’Whendidyoup-p-partfromhim?’sheasked,hernetherlipstartingoffquiveringsomuchthatitwaslikeatremolo-stopopenedinherspeech。Shelongedtorunawayfromthisdreadfulboreandcryhereyesout。
’Justnow,intheturnpikeroadyonderthere。’
’What!hehasactuallygonepastmygates?’
’Yes。Whenwegottothem——handsomegatestheyare,too,thefinestbitofmodernwrought-ironworkIhaveseen——whenwecametothemwestopped,talkingtherealittlewhile,andthenhewishedmegood-
byeandwenton。Thetruthis,he’salittlebitdepressedjustnow,anddoesn’twanttoseeanybody。He’saverygoodfellow,andawarmfriend,butalittleuncertainandgloomysometimes;hethinkstoomuchofthings。Hispoetryisrathertooeroticandpassionate,youknow,forsometastes;andhehasjustcomeinforaterribleslatingfromthe——Reviewthatwaspublishedyesterday;hesawacopyofitatthestationbyaccident。Perhapsyou’vereadit?’
’No。’
’Somuchthebetter。O,itisnotworththinkingof;justoneofthosearticleswrittentoorder,topleasethenarrow-mindedsetofsubscribersuponwhomthecirculationdepends。Buthe’supsetbyit。Hesaysitisthemisrepresentationthathurtshimso;that,thoughhecanstandafairattack,hecan’tstandliesthathe’spowerlesstorefuteandstopfromspreading。That’sjustTrewe’sweakpoint。Helivessomuchbyhimselfthatthesethingsaffecthimmuchmorethantheywouldifhewereinthebustleoffashionableorcommerciallife。Sohewouldn’tcomehere,makingtheexcusethatitalllookedsonewandmonied——ifyou’llpardon——’
’But——hemusthaveknown——therewassympathyhere!Hasheneversaidanythingaboutgettinglettersfromthisaddress?’
’Yes,yes,hehas,fromJohnIvy——perhapsarelativeofyours,hethought,visitinghereatthetime?’
’Didhe——likeIvy,didhesay?’
’Well,Idon’tknowthathetookanygreatinterestinIvy。’
’Orinhispoems?’
’Orinhispoems——sofarasIknow,thatis。’
RobertTrewetooknointerestinherhouse,inherpoems,orintheirwriter。Assoonasshecouldgetawayshewentintothenurseryandtriedtoletoffheremotionbyunnecessarilykissingthechildren,tillshehadasuddensenseofdisgustatbeingremindedhowplain-lookingtheywere,liketheirfather。
Theobtuseandsingle-mindedlandscape-painterneveronceperceivedfromherconversationthatitwasonlyTreweshewanted,andnothimself。Hemadethebestofhisvisit,seemingtoenjoythesocietyofElla’shusband,whoalsotookagreatfancytohim,andshowedhimeverywhereabouttheneighbourhood,neitherofthemnoticingElla’smood。
Thepainterhadbeengoneonlyadayortwowhen,whilesittingupstairsaloneonemorning,sheglancedovertheLondonpaperjustarrived,andreadthefollowingparagraph:-
’SUICIDEOFAPOET
’Mr。RobertTrewe,whohasbeenfavourablyknownforsomeyearsasoneofourrisinglyrists,committedsuicideathislodgingsatSolentseaonSaturdayeveninglastbyshootinghimselfintherighttemplewitharevolver。ReadershardlyneedtoberemindedthatMr。
Trewehasrecentlyattractedtheattentionofamuchwiderpublicthanhadhithertoknownhim,byhisnewvolumeofverse,mostlyofanimpassionedkind,entitled“LyricstoaWomanUnknown,“whichhasbeenalreadyfavourablynoticedinthesepagesfortheextraordinarygamutoffeelingittraverses,andwhichhasbeenmadethesubjectofasevere,ifnotferocious,criticisminthe——Review。Itissupposed,thoughnotcertainlyknown,thatthearticlemayhavepartiallyconducedtothesadact,asacopyofthereviewinquestionwasfoundonhiswriting-table;andhehasbeenobservedtobeinasomewhatdepressedstateofmindsincethecritiqueappeared。’
Thencamethereportoftheinquest,atwhichthefollowingletterwasread,ithavingbeenaddressedtoafriendatadistance:-
’DEAR-,——BeforetheselinesreachyourhandsIshallbedeliveredfromtheinconveniencesofseeing,hearing,andknowingmoreofthethingsaroundme。IwillnottroubleyoubygivingmyreasonsforthestepIhavetaken,thoughIcanassureyoutheyweresoundandlogical。PerhapshadIbeenblessedwithamother,orasister,orafemalefriendofanothersorttenderlydevotedtome,Imighthavethoughtitworthwhiletocontinuemypresentexistence。Ihavelongdreamtofsuchanunattainablecreature,asyouknow,andshe,thisundiscoverable,elusiveone,inspiredmylastvolume;theimaginarywomanalone,for,inspiteofwhathasbeensaidinsomequarters,thereisnorealwomanbehindthetitle。Shehascontinuedtothelastunrevealed,unmet,unwon。Ithinkitdesirabletomentionthisinorderthatnoblamemayattachtoanyrealwomanashavingbeenthecauseofmydeceasebycruelorcavaliertreatmentofme。TellmylandladythatIamsorrytohavecausedherthisunpleasantness;butmyoccupancyoftheroomswillsoonbeforgotten。Thereareamplefundsinmynameatthebanktopayallexpenses。R。TREWE。’
Ellasatforawhileasifstunned,thenrushedintotheadjoiningchamberandflungherselfuponherfaceonthebed。
Hergriefanddistractionshookhertopieces;andshelayinthisfrenzyofsorrowformorethananhour。Brokenwordscameeverynowandthenfromherquiveringlips:’O,ifhehadonlyknownofme——
knownofme——me!……O,ifIhadonlyoncemethim——onlyonce;andputmyhanduponhishotforehead——kissedhim——lethimknowhowI
lovedhim——thatIwouldhavesufferedshameandscorn,wouldhavelivedanddied,forhim!Perhapsitwouldhavesavedhisdearlife!……Butno——itwasnotallowed!GodisajealousGod;andthathappinesswasnotforhimandme!’
Allpossibilitieswereover;themeetingwasstultified。Yetitwasalmostvisibletoherinherfantasyevennow,thoughitcouldneverbesubstantiated-
’Thehourwhichmighthavebeen,yetmightnotbe,Whichman’sandwoman’sheartconceivedandbore,Yetwhereoflifewasbarren。’
ShewrotetothelandladyatSolentseainthethirdperson,inassubduedastyleasshecouldcommand,enclosingapostalorderforasovereign,andinformingMrs。HooperthatMrs。Marchmillhadseeninthepapersthesadaccountofthepoet’sdeath,andhavingbeen,asMrs。Hooperwasaware,muchinterestedinMr。TreweduringherstayatCoburgHouse,shewouldbeobligedifMrs。Hoopercouldobtainasmallportionofhishairbeforehiscoffinwascloseddown,andsenditherasamemorialofhim,asalsothephotographthatwasintheframe。
Bythereturn-postaletterarrivedcontainingwhathadbeenrequested。Ellaweptovertheportraitandsecureditinherprivatedrawer;thelockofhairshetiedwithwhiteribbonandputinherbosom,whenceshedrewitandkissediteverynowandtheninsomeunobservednook。
’What’sthematter?’saidherhusband,lookingupfromhisnewspaperononeoftheseoccasions。’Cryingoversomething?Alockofhair?
Whoseisit?’
’He’sdead!’shemurmured。
’Who?’
’Idon’twanttotellyou,Will,justnow,unlessyouinsist!’shesaid,asobhangingheavyinhervoice。
’O,allright。’
’Doyoumindmyrefusing?Iwilltellyousomeday。’
’Itdoesn’tmatterintheleast,ofcourse。’
Hewalkedawaywhistlingafewbarsofnotuneinparticular;andwhenhehadgotdowntohisfactoryinthecitythesubjectcameintoMarchmill’sheadagain。
He,too,wasawarethatasuicidehadtakenplacerecentlyatthehousetheyhadoccupiedatSolentsea。Havingseenthevolumeofpoemsinhiswife’shandoflate,andheardfragmentsofthelandlady’sconversationaboutTrewewhentheywerehertenants,heallatoncesaidtohimself;’Whyofcourseit’she!Howthedevildidshegettoknowhim?Whatslyanimalswomenare!’
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