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第5章

  ’Whendidyoup-p-partfromhim?’sheasked,hernetherlipstartingoffquiveringsomuchthatitwaslikeatremolo-stopopenedinherspeech。Shelongedtorunawayfromthisdreadfulboreandcryhereyesout。
  ’Justnow,intheturnpikeroadyonderthere。’
  ’What!hehasactuallygonepastmygates?’
  ’Yes。Whenwegottothem——handsomegatestheyare,too,thefinestbitofmodernwrought-ironworkIhaveseen——whenwecametothemwestopped,talkingtherealittlewhile,andthenhewishedmegood-
  byeandwenton。Thetruthis,he’salittlebitdepressedjustnow,anddoesn’twanttoseeanybody。He’saverygoodfellow,andawarmfriend,butalittleuncertainandgloomysometimes;hethinkstoomuchofthings。Hispoetryisrathertooeroticandpassionate,youknow,forsometastes;andhehasjustcomeinforaterribleslatingfromthe——Reviewthatwaspublishedyesterday;hesawacopyofitatthestationbyaccident。Perhapsyou’vereadit?’
  ’No。’
  ’Somuchthebetter。O,itisnotworththinkingof;justoneofthosearticleswrittentoorder,topleasethenarrow-mindedsetofsubscribersuponwhomthecirculationdepends。Buthe’supsetbyit。Hesaysitisthemisrepresentationthathurtshimso;that,thoughhecanstandafairattack,hecan’tstandliesthathe’spowerlesstorefuteandstopfromspreading。That’sjustTrewe’sweakpoint。Helivessomuchbyhimselfthatthesethingsaffecthimmuchmorethantheywouldifhewereinthebustleoffashionableorcommerciallife。Sohewouldn’tcomehere,makingtheexcusethatitalllookedsonewandmonied——ifyou’llpardon——’
  ’But——hemusthaveknown——therewassympathyhere!Hasheneversaidanythingaboutgettinglettersfromthisaddress?’
  ’Yes,yes,hehas,fromJohnIvy——perhapsarelativeofyours,hethought,visitinghereatthetime?’
  ’Didhe——likeIvy,didhesay?’
  ’Well,Idon’tknowthathetookanygreatinterestinIvy。’
  ’Orinhispoems?’
  ’Orinhispoems——sofarasIknow,thatis。’
  RobertTrewetooknointerestinherhouse,inherpoems,orintheirwriter。Assoonasshecouldgetawayshewentintothenurseryandtriedtoletoffheremotionbyunnecessarilykissingthechildren,tillshehadasuddensenseofdisgustatbeingremindedhowplain-lookingtheywere,liketheirfather。
  Theobtuseandsingle-mindedlandscape-painterneveronceperceivedfromherconversationthatitwasonlyTreweshewanted,andnothimself。Hemadethebestofhisvisit,seemingtoenjoythesocietyofElla’shusband,whoalsotookagreatfancytohim,andshowedhimeverywhereabouttheneighbourhood,neitherofthemnoticingElla’smood。
  Thepainterhadbeengoneonlyadayortwowhen,whilesittingupstairsaloneonemorning,sheglancedovertheLondonpaperjustarrived,andreadthefollowingparagraph:-
  ’SUICIDEOFAPOET
  ’Mr。RobertTrewe,whohasbeenfavourablyknownforsomeyearsasoneofourrisinglyrists,committedsuicideathislodgingsatSolentseaonSaturdayeveninglastbyshootinghimselfintherighttemplewitharevolver。ReadershardlyneedtoberemindedthatMr。
  Trewehasrecentlyattractedtheattentionofamuchwiderpublicthanhadhithertoknownhim,byhisnewvolumeofverse,mostlyofanimpassionedkind,entitled“LyricstoaWomanUnknown,“whichhasbeenalreadyfavourablynoticedinthesepagesfortheextraordinarygamutoffeelingittraverses,andwhichhasbeenmadethesubjectofasevere,ifnotferocious,criticisminthe——Review。Itissupposed,thoughnotcertainlyknown,thatthearticlemayhavepartiallyconducedtothesadact,asacopyofthereviewinquestionwasfoundonhiswriting-table;andhehasbeenobservedtobeinasomewhatdepressedstateofmindsincethecritiqueappeared。’
