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第35章

  toldmefurtherthathedidn’tknowwhatmadehimhangon——butofcoursewemayguess。Hesympathizeddeeplywiththedefencelessgirl,atthemercyofthat“mean,cowardlyscoundrel。“ItappearsCorneliusledheranawfullife,stoppingonlyshortofactualill-usage,forwhichhehadnotthepluck,Isuppose。Heinsisteduponhercallinghimfather——“andwithrespect,too——withrespect,“hewouldscream,shakingalittleyellowfistinherface。“Iamarespectableman,andwhatareyou?Tellme——whatareyou?YouthinkIamgoingtobringupsomebodyelse’schildandnottobetreatedwithrespect?YououghttobegladIletyou。
  Come——say,Yes,father……No?……Youwaitabit。“Thereuponhewouldbegintoabusethedeadwoman,tillthegirlwouldrunoffwithherhandstoherhead。Hepursuedher,dashinginandoutandroundthehouseandamongstthesheds,woulddriveherintosomecorner,whereshewouldfallonherkneesstoppingherears,andthenhewouldstandatadistanceanddeclaimfilthydenunciationatherbackforhalfanhouratastretch。
  “Yourmotherwasadevil,adeceitfuldevil——andyou,too,areadevil,“
  hewouldshriekinafinaloutburst,pickupabitofdryearthorahandfulofmudtherewasplentyofmudaroundthehouse,andflingitintoherhair。Sometimes,though,shewouldholdoutfullofscorn,confrontinghiminsilence,herfacesombreandcontracted,andonlynowandthenutteringawordortwothatwouldmaketheotherjumpandwrithewiththesting。
  Jimtoldmethesesceneswereterrible。Itwasindeedastrangethingtocomeuponinawilderness。Theendlessnessofsuchasubtlycruelsituationwasappalling——ifyouthinkofit。TherespectableCorneliusInchi’NelyustheMalayscalledhim,withagrimacethatmeantmanythingswasamuchdisappointedman。Idon’tknowwhathehadexpectedwouldbedoneforhiminconsiderationofhismarriage;butevidentlythelibertytosteal,andembezzle,andappropriatetohimselfformanyyearsandinanywaythatsuitedhimbest,thegoodsofStein’sTradingCompanySteinkeptthesupplyupunfalteringlyaslongashecouldgethisskipperstotakeitthere
  didnotseemtohimafairequivalentforthesacrificeofhishonourablename。JimwouldhaveenjoyedexceedinglythrashingCorneliuswithinaninchofhislife;ontheotherhand,thesceneswereofsopainfulacharacter,soabominable,thathisimpulsewouldbetogetoutofearshot,inordertosparethegirl’sfeelings。Theyleftheragitated,speeches,clutchingherbosomnowandthenwithastony,desperateface,andthenJimwouldloungeupandsayunhappily,“Now——come——really——what’stheuse——youmusttrytoeatabit,“orgivesomesuchmarkofsympathy。Corneliuswouldkeeponslinkingthroughthedoorways,acrosstheverandaandbackagain,asmuteasafish,andwithmalevolent,mistrustful,underhandglances。
  “Icanstophisgame,“Jimsaidtoheronce。“Justsaytheword。“Anddoyouknowwhatsheanswered?Shesaid——Jimtoldmeimpressively——thatifshehadnotbeensurehewasintenselywretchedhimself,shewouldhavefoundthecouragetokillhimwithherownhands。“Justfancythat!Thepoordevilofagirl,almostachild,beingdriventotalklikethat,“
  heexclaimedinhorror。Itseemedimpossibletosavehernotonlyfromthatmeanrascalbutevenfromherself!Itwasn’tthathepitiedhersomuch,heaffirmed;itwasmorethanpity;itwasasifhehadsomethingonhisconscience,whilethatlifewenton。Toleavethehousewouldhaveappearedabasedesertion。Hehadunderstoodatlastthattherewasnothingtoexpectfromalongerstay,neitheraccountsnormoney,nortruthofanysort,buthestayedon,exasperatingCorneliustotheverge,Iwon’tsayofinsanity,butalmostofcourage。Meantimehefeltallsortsofdangersgatheringobscurelyabouthim。DoraminhadsentovertwiceatrustyservanttotellhimseriouslythathecoulddonothingforhissafetyunlesshewouldrecrosstheriveragainandliveamongsttheBugisasatfirst。Peopleofeveryconditionusedtocall,ofteninthedeadofnight,inordertodisclosetohimplotsforhisassassination。Hewastobepoisoned。Hewastobestabbedinthebath-house。Arrangementswerebeingmadetohavehimshotfromaboatontheriver。Eachoftheseinformantsprofessedhimselftobehisverygoodfriend。Itwasenough——hetoldme——tospoilafellow’srestforever。Somethingofthekindwasextremelypossible——may,probable——butthelyingwarningsgavehimonlythesenseofdeadlyscheminggoingonallaroundhim,onallsides,inthedark。Nothingmorecalculatedtoshakethebestofnerve。Finally,onenight,Corneliushimself,withagreatapparatusofalarmandsecrecy,unfoldedinsolemnwheedlingtonesalittleplanwhereinforonehundreddollars——orevenforeighty;let’ssayeighty——he,Cornelius,wouldprocureatrustworthymantosmuggleJimoutoftheriver,allsafe。Therewasnothingelseforitnow——ifJimcaredapinforhislife。What’seightydollars?Atrifle。Aninsignificantsum。Whilehe,Cornelius,whohadtoremainbehind,wasabsolutelycourtingdeathbyhisproofofdevotiontoMr。Stein’syoungfriend。Thesightofhisabjectgrimacingwas——Jimtoldme——veryhardtobear:heclutchedathishair,beathisbreast,rockedhimselftoandfrowithhishandspressedtohisstomach,andactuallypretendedtoshedtears。“Yourbloodbeonyourownhead,“hesqueakedatlast,andrushedout。ItisacuriousquestionhowfarCorneliuswassincereinthatperformance。Jimconfessedtomethathedidnotsleepawinkafterthefellowhadgone。Helayonhisbackonathinmatspreadoverthebambooflooring,tryingidlytomakeoutthebarerafters,andlisteningtotherustlingsinthetornthatch。Astarsuddenlytwinkledthroughaholeintheroof。Hisbrainwasinawhirl;
  but,nevertheless,itwasonthatverynightthathematuredhisplanforovercomingSherifAli。IthadbeenthethoughtofallthemomentshecouldsparefromthehopelessinvestigationintoStein’saffairs,butthenotion——hesays——cametohimthenallatonce。Hecouldsee,asitwere,thegunsmountedonthetopofthehill。Hegotveryhotandexcitedlyingthere;
  sleepwasoutofthequestionmorethanever。Hejumpedup,andwentoutbarefootedontheveranda。Walkingsilently,hecameuponthegirl,motionlessagainstthewall,asifonthewatch。Inhisthenstateofminditdidnotsurprisehimtoseeherup,noryettohearheraskinananxiouswhisperwhereCorneliuscouldbe。Hesimplysaidhedidnotknow。Shemoanedalittle,andpeeredintothecampong。Everythingwasveryquiet。
  Hewaspossessedbyhisnewidea,andsofullofitthathecouldnothelptellingthegirlallaboutitatonce。Shelistened,clappedherhandslightly,whisperedsoftlyheradmiration,butwasevidentlyonthealertallthetime。Itseemshehadbeenusedtomakeaconfidantofherallalong——andthatsheonherpartcouldanddidgivehimalotofusefulhintsastoPatusanaffairsthereisnodoubt。Heassuredmemorethanoncethathehadneverfoundhimselftheworseforheradvice。Atanyrate,hewasproceedingtoexplainhisplanfullytoherthereandthen,whenshepressedhisarmonce,andvanishedfromhisside。ThenCorneliusappearedfromsomewhere,and,perceivingJim,duckedsideways,asthoughhehadbeenshotat,andafterwardsstoodverystillinthedusk。Atlasthecameforwardprudently,likeasuspiciouscat。“Thereweresomefishermenthere——withfish,“hesaidinashakyvoice。“Tosellfish——youunderstand。“……
  Itmusthavebeenthentwoo’clockinthemorning——alikelytimeforanybodytohawkfishabout!
  `Jim,however,letthestatementpass,anddidnotgiveitasinglethought。Othersmattersoccupiedhismind,andbesideshehadneitherseennorheardanything。Hecontentedhimselfbysaying,“Oh!“absently,gotadrinkofwateroutofapitcherstandingthere,andleavingCorneliusapreytosomeinexplicableemotion——thatmadehimembracewithbotharmstheworm-eatenrailoftheverandaasifhislegshadfailed——wentinagainandlaydownonhismattothink。Byandbyheheardstealthyfootsteps。
  Theystopped。Avoicewhisperedtremulouslythroughthewall,“Areyouasleep?““No!Whatisit?“heanswered,briskly,andtherewasanabruptmovementoutside,andthenallwasstill,asifthewhispererhadbeenstartled。Extremelyannoyedatthis,Jimcameoutimpetuously,andCorneliuswithafaintshriekfledalongtheverandaasfarasthesteps,wherehehungontothebrokenbanister。Verypuzzled,Jimcalledouttohimfromthedistancetoknowwhatthedevilhemeant。“HaveyougivenyourconsiderationtowhatIspoketoyouabout?“askedCornelius,pronouncingthewordswithdifficulty,likeamaninthecoldfitofafever。“No!“shoutedJiminapassion。“Ididnot,andIdon’tintendto。Iamgoingtolivehere,inPatusan。““Youshalld-d-dieh-h-here,“answeredCornelius,stillshakingviolently,andinasortofexpiringvoice。ThewholeperformancewassoabsurdandprovokingthatJimdidn’tknowwhetherheoughttobeamusedorangry。“NottillIhaveseenyoutuckedaway,youbet,“hecalledout,exasperatedyetreadytolaugh。Halfseriouslybeingexcitedwithhisownthoughts,youknowhewentonshouting,“Nothingcantouchme!Youcandoyourdamnedest。“SomehowtheshadowyCorneliusfaroffthereseemedtobethehatefulembodimentofalltheannoyancesanddifficultieshehadfoundinhispath。Helethimselfgo——hisnerveshadbeenoverwroughtfordays——andcalledhimmanyprettynames,——swindler,liar,sorryrascal:
  infact,carriedoninanextraordinaryway。Headmitshepassedallbounds,thathewasquitebesidehimself——defiedallPatusantoscarehimaway——declaredhewouldmakethemalldancetohisowntuneyet,andsoon,inamenacing,boastingstrain。Perfectlybombasticandridiculous,hesaid。Hisearsburnedatthebarerecollection。Musthavebeenoffhischumpinsomeway……Thegirl,whowassittingwithus,noddedherlittleheadatmequickly,frownedfaintly,andsaid,“Iheardhim,“withchildlikesolemnity。Helaughedandblushed。Whatstoppedhimatlast,hesaid,wasthesilence,thecompletedeathlikesilence,oftheindistinctfigurefaroverthere,thatseemedtohangcollapsed,doubledovertherailinaweirdimmobility。
  Hecametohissenses,andceasingsuddenly,wonderedgreatlyathimself。
  Hewatchedforawhile。Notastir,notasound。“ExactlyasifthechaphaddiedwhileIhadbeenmakingallthatnoise,“hesaid。Hewassoashamedofhimselfthathewentindoorsinahurrywithoutanotherword,andflunghimselfdownagain。Therowseemedtohavedonehimgood,though,becausehewenttosleepfortherestofthenightlikeababy。Hadn’tsleptlikethatforweeks。“ButIdidn’tsleep,“struckinthegirl,oneelbowonthetableandnursinghercheek。“Iwatched。“Herbigeyesflashed,rollingalittle,andthenshefixedthemonmyfaceintently。’
  mayimaginewithwhatinterestIlistened。Allthesedetailswereperceivedtohavesomesignificancetwenty-fourhourslater。InthemorningCorneliusmadenoallusiontotheeventsofthenight。
  “Isupposeyouwillcomebacktomypoorhouse,“hemuttered,surlily,slinkingupjustasJimwasenteringthecanoetogoovertoDoramin’scampong。Jimonlynodded,withoutlookingathim。“Youfinditgoodfun,nodoubt,“mutteredtheotherinasourtone。Jimspentthedaywiththeoldnakhoda,preachingthenecessityofvigorousactiontotheprincipalmenoftheBugiscommunity,whohadbeensummonedforabigtalk。
  Herememberedwithpleasurehowveryeloquentandpersuasivehehadbeen。
  “Imanagedtoputsomebackboneintothemthattime,andnomistake,“hesaid。SherifAli’slastraidhadswepttheoutskirtsofthesettlement,andsomewomenbelongingtothetownhadbeencarriedofftothestockade。
  SherifAli’semissarieshadbeenseeninthemarket-placethedaybefore,struttingabouthaughtilyinwhitecloaks,andboastingoftheRajah’sfriendshipfortheirmaster。Oneofthemstoodforwardintheshadeofatree,and,leaningonthelongbarrelofarifle,exhortedthepeopletoprayerandrepentance,advisingthemtokillallthestrangersintheirmidst,someofwhom,hesaid,wereinfidelsandothersevenworse——childrenofSatanintheguiseofMoslems。ItwasreportedthatseveraloftheRajah’speopleamongstthelistenershadloudlyexpressedtheirapprobation。Theterroramongstthecommonpeoplewasintense。Jim,immenselypleasedwithhisday’swork,crossedtheriveragainbeforesunset。
  `AshehadgottheBugisirretrievablycommittedtoaction,andhadmadehimselfresponsibleforsuccessonhisownhead,hewassoelatedthatinthelightnessofhisheartheabsolutelytriedtobecivilwithCornelius。ButCorneliusbecamewildlyjovialinresponse,anditwasalmostmorethanhecouldstand,hesays,tohearhislittlesqueaksoffalselaughter,toseehimwriggleandblink,andsuddenlycatchholdofhischinandcrouchlowoverthetablewithadistractedstare。Thegirldidnotshowherself,andJimretiredearly。Whenherosetosaygoodnight,Corneliusjumpedup,knockinghischairover,andduckedoutofsightasiftopickupsomethinghehaddropped。Hisgoodnightcamehuskilyfromunderthetable。Jimwasamazedtoseehimemergewithadroppingjaw,andstaring,stupidlyfrightenedeyes。Heclutchedtheedgeofthetable。
  “What’sthematter?Areyouunwell?“askedJim。“Yes,yes,yes。Agreatcolicinmystomach,“saystheother;anditisJim’sopinionthatitwasperfectlytrue。Ifso,itwas,inviewofhiscontemplatedaction,anabjectsignofastillimperfectcallousnessforwhichhemustbegivenallduecredit。
  `Beitasitmay,Jim’sslumbersweredisturbedbyadreamofheavenslikebrassresoundingwithagreatvoice,whichcalleduponhimtoAwake!
  Awake!soloudthat,notwithstandinghisdesperatedeterminationtosleepon,hedidwakeupinreality。Theglareofaredsplutteringconflagrationgoingoninmid-airfellonhiseyes。Coilsofblackthicksmokecurvedroundtheheadofsomeapparition,someunearthlybeing,allinwhite,withasevere,drawn,anxiousface。Afterasecondorsoherecognizedthegirl。Shewasholdingadammartorchatarm’slengthaloft,andinapersistent,urgentmonotoneshewasrepeating,“Getup!Getup!Getup!“
  `Suddenlyheleapedtohisfeet;atoncesheputintohishandarevolver,hisownrevolver,whichhadbeenhangingonanail,butloadedthistime。
  Hegrippeditinsilence,bewildered,blinkinginthelight。Hewonderedwhathecoulddoforher。
  `Sheaskedrapidlyandverylow,“Canyoufacefourmenwiththis?“
  Helaughedwhilenarratingthispartattherecollectionofhispolitealacrity。Itseemshemadeagreatdisplayofit。“Certainly——ofcourse——certainly——commandme。“Hewasnotproperlyawake,andhadanotionofbeingverycivilintheseextraordinarycircumstances,ofshowinghisunquestioning,devotedreadiness。Shelefttheroom,andhefollowedher;inthepassagetheydisturbedanoldhagwhodidthecasualcookingofthehousehold,thoughshewassodecrepitastobehardlyabletounderstandhumanspeech。Shegotupandhobbledbehindthem,mumblingtoothlessly。Ontheverandaahammockofsailcloth,belongingtoCornelius,swayedlightlytothetouchofJim’selbow。Itwasempty。
  `ThePatusanestablishment,likeallthepostsofStein’sTradingCompany,hadoriginallyconsistedoffourbuildings。Twoofthemwererepresentedbytwoheapsofsticks,brokenbamboos,rottenthatch,overwhichthefourcorner-postsofhardwoodleanedsadlyatdifferentangles:theprincipalstoreroom,however,stoodyet,facingtheagent’shouse。Itwasanoblonghut,builtofmudandclay:ithadatoneendawidedoorofstoutplanking,whichsofarhadnotcomeoffthehinges,andinoneofthesidewallstherewasasquareaperture,asortofwindow,withthreewoodenbars。