1。SLIP3。DaviewouldbeATTRACTEDintoasimilardialect,asheislater-e。g。,withDoig,chapterXIX。ThisistrulyScottish。
4,TOLIGHTLY;correct;’tolightly’isagoodregularScotsverb。
15。SeeAllanRamsay’sworks。
15,16。Ay,andthatisoneofthepigmentswithwhichIamtryingtodrawthecharacterofPrestongrange。’Tisamostcuriousthingtorenderthatkind,insignificantmask。Tomakeanythingpreciseistoriskmyeffect。Andtillthedayhedied,DAVIEwasneversureofwhatP。wasafter。Notonlyso;veryoftenP。didn’tknowhimself。TherewasanelementofmerelikingforDavie;therewasanelementofbeingdetermined,incaseofaccidents,tokeepwellwithhim。HehopedhisBarbarawouldbringhimtoherfeet,besides,andmakehimmanageable。ThatwaswhyhesenthimtoHopeParkwiththem。ButDaviecannotKNOW;IgiveyoutheinsideofDavie,andmymethodcondemnsmetogiveonlytheoutsidebothofPrestongrangeandhispolicy-
I’llgivemymindtothetechnicalities。Yettometheyseemapartofthestory,whichishistorical,afterall-
IthinktheywantedAlantoescape。Butwhenorwheretosayso?Iwilltry-
20,DEAN。I’lltryandmakethatplainer。
CHAP……,Ifearithastogowithoutblows。IfIcouldgetthepair-No,can’tbe。
Allright,willabridge。
I’dhavetoputanotetoeveryword;andhewhocan’treadScotscanNEVERenjoyTodLapraik。
Quiteright。ICANmakethisplainer,andwill。
Iknow,butIhavetohurryhere;thisisthebrokenbackofmystory;somebusinessbrieflytransacted,I
amleapingforBarbara’sapron-strings。
SLIP57。Quiterightagain;Ishallmakeitplain。
CHAP。XX。Ishallmakeallthesepointsclear。AboutLadyPrestongrangenotLADYGrant,onlyMISSGrant,mydear,thoughLADYPrestongrange,quoththedominieIamtakenwithyourideaofherdeath,andhaveagoodmindtosubstituteafeaturelessaunt。
SLIP78。Idon’tseehowtolessenthiseffect。Thereisreallynotmuchsaidofit;andIknowCatrionadidit。ButI’lltry-
89。Iknow。Thisisanoldpuzzleofmine。YouseeC。’sdialectisnotwhollyabedofroses。IfonlyIknewtheGaelic。Well,I’lltryforanotherexpression。
THEEND。Ishalltrytoworkitover。JameswasatDunkirkorderingpost-horsesforhisownretreat。Catrionadidhavehersuspicionsarousedbytheletter,and,carelessgentleman,Itoldyouso-orshedidatleast-Yes,thebloodmoney,Iambotheredabouttheportmanteau;itisthepresenceofCatrionathatbothersme;therapeofthepockmantieishistoric……
Tome,Iown,itseemsintheproofaveryprettypieceofworkmanship。DavidhimselfIrefusetodiscuss;heIS。TheLordAdvocateIthinkastrongsketchofaverydifficultcharacter,JamesMore,sufficient;andthetwogirlsverypleasingcreatures。ButOdearme,IcamenearlosingmyhearttoBarbara!IamnotquitesoconstantasDavid,andevenhe-well,hedidn’tknowit,anyway!TODLAPRAIKisapieceoflivingScots:ifIhadneverwritanythingbutthatandTHRAWNJANET,stillI’dhavebeenawriter。ThedefectsofD。B。areinherent,Ifear。Butonthewhole,Iamfarindeedfrombeingdispleasedwiththetailie。TheywantmoreAlan?Well,theycan’tgetit。
Ifoundmyfamemuchgrownonthisreturntocivilisation。
DIGITOMONSTRARIisanewexperience;peoplealllookedatmeinthestreetsinSydney;anditwasveryqueer。Here,ofcourse,IamonlythewhitechiefintheGreatHousetothenatives;andtothewhites,eitheranallyorafoe。Itisamuchhealthierstateofmatters。IfIlivedinanatmosphereofadulation,Ishouldendbykickingagainstthepricks。O
mybeautifulforest,Omybeautifulshining,windyhouse,whatajoyitwastobeholdthemagain!Nochancetotakemyselftooseriouslyhere。
Thedifficultyoftheendisthemassofmattertobeattendedto,andthesmalltimelefttotransactitin。I
meanfromAlan’sdangerofarrest。ButIhavejustseenmywayout,Idobelieve。
EASTERSUNDAY。
Ihavenowgotasfarasslip28,andfinishedthechapterofthelawtechnicalities。Well,theseseemedtomealwaysoftheessenceofthestory,whichisthestoryofaCAUSE