  Thencamethereportoftheinquest,atwhichthefollowingletterwasread,ithavingbeenaddressedtoafriendatadistance:-
  ’DEAR-,——BeforetheselinesreachyourhandsIshallbedeliveredfromtheinconveniencesofseeing,hearing,andknowingmoreofthethingsaroundme。IwillnottroubleyoubygivingmyreasonsforthestepIhavetaken,thoughIcanassureyoutheyweresoundandlogical。PerhapshadIbeenblessedwithamother,orasister,orafemalefriendofanothersorttenderlydevotedtome,Imighthavethoughtitworthwhiletocontinuemypresentexistence。Ihavelongdreamtofsuchanunattainablecreature,asyouknow,andshe,thisundiscoverable,elusiveone,inspiredmylastvolume;theimaginarywomanalone,for,inspiteofwhathasbeensaidinsomequarters,thereisnorealwomanbehindthetitle。Shehascontinuedtothelastunrevealed,unmet,unwon。Ithinkitdesirabletomentionthisinorderthatnoblamemayattachtoanyrealwomanashavingbeenthecauseofmydeceasebycruelorcavaliertreatmentofme。TellmylandladythatIamsorrytohavecausedherthisunpleasantness;butmyoccupancyoftheroomswillsoonbeforgotten。Thereareamplefundsinmynameatthebanktopayallexpenses。R。TREWE。’
  Ellasatforawhileasifstunned,thenrushedintotheadjoiningchamberandflungherselfuponherfaceonthebed。
  Hergriefanddistractionshookhertopieces;andshelayinthisfrenzyofsorrowformorethananhour。Brokenwordscameeverynowandthenfromherquiveringlips:’O,ifhehadonlyknownofme——
  knownofme——me!……O,ifIhadonlyoncemethim——onlyonce;andputmyhanduponhishotforehead——kissedhim——lethimknowhowI
  lovedhim——thatIwouldhavesufferedshameandscorn,wouldhavelivedanddied,forhim!Perhapsitwouldhavesavedhisdearlife!……Butno——itwasnotallowed!GodisajealousGod;andthathappinesswasnotforhimandme!’
  Allpossibilitieswereover;themeetingwasstultified。Yetitwasalmostvisibletoherinherfantasyevennow,thoughitcouldneverbesubstantiated-
  ’Thehourwhichmighthavebeen,yetmightnotbe,Whichman’sandwoman’sheartconceivedandbore,Yetwhereoflifewasbarren。’
  ShewrotetothelandladyatSolentseainthethirdperson,inassubduedastyleasshecouldcommand,enclosingapostalorderforasovereign,andinformingMrs。HooperthatMrs。Marchmillhadseeninthepapersthesadaccountofthepoet’sdeath,andhavingbeen,asMrs。Hooperwasaware,muchinterestedinMr。TreweduringherstayatCoburgHouse,shewouldbeobligedifMrs。Hoopercouldobtainasmallportionofhishairbeforehiscoffinwascloseddown,andsenditherasamemorialofhim,asalsothephotographthatwasintheframe。
  Bythereturn-postaletterarrivedcontainingwhathadbeenrequested。Ellaweptovertheportraitandsecureditinherprivatedrawer;thelockofhairshetiedwithwhiteribbonandputinherbosom,whenceshedrewitandkissediteverynowandtheninsomeunobservednook。
  ’What’sthematter?’saidherhusband,lookingupfromhisnewspaperononeoftheseoccasions。’Cryingoversomething?Alockofhair?
  Whoseisit?’
  ’He’sdead!’shemurmured。
  ’Who?’
  ’Idon’twanttotellyou,Will,justnow,unlessyouinsist!’shesaid,asobhangingheavyinhervoice。
  ’O,allright。’
  ’Doyoumindmyrefusing?Iwilltellyousomeday。’
  ’Itdoesn’tmatterintheleast,ofcourse。’
  Hewalkedawaywhistlingafewbarsofnotuneinparticular;andwhenhehadgotdowntohisfactoryinthecitythesubjectcameintoMarchmill’sheadagain。
  He,too,wasawarethatasuicidehadtakenplacerecentlyatthehousetheyhadoccupiedatSolentsea。Havingseenthevolumeofpoemsinhiswife’shandoflate,andheardfragmentsofthelandlady’sconversationaboutTrewewhentheywerehertenants,heallatoncesaidtohimself;’Whyofcourseit’she!Howthedevildidshegettoknowhim?Whatslyanimalswomenare!’