’Thiscannotbe;itisstilladream!thoughtEsarhaddon,andmadealastefforttoawake。’SurelyIamnotLailie,northeass,butEsarhaddon!’
Hecriedout,andatthesameinstantliftedhisheadoutofthefont……Theoldmanwasstandingbyhim,pouringoverhisheadthelastdropsfromthepitcher。
’Oh,howterriblyIhavesuffered!Andforhowlong!’saidEsarhaddon。
’Long?’repliedtheoldman,’youhaveonlydippedyourheadunderwaterandlifteditagain;see,thewaterisnotyetalloutofthepitcher。Doyounowunderstand?’
Esarhaddondidnotreply,butonlylookedattheoldmanwithterror。
’Doyounowunderstand,’continuedtheoldman,’thatLailieisyou,andthewarriorsyouputtodeathwereyoualso?Andnotthewarriorsonly,buttheanimalswhichyouslewwhenhuntingandateatyourfeastswerealsoyou。YouthoughtlifedweltinyoualonebutIhavedrawnasidetheveilofdelusion,andhaveletyouseethatbydoingeviltoothersyouhavedoneittoyourselfalso。
Lifeisoneinthemall,andyoursisbutaportionofthissamecommonlife。Andonlyinthatonepartoflifethatisyours,canyoumakelifebetterorworse——increasingordecreasingit。Youcanonlyimprovelifeinyourselfbydestroyingthebarriersthatdivideyourlifefromthatofothers,andbyconsideringothersasyourself,andlovingthem。Bysodoingyouincreaseyourshareoflife。
Youinjureyourlifewhenyouthinkofitastheonlylife,andtrytoaddtoitswelfareattheexpenseofotherlives。Bysodoingyouonlylessenit。Todestroythelifethatdwellsinothersisbeyondyourpower。Thelifeofthoseyouhaveslainhasvanishedfromyoureyes,butisnotdestroyed。Youthoughttolengthenyourownlifeandtoshortentheirs,butyoucannotdothis。Lifeknowsneithertimenorspace。Thelifeofamoment,andthelifeofathousandyears:yourlifeandthelifeofallthevisibleandinvisiblebeingsintheworld,areequal。Todestroylife,ortoalterit,isimpossible;forlifeistheonethingthatexists。Allelse,butseemstoustobe。’
Havingsaidthistheoldmanvanished。
NextmorningKingEsarhaddongaveordersthatLailieandalltheprisonersshouldbesetatlibertyandthattheexecutionsshouldcease。
OnthethirddayhecalledhissonAssur-bani-pal,andgavethekingdomoverintohishands;andhehimselfwentintothedeserttothinkoverallhehadlearnt。Afterwardshewentaboutasawandererthroughthetownsandvillages,preachingtothepeoplethatalllifeisone,andthatwhenmenwishtoharmothers,theyreallydoeviltothemselves。
1903。
work,deathandsicknessWORK,DEATHANDSICKNESS
ALEGEND。
THISisalegendcurrentamongtheSouthAmericanIndians。
God,saythey,atfirstmademensothattheyhadnoneedtowork:theyneededneitherhouses,norclothes,norfood,andtheyalllivedtilltheywereahundred,anddidnotknowwhatillnesswas。
When,aftersometime,Godlookedtoseehowpeoplewereliving,hesawthatinsteadofbeinghappyintheirlife,theyhadquarrelledwithoneanother,and,eachcaringforhimself,hadbroughtmatterstosuchapassthatfarfromenjoyinglife,theycursedit。
ThenGodsaidtohimself:’Thiscomesoftheirlivingseparately,eachforhimself。’Andtochangethisstateofthings,Godsoarrangedmattersthatitbecameimpossibleforpeopletolivewithoutworking。Toavoidsufferingfromcoldandhunger,theywerenowobligedtobuilddwellings,andtodigtheground,andtogrowandgatherfruitsandgrain。
’Workwillbringthemtogether,’thoughtGod。
’Theycannotmaketheirtools,prepareandtransporttheirtimber,buildtheirhouses,sowandgathertheirharvests,spinandweave,andmaketheirclothes,eachonealonebyhimself。’
’Itwillmakethemunderstandthatthemoreheartilytheyworktogether,themoretheywillhaveandthebettertheywilllive;andthiswillunitethem。’
Timepassedon,andagainGodcametoseehowmenwereliving,andwhethertheywerenowhappy。
Buthefoundthemlivingworsethanbefore。Theyworkedtogetherthattheycouldnothelpdoing,butnotalltogether,beingbrokenupintolittlegroups。Andeachgrouptriedtosnatchworkfromothergroups,andtheyhinderedoneanother,wastingtimeandstrengthintheirstruggles,sothatthingswentillwiththemall。
Havingseenthatthis,too,wasnotwell,Goddecidedsoastoarrangethingsthatmanshouldnotknowthetimeofhisdeath,butmightdieatanymoment;andheannouncedthistothem。
’Knowingthateachofthemmaydieatanymoment,’thoughtGod,’theywillnot,bygraspingatgainsthatmaylastsoshortatime,spoilthehoursoflifeallottedtothem。’
Butitturnedoutotherwise。WhenGodreturnedtoseehowpeoplewereliving,hesawthattheirlifewasasbadasever。
Thosewhowerestrongest,availingthemselvesofthefactthatmenmightdieatanytime,subduedthosewhowereweaker,killingsomeandthreateningotherswithdeath。Anditcameaboutthatthestrongestandtheirdescendantsdidnowork,andsufferedfromthewearinessofidleness,whilethosewhowereweakerhadtoworkbeyondtheirstrength,andsufferedfromlackofrest。
Eachsetofmenfearedandhatedtheother。Andthelifeofmanbecameyetmoreunhappy。
Havingseenallthis,God,tomendmatters,decidedtomakeuseofonelastmeans;hesentallkindsofsicknessamongmen。Godthoughtthatwhenallmenwereexposedtosicknesstheywouldunderstandthatthosewhoarewellshouldhavepityonthosewhoaresick,andshouldhelpthem,thatwhentheythemselvesfallillthosewhoarewellmightinturnhelpthem。
AndagainGodwentaway,butwhenHecamebacktoseehowmenlivednowthattheyweresubjecttosicknesses,hesawthattheirlifewasworseeventhanbefore。TheverysicknessthatinGod’spurposeshouldhaveunitedmen,haddividedthemmorethanever。Thosemenwhowerestrongenoughtomakeotherswork,forcedthemalsotowaitonthemintimesofsickness;buttheydidnot,intheirturn,lookafterotherswhowereill。Andthosewhowereforcedtoworkforothersandtolookafterthemwhensick,weresowornwithworkthattheyhadnotimetolookaftertheirownsick,butleftthemwithoutattendance。Thatthesightofsickfolkmightnotdisturbthepleasuresofthewealthy,houseswerearrangedinwhichthesepoorpeoplesufferedanddied,farfromthosewhosesympathymighthavecheeredthem,andinthearmsofhiredpeoplewhonursedthