisolatedonastripofglisteningsand。
“`Thetroubleis,“remarkedJim,moodily,“thatforgenerationsthesebeggarsoffishermeninthatvillagetherehadbeenconsideredastheRajah’spersonalslaves——andtheoldripcan’tgetitintohisheadthat……“
`Hepaused。“Thatyouhavechangedallthat,“Isaid。
“`Yes。I’vechangedallthat,“hemutteredinagloomyvoice。
“`Youhavehadyouropportunity,“Ipursued。
“`HadI?“hesaid。“Well,yes。Isupposeso。Yes。Ihavegotbackmyconfidenceinmyself——agoodname——yetsometimesIwish……No!IshallholdwhatI’vegot。Can’texpectanythingmore。“Heflunghisarmouttowardsthesea。“Notoutthereanyhow。“Hestampedhisfootuponthesand。“Thisismylimit,becausenothinglesswilldo。“
`Wecontinuedpacingthebeach。“Yes,I’vechangedallthat,“hewenton,withasidelongglanceatthetwopatientsquattingfishermen;“butonlytrytothinkwhatitwouldbeifIwentaway。Jove!can’tyouseeit?Hellloose。No!To-morrowIshallgoandtakemychanceofdrinkingthatsillyoldTunkuAllang’scoffee,andIshallmakenoendoffussovertheserottenturtle’seggs。No。Ican’tsay——enough。Never。Imustgoon,goonforeverholdingupmyend,tofeelsurethatnothingcantouchme。
Imuststicktotheirbeliefinmetofeelsafeandto——to“……Hecastaboutforaword,seemedtolookforitonthesea……“tokeepintouchwith“……Hisvoicesanksuddenlytoamurmur……“withthosewhom,perhaps,Ishallneverseeanymore。With——with——you,forinstance。“
`Iwasprofoundlyhumbledbyhiswords。“ForGod’ssake,“Isaid,“don’tsetmeup,mydearfellow;justlooktoyourself。“Ifeltagratitude,anaffection,forthatstragglerwhoseeyeshadsingledmeout,keepingmyplaceintheranksofaninsignificantmultitude。Howlittlethatwastoboastof,afterall!Iturnedmyburningfaceaway;underthelowsun,glowing,darkenedandcrimson,likeanembersnatchedfromthefire,thesealayoutspread,offeringallitsimmensestillnesstotheapproachofthefieryorb。Twicehewasgoingtospeak,butcheckedhimself:atlast,asifhehadfoundaformula:
“`Ishallbefaithful,“hesaid,quietly。“Ishallbefaithful,“herepeated,withoutlookingatme,butforthefirsttimelettinghiseyeswanderuponthewaters,whosebluenesshadchangedtoagloomypurpleunderthefiresofsunset。Ah!hewasromantic,romantic。IrecalledsomewordsofStein’s……“Inthedestructiveelementimmerse!……Tofollowthedream,andagaintofollowthedream——andso——always——usqueadfinem……“Hewasromantic,butnonethelesstrue。Whocouldtellwhatforms,whatvisions,whatfaces,whatforgivenesshecouldseeintheglowofthewest!……Asmallboat,leavingtheschooner,movedslowly,witharegularbeatoftwooars,towardsthesandbanktotakemeoff。“Andthenthere’sJewel,“hesaid,outofthegreatsilenceofearth,sky,andsea,whichhadmasteredmyverythoughtssothathisvoicemademestart。“There’sJewel。““Yes,“Imurmured。“Ineednottellyouwhatsheistome,“hepursued。“You’veseen。Intimeshewillcometounderstand……““Ihopeso,“Iinterrupted。“Shetrustsme,too,“hemused,andthenchangedhistone。“Whenshallwemeetnext,Iwonder?“hesaid。
“`Never——unlessyoucomeout,“Ianswered,avoidinghisglance。Hedidn’tseemtobesurprised;hekeptveryquietforawhile。
“`Good-bye,then,“hesaid,afterapause。“Perhapsit’sjustaswell。“
`Weshookhands,andIwalkedtotheboat,whichwaitedwithhernoseonthebeach。Theschooner,hermainsailsetandjib-sheettowindward,curvettedonthepurplesea;therewasarosytingeonhersails。“Willyoubegoinghomeagainsoon?“askedJim,justasIswungmylegoverthegunwale。“InayearorsoifIlive,“Isaid。Theforefootgratedonthesand,theboatfloated,thewetoarsflashedanddippedonce,twice。Jim,atthewater’sedge,raisedhisvoice。“Tellthem……“hebegan。Isignedtothementoceaserowing,andwaitedinwonder。Tellwho?Thehalf-submergedsunfacedhim;Icouldseeitsredgleaminhiseyesthatlookeddumblyatme……“No——nothing,“hesaid,andwithaslightwaveofhishandmotionedtheboataway。IdidnotlookagainattheshoretillIhadclamberedonboardtheschooner。
`Bythattimethesunhadset。Thetwilightlayoverthetheeast,andthecoast,turnedblack,extendedinfinitelyitssombrewallthatseemedtheverystrongholdofthenight;thewesternhorizonwasonegreatblazeofgoldandcrimsoninwhichabigdetachedcloudfloateddarkandstill,castingaslatyshadowonthewaterbeneath,andIsawJimonthebeachwatchingtheschoonerfalloffandgatherheadway。
`Thetwohalf-nakedfishermenhadrisenassoonasIhadgone;theywerenodoubtpouringtheplaintoftheirtrifling,miserable,oppressedlivesintotheearsofthewhitelord,andnodoubthewaslisteningtoit,makingithisown,forwasitnotapartofhisluck——theluck“fromthewordGo“——thelucktowhichhehadassuredmehewassocompletelyequal?They,too,Ishouldthink,wereinluck,andIwassuretheirpertinacitywouldbeequaltoit。Theirdark-skinnedbodiesvanishedonthedarkbackgroundlongbeforeIhadlostsightoftheirprotector。Hewaswhitefromheadtofoot,andremainedpersistentlyvisiblewiththestrongholdofthenightathisback,theseaathisfeet,theopportunitybyhisside——stillveiled。
Whatdoyousay?Wasitstillveiled?Idon’tknow。Formethatwhitefigureinthestillnessofcoastandseaseemedtostandattheheartofavastenigma。Thetwilightwasebbingfastfromtheskyabovehishead,thestripofsandhadsunkalreadyunderhisfeet,hehimselfappearednobiggerthanachild——thenonlyaspeck,atinywhitespeck,thatseemedtocatchallthelightleftinadarkenedworld……And,suddenly,Ilosthim。
thesewordsMarlowhadendedhisnarrative,andhisaudiencehadbrokenupforthwith,underhisabstract,pensivegaze。
Mendriftedofftheverandainpairsoralonewithoutlossoftime,withoutofferingaremark,asifthelastimageofthatincompletestory,itsincompletenessitself,andtheverytoneofthespeaker,hadmadediscussionvainandcommentimpossible。Eachofthemseemedtocarryawayhisownimpression,tocarryitawaywithhimlikeasecret;buttherewasonlyonemanofalltheselistenerswhowasevertohearthelastwordofthestory。Itcametohimathome,morethantwoyearslater,anditcamecontainedinathickpacketaddressedinMarlow’suprightandangularhandwriting。
Theprivilegedmanopenedthepacket,lookedin,then,layingitdown,wenttothewindow。Hisroomswereinthehighestflatofaloftybuilding,andhisglancecouldtravelafarbeyondtheclearpanesofglass,asthoughhewerelookingoutofthelanternofalighthouse。Theslopesoftheroofsglistened,thedarkbrokenridgessucceededeachotherwithoutendlikesombre,uncrestedwaves,andfromthedepthsofthetownunderhisfeetascendedaconfusedandunceasingmutter。Thespiresofchurches,numerous,scatteredhaphazard,uproselikebeaconsonamazeofshoalswithoutachannel;thedrivingrainmingledwiththefallingduskofawinter’sevening;
andtheboomingofabigclockonatowerstrikingthehour,rolledpastinvoluminous,austereburstsofsound,withashrillvibratingcryatthecore。Hedrewtheheavycurtains。
Thelightofhisshadedreading-lampsleptlikeashelteredpool,hisfootfallsmadenosoundonthecarpet,hiswanderingdayswereover。Nomorehorizonsasboundlessashope,nomoretwilightswithintheforestsassolemnastemples,inthehotquestoftheEver-undiscoveredCountryoverthehill,acrossthestream,beyondthewave。Thehourwasstriking!
Nomore!Nomore!——buttheopenedpacketunderthelampbroughtbackthesounds,thevisions,theverysavourofthepast——amultitudeoffadingfaces,atumultoflowvoices,dyingawayupontheshoresofdistantseasunderapassionateandunconsolingsunshine。Hesighedandsatdowntoread。
Atfirsthesawthreedistinctenclosures。Agoodmanypagescloselyblackenedandpinnedtogether;aloosesquaresheetofgreyishpaperwithafewwordstracedinahandwritinghehadneverseenbefore,andanexplanatoryletterfromMarlow。Fromthislastfellanotherletter,yellowedbytimeandfrayedonthefolds。Hepickeditupand,layingitaside,turnedtoMarlow’smessage,ranswiftlyovertheopeninglines,and,checkinghimself,thereafterreadondeliberately,likeoneapproachingwithslowfeetandalerteyestheglimpseofanundiscoveredcountry。
`……Idon’tsupposeyou’veforgotten,’wentontheletter。`Youalonehaveshowedaninterestinhimthatsurvivedthetellingofhisstory,thoughIrememberwellyouwouldnotadmithehadmasteredhisfate。Youprophesiedforhimthedisasterofwearinessandofdisgustwithacquiredhonour,withtheself-appointedtask,withthelovesprungfrompityandyouth。Youhadsaidyouknewsowell“thatkindofthing,“itsillusorysatisfaction,itsunavoidabledeception。Yousaidalso——Icalltomind——that“givingyourlifeuptothem“themmeaningallofmankindwithskinsbrown,yellow,orblackincolour“waslikesellingyoursoultoabrute。“Youcontendedthat“thatkindofthing“wasonlyendurableandenduringwhenbasedonafirmconvictioninthetruthofideasraciallyourown,inwhosenameareestablishedtheorder,themoralityofanethicalprogress。“Wewantitsstrengthatourbacks,“youhadsaid。“Wewantabeliefinitsnecessityanditsjustice,tomakeaworthyandconscioussacrificeofourlives。Withoutitthesacrificeisonlyforgetfulness,thewayofofferingisnobetterthanthewaytoperdition。“Inotherwords,youmaintainedthatwemustfightintheranksorourlivesdon’tcount。
Possibly!Yououghttoknow——beitsaidwithoutmalice——youwhohaverushedintooneortwoplacessingle-handedandcameoutcleverly,withoutsingeingyourwings。Thepoint,however,isthatofallmankindJimhadnodealingsbutwithhimself,andthequestioniswhetheratthelasthehadnotconfessedtoafaithmightierthanthelawsoforderandprogress。
`Iaffirmnothing。Perhapsyoumaypronounce——afteryou’veread。Thereismuchtruth——afterall——inthecommonexpression“underacloud。“Itisimpossibletoseehimclearly——especiallyasitisthroughtheeyesofothersthatwetakeourlastlookathim。IhavenohesitationinimpartingtoyouallIknowofthelastepisodethat,asheusedtosay,had“cometohim。“Onewonderswhetherthiswasperhapsthatsupremeopportunity,thatlastandsatisfyingtestforwhichIhadalwayssuspectedhimtobewaiting,beforehecouldframeamessagetotheimpeccableworld。YourememberthatwhenIwasleavinghimforthelasttimehehadaskedwhetherIwouldbegoinghomesoon,andsuddenlycriedafterme:“Tellthem!“……Ihadwaited——curiousI’llown,andhopeful,too——onlytohearhimshout,“No——nothing。“
Thatwasallthen——andthereshallbenothingmore;thereshallbenomessage,unlesssuchaseachofuscaninterpretforhimselffromthelanguageoffacts,thataresooftenmoreenigmaticthanthecraftiestarrangementofwords。Hemade,itistrue,onemoreattempttodeliverhimself;butthat,too,failed,asyoumayperceiveifyoulookatthesheetofgreyishfoolscapenclosedhere。Hehadtriedtowrite;doyounoticethecommonplacehand?Itisheaded:“TheFort,Patusan。“Isupposehehadcarriedouthisintentionofmakingoutofhishouseaplaceofdefence。Itwasanexcellentplan:adeepditch,anearthwalltoppedbyapalisade,andattheanglesgunsmountedonplatformstosweepeachsideofthesquare。Doraminhadagreedtofurnishhimtheguns;andsoeachmanofhispartywouldknowtherewasaplaceofsafety,uponwhicheveryfaithfulpartisancouldrallyincaseofsomesuddendanger。Allthisshowedhisjudiciousforesight,hisfaithinthefuture。Whathecalled“myownpeople“——theliberatedcaptivesoftheSherif——weretomakeadistinctquarterofPatusan,withtheirhutsandlittleplotsofgroundunderthewallsofthestronghold。
Withinhewouldbeaninvinciblehostinhimself。“TheFort,Patusan。“
Nodate,asyouobserve。Whatisanumberandanametoadayofdays?
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