`Thelittleengineerwhimperedlikeachild,butbrokenarmandall,heturnedouttheleastcravenofthelotasitseems,and,actually,musteredenoughplucktorunanerrandtotheengine-room。Notrifle,itmustbeownedinfairnesstohim。Jimtoldmehedarteddesperatelookslikeacorneredman,gaveonelowwail,anddashedoff。Hewasbackinstantlyclambering,hammerinhand,andwithoutapauseflunghimselfatthebolt。
TheothersgaveupJimatonceandranofftoassist。Heheardthetap,tapofthehammer,thesoundofthereleasedchockfallingover。Theboatwasclear。Onlythenheturnedtolook——onlythen。Buthekepthisdistance——hekepthisdistance。Hewantedmetoknowhehadkepthisdistance;thattherewasnothingincommonbetweenhimandthesemen——whohadthehammer。
Nothingwhatever。Itismorethanprobablehethoughthimselfcutofffromthembyaspacethatcouldnotbetraversed,byanobstaclethatcouldnotbeovercome,byachasmwithoutbottom。Hewasasfarashecouldgetfromthem——thewholebreadthoftheship。
`Hisfeetweregluedtothatremotespotandhiseyestotheirindistinctgroupbowedtogetherandswayingstrangelyinthecommontormentoffear。
Ahand-lamplashedtoastanchionabovealittletableriggeduponthebridge——thePatnahadnochart-roomamidships——threwalightontheirlabouringshoulders,ontheirarchedandbobbingbacks。Theypushedatthebowoftheboat;theypushedoutintothenight;theypushed,andwouldnomorelookbackathim。Theyhadgivenhimupasifindeedhehadbeentoofar,toohopelesslyseparatedfromthemselves,tobeworthanappealingword,aglance,orasign。Theyhadnoleisuretolookbackuponhispassiveheroism,tofeelthestingofhisabstention。Theboatwasheavy;theypushedatthebowwithnobreathtospareforanencouragingword:buttheturmoilofterrorthathadscatteredtheirself-controllikechaffbeforethewind,convertedtheirdesperateexertionsintoabitoffooling,uponmywordfitforknockaboutclownsinafarce。Theypushedwiththeirhands,withtheirheads,theypushedfordearlifewithalltheweightoftheirbodies,theypushedwithallthemightoftheirsouls——onlynosoonerhadtheysucceededincantingthestemclearofthedavitthantheywouldleaveofflikeonemanandstartawildscrambleintoher。Asanaturalconsequencetheboatwouldswinginabruptly,drivingthemback,helplessandjostlingagainsteachother。Theywouldstandnonplussedforawhile,exchanginginfiercewhispersalltheinfamousnamestheycouldcalltomind,andgoatitagain。Threetimesthisoccurred。Hedescribedittomewithmorosethoughtfulness。Hehadn’tlostasinglemovementofthatcomicbusiness。“Iloathedthem。Ihatedthem。Ihadtolookatallthat,“hesaidwithoutemphasis,turninguponmeasombrelywatchfulglance。
“Waseverthereanyonesoshamefullytried!“
`Hetookhisheadinhishandsforamoment,likeamandriventodistractionbysomeunspeakableoutrage。Thesewerethingshecouldnotexplaintothecourt——andnoteventome;butIwouldhavebeenlittlefittedforthereceptionofhisconfidenceshadInotbeenableattimestounderstandthepausesbetweenthewords。Inthisassaultuponhisfortitudetherewasthejeeringintentionofaspitefulandvilevengeance;therewasanelementofburlesqueinhisordeal——adegradationoffunnygrimacesintheapproachofdeathordishonour。
`HerelatedfactswhichIhavenotforgotten,butatthisdistanceoftimeIcouldn’trecallhisverywords:Ionlyrememberthathemanagedwonderfullytoconveythebroodingrancourofhismindintothebarerecitalofevents。Twice,hetoldme,heshuthiseyesinthecertitudethattheendwasuponhimalready,andtwicehehadtoopenthemagain。Eachtimehenotedthedarkeningofthegreatstillness。Theshadowofthesilentcloudhadfallenupontheshipfromthezenith,andseemedtohaveextinguishedeverysoundofherteeminglife。Hecouldnolongerhearthevoicesundertheawnings。Hetoldmethateachtimeheclosedhiseyesaflashofthoughtshowedhimthatcrowdofbodies,laidoutfordeath,asplainasdaylight。
Whenheopenedthem,itwastoseethedimstruggleoffourmenfightinglikemadwithastubbornboat。“Theywouldfallbackbeforeittimeaftertime,standswearingateachother,andsuddenlymakeanotherrushinabunch……Enoughtomakeyoudielaughing,“hecommentedwithdowncasteyes;thenraisingthemforamomenttomyfacewithadismalsmile,“I
oughttohaveamerrylifeofit,byGod!forIshallseethatfunnysightagoodmanytimesyetbeforeIdie。“Hiseyesfellagain。“Seeandhear……Seeandhear,“herepeatedtwice,atlongintervals,filledbyvacantstaring。
`Herousedhimself。
“`Imadeupmymindtokeepmyeyesshut,“hesaid,“andIcouldn’t。
Icouldn’t,andIdon’tcarewhoknowsit。Letthemgothroughthatkindofthingbeforetheytalk。Justletthem——anddobetter——that’sall。Thesecondtimemyeyelidsflewopenandmymouthtoo。Ihadfelttheshipmove。Shejustdippedherbows——andliftedthemgently——andslow!everlastinglyslow;andeversolittle。Shehadn’tdonethatmuchfordays。Thecloudhadracedahead,andthisfirstswellseemedtotraveluponaseaoflead。
Therewasnolifeinthatstir。Itmanaged,though,toknockoversomethinginmyhead。Whatwouldyouhavedone?Youaresureofyourself——aren’tyou?Whatwouldyoudoifyoufeltnow——thisminute——thehouseheremove,justmovealittleunderyourchair。Leap!Byheavens!youwouldtakeonespringfromwhereyousitandlandinthatclumpofbushesyonder。“
`Heflunghisarmoutatthenightbeyondthestonebalustrade。Iheldmypeace。Helookedatmeverysteadily,verysevere。Therecouldbenomistake:Iwasbeingbulliednow,anditbehovedmetomakenosignlestbyagestureorawordIshouldbedrawnintoafataladmissionaboutmyselfwhichwoul-KanbaAPp点com-dhavehadsomebearingonthecase。Iwasnotdisposedtotakeanyriskofthatsort。Don’tforgetIhadhimbeforeme,andreallyhewastoomuchlikeoneofusnottobedangerous。ButifyouwanttoknowIdon’tmindtellingyouthatIdid,witharapidglance,estimatethedistancetothemassofdenserblacknessinthemiddleofthegrass-plotbeforetheveranda。Heexaggerated。Iwouldhavelandedshortbyseveralfeet——andthat’stheonlythingofwhichIamfairlycertain。
`Thelastmomenthadcome,ashethought,andhedidnotmove。Hisfeetremainedgluedtotheplanksifhisthoughtswereknockinglooseinhishead。Itwasatthismoment,too,thathesawoneofthemenaroundtheboatstepbackwardssuddenly,clutchattheairwithraisedarms,totterandcollapse。Hedidn’texactlyfall,heonlyslidgentlyintoasittingposture,allhunchedupandwithhisshouldersproppedagainstthesideoftheengine-roomskylight。“Thatwasthedonkey-man。Ahaggard,white-facedchapwitharaggedmoustache。Actedthirdengineer,“heexplained。
“`Dead,“Isaid。Wehadheardsomethingofthatincourt。
“`Sotheysay,“hepronouncedwithsombreindifference。“OfcourseI
neverknew。Weakheart。Themanhadbeencomplainingofbeingoutofsortsforsometimebefore。Excitement。Over-exertion。Devilonlyknows。Ha!
ha!ha!Itwaseasytoseehedidnotwanttodieeither。Droll,isn’tit?MayIbeshotifhehadn’tbeenfooledintokillinghimself!Fooled——neithermorenorless。Fooledintoit,byheavens!justasI……Ah!Ifhehadonlykeptstill;ifhehadonlytoldthemtogotothedevilwhentheycametorushhimoutofhisbunkbecausetheshipwassinking!Ifhehadonlystoodbywithhishandsinhispocketsandcalledthemnames!“
`Hegotup,shookhisfist,glaredatme,andsatdown。
“`Achancemissed,eh?“Imurmured。
“`Whydon’tyoulaugh?“hesaid。“Ajokehatchedinhell。Weakheart!……Iwishsometimesminehadbeen。“
`Thisirritatedme。“Doyou?“Iexclaimedwithdeeprootedirony。“Yes!
Can’tyouunderstand?“hecried。“Idon’tknowwhatmoreyoucouldwishfor,“Isaidangrily。Hegavemeanutterlyuncomprehendingglance。
Thisshafthadalsogonewideofthemark,andhewasnotthemantobotheraboutstrayarrows。Uponmyword,hewastoounsuspecting;hewasnotfairgame。Iwasgladthatmymissilehadbeenthrownaway——thathehadnotevenheardthetwangofthebow。
`Ofcoursehecouldnotknowatthetimethemanwasdead。Thenextminute——hislastonboard——wascrowdedwithatumultofeventsandsensationswhichbeatabouthimliketheseauponarock。Iusethesimileadvisedly,becausefromhisrelationIamforcedtobelievehehadpreservedthroughitallastrangeillusionofpassiveness,asthoughhehadnotactedbuthadsufferedhimselftobehandledbytheinfernalpowerswhohadselectedhimforthevictimoftheirpracticaljoke。Thefirstthingthatcametohimwasthegrindingsurgeoftheheavydavitsswingingoutatlast——ajarwhichseemedtoenterhisbodyfromthedeckthroughthesolesofhisfeet,andtraveluphisspinetothecrownofhishead。Then,thesquallbeingverynearnow,anotherandheavierswellliftedthepassivehullinathreateningheavethatcheckedhisbreath,whilehisbrainandhishearttogetherwerepiercedaswithdaggersbypanic-strickenscreams。
“Letgo!ForGod’ssake,letgo!Letgo!She’sgoing。“Followinguponthattheboat-fallsrippedthroughtheblocks,andalotofmenbegantotalkinstartledtonesundertheawnings。“Whenthesebeggarsdidbreakout,theiryelpswereenoughtowakethedead,“hesaid。Nextafterthesplashingshockoftheboatliterallydroppedinthewater,camethehollownoisesofstampingandtumblinginher,mingledwithconfusedshouts:“Unhook!