CELEBRE;moreover,theyarethejustificationofmyinventions;ifthesemenwentsofargrantingDaviesprungonthemwouldtheynothavegonesomuchfurther?ButofcourseIknewtheywereadifficulty;determinedtocarrythemthroughinaconversation;approachedthisitseems
withcowardlyanxiety;andfilleditwithgabble,sir,gabble。Ihaveleftallmyfacts,buthaveremoved42lines。
IshouldnotwonderbutwhatI’llendbyre-writingit。Itisnotthetechnicalitiesthatshockedyou,itwasmybadart。ItisverystrangethatX。shouldbesogoodachapterandIX。andXI。souncompromisinglybad。ItlooksasifXI。
alsowouldhavetobere-formed。IfX。hadnotcheeredmeup,Ishouldbeindolefuldumps,butX。isaliveanyway,andlifeisallinall。
THURSDAY,APRIL5TH。
Well,there’snodisguisepossible;Fannyisnotwell,andwearemiserablyanxious。
FRIDAY,7TH。
Iamthankfultosaythenewmedicinerelievedheratonce。
Acrapehasbeenremovedfromthedayforallofus。Tomakethingsbetter,themorningisah!suchamorningasyouhaveneverseen;heavenuponearthforsweetness,freshness,depthupondepthofunimaginablecolour,andahugesilencebrokenatthismomentonlybythefar-awaymurmurofthePacificandtherichpipingofasinglebird。Youcan’tconceivewhatareliefthisis;itseemsanewworld。ShehassuchextraordinaryrecuperativepowerthatIdohopeforthebest。
Iamastiredasmancanbe。Thisisagreattrialtoafamily,andIthankGoditseemsasifourswasgoingtobearitwell。AndO!ifitonlyletsup,itwillbebutapleasantmemory。Weareallseedy,barLloyd:Fanny,asperabove;selfnearlyextinct;Belle,utterlyoverworkedandbadtoothache;Cook,downwithabadfoot;Butler,prostratewithabadleg。Eh,whatafaim’ly!
SUNDAY。
Greyheaven,rainingtorrentsofrain;occasionalthunderandlightning。Everythingtodispirit;butmyinvalidsarereallyonthemend。Therainroarslikethesea;inthesoundofitthereisastrangeandominoussuggestionofanapproachingtramp;somethingnamelessandmeasurelessseemstodrawnear,andstrikesmecold,andyetiswelcome。Iliequietinbedto-day,andthinkoftheuniversewithagooddealofequanimity。Ihave,atthismoment,buttheoneobjectiontoit;theFRACASwithwhichitproceeds。Idonotlovenoise;Iamlikemygrandfatherinthat;andsomanyyearsinthesestillislandshasingrainedthesentimentperhaps。Herearenotrains,onlymenpacingbarefoot。Nocartsorcarriages;atworsttherattleofahorse’sshoesamongtherocks。Beautifulsilence;andsosoonasthisrobustiousraintakesoff,Iamtodrinkofitagainbyoceanfuls。
APRIL16TH。
Severalpagesofthisletterdestroyedasbeneathscorn;thewailingsofacrushedworm;matterinwhichneitheryounorI
cantakestock。Fannyisdistinctlybetter,Ibelieveallrightnow;Itooammending,thoughIhavesufferedfromcrushedwormery,whichisnotgoodforthebody,anddamnationtothesoul。Ifeelto-nightabaselessanxietytowritealovelypoemAPROPOSDESBOTTESDEMAGRANDMERE。I
seeIamidiotic。I’lltrythepoem。
17TH。
Thepoemdidnotgetbeyondploversandlovers。Iamstill,however,harassedbytheunauthenticMuse;ifIcaredtoencourageher-butIhavenotthetime,andanywayweareatthevernalequinox。Itisfunnyenough,butmypotteringversesareusuallymadeliketheGod-giftedorganvoice’s
attheautumnal;andthisseemstoholdattheAntipodes。
ThereisheresomeoddsecretofNature。Icannotspeakofpolitics;wewaitandwonder。ItseemsthisispartlyaguessIdewon’ttaketheC。J。ship,unlesstheislandsaredisarmed;andthatEnglandhesitatesandholdsoff。Bymyownidea,stronglycorroboratedbySirGeorge,Iamwritingnomoreletters。ButIhaveputasmanyironsinagainstthisfollyofthedisarmingasIcouldmanage。Itdidnotreachmyearstillnearlytoolate。Whatarisktotake!
Whatanexpensetoincur!Andforhowpooragain!Apartfromthetreacheryofit。Mydearfellow,politicsisavileandabunglingbusiness。Iusedtothinkmeanlyoftheplumber;buthowheshinesbesidethepolitician!
