Itwouldhavesaid,“Iamhere——stillhere“……andwhatmorecantheeyeofthemostforsakenofhumanbeingssay?Butsheturnedherbackonthemasifindisdainoftheirfate:shehadswunground,burdened,toglarestubbornlyatthenewdangeroftheopenseawhichshesostrangelysurvivedtoendherdaysinabreaking-upyard,asifithadbeenherrecordedfatetodieobscurelyundertheblowsofmanyhammers。WhatwerethevariousendstheirdestinyprovidedforthepilgrimsIamunabletosay;buttheimmediatefuturebrought,ataboutnineo’clocknextmorning,aFrenchgunboathomewardboundfromReunion。Thereportofhercommanderwaspublicproperty。Hehadsweptalittleoutofhiscoursetoascertainwhatwasthematterwiththatsteamerfloatingdangerouslybytheheaduponastillandhazysea。Therewasanensign,uniondown,flyingathermaingafftheseranghadthesensetomakeasignalofdistressatdaylight;butthecookswerepreparingthefoodinthecooking-boxesforwardasusual。
Thedeckswerepackedascloseasasheep-pen:therewerepeopleperchedallalongtherails,jammedonthebridgeinasolidmass;hundredsofeyesstared,andnotasoundwasheardwhenthegunboatrangedabreast,asifallthatmultitudeoflipshadbeensealedbyaspell。
`TheFrenchmanhailed,couldgetnointelligiblereply,andafterascertainingthroughhisbinocularsthatthecrowdondeckdidnotlookplague-stricken,decidedtosendaboat。Twoofficerscameaboard,listenedtotheserang,triedtotalkwiththeArab,couldn’tmakeheadortailofit:butofcoursethenatureoftheemergencywasobviousenough。Theywerealsoverymuchstruckbydiscoveringawhitemandeadandcurleduppeacefullyonthebridge。“Fortintriguesparcecadavre,“asIwasinformedalongtimeafterbyanelderlyFrenchlieutenantwhomIcameacrossoneafternooninSydney,bythemerestchance,inasortofcafe,andwhorememberedtheaffairperfectly。Indeedthisaffair,Imaynoticeinpassing,hadanextraordinarypowerofdefyingtheshortnessofmemoriesandthelengthoftime:itseemedtolive,withasortofuncannyvitality,inthemindsofmen,onthetipsoftheirtongues。I’vehadthequestionablepleasureofmeetingitoften,yearsafterwards,thousandsofmilesaway,emergingfromtheremotestpossibletalk,comingtothesurfaceofthemostdistantallusions。Hasitnotturnedupto-nightbetweenus?AndIamtheonlyseamanhere。Iamtheonlyonetowhomitisamemory。Andyetithasmadeitswayout!Butiftwomenwho,unknowntoeachother,knewofthisaffairmetaccidentallyonanyspotofthisearth,thethingwouldpopupbetweenthemassureasfate,beforetheyparted。IhadneverseenthatFrenchmanbefore,andattheendofanhourwehaddonewitheachotherforlife:
hedidnotseemparticularlytalkativeeither;hewasaquiet,massivechapinacreaseduniformsittingdrowsilyoveratumblerhalffullofsomedarkliquid。Hisshoulder-strapswereabittarnished,hisclean-shavedcheekswerelargeandsallow;helookedlikeamanwhowouldbegiventotakingsnuff——don’tyouknow?Iwon’tsayhedid;butthehabitwouldhavefittedthatkindofman。ItallbeganbyhishandingmeanumberofHomeNews,whichIdidn’twant,acrossthemarbletable。Isaid,“Merci。“
Weexchangedafewapparentlyinnocentremarks,andsuddenly,beforeI
knewhowithadcomeabout,wewereinthemidstofit,andhewastellingmehowmuchtheyhadbeen“intriguedbythatcorpse。“Itturnedouthehadbeenoneoftheboardingofficers。
`Intheestablishmentwherewesatonecouldgetavarietyofforeigndrinkswhichwerekeptforthevisitingnavalofficers,andhetookasipofthedarkmedical-lookingstuff,whichprobablywasnothingmorenastythancassisal’eau,andglancingwithoneeyeintothetumbler,shookhisheadslightly。“Impossibledecomprendre——vousconcevez,“
hesaid,withacuriousmixtureofunconcernandthoughtfulness。Icouldveryeasilyconceivehowimpossibleithadbeenforthemtounderstand。
NobodyinthegunboatknewenoughEnglishtogetholdofthestoryastoldbytheserang。Therewasagooddealofnoise,too,roundthetwoofficers。
“Theycrowdeduponus。Therewasacircleroundthatdeadmanautourdecemort,“hedescribed。“Onehadtoattendtothemostpressing。
Thesepeoplewerebeginningtoagitatethemselves——Parbleu!Amoblikethat——don’tyousee?“heinterjectedwithphilosophicindulgence。