Unhook!Shove!Unhook!Shoveforyourlife!Here’sthesqualldownonus……“Heheard,highabovehishead,thefaintmutteringofthewind;
heheardbelowhisfeetacryofpain。Alostvoicealongsidestartedcursingaswivelhook。Theshipbegantobuzzforeandaftlikeadisturbedhive,and,asquietlyashewastellingmeallofthis——becausejustthenhewasveryquietinattitude,inface,invoice——hewentontosaywithouttheslightestwarningasitwere,“Istumbledoverhislegs。“
`ThiswasthefirstIheardofhishavingmovedatall。Icouldnotrestrainagruntofsurprise。Somethinghadstartedhimoffatlast,butoftheexactmoment,ofthecausethattorehimoutofhisimmobility,heknewnomorethantheuprootedtreeknowsofthewindthatlaiditlow。
Allthishadcometohim;thesounds,thesights,thelegsofthedeadman——byJove!Theinfernaljokewasbeingcrammeddevilishlydownhisthroat,but——lookyou——hewasnotgoingtoadmitofanysortofswallowingmotioninhisgullet。It’sextraordinaryhowhecouldcastuponyouthespiritofhisillusion。Ilistenedasiftoataleofblackmagicatworkuponacorpse。
“`Hewentoversideways,verygently,andthisisthelastthingIrememberseeingonboard,“hecontinued。“Ididnotcarewhathedid。Itlookedasthoughhewerepickinghimselfup:Ithoughthewaspickinghimselfup,ofcourse:Iexpectedhimtoboltpastmeovertherailanddropintotheboataftertheothers。Icouldhearthemknockingabout,downthere,andavoiceasifcryingupashaftcalledout,`George!’Thenthreevoicestogetherraisedayell。Theycametomeseparately:onebleated,anotherscreamed,onehowled。Ough!“
`Heshiveredalittle,andIbeheldhimriseslowlyasifasteadyhandfromabovehadbeenpullinghimoutofthechairbyhishair。Up,slowly——tohisfullheight,andwhenhiskneeshadlockedstiffthehandlethimgo,andheswayedalittleonhisfeet。Therewasasuggestionofawfulstillnessinhisface,inhismovements,inhisveryvoicewhenhesaid,“Theyshouted“——andinvoluntarilyIprickedupmyearsfortheghostofthatshoutthatwouldbehearddirectlythroughthefalseeffectofsilence。“Therewereeighthundredpeopleinthatship,“hesaid,impalingmetothebackofmyseatwithanawfulblankstare。“Eighthundredlivingpeople,andtheywereyellingaftertheonedeadmantocomedownandbesaved。`Jump,George!
Jump!Oh,jump!’Istoodbywithmyhandonthedavit。Iwasveryquiet。
Ithadcomeoverpitchdark。Youcouldseeneitherskynorsea。Iheardtheboatalongsidegobump,bump,andnotanothersounddownthereforawhile,buttheshipundermewasfulloftalkingnoises。Suddenlytheskipperhowled,`MeinGott!Thesquall!Thesquall!Shoveoff!’
Withthefirsthissofrain,andthefirstgustofwind,theyscreamed,`Jump,George!We’llcatchyou!Jump!’Theshipbeganaslowplunge;therainsweptoverherlikeabrokensea;mycapflewoffmyhead;mybreathwasdrivenbackintomythroat。IheardasifIhadbeenonthetopofatoweranotherwildscreech,`Geo-o-o-orge!Oh,jump!’Shewasgoingdown,down,headfirstunderme……“
`Heraisedhishanddeliberatelytohisface,andmadepickingmotionswithhisfingersasthoughhehadbeenbotheredwithcobwebs,andafterwardshelookedintotheopenpalmforquitehalfasecondbeforeheblurtedout:
“`Ihadjumped……“Hecheckedhimself,avertedhisgaze……“Itseems,“headded。
`Hisclearblueeyesturnedtomewithapiteousstare,andlookingathimstandingbeforeme,dumbfoundedandhurt,Iwasoppressedbyasadsenseofresignedwisdom,mingledwiththeamusedandprofoundpityofanoldmanhelplessbeforeachildishdisaster。
“`Lookslikeit,“Imuttered。
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