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第39章

  Ididallamancoulddotoreclaimher。Quiteuseless!ShehadneverreallyreturnedtheloveIfeltforher:Ihadnoinfluence;
  Icoulddonothing。Mymother,hearingofthislastworsetrouble,resolvedtotrywhatherinfluencecoulddo。Illasshewas,I
  foundheronedaydressedtogoout。
  “Iamnotlongforthisworld,Francis,“shesaid。“Ishallnotfeeleasyonmydeathbed,unlessIhavedonemybesttothelasttomakeyouhappy。Imeantoputmyownfearsandmyownfeelingsoutofthequestion,andgowithyoutoyourwife,andtrywhatIcandotoreclaimher。Takemehomewithyou,Francis。LetmedoallIcantohelpmyson,beforeitistoolate。“
  HowcouldIdisobeyher?Wetooktherailwaytothetown:itwasonlyhalfanhour’sride。Byoneo’clockintheafternoonwereachedmyhouse。Itwasourdinnerhour,andAliciawasinthekitchen。Iwasabletotakemymotherquietlyintotheparlorandthentopreparemywifeforthevisit。Shehaddrunkbutlittleatthatearlyhour;and,luckily,thedevilinherwastamedforthetime。
  Shefollowedmeintotheparlor,andthemeetingpassedoffbetterthanIhadventuredtoforecast;withthisonedrawback,thatmymother——thoughshetriedhardtocontrolherself——shrankfromlookingmywifeinthefacewhenshespoketoher。ItwasarelieftomewhenAliciabegantopreparethetablefordinner。
  Shelaidthecloth,broughtinthebreadtray,andcutsomeslicesforusfromtheloaf。Thenshereturnedtothekitchen。Atthatmoment,whileIwasstillanxiouslywatchingmymother,IwasstartledbyseeingthesameghastlychangepassoverherfacewhichhadaltereditinthemorningwhenAliciaandshefirstmet。
  BeforeIcouldsayaword,shestartedupwithalookofhorror。
  “Takemeback!——home,homeagain,Francis!Comewithme,andnevergobackmore!“
  Iwasafraidtoaskforanexplanation;Icouldonlysignhertobesilent,andhelpherquicklytothedoor。Aswepassedthebreadtrayonthetable,shestoppedandpointedtoit。
  “Didyouseewhatyourwifecutyourbreadwith?“sheasked。
  “No,mother;Iwasnotnoticing。Whatwasit?“
  “Look!“
  Ididlook。Anewclaspknife,withabuckhornhandle,laywiththeloafinthebreadtray。Istretchedoutmyhandtopossessmyselfofit。Atthesamemoment,therewasanoiseinthekitchen,andmymothercaughtmebythearm。
  “TheknifeoftheDream!Francis,I’mfaintwithfear——takemeawaybeforeshecomesback!“
  Icouldn’tspeaktocomfortoreventoanswerher。SuperiorasI
  wastosuperstition,thediscoveryoftheknifestaggeredme。Insilence,Ihelpedmymotheroutofthehouse;andtookherhome。
  Iheldoutmyhandtosaygood-by。Shetriedtostopme。
  “Don’tgoback,Francis!don’tgoback!“
  “Imustgettheknife,mother。Imustgobackbythenexttrain。“
  Iheldtothatresolution。BythenexttrainIwentback。
  Mywifehad,ofcourse,discoveredoursecretdeparturefromthehouse。Shehadbeendrinking。Shewasinafuryofpassion。Thedinnerinthekitchenwasflungunderthegrate;theclothwasofftheparlortable。Wherewastheknife?
  Iwasfoolishenoughtoaskforit。Sherefusedtogiveittome。
  Inthecourseofthedisputebetweenuswhichfollowed,I
  discoveredthattherewasahorriblestoryattachedtotheknife。
  Ithadbeenusedinamurder——yearssince——andhadbeensoskillfullyhiddenthattheauthoritieshadbeenunabletoproduceitatthetrial。Byhelpofsomeofherdisreputablefriends,mywifehadbeenabletopurchasethisrelicofabygonecrime。Herpervertednaturesetsomehorridunacknowledgedvalueontheknife。
  Seeingtherewasnohopeofgettingitbyfairmeans,Ideterminedtosearchforit,laterintheday,insecret。Thesearchwasunsuccessful。Nightcameon,andIleftthehousetowalkaboutthestreets。YouwillunderstandwhatabrokenmanIwasbythistime,whenItellyouIwasafraidtosleepinthesameroomwithher!