THURSDAY。
Ageneral,steadyadvance;Fannyreallyquitechipperandjolly-selfontherapidmend,andwithmyeyeonFORESTS
thataretofall-andmyfingerontheaxe,whichwantsstoning。
SATURDAY,22。
Stillallforthebest;butIamhavingaheart-breakingtimeoverDAVID。Ihavenearlyallcorrected。ButhavetoconsiderTHEHEATHERONFIRE,THEWOODBYSILVERMILLS,andthelastchapter。Theyallseemtomeoffcolour;andIamnotfittobetterthemyet。Noproofhasbeensentofthetitle,contents,ordedication。
MYDEARCOLVIN,-To-dayearlyIsentdowntoMabenSecretaryofStateanoffertobringuppeoplefromMalie,keeptheminmyhouse,andbringthemdowndaybydayforsolongasthenegotiationshouldlast。Ihaveafavourableanswersofar。ThisIwouldnothavetried,hadnotoldSirGeorgeGreyputmeonmymettle;’Neverdespair,’washisword;and’Iamoneofthefewpeoplewhohavelivedlongenoughtoseehowtruethatis。’Well,thereuponIplungedin;andthethingmaydomegreatharm,butyetIdonotthinkso-forIthinkjealousywillpreventthetrialbeingmade。Andatanyrateitisanotherchanceforthisdistractedarchipelagoofchildren,satuponbyacliqueoffools。If,bythegiftofGod,Icando-Iamallowedtotrytodo-andsucceed:butno,theprospectistoobrighttobeentertained。
To-daywehadaridedowntoTanugamanono,andthenbythenewwoodpaths。Oneledustoabeautifulclearing,withfournativehouses;taro,yams,andthelike,excellentlyplanted,andoldFolau-’theSamoanJew’-sittingandwhistlingthereinhisnew-foundandwell-deservedwell-
being。ItwasagoodsighttoseeaSamoanthusbeforetheworld。Furtherup,onourwayhome,wesawtheworldclear,andthewidedieoftheshadowlyingbroad;wecamebutalittlefurther,andfoundinthebordersofthebushaBanyan。Itmusthavebeen150feetinheight;thetrunk,anditsacolytes,occupiedagreatspace;abovethat,inthepeaksofthebranches,quiteaforestoffernsandorchidswereset;andoverallagainthehugespreadoftheboughsroseagainstthebrightwest,andsenttheirshadowmilestotheeastward。Ihavenotoftenseenanythingmoresatisfyingthanthisvastvegetable。
SUNDAY。
Aheavenlydayagain!theworldalldeadsilence,savewhen,fromfardownbelowusinthewoods,comesupthecrepitationofthelittlewoodendrumthatbeatstochurch。Scarcealeafstirs;onlynowandagainagreat,coolgushofairthatmakesmypapersfly,andisgone-TheKingofSamoahasrefusedmyintercessionbetweenhimandMataafa;andIdonotdenythisisagoodriddancetomeofadifficultbusiness,inwhichImightverywellhavefailed。Whatelseistobedoneforthesesillyfolks?
MAY12TH。
AndthisiswhereIhadgotto,beforethemailarriveswith,Imustsay,arealgentlemanlyletterfromyourself。Sir,thatisthesortofletterIwant!Now,I’llmakemylittleproposal。IwillacceptCHILD’SPLAYandPAN’SPIPES。ThenI
wantPASTORAL,THEMANSE,THEISLET,leavingoutifyoulikealltheprefacialmatterandbeginningatI。ThentheportraitofRobertHunter,beginning’Whetherhewasoriginallybigorlittle,’andending’fearlessandgentle。’
SomuchforMEM。ANDPORTRAITS。BEGGARS,sectionsI。andII。,RANDOMMEMORIESII。,andLANTERNBEARERS;I’magreeable。
Thesearemyselections。Idon’tknowaboutPULVISETUMBRA
either,butmustleavethattoyou。Butjustwhatyouplease。
AboutDAVIEIelaboratelywrotelasttime,butstillDAVIEisnotdone;IamgrindingsinglyatTHEEBBTIDE,aswenowcalltheFARALLONE;themostofitwillgothismail。Aboutthefollowing,lettherebenomistake:IwillnotwritetheabstractofKIDNAPPED;writeitwhowill,Iwillnot。
Boccacciomusthavebeenacleverfellowtowritebothargumentandstory;Iamnot,ETJEMERECUSE。
WecallitTHEEBBTIDE:ATRIOANDQUARTETTE;butthatsecondarynameyoumaystrikeoutifitseemsdulltoyou。
Thebook,however,fallsintwohalves,whenthefourthcharacterappears。Iamonp。82ifyouwanttoknow,andexpecttofinishonIsuppose110orso;butitgoesslowly,asyoumayjudgefromthefactthatthisthreeweekspast,I
haveonlystruggledfromp。58top。82:twenty-fourpages,ETENCOREsuretoberewritten,intwenty-onedays。Thisisnoprize-taker;notmuchWaverleyNovelsaboutthis!
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