Astothebulkhead,hehadadvisedhiscommanderthatthesafestthingwastoleaveitalone,itwassovillainoustolookat。TheygottwohawsersonboardpromptlyentoutehateandtookthePatnaintow——sternforemostatthat——which,underthecircumstances,wasnotsofoolish,sincetherudderwastoomuchoutofthewatertobeofanygreatuseforsteering,andthismanoeuvreeasedthestrainonthebulkhead,whosestate,heexpoundedwithstolidglibness,demandedthegreatestcareexigeaitlesplusgrandsmenagements。Icouldnothelpthinkingthatmynewacquaintancemusthavehadavoiceinmostofthesearrangements:helookedareliableofficer,nolongerveryactive,andhewasseamanlike,too,inaway,thoughashesatthere,withhisthickfingersclaspedlightlyonhisstomach,heremindedyouofoneofthosesnuffy,quietvillagepriests,intowhoseearsarepouredthesins,thesufferings,theremorseofpeasantgenerations,onwhosefacestheplacidandsimpleexpressionislikeaveilthrownoverthemysteryofpainanddistress。Heoughttohavehadathreadbareblacksoutanebuttonedsmoothlyuptohisamplechin,insteadofafrock-coatwithshoulder-strapsandbrassbuttons。Hisbroadbosomheavedregularlywhilehewentontellingmethatithadbeentheverydevilofajob,asdoubtlesssansdouteIcouldfiguretomyselfinmyqualityofaseamanenvotrequalitedemarin。Attheendoftheperiodheinclinedhisbodyslightlytowardsme,and,pursinghisshavedlips,allowedtheairtoescapewithagentlehiss。“Luckily,“hecontinued,“theseawaslevellikethistable,andtherewasnomorewindthanthereishere。“……Theplacestruckmeasindeedintolerablystuffy,andveryhot;myfaceburnedasthoughIhadbeenyoungenoughtobeembarrassedandblushing。
Theyhaddirectedtheircourse,hepursued,tothenearestEnglishport“naturellement,“wheretheirresponsibilityceased,“Dieumerci。“……Heblewouthisflatcheeksalittle……“Because,mindyounotezbien,allthetimeoftowingwehadtwoquartermastersstationedwithaxesbythehawsers,tocutusclearofourtowincaseshe……“Hefluttereddownwardshisheavyeyelids,makinghismeaningasplainaspossible……“Whatwouldyou!Onedoeswhatonecanonfaitcequ’onpeut,“
andforamomenthemanagedtoinvesthisponderousimmobilitywithanairofresignation。“Twoquartermasters——thirtyhours——alwaysthere。Two!“
herepeated,liftinguphisrighthandalittle,andexhibitingtwofingers。
ThiswasabsolutelythefirstgestureIsawhimmake。Itgavemetheopportunityto“note“astarredscaronthebackofhishand——effectofagun-shotclearly;and,asifmysighthadbeenmademoreacutebythisdiscovery,Iperceivedalsotheseamofanoldwound,beginningalittlebelowthetempleandgoingoutofsightundertheshortgreyhairatthesideofhishead——thegrazeofaspearorthecutofasabre。Heclaspedhishandsonhisstomachagain。“Iremainedonboardthat——that——mymemoryisgoings’enva。Ah!Patt-na。C’estbienca。Patt-na。Merci。Itisdrollhowoneforgets。Istayedonthatshipthirtyhours……’
“`Youdid!“Iexclaimed。Stillgazingathishands,hepursedhislipsalittle,butthistimemadenohissingsound。“Itwasjudgedproper,“
hesaid,liftinghiseyebrowsdispassionately,“thatoneoftheofficersshouldremaintokeepaneyeopenpourouvrirl’oeil“……hesighedidly……“andforcommunicatingbysignalswiththetowingship——doyousee?——andsoon。Fortherest,itwasmyopinion,too。Wemadeourboatsreadytodropover——andIalsoonthatshiptookmeasures……Enfin!Onehasdoneone’spossible。Itwasadelicateposition。
Thirtyhours。Theypreparedmesomefood。Asforthewine——goandwhistleforit——notadrop。“Insomeextraordinaryway,withoutanymarkedchangeinhisinertattitudeandintheplacidexpressionofhisface,hemanagedtoconveytheideaofprofounddisgust。“I——youknow——whenitcomestoeatingwithoutmyglassofwine——Iamnowhere。“
`Iwasafraidhewouldenlargeuponthegrievance,forthoughhedidn’tstiralimbortwitchafeature,hemadeoneawarehowmuchhewasirritatedbytherecollection。Butheseemedtoforgetallaboutit。Theydeliveredtheirchargetothe“portauthorities,“asheexpressedit。Hewasstruckbythecalmnesswithwhichithadbeenreceived。“Onemighthavethoughttheyhadsuchadrollfinddroledetrouvaillebroughtthemeveryday。Youareextraordinary——youothers,“hecommented,withhisbackproppedagainstthewall,andlookinghimselfasincapableofanemotionaldisplayasasackofmeal。Therehappenedtobeaman-of-warandanIndianMarinesteamerintheharbouratthetime,andhedidnotconcealhisadmirationoftheefficientmannerinwhichtheboatsofthesetwoshipsclearedthePatnaofherpassengers。Indeedhistorpiddemeanourconcealednothing:
