’YouareinterestedinMr。Trewe,Iknow,ma’am,’shesaid;’andhehasjustsenttosaythatheisgoingtocallto-morrowafternoontolookupsomebooksofhisthathewants,ifI’llbein,andhemayselectthemfromyourroom?’
’Oyes!’
’YoucouldverywellmeetMrTrewethen,ifyou’dliketobeintheway!’
Shepromisedwithsecretdelight,andwenttobedmusingofhim。
Nextmorningherhusbandobserved:’I’vebeenthinkingofwhatyousaid,Ell:thatIhavegoneaboutagooddealandleftyouwithoutmuchtoamuseyou。Perhapsit’strue。To-day,asthere’snotmuchsea,I’lltakeyouwithmeonboardtheyacht。’
ForthefirsttimeinherexperienceofsuchanofferEllawasnotglad。Butsheaccepteditforthemoment。Thetimeforsettingoutdrewnear,andshewenttogetready。Shestoodreflecting。Thelongingtoseethepoetshewasnowdistinctlyinlovewithoverpoweredallotherconsiderations。
’Idon’twanttogo,’shesaidtoherself。’Ican’tbeartobeaway!AndIwon’tgo。’
Shetoldherhusbandthatshehadchangedhermindaboutwishingtosail。Hewasindifferent,andwenthisway。
Fortherestofthedaythehousewasquiet,thechildrenhavinggoneoutuponthesands。Theblindswavedinthesunshinetothesoft,steadystrokeoftheseabeyondthewall;andthenotesoftheGreenSilesianband,atroopofforeigngentlemenhiredfortheseason,haddrawnalmostalltheresidentsandpromenadersawayfromthevicinityofCoburgHouse。Aknockwasaudibleatthedoor。
Mrs。Marchmilldidnothearanyservantgotoanswerit,andshebecameimpatient。Thebookswereintheroomwhereshesat;butnobodycameup。Sherangthebell。
’Thereissomepersonwaitingatthedoor,’shesaid。
’Ono,ma’am!He’sgonelongago。Iansweredit。’
Mrs。Hoopercameinherself。
’Sodisappointing!’shesaid。’Mr。Trewenotcomingafterall!’
’ButIheardhimknock,Ifancy!’
’No;thatwassomebodyinquiringforlodgingswhocametothewronghouse。IforgottotellyouthatMr。TrewesentanotejustbeforelunchtosayIneedn’tgetanyteaforhim,asheshouldnotrequirethebooks,andwouldn’tcometoselectthem。’
Ellawasmiserable,andforalongtimecouldnotevenre-readhismournfulballadon’SeveredLives,’soachingwashererraticlittleheart,andsotearfulhereyes。Whenthechildrencameinwithwetstockings,andranuptohertotellheroftheiradventures,shecouldnotfeelthatshecaredaboutthemhalfasmuchasusual。
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’Mrs。Hooper,haveyouaphotographof——thegentlemanwholivedhere?’Shewasgettingtobecuriouslyshyinmentioninghisname。
’Why,yes。It’sintheornamentalframeonthemantelpieceinyourownbedroom,ma’am。’
’No;theRoyalDukeandDuchessareinthat。’
’Yes,sotheyare;buthe’sbehindthem。Hebelongsrightlytothatframe,whichIboughtonpurpose;butashewentawayhesaid:
“Covermeupfromthosestrangersthatarecoming,forGod’ssake。
Idon’twantthemstaringatme,andIamsuretheywon’twantmestaringatthem。“SoIslippedintheDukeandDuchesstemporarilyinfrontofhim,astheyhadnoframe,andRoyaltiesaremoresuitableforlettingfurnishedthanaprivateyoungman。Ifyoutake’emoutyou’llseehimunder。Lord,ma’am,hewouldn’tmindifheknewit!Hedidn’tthinkthenexttenantwouldbesuchanattractiveladyasyou,orhewouldn’thavethoughtofhidinghimself;perhaps。’
’Ishehandsome?’sheaskedtimidly。
’_I_callhimso。Some,perhaps,wouldn’t。’
’ShouldI?’sheasked,witheagerness。
’Ithinkyouwould,thoughsomewouldsayhe’smorestrikingthanhandsome;alarge-eyedthoughtfulfellow,youknow,withaveryelectricflashinhiseyewhenhelooksroundquickly,suchasyou’dexpectapoettobewhodoesn’tgethislivingbyit。’
’Howoldishe?’
’Severalyearsolderthanyourself,ma’am;aboutthirty-oneortwo,Ithink。’
Ellawas,asamatteroffact,afewmonthsoverthirtyherself;butshedidnotlooknearlysomuch。Thoughsoimmatureinnature,shewasenteringonthattractoflifeinwhichemotionalwomenbegintosuspectthatlastlovemaybestrongerthanfirstlove;andshewouldsoon,alas,enteronthestillmoremelancholytractwhenatleastthevaineronesofhersexshrinkfromreceivingamalevisitorotherwisethanwiththeirbackstothewindowortheblindshalfdown。ShereflectedonMrs。Hooper’sremark,andsaidnomoreaboutage。
Justthenatelegramwasbroughtup。Itcamefromherhusband,whohadgonedowntheChannelasfarasBudmouthwithhisfriendsintheyacht,andwouldnotbeabletogetbacktillnextday。
AfterherlightdinnerEllaidledabouttheshorewiththechildrentilldusk,thinkingoftheyetuncoveredphotographinherroom,withaserenesenseofsomethingecstatictocome。For,withthesubtleluxuriousnessoffancyinwhichthisyoungwomanwasanadept,onlearningthatherhusbandwastobeabsentthatnightshehadrefrainedfromincontinentlyrushingupstairsandopeningthepicture-frame,preferringtoreservetheinspectiontillshecouldbealone,andamoreromantictingebeimpartedtotheoccasionbysilence,candles,solemnseaandstarsoutside,thanwasaffordedbythegarishafternoonsunlight。
Thechildrenhadbeensenttobed,andEllasoonfollowed,thoughitwasnotyetteno’clock。Togratifyherpassionatecuriosityshenowmadeherpreparations,firstgettingridofsuperfluousgarmentsandputtingonherdressing-gown,thenarrangingachairinfrontofthetableandreadingseveralpagesofTrewe’stenderestutterances。
Thenshefetchedtheportrait-frametothelight,openedtheback,tookoutthelikeness,andsetitupbeforeher。
Itwasastrikingcountenancetolookupon。Thepoetworealuxuriantblackmoustacheandimperial,andaslouchedhatwhichshadedtheforehead。Thelargedarkeyes,describedbythelandlady,showedanunlimitedcapacityformisery;theylookedoutfrombeneathwell-shapedbrowsasiftheywerereadingtheuniverseinthemicrocosmoftheconfronter’sface,andwerenotaltogetheroverjoyedatwhatthespectacleportended。
Ellamurmuredinherlowest,richest,tenderesttone:’Andit’sYOU
who’vesocruellyeclipsedmethesemanytimes!’
Asshegazedlongattheportraitshefellintothought,tillhereyesfilledwithtears,andshetouchedthecardboardwithherlips。
Thenshelaughedwithanervouslightness,andwipedhereyes。
Shethoughthowwickedshewas,awomanhavingahusbandandthreechildren,tolethermindstraytoastrangerinthisunconscionablemanner。No,hewasnotastranger!Sheknewhisthoughtsandfeelingsaswellassheknewherown;theywere,infact,theself-
samethoughtsandfeelingsashers,whichherhusbanddistinctlylacked;perhapsluckilyforhimself;consideringthathehadtoprovideforfamilyexpenses。
’He’snearermyrealself,he’smoreintimatewiththerealmethanWillis,afterall,eventhoughI’veneverseenhim,’shesaid。
Shelaidhisbookandpictureonthetableatthebedside,andwhenshewasrecliningonthepillowshere-readthoseofRobertTrewe’sverseswhichshehadmarkedfromtimetotimeasmosttouchingandtrue。Puttingtheseaside,shesetupthephotographonitsedgeuponthecoverlet,andcontemplateditasshelay。Thenshescannedagainbythelightofthecandlethehalf-obliteratedpencillingsonthewall-paperbesideherhead。Theretheywere——phrases,couplets,bouts-rimes,beginningsandmiddlesoflines,ideasintherough,likeShelley’sscraps,andtheleastofthemsointense,sosweet,sopalpitating,thatitseemedasifhisverybreath,warmandloving,fannedhercheeksfromthosewalls,wallsthathadsurroundedhisheadtimesandtimesastheysurroundedherownnow。
Hemustoftenhaveputuphishandso——withthepencilinit。Yes,thewritingwassideways,asitwouldbeifexecutedbyonewhoextendedhisarmthus。
Theseinscribedshapesofthepoet’sworld,’Formsmorerealthanlivingman,Nurslingsofimmortality,’
were,nodoubt,thethoughtsandspirit-strivingswhichhadcometohiminthedeadofnight,whenhecouldlethimselfgoandhavenofearofthefrostofcriticism。Nodoubttheyhadoftenbeenwrittenuphastilybythelightofthemoon,theraysofthelamp,intheblue-greydawn,infulldaylightperhapsnever。Andnowherhairwasdraggingwherehisarmhadlainwhenhesecuredthefugitivefancies;shewassleepingonapoet’slips,immersedintheveryessenceofhim,permeatedbyhisspiritasbyanether。
Whileshewasdreamingtheminutesawaythus,afootstepcameuponthestairs,andinamomentsheheardherhusband’sheavysteponthelandingimmediatelywithout。
’Ell,whereareyou?’
Whatpossessedhershecouldnothavedescribed,but,withaninstinctiveobjectiontoletherhusbandknowwhatshehadbeendoing,sheslippedthephotographunderthepillowjustasheflungopenthedoor,withtheairofamanwhohaddinednotbadly。
’O,Ibegpardon,’saidWilliamMarchmill。’Haveyouaheadache?I
amafraidIhavedisturbedyou。’
’No,I’venotgotaheadache,’saidshe。’Howisityou’vecome?’
’Well,wefoundwecouldgetbackinverygoodtimeafterall,andI
didn’twanttomakeanotherdayofit,becauseofgoingsomewhereelseto-morrow。’
’ShallIcomedownagain?’
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