  Threeweekspassed。Stillsherefusedtogiveuptheknife;andstillthatfearofsleepinginthesameroomwithherpossessedme。
  Iwalkedaboutatnight,ordozedintheparlor,orsatwatchingbymymother’sbedside。Beforetheendofthefirstweekinthenewmonth,theworstmisfortuneofallbefellme——mymotherdied。Itwantedthenbutashorttimetomybirthday。Shehadlongedtolivetillthatday。Iwaspresentatherdeath。Herlastwordsinthisworldwereaddressedtome。“Don’tgoback,myson——don’tgoback!“
  Iwasobligedtogoback,ifitwasonlytowatchmywife。Inthelastdaysofmymother’sillnessshehadspitefullyaddedastingtomygriefbydeclaringshewouldassertherrighttoattendthefuneral。InspiteofallthatIcoulddoorsay,sheheldtoherword。Onthedayappointedfortheburialsheforcedherself,inflamedandshamelesswithdrink,intomypresence,andsworeshewouldwalkinthefuneralprocessiontomymother’sgrave。
  Thislastinsult——afterallIhadgonethroughalready——wasmorethanIcouldendure。Itmaddenedme。Trytomakeallowancesforamanbesidehimself。Istruckher。
  Theinstanttheblowwasdealt,Irepentedit。Shecroucheddown,silent,inacorneroftheroom,andeyedmesteadily。Itwasalookthatcooledmyhotbloodinaninstant。Therewasnotimenowtothinkofmakingatonement。Icouldonlyrisktheworst,andmakesureofhertillthefuneralwasover。Ilockedherintoherbedroom。
  WhenIcameback,afterlayingmymotherinthegrave,Ifoundhersittingbythebedside,verymuchalteredinlookandbearing,withabundleonherlap。Shefacedmequietly;shespokewithacuriousstillnessinhervoice——strangelyandunnaturallycomposedinlookandmanner。
  “Nomanhaseverstruckmeyet,“shesaid。“Myhusbandshallhavenosecondopportunity。Setthedooropen,andletmego。“
  Shepassedme,andlefttheroom。Isawherwalkawayupthestreet。Wasshegoneforgood?
  AllthatnightIwatchedandwaited。Nofootstepcamenearthehouse。Thenextnight,overcomewithfatigue,Ilaydownonthebedinmyclothes,withthedoorlocked,thekeyonthetable,andthecandleburning。Myslumberwasnotdisturbed。Thethirdnight,thefourth,thefifth,thesixth,passed,andnothinghappened。Ilaydownontheseventhnight,stillsuspiciousofsomethinghappening;stillinmyclothes;stillwiththedoorlocked,thekeyonthetable,andthecandleburning。
  Myrestwasdisturbed。Iawoketwice,withoutanysensationofuneasiness。Thethirdtime,thathorridshiveringofthenightatthelonelyinn,thatawfulsinkingpainattheheart,camebackagain,androusedmeinaninstant。Myeyesturnedtotheleft-
  handsideofthebed。Andtherestood,lookingatme——
  TheDreamWomanagain?No!Mywife。Thelivingwoman,withthefaceoftheDream——intheattitudeoftheDream——thefairarmup;
  theknifeclaspedinthedelicatewhitehand。
  Ispranguponherontheinstant;butnotquicklyenoughtostopherfromhidingtheknife。Withoutawordfromme,withoutacryfromher,Ipinionedherinachair。WithonehandIfeltuphersleeve;andthere,wheretheDreamWomanhadhiddentheknife,mywifehadhiddenit——theknifewiththebuckhornhandle,thatlookedlikenew。
  WhatIfeltwhenImadethatdiscoveryIcouldnotrealizeatthetime,andIcan’tdescribenow。Itookonesteadylookatherwiththeknifeinmyhand。“Youmeanttokillme?“Isaid。
  “Yes,“sheanswered;“Imeanttokillyou。“Shecrossedherarmsoverherbosom,andstaredmecoollyintheface。“Ishalldoityet,“shesaid。“Withthatknife。“
  Idon’tknowwhatpossessedme——IsweartoyouIamnocoward;andyetIactedlikeacoward。Thehorrorsgotholdofme。Icouldn’tlookather——Icouldn’tspeaktoher。Ileftherwiththeknifeinmyhand,andwentoutintothenight。
  Therewasableakwindabroad,andthesmellofrainwasintheair。ThechurchclockschimedthequarterasIwalkedbeyondthelasthouseinthetown。IaskedthefirstpolicemanImetwhathourthatwas,ofwhichthequarterpasthadjuststruck。
  Themanlookedathiswatch,andanswered,“Twoo’clock。“Twointhemorning。Whatdayofthemonthwasthisdaythathadjustbegun?Ireckoneditupfromthedateofmymother’sfuneral。Thehorridparallelbetweenthedreamandtherealitywascomplete——itwasmybirthday!
  HadIescapedthemortalperilwhichthedreamforetold?orhadI
  onlyreceivedasecondwarning?AsthatdoubtcrossedmymindI
  stoppedonmywayoutofthetown。Theairhadrevivedme——Ifeltinsomedegreelikemyownselfagain。Afteralittlethinking,I
  begantoseeplainlythemistakeIhadmadeinleavingmywifefreetogowhereshelikedandtodoasshepleased。
  Iturnedinstantly,andmademywaybacktothehouse。Itwasstilldark。Ihadleftthecandleburninginthebedchamber。WhenIlookeduptothewindowoftheroomnow,therewasnolightinit。Iadvancedtothehousedoor。Ongoingaway,Irememberedtohaveclosedit;ontryingitnow,Ifounditopen。
  Iwaitedoutside,neverlosingsightofthehousetilldaylight。
  ThenIventuredindoors——listened,andheardnothing——lookedintothekitchen,scullery,parlor,andfoundnothing——wentupatlastintothebedroom。Itwasempty。
  Apicklocklayonthefloor,whichtoldmehowshehadgainedentranceinthenight。AndthatwastheonetraceIcouldfindoftheDreamWoman。