ithadthatmysterious,almostmiraculous,powerofproducingstrikingeffectsbymeansimpossibleofdetectionwhichisthelastwordofthehighestart。“Twenty-fiveminutes——watchinhand——twenty-five,nomore。“……Heunclaspedandclaspedagainhisfingerswithoutremovinghishandsfromhisstomach,andmadeitinfinitelymoreeffectivethanifhehadthrownuphisarmstoheaveninamazement……“Allthatlottoutcemondeonshore——withtheirlittleaffairs——nobodyleftbutaguardofseamenmarinsdel’Etatandthatinterestingcorpsecetinteressantcadavre。Twenty-fiveminutes。“……Withdowncasteyesandhisheadtiltedslightlyononesideheseemedtorollknowinglyonhistonguethesavourofasmartbitofwork。Hepersuadedonewithoutanyfurtherdemonstrationthathisapprovalwaseminentlyworthhaving,andresuminghishardlyinterruptedimmobility,hewentontoinformmethat,beingunderorderstomakethebestoftheirwaytoToulon,theyleftintwohours’time,“sothatdesortequetherearemanythingsinthisincidentofmylifedanscetepisodedemavie
whichhaveremainedobscure。“’
thesewords,andwithoutachangeofattitude,he,sotospeak,submittedhimselfpassivelytoastateofsilence。Ikepthimcompany;andsuddenly,butnotabruptly,asiftheappointedtimehadarrivedforhismoderateandhuskyvoicetocomeoutofhisimmobility,hepronounced,“MonDieu!howthetimepasses!“Nothingcouldhavebeenmorecommonplacethanthisremark;butitsutterancecoincidedformewithamomentofvision。It’sextraordinaryhowwegothroughlifewitheyeshalfshut,withdullears,withdormantthoughts。Perhapsit’sjustaswell;anditmaybethatitisthisverydullnessthatmakeslifetotheincalculablemajoritysosupportableandsowelcome。Nevertheless,therecanbebutfewofuswhohadneverknownoneoftheseraremomentsofawakeningwhenwesee,hear,understandeversomuch——everything——inaflash——beforewefallbackagainintoouragreeablesomnolence。Iraisedmyeyeswhenhespoke,andIsawhimasthoughIhadneverseenhimbefore。
Isawhischinsunkonhisbreast,theclumsyfoldsofhiscoat,hisclaspedhands,hismotionlesspose,socuriouslysuggestiveofhishavingbeensimplyleftthere。Timehadpassedindeed:ithadovertakenhimandgoneahead。Ithadlefthimhopelesslybehindwithafewpoorgifts;theiron-greyhair,theheavyfatigueofthetannedface,twoscars,apairoftarnishedshoulder-straps;oneofthosesteady,reliablemenwhoaretherawmaterialofgreatreputations,oneofthoseuncountedlivesthatareburiedwithoutdrumsandtrumpetsunderthefoundationsofmonumentalsuccesses。“IamnowthirdlieutenantoftheVictorieuse“shewastheflagshipoftheFrenchPacificsquadronatthetime,hesaid,detachinghisshouldersfromthewallacoupleofinchestointroducehimself。Ibowedslightlyonmysideofthetable,andtoldhimIcommandedamerchantvesselatpresentanchoredinRushcutter’sBay。Hehad“remarked“her——aprettylittlecraft。Hewasverycivilaboutitinhisimpassiveway。Ievenfancyhewentthelengthoftiltinghisheadincomplimentasherepeated,breathingvisiblythewhile,“Ah,yes。Alittlecraftpaintedblack——verypretty——veryprettytrescoquent。’Afteratimehetwistedhisbodyslowlytofacetheglassdooronourright。“Adulltowntristeville,“
heobserved,staringintothestreet。Itwasabrilliantday;asoutherlybusterwasraging,andwecouldseethepassers-by,menandwomen,buffetedbythewindonthesidewalks,thesunlitfrontsofthehousesacrosstheroadblurredbythetallwhirlsofdust。“Idescendedonshore,“hesaid,“tostretchmylegsalittle,but……“Hedidn’tfinish,andsankintothedepthsofhisrepose。“Pray——tellme,“hebegan,comingupponderously,“whatwasthereatthebottomofthisaffair——preciselyaujuste?
Itiscurious。Thatdeadman,forinstance——andsoon。“
“`Therewerelivingmen,too,“Isaid;“muchmorecurious。“
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