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第6章

  Thenheplacidlydismissedthematter,andwentonwithhisdailyaffairs。BythistimeEllaathomehadcometoadetermination。
  Mrs。Hooper,insendingthehairandphotograph,hadinformedherofthedayofthefuneral;andasthemorningandnoonworeonanoverpoweringwishtoknowwheretheywerelayinghimtookpossessionofthesympatheticwoman。Caringverylittlenowwhatherhusbandoranyoneelsemightthinkofhereccentricities;shewroteMarchmillabriefnote,statingthatshewascalledawayfortheafternoonandevening,butwouldreturnonthefollowingmorning。
  Thissheleftonhisdesk,andhavinggiventhesameinformationtotheservants,wentoutofthehouseonfoot。
  WhenMr。Marchmillreachedhomeearlyintheafternoontheservantslookedanxious。Thenursetookhimprivatelyaside,andhintedthathermistress’ssadnessduringthepastfewdayshadbeensuchthatshefearedshehadgoneouttodrownherself。Marchmillreflected。
  Uponthewholehethoughtthatshehadnotdonethat。Withoutsayingwhitherhewasboundhealsostartedoff,tellingthemnottositupforhim。Hedrovetotherailway-station,andtookaticketforSolentsea。
  Itwasdarkwhenhereachedtheplace,thoughhehadcomebyafasttrain,andheknewthatifhiswifehadprecededhimthitheritcouldonlyhavebeenbyaslowertrain,arrivingnotagreatwhilebeforehisown。TheseasonatSolentseawasnowpast:theparadewasgloomy,andtheflyswerefewandcheap。HeaskedthewaytotheCemetery,andsoonreachedit。Thegatewaslocked,butthekeeperlethimin,declaring,however,thattherewasnobodywithintheprecincts。Althoughitwasnotlate,theautumnaldarknesshadnowbecomeintense;andhefoundsomedifficultyinkeepingtotheserpentinepathwhichledtothequarterwhere,asthemanhadtoldhim,theoneortwointermentsforthedayhadtakenplace。Hesteppeduponthegrass,and,stumblingoversomepegs,stoopednowandthentodiscernifpossibleafigureagainstthesky。
  Hecouldseenone;butlightingonaspotwherethesoilwastrodden,beheldacrouchingobjectbesideanewlymadegrave。Sheheardhim,andsprangup。
  ’Ell,howsillythisis!’hesaidindignantly。’Runningawayfromhome——Ineverheardsuchathing!OfcourseIamnotjealousofthisunfortunateman;butitistooridiculousthatyou,amarriedwomanwiththreechildrenandafourthcoming,shouldgolosingyourheadlikethisoveradeadlover!……Doyouknowyouwerelockedin?Youmightnothavebeenabletogetoutallnight。’
  Shedidnotanswer。
  ’Ihopeitdidn’tgofarbetweenyouandhim,foryourownsake。’
  ’Don’tinsultme,Will。’
  ’Mind,Iwon’thaveanymoreofthissortofthing;doyouhear?’
  ’Verywell,’shesaid。
  Hedrewherarmwithinhisown,andconductedheroutoftheCemetery。Itwasimpossibletogetbackthatnight;andnotwishingtoberecognizedintheirpresentsorrycondition,hetookhertoamiserablelittlecoffee-houseclosetothestation,whencetheydepartedearlyinthemorning,travellingalmostwithoutspeaking,underthesensethatitwasoneofthosedrearysituationsoccurringinmarriedlifewhichwordscouldnotmend,andreachingtheirowndooratnoon。
  Themonthspassed,andneitherofthetwaineverventuredtostartaconversationuponthisepisode。Ellaseemedtobeonlytoofrequentlyinasadandlistlessmood,whichmightalmosthavebeencalledpining。Thetimewasapproachingwhenshewouldhavetoundergothestressofchildbirthforafourthtime,andthatapparentlydidnottendtoraiseherspirits。
  ’Idon’tthinkIshallgetoveritthistime!’shesaidoneday。
  ’Pooh!whatchildishforeboding!Whyshouldn’titbeaswellnowasever?’
  Sheshookherhead。’IfeelalmostsureIamgoingtodie;andI
  shouldbeglad,ifitwerenotforNelly,andFrank,andTiny。’
  ’Andme!’
  ’You’llsoonfindsomebodytofillmyplace,’shemurmured,withasadsmile。’Andyou’llhaveaperfectrightto;Iassureyouofthat。’
  ’Ell,youarenotthinkingstillaboutthat——poeticalfriendofyours?’
  Sheneitheradmittednordeniedthecharge。’Iamnotgoingtogetovermyillnessthistime,’shereiterated。’SomethingtellsmeI
  shan’t。’
  Thisviewofthingswasratherabadbeginning,asitusuallyis;
  and,infact,sixweekslater,inthemonthofMay,shewaslyinginherroom,pulselessandbloodless,withhardlystrengthenoughlefttofollowuponefeeblebreathwithanother,theinfantforwhoseunnecessarylifeshewasslowlypartingwithherownbeingfatandwell。JustbeforeherdeathshespoketoMarchmillsoftly:-
  ’Will,Iwanttoconfesstoyoutheentirecircumstancesofthat——
  aboutyouknowwhat——thattimewevisitedSolentsea。Ican’ttellwhatpossessedme——howIcouldforgetyouso,myhusband!ButIhadgotintoamorbidstate:Ithoughtyouhadbeenunkind;thatyouhadneglectedme;thatyouweren’tuptomyintellectuallevel,whilehewas,andfaraboveit。Iwantedafullerappreciator,perhaps,ratherthananotherlover——’
  Shecouldgetnofurtherthenforveryexhaustion;andshewentoffinsuddencollapseafewhourslater,withouthavingsaidanythingmoretoherhusbandonthesubjectofherloveforthepoet。
  WilliamMarchmill,intruth,likemosthusbandsofseveralyears’
  standing,waslittledisturbedbyretrospectivejealousies,andhadnotshowntheleastanxietytopressherforconfessionsconcerningamandeadandgonebeyondanypowerofinconveniencinghimmore。
  Butwhenshehadbeenburiedacoupleofyearsitchancedonedaythat,inturningoversomeforgottenpapersthathewishedtodestroybeforehissecondwifeenteredthehouse,helightedonalockofhairinanenvelope,withthephotographofthedeceasedpoet,adatebeingwrittenonthebackinhislatewife’shand。ItwasthatofthetimetheyspentatSolentsea。
  Marchmilllookedlongandmusinglyatthehairandportrait,forsomethingstruckhim。Fetchingthelittleboywhohadbeenthedeathofhismother,nowanoisytoddler,hetookhimonhisknee,heldthelockofhairagainstthechild’shead,andsetupthephotographonthetablebehind,sothathecouldcloselycomparethefeatureseachcountenancepresented。Therewereundoubtedlystrongtracesofresemblance;thedreamyandpeculiarexpressionofthepoet’sfacesat,asthetransmittedidea,uponthechild’s,andthehairwasofthesamehue。
  ’I’mdamnedifIdidn’tthinkso!’murmuredMarchmill。’ThensheDIDplaymefalsewiththatfellowatthelodgings!Letmesee:
  thedates——thesecondweekinAugust……thethirdweekinMay……Yes……yes……Getaway,youpoorlittlebrat!Youarenothingtome!’
  AmongthefewfeaturesofagriculturalEnglandwhichretainanappearancebutlittlemodifiedbythelapseofcenturies,maybereckonedthehigh,grassyandfurzydowns,coombs,orewe-leases,astheyareindifferentlycalled,thatfillalargeareaofcertaincountiesinthesouthandsouth-west。Ifanymarkofhumanoccupationismetwithhereon,itusuallytakestheformofthesolitarycottageofsomeshepherd。
  Fiftyyearsagosuchalonelycottagestoodonsuchadown,andmaypossiblybestandingtherenow。Inspiteofitsloneliness,however,thespot,byactualmeasurement,wasnotmorethanfivemilesfromacounty-town。Yetthataffecteditlittle。Fivemilesofirregularupland,duringthelonginimicalseasons,withtheirsleets,snows,rains,andmists,affordwithdrawingspaceenoughtoisolateaTimonoraNebuchadnezzar;muchless,infairweather,topleasethatlessrepellenttribe,thepoets,philosophers,artists,andotherswho’conceiveandmeditateofpleasantthings。’
  Someoldearthencamporbarrow,someclumpoftrees,atleastsomestarvedfragmentofancienthedgeisusuallytakenadvantageofintheerectionoftheseforlorndwellings。But,inthepresentcase,suchakindofshelterhadbeendisregarded。HigherCrowstairs,asthehousewascalled,stoodquitedetachedandundefended。Theonlyreasonforitsprecisesituationseemedtobethecrossingoftwofootpathsatrightangleshardby,whichmayhavecrossedthereandthusforagoodfivehundredyears。Hencethehousewasexposedtotheelementsonallsides。But,thoughthewinduphereblewunmistakablywhenitdidblow,andtherainhithardwheneveritfell,thevariousweathersofthewinterseasonwerenotquitesoformidableonthecoombastheywereimaginedtobebydwellersonlowground。Therawrimeswerenotsoperniciousasinthehollows,andthefrostswerescarcelysosevere。Whentheshepherdandhisfamilywhotenantedthehousewerepitiedfortheirsufferingsfromtheexposure,theysaidthatuponthewholetheywerelessinconveniencedby’wuzzesandflames’hoarsesandphlegmsthanwhentheyhadlivedbythestreamofasnugneighbouringvalley。
  ThenightofMarch28,182-,waspreciselyoneofthenightsthatwerewonttocallforththeseexpressionsofcommiseration。Thelevelrainstormsmotewalls,slopes,andhedgesliketheclothyardshaftsofSenlacandCrecy。Suchsheepandoutdooranimalsashadnoshelterstoodwiththeirbuttockstothewinds;whilethetailsoflittlebirdstryingtoroostonsomescraggythornwereblowninside-outlikeumbrellas。Thegable-endofthecottagewasstainedwithwet,andtheeavesdroppingsflappedagainstthewall。Yetneverwascommiserationfortheshepherdmoremisplaced。Forthatcheerfulrusticwasentertainingalargepartyinglorificationofthechristeningofhissecondgirl。
  Theguestshadarrivedbeforetherainbegantofall,andtheywereallnowassembledinthechieforlivingroomofthedwelling。A
  glanceintotheapartmentateighto’clockonthiseventfuleveningwouldhaveresultedintheopinionthatitwasascosyandcomfortableanookascouldbewishedforinboisterousweather。
  Thecallingofitsinhabitantwasproclaimedbyanumberofhighly-
  polishedsheep-crookswithoutstemsthatwerehungornamentallyoverthefireplace,thecurlofeachshiningcrookvaryingfromtheantiquatedtypeengravedinthepatriarchalpicturesofoldfamilyBiblestothemostapprovedfashionofthelastlocalsheep-fair。
  Theroomwaslightedbyhalf-a-dozencandles,havingwicksonlyatriflesmallerthanthegreasewhichenvelopedthem,incandlesticksthatwereneverusedbutathigh-days,holy-days,andfamilyfeasts。
  Thelightswerescatteredabouttheroom,twoofthemstandingonthechimney-piece。Thispositionofcandleswasinitselfsignificant。Candlesonthechimney-piecealwaysmeantaparty。