`Iwassilentforawhile。“Isittobenever,then?“Isaid。“Never,“
herepeated,dreamily,withoutlookingatme,andthenflewintosuddenactivity。“Jove!Twoo’clock,andIsailatfour!“
`Itwastrue。AbrigantineofStein’swasleavingforthewestwardthatafternoon,andhehadbeeninstructedtotakehispassageinher,onlynoorderstodelaythesailinghadbeengiven。IsupposeSteinforgot。
HemadearushtogethisthingswhileIwentaboardmyship,wherehepromisedtocallonhiswaytotheouterroadster。Heturnedupaccordinglyinagreathurryandwithasmallleathervaliseinhishand。Thiswouldn’tdo,andIofferedhimanoldtintrunkofminesupposedtobewater-tight,oratleastdamp-tight。Heeffectedthetransferbythesimpleprocessofshootingoutthecontentsofhisvaliseasyouwouldemptyasackofwheat。Isawthreebooksinthetumble;twosmall,indarkcovers,andathickgreen-and-goldvolume——ahalf-crowncompleteShakespeare。“Youreadthis?“Iasked。“Yes。Bestthingtocheerupafellow,“hesaidhastily。
Iwasstruckbythisappreciation,buttherewasnotimeforShakespeariantalk。Aheavyrevolverandtwosmallboxesofcartridgeswerelyingonthecuddy-table。“Praytakethis,“Isaid。“Itmayhelpyoutoremain。“
NosoonerwerethesewordsoutofmymouththanIperceivedwhatgrimmeaningtheycouldbear。“Mayhelpyoutogetin,“Icorrectedmyselfremorsefully。
He,however,wasnottroubledbyobscuremeanings;hethankedmeeffusivelyandboltedout,callingGood-byeoverhisshoulder。Iheardhisvoicethroughtheship’ssideurginghisboatmentogiveway,andlookingoutofthestern-portIsawtheboatroundingunderthecounter。Hesatinherleaningforward,excitinghismenwithvoiceandgestures;andashehadkepttherevolverinhishandandseemedtobepresentingitattheirheads,IshallneverforgetthescaredfacesofthefourJavanese,andthefranticswingoftheirstrokewhichsnatchedthatvisionfromundermyeyes。Thenturningaway,thefirstthingIsawwerethetwoboxesofcartridgesonthecuddy-table。
Hehadforgottentotakethem。
`Iorderedmygigmannedatonce;butJim’srowers,undertheimpressionthattheirliveshungonathreadwhiletheyhadthatmadmanintheboat,madesuchexcellenttimethatbeforeIhadtraversedhalfthedistancebetweenthetwovesselsIcaughtsightofhimclamberingovertherail,andofhisboxbeingpassedup。Allthebrigantine’scanvaswasloose,hermainsailwasset,andthewindlasswasjustbeginningtoclinkasI
steppeduponherdeck:hermaster,adapperlittlehalf-casteoffortyorso,inablueflannelsuit,withlivelyeyes,hisroundfacethecolouroflemon-peel,andwithathinlittleblackmoustachedroopingoneachsideofhisthick,darklips,cameforwardsmirking。Heturnedout,notwithstandinghisself-satisfiedandcheeryexterior,tobeofacareworntemperament。
InanswertoaremarkofminewhileJimhadgonebelowforamomenthesaid,“Oh,yes。Patusan。“Hewasgoingtocarrythegentlemantothemouthoftheriver,butwould“neverascend。“HisflowingEnglishseemedtobederivedfromadictionarycompiledbyalunatic。HadMr。Steindesiredhimto“ascend,“hewouldhave“reverentially“——Ithinkhewantedtosayrespectfully——butdevilonlyknows——“reverentiallymadeobjectsforthesafetyofproperties。“Ifdisregarded,hewouldhavepresented“resignationtoquit。“Twelvemonthsagohehadmadehislastvoyagethere,andthoughMr。Cornelius“propitiatedmanyoffertories“toMr。RajahAllangandthe“principalpopulations,“onconditionswhichmadethetrade“asnareandashesinthemouth,“yethisshiphadbeenfireduponfromthewoodsby“irresponsiveparties“allthewaydowntheriver;whichcausinghiscrew“fromexposuretolimbtoremainsilentinhidings,“thebrigantinewasnearlystrandedonasandbankatthebar,whereshe“wouldhavebeenperishablebeyondtheactofman。“Theangrydisgustattherecollection,theprideofhisfluency,towhichheturnedanattentiveear,struggledforthepossessionofhisbroadsimpleface。Hescowledandbeamedatme,andwatchedwithsatisfactiontheundeniableeffectofhisphraseology。Darkfrownsranswiftlyovertheplacidsea,andthebrigantine,withherfore-topsailtothemastandhermainboomamidships,seemedbewilderedamongstthecat’s-paws。
Hetoldmefurther,gnashinghisteeth,thattheRajahwasa“laughablehyena“can’timaginehowhegotholdofhyenas;whilesomebodyelsewasmanytimesfalserthanthe“weaponsofacrocodile。“Keepingoneeyeonthemovementsofhiscrewforward,heletloosehisvolubility——comparingtheplacetoa“cageofbeastsmaderavenousbylongimpenitence。“Ifancyhemeantimpunity。Hehadnointention,hecried,to“exhibithimselftobemadeattachedpurposefullytorobbery。’Thelong-drawnwails,givingthetimeforthepullofthemencattingtheanchor,cametoanend,andheloweredhisvoice。“PlentytoomuchenoughofPatusan,“heconcluded,withenergy。
`Iheardafterwardshehadbeensoindiscreetastogethimselftiedupbytheneckwitharattanhaltertoapostplantedinthemiddleofamud-holebeforetheRajah’shouse。Hespentthebestpartofadayandawholenightinthatunwholesomesituation,butthereiseveryreasontobelievethethinghadbeenmeantasasortofjoke。Hebroodedforawhileoverthathorridmemory,Isuppose,andthenaddressedinaquarrel-sometonethemancomingafttothehelm。Whenheturnedtomeagainitwastospeakjudicially,withoutpassion。HewouldtakethegentlemantothemouthoftheriveratBatuKringPatusantown“beingsituatedinternally,“
heremarked,“thirtymiles“。Butinhiseyes,hecontinued——atoneofbored,wearyconvictionreplacinghispreviousvolubledelivery——thegentlemanwasalready“inthesimilitudeofacorpse。““What?Whatdoyousay?“I
asked。Heassumedastartlinglyferociousdemeanour,andimitatedtoperfectiontheactofstabbingfrombehind。“Alreadylikethebodyofonedeported,“
heexplained,withtheinsufferablyconceitedairofhiskindafterwhattheyimagineadisplayofcleverness。BehindhimIperceivedJimsmilingsilentlyatme,andwitharaisedhandcheckingtheexclamationonmylips。
`Then,whilethehalf-caste,burstingwithimportance,shoutedhisorders,whiletheyardsswungcreakingandtheheavyboomcamesurgingover,JimandI,aloneasitwere,toleewardofthemainsail,claspedeachother’shandsandexchangedthelasthurriedwords。Myheartwasfreedfromthatdullresentmentwhichhadexistedsidebysidewithinterestinhisfate。
Theabsurdchatterofthehalf-castehadgivenmorerealitytothemiserabledangersofhispaththanStein’scarefulstatements。Onthatoccasionthesortofformalitythathadbeenpresentinourintercoursevanishedfromourspeech;IbelieveIcalledhim“dearboy,“andhetackedonthewords“oldman“tosomehalf-utteredexpressionofgratitude,asthoughhisrisksetoffagainstmyyearshadmadeusmoreequalinageandinfeeling。
Therewasamomentofrealandprofoundintimacy,unexpectedandshort-livedlikeaglimpseofsomeeverlasting,ofsomesavingtruth。Heexertedhimselftosoothemeasthoughhehadbeenthemorematureofthetwo。“Allright,allright,“hesaid,rapidly,andwithfeeling。“Ipromisetotakecareofmyself。Yes;Iwon’ttakeanyrisks。Notasingleblessedrisk。Ofcoursenot。Imeantohangout。Don’tyouworry。Jove!Ifeelasifnothingcouldtouchme。Why!thisisluckfromthewordGo。Iwouldn’tspoilsuchamagnificentchance!“……Amagnificentchance!Well,itwasmagnificent,butchancesarewhatmenmakethem,andhowwasItoknow?Ashehadsaid,evenI——evenIremembered——his——hismisfortunesagainsthim。Itwastrue。
Andthebestthingforhimwastogo。
`Mygighaddroppedinthewakeofthebrigantine,andIsawhimaftdetacheduponthelightofthewesteringsun,raisinghiscaphighabovehishead。Iheardanindistinctshout,“You——shall——hear——of——me。“Ofme,orfromme,Idon’tknowwhich。Ithinkitmusthavebeenofme。
Myeyesweretoodazzledbytheglitteroftheseabelowhisfeettoseehimclearly;Iamfatednevertoseehimclearly;butIcanassureyounomancouldhaveappearedless“inthesimilitudeofacorpse,“asthathalf-castecroakerhadputit。Icouldseethelittlewretch’sface,theshapeandcolourofaripepumpkin,pokedoutsomewhereunderJim’selbow。
He,too,raisedhisarmasifforadownwardthrust。Absitomen!’
LordJim:Chapter24CHAPTERXXIV`THEcoastofPatusanIsawitnearlytwoyearsafterwards
isstraightandsombre,andfacesamistyocean。Redtrailsareseenlikecataractsofruststreamingunderthedark-greenfoliageofbushesandcreepersclothingthelowcliffs。Swampyplainsopenoutatthemouthofrivers,withaviewofjaggedbluepeaksbeyondthevastforests。Intheoffingachainofislands,dark,crumblingshapes,standoutintheeverlastingsunlithazeliketheremnantsofawallbreachedbythesea。
`Thereisavillageoffisher-folkatthemouthoftheBatuKringbranchoftheestuary。Theriver,whichhadbeenclosedsolong,wasopenthen,andStein’slittleschooner,inwhichIhadmypassage,workedherwayupinthreetideswithoutbeingexposedtoafusilladefrom“irresponsiveparties。“Suchastateofaffairsbelongedalreadytoancienthistory,ifIcouldbelievetheelderlyhead-manofthefishingvillage,whocameonboardtoactasasortofpilot。Hetalkedtomethesecondwhitemanhehadeverseenwithconfidence,andmostofhistalkwasaboutthefirstwhitemanhehadeverseen。HecalledhimTuanJim,andthetoneofhisreferenceswasmaderemarkablebyastrangemixtureoffamiliarityandawe。They,inthevillage,wereunderthatlord’sspecialprotection,whichshowedthatJimborenogrudge。IfhehadwarnedmethatIwouldhearofhimitwasperfectlytrue。Iwashearingofhim。Therewasalreadyastorythatthetidehadturnedtwohoursbeforeitstimetohelphimonhisjourneyuptheriver。Thetalkativeoldmanhimselfhadsteeredthecanoeandhadmarvelledatthephenomenon。Moreover,alltheglorywasinhisfamily。
Hissonandhisson-in-lawhadpaddled;buttheywereonlyyouthswithoutexperience,whodidnotnoticethespeedofthecanoetillhepointedouttothemtheamazingfact。
`Jim’scomingtothatfishingvillagewasablessing;buttothem,astomanyofus,theblessingcameheraldedbyterrors。Somanygenerationshadbeenreleasedsincethelastwhitemanhadvisitedtheriverthattheverytraditionhadbeenlost。TheappearanceofthebeingthatdescendeduponthemanddemandedinflexiblytobetakenuptoPatusanwasdiscomposing;
hisinsistencewasalarming;hisgenerositymorethansuspicious。Itwasanunheard-ofrequest。Therewasnoprecedent。WhatwouldtheRajahsaytothis?Whatwouldhedotothem?Thebestpartofthenightwasspentinconsultation;buttheimmediateriskfromtheangerofthatstrangemanseemedsogreatthatatlastacrankydug-outwasgotready。Thewomenshriekedwithgriefasitputoff。Afearlessoldhagcursedthestranger。
`Hesatinit,asI’vetoldyou,onhistinbox,nursingtheunloadedrevolveronhislap。Hesatwithprecaution——thanwhichthereisnothingmorefatiguing——andthusenteredthelandhewasdestinedtofillwiththefameofhisvirtues,fromthebluepeaksinlandtothewhiteribbonofsurfonthecoast。Atthefirstbendhelostsightoftheseawithitslabouringwavesforeverrising,sinking,andvanishingtoriseagain——theveryimageofstrugglingmankind——andfacedtheimmovableforestsrooteddeepinthesoil,soaringtowardsthesunshine,everlastingintheshadowymightoftheirtradition,likelifeitself。AndhisopportunitysatveiledbyhissidelikeanEasternbridewaitingtobeuncoveredbythehandofthemaster。He,too,wastheheirofashadowyandmightytradition!Hetoldme,however,thathehadneverinhislifefeltsodepressedandtiredasinthatcanoe。Allthemovementhedaredtoallowhimselfwastoreach,asitwerebystealth,aftertheshellofhalfacoconutfloatingbetweenhisshoes,andbailsomeofthewateroutwithacarefullyrestrainedaction。
Hediscoveredhowhardthelidofablock-tincasewastositupon。Hehadheroichealth;butseveraltimesduringthatjourneyheexperiencedfitsofgiddiness,andbetweenwhileshespeculatedhazilyastothesizeoftheblisterthesunwasraisingonhisback。Foramusementhetriedbylookingaheadtodecidewhetherthemuddyobjecthesawlyingonthewater’sedgewasalogofwoodoranalligator。Onlyverysoonhehadtogivethatup。Nofuninit。Alwaysalligator。Oneofthemfloppedintotheriverandallbutcapsizedthecanoe。Butthisexcitementwasoverdirectly。Theninalongemptyreachhewasverygratefultoatroopofmonkeyswhocamerightdownonthebank$$Word$$madeaninsultinghullabalooonhispassage。Suchwasthewayinwhichhewasapproachinggreatnessasgenuineasanymaneverachieved。Principally,helongedforsunset;
andmeantimehisthreepaddlerswerepreparingtoputintoexecutiontheirplanofdeliveringhimuptotheRajah。
“`IsupposeImusthavebeenstupidwithfatigue,orperhapsIdiddozeoffforatime,“hesaid。Thefirstthingheknewwashiscanoecomingtothebank。Hebecameinstantaneouslyawareoftheforesthavingbeenleftbehind,ofthefirsthousesbeingvisiblehigherup,ofastockadeonhisleft,andofhisboatmenleapingouttogetheruponalowpointoflandandtakingtotheirheels。Instinctivelyheleapedoutafterthem。
Atfirsthethoughthimselfdesertedforsomeinconceivablereason,butheheardexcitedshouts,agateswungopen,andalotofpeoplepouredout,makingtowardshim。Atthesametimeaboatfullofarmedmenappearedontheriverandcamealongsidehisemptycanoe,thusshuttingoffhisretreat。
“`Iwastoostartledtobequitecool——don’tyouknow?andifthatrevolverhadbeenloadedIwouldhaveshotsomebody——perhapstwo,threebodies,andthatwouldhavebeentheendofme。Butitwasn’t……““Whynot?“
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