Beforedescendingthefewstepsthegirlturnedherfaceoverhershoulderandsaidquickly:“Youweretobesetuponwhileyouslept。“Jimtellsmeheexperiencedasenseofdeception。Itwastheoldstory。Hewaswearyoftheseattemptsuponhislife。Hehadhadhisfillofthesealarms。Hewassickofthem。Heassuredmehewasangrywiththegirlfordeceivinghim。Hehadfollowedherundertheimpressionthatitwasshewhowantedhishelp,andnowhehadhalfamindtoturnonhisheelandgobackindisgust。“Doyouknow,“hecommented,profoundly,“IratherthinkIwasnotquitemyselfforwholeweeksonendaboutthattime。““Oh,yes。Youwere,though,“Icouldn’thelpcontradicting。
`Butshemovedonswiftly,andhefollowedherintothecourtyard。Allitsfenceshadfalleninalongtimeago;theneighbours’buffaloeswouldpaceinthemorningacrosstheopenspace,snortingprofoundly,withouthaste;theveryjunglewasinvadingitalready。Jimandthegirlstoppedintherankgrass。Thelightinwhichtheystoodmadeadenseblacknessallround,andonlyabovetheirheadstherewasanopulentglitterofstars。
Hetoldmeitwasabeautifulnight——quitecool,withalittlestirofbreezefromtheriver。Itseemshenoticeditsfriendlybeauty。Rememberthisisalove-storyIamtellingyounow。Alovelynightthatseemedtobreatheonthemasoftcaress。Theflameofthetorchstreamednowandthenwithaflutteringnoiselikeaflag,andforatimethiswastheonlysound。“Theyareinthestoreroomwaiting,“whisperedthegirl;“theyarewaitingforthesignal。““Who’stogiveit?“heasked。Sheshookthetorch,whichblazedupafterashowerofsparks。“Onlyyouhavebeensleepingsorestlessly,“shecontinuedinamurmur。“Iwatchedyoursleep,too。“
“You!“heexclaimed,craninghisnecktolookabouthim。“YouthinkIwatchedonthisnightonly!“shesaid,withasortofdespairingindignation。
`Hesaysitwasasifhehadreceivedablowonthechest。Hegasped。
Hethoughthehadbeenanawfulbrutesomehow,andhefeltremorseful,touched,happy,elated。This,letmeremindyouagain,isalovestory;
youcanseeitbytheimbecility,notarepulsiveimbecility,theexaltedimbecilityoftheseproceedings,thisstationintorchlight,asiftheyhadcomethereonpurposetohaveitoutfortheedificationofconcealedmurderers。IfSherifAli’semissarieshadbeenpossessed——asJimremarked——ofapennyworthofspunk,thiswasthetimetomakearush。Hisheartwasthumping——notwithfear——butheseemedtohearthegrassrustle,andhesteppedsmartlyoutofthelight。Somethingdark,imperfectlyseen,flittedrapidlyoutofsight。Hecalledoutinastrongvoice,“Cornelius!OCornelius!“
Aprofoundsilencesucceeded:hisvoicedidnotseemtohavecarriedtwentyfeet。Againthegirlwasbyhisside。“Fly!“shesaid。Theoldwomanwascomingup;herbrokenfigurehoveredincrippledlittlejumpsontheedgeofthelight;theyheardhermumbling,andalight,moaningsigh。“Fly!“
repeatedthegirl,excitedly。“Theyarefrightenednow——thislight——thevoices。Theyknowyouareawakenow——theyknowyouarebig,strong,fearless……““IfIamallthat,“hebegan,butsheinterruptedhim。“Yes——to-night!
Butwhatoftomorrownight?Ofthenextnight?Ofthenightafter——ofallthemany,manynights?CanIbealwayswatching?“Asobbingcatchofherbreathaffectedhimbeyondthepowerofwords。
`Hetoldmethathehadneverfeltsosmall,sopowerless——andastocourage,whatwasthegoodofit?hethought。Hewassohelplessthatevenflightseemedofnouse;andthoughshekeptonwhispering,“GotoDoramin,gotoDoramin,“withfeverishinsistence,herealizedthatforhimtherewasnorefugefromthatlonelinesswhichcentupledallhisdangersexcept——inher。“Ithought,“hesaidtome,“thatifIwentawayfromheritwouldbetheendofeverythingsomehow。“Onlyastheycouldn’tstopthereforeverinthemiddleofthatcourtyard,hemadeuphismindtogoandlookintothestorehouse。Heletherfollowhimwithoutthinkingofanyprotest,asiftheyhadbeenindissolublyunited。“Iamfearless——amI?“hemutteredthroughhisteeth。Sherestrainedhisarm。“Waittillyouhearmyvoice,“
shesaid,and,torchinhand,ranlightlyroundthecorner。Heremainedaloneinthedarkness,hisfacetothedoor:notasound,notabreathcamefromtheotherside。Theoldhagletoutadrearygroansomewherebehindhisback。Heheardahigh-pitchedalmostscreamingcallfromthegirl。
“Now!Push!“Hepushedviolently;thedoorswungwithacreakandaclatter,disclosingtohisintenseastonishmentthelowdungeon-likeinteriorilluminatedbyalurid,waveringglare。Aturmoilofsmokeeddieddownuponanemptywoodencrateinthemiddleofthefloor,alitterofragsandstrawtriedtosoar,butonlystirredfeeblyinthedraught。Shehadthrustthelightthroughthebarsofthewindow。Hesawherbareroundarmextendedandrigid,holdingupthetorchwiththesteadinessofanironbracket。Aconicalraggedheapofoldmatscumberedadistantcorneralmosttotheceiling,andthatwasall。
`Heexplainedtomethathewasbitterlydisappointedatthis。Hisfortitudehadbeentriedbysomanywarnings,hehadbeenforweekssurroundedbysomanyhintsofdanger,thathewantedthereliefofsomereality,ofsomethingtangiblethathecouldmeet。“Itwouldhaveclearedtheairforacoupleofhoursatleast,ifyouknowwhatImean,“hesaidtome。“Jove!
Ihadbeenlivingfordayswithastoneonmychest。“Nowatlasthehadthoughthewouldgetholdofsomething,and——nothing!Notatrace,notasignofanybody。Hehadraisedhisweaponasthedoorflewopen,butnowhisarmfell。“Fire!Defendyourself,“thegirloutsidecriedinanagonizingvoice。She,beinginthedarkandwithherarmthrustintotheshoulderthroughthesmallhole,couldn’tseewhatwasgoingon,andshedarednotwithdrawthetorchnowtorunround。“There’snobodyhere!“yelledJim,contemptuously,buthisimpulsetoburstintoaresentfulexasperatedlaughdiedwithoutasound:hehadperceivedintheveryactofturningawaythathewasexchangingglanceswithapairofeyesintheheapofmats。Hesawashiftinggleamofwhites。“Comeout!“hecriedinafury,alittledoubtful,andadark-facedhead,aheadwithoutabody,shapeditselfintherubbish,astrangelydetachedhead,thatlookedathimwithasteadyscowl。Nextmomentthewholemoundstirred,andwithalowgruntamanemergedswiftly,andboundedtowardsJim。Behindhimthematsasitwerejumpedandflew,hisrightarmwasraisedwithacrookedelbow,andthedullbladeofakrisprotrudedfromhisfistheldoff,alittleabovehishead。Aclothwoundtightroundhisloinsseemeddazzlinglywhiteonhisbronzeskin;hisnakedbodyglistenedasifwet。
`Jimnotedallthis。Hetoldmehewasexperiencingafeelingofunutterablerelief,ofvengefulelation。Heheldhisshot,hesays,deliberately。Hehelditforthetenthpartofasecond,forthreestridesoftheman——anunconscionabletime。Hehelditforthepleasureofsayingtohimself:
That’sadeadman!Hewasabsolutelypositiveandcertain。Helethimcomeonbecauseitdidnotmatter。Adeadman,anyhow。Henoticedthedilatednostrils,thewideeyes,theintent,eagerstillnessoftheface,andthenhefired。
`Theexplosioninthatconfinedspacewasstunning。Hesteppedbackapace。Hesawthemanjerkhisheadup,flinghisarmsforward,anddropthekris。Heascertainedafterwardsthathehadshothimthroughthemouth,alittleupwards,thebulletcomingouthighatthebackoftheskull。
Withtheimpetusofhisrushthemandrovestraighton,hisfacesuddenlygapingdisfigured,withhishandsopenbeforehimgropingly,asthoughblinded,andlandedwithterrificviolenceonhisforehead,justshortofJim’sbaretoes。Jimsayshedidn’tlosethesmallestdetailofallthis。Hefoundhimselfcalm,appeased,withoutrancour,withoutuneasiness,asifthedeathofthatmanhadatonedforeverything。Theplacewasgettingveryfullofsootysmokefromthetorch,inwhichtheunswayingflameburnedblood-redwithoutaflicker。Hewalkedinresolutely,stridingoverthedeadbody,andcoveredwithhisrevolveranothernakedfigureoutlinedvaguelyattheotherend。Ashewasabouttopullthetrigger,themanthrewawaywithforceashortheavyspear,andsquattedsubmissivelyonhishams,hisbacktothewallandhisclaspedhandsbetweenhislegs。
“Youwantyourlife?“Jimsaid。Theothermadenosound。“Howmanymoreofyou?“askedJimagain。“Twomore,tuan,“saidthemanverysoftly,lookingwithbigfascinatedeyesintothemuzzleoftherevolver。Accordinglytwomorecrawledfromunderthemats,holdingoutostentatiouslytheiremptyhands’
tookupanadvantageouspositionandshepherdedthemoutinabunchthroughthedoorway:allthattimethetorchhadremainedverticalinthegripofalittlehand,withoutsomuchasatremble。Thethreemenobeyedhim,perfectlymute,movingautomatically。Herangedtheminarow。“Linkarms!“heordered。Theydidso。“Thefirstwhowithdrawshisarmorturnshisheadisadeadman,“hesaid。“March!“Theysteppedouttogether,rigidly;hefollowed,andatthesidethegirl,inatrailingwhitegown,herblackhairfallingaslowasherwaist,borethelight。
Erectandswaying,sheseemedtoglidewithouttouchingtheearth;theonlysoundwasthesilkyswishandrustleofthelonggrass。“Stop!“criedJim。
`Theriver-bankwassteep;agreatfreshnessascended,thelightfellontheedgeofsmoothdarkwaterfrothingwithoutaripple;rightandlefttheshapesofthehousesrantogetherbelowthesharpoutlinesoftheroofs。
“TakemygreetingstoSherifAli——tillIcomemyself,“saidJim。Notoneheadofthethreebudged。“Jump!“hethundered。Thethreesplashesmadeonesplash,ashowerflewup,blackheadsbobbedconvulsively,anddisappeared;
butagreatblowingandsplutteringwenton,growingfaint,fortheyweredivingindustriously,ingreatfearofapartingshot。Jimturnedtothegirl,whohadbeenasilentandattentiveobserver。Hisheartseemedsuddenlytogrowtoobigforhisbreastandchokehiminthehollowofhisthroat。
Thisprobablymadehimspeechlessforsolong,andafterreturninghisgazesheflungtheburningtorchwithawidesweepofthearmintotheriver。Theruddyfieryglare,takingalongflightthroughthenight,sankwithavicioushiss,andthecalmsoftstarlightdescendeduponthem,unchecked。
`Hedidnottellmewhatitwashesaidwhenatlastherecoveredhisvoice。Idon’tsupposehecouldbeveryeloquent。Theworldwasstill,thenightbreathedonthem,oneofthosenightsthatseemcreatedfortheshelteringoftenderness,andtherearemomentswhenoursouls,asiffreedfromtheirdarkenvelope,glowwithanexquisitesensibilitythatmakescertainsilencesmorelucidthanspeeches。Astothegirl,hetoldme,“Shebrokedownabit。Excitement——don’tyouknow。Reaction。Deucedlytiredshemusthavebeen——andallthatkindofthing。And——and——hangitall——shewasfondofme,don’tyousee……I,too……didn’tknow,ofcourse……neverenteredmyhead……“
`Therehegotupandbegantowalkaboutinsomeagitation。“I——Iloveherdearly。MorethanIcouldtell。Ofcourseonecannottell。Youtakeadifferentviewofyouractionswhenyoucometounderstand,whenyouaremadetounderstandeverydaythatyourexistenceisnecessary——yousee,absolutelynecessary——toanotherperson。Iammadetofeelthat。Wonderful。
Butonlytrytothinkwhatherlifehadbeen。Itistooextravagantlyawful!
Isn’tit?Andmefindingherherelikethis——asyoumaygooutforastrollandcomesuddenlyuponsomebodydrowninginalonelydarkplace。Jove!
Notimetolose。Well,itisatrust,too……IbelieveIamequaltoit……“
`Imusttellyouthegirlhadleftustoourselvessometimebefore。
Heslappedhischest。“Yes!Ifeelthat,butIbelieveIamequaltoallmyluck!“Hehadthegiftoffindingaspecialmeaningineverythingthathappenedtohim。Thiswastheviewhetookofhislove-affair;itwasidyllic,alittlesolemn,andalsotrue,sincehisbeliefhadalltheunshakableseriousnessofyouth。Sometimeafter,onanotheroccasion,hesaidtome,“I’vebeenonlytwoyearshere,andnow,uponmyword,Ican’tconceivebeingabletoliveanywhereelse。Theverythoughtoftheworldoutsideisenoughtogivemeafright;because,don’tyousee,“hecontinued,withdowncasteyeswatchingtheactionofhisbootbusiedinsquashingthoroughlyatinybitofdriedmudwewerestrollingontheriver-bank——“becauseIhavenotforgottenwhyIcamehere。Notyet!“
`Irefrainedfromlookingathim,butIthinkIheardashortsigh;
wetookaturnortwoinsilence。“Uponmysoulandconscience,“hebeganagain,“ifsuchathingcanbeforgotten,thenIthinkIhavearighttodismissitfrommymind。Askanymanhere“……hisvoicechanged。“Isitnotstrange,“hewentoninagentle,almostyearningtone,“thatallthesepeople,allthesepeoplewhowoulddoanythingforme,canneverbemadetounderstand?Never!IfyoudisbelievemeIcouldnotcallthemup。Itseemshard,somehow。Iamstupid,amInot?WhatmorecanIwant?
Ifyouaskthemwhoisbrave——whoistrue——whoisjust——whoisittheywouldtrustwiththeirlives?——theywouldsay,TuanJim。Andyettheycanneverknowthereal,realtruth……“
`That’swhathesaidtomeonmylastdaywithhim。Ididnotletamurmurescapeme:Ifelthewasgoingtosaymore,andcomenearertotherootofthematter。Thesun,whoseconcentratedglaredwarfstheearthintoarestlessmoteofdust,hadsunkbehindtheforest,andthediffusedlightfromanopalskyseemedtocastuponaworldwithoutshadowsandwithoutbrilliancetheillusionofacalmandpensivegreatness。Idon’tknowwhy,listeningtohim,Ishouldhavenotedsodistinctlythegradualdarkeningoftheriver,oftheair;theirresistibleslowworkofthenightsettlingsilentlyonallthevisibleforms,effacingtheoutlines,buryingtheshapesdeeperanddeeper,likeasteadyfallofimpalpableblackdust。
“`Jove!“hebegan,abruptly,“therearedayswhenafellowistooabsurdforanything;onlyIknowIcantellyouwhatIlike。Italkaboutbeingdonewithit——withtheballythingatthebackofmyhead……Forgetting……HangmeifIknow!Icanthinkofitquietly。Afterall,whathasitproved?Nothing。Isupposeyoudon’tthinkso……“
`Imadeaprotestingmurmur。
“`Nomatter,“hesaid。“Iamsatisfied……nearly。I’vegottolookonlyatthefaceofthefirstmanthatcomesalong,toregainmyconfidence。
Theycan’tbemadetounderstandwhatisgoingoninme。Whatofthat?
Come!Ihaven’tdonesobadly。“
“`Notsobadly,“Isaid。
“`Butallthesame,youwouldn’tliketohavemeaboardyourownship——hey?“
“`Confoundyou!“Icried。“Stopthis。“
“`Aha!Yousee,“hecried,crowing,asitwere,overmeplacidly。“Only,“
hewenton,“youjusttrytotellthistoanyofthemhere。Theywouldthinkyouafool,aliar,orworse。AndsoIcanstandit。I’vedoneathingortwoforthem,butthisiswhattheyhavedoneforme。“
“`Mydearchap,“Icried,“youshallalwaysremainforthemaninsolublemystery。“Thereuponweweresilent。
“`Mystery,“herepeated,beforelookingup。“Well,thenletmealwaysremainhere。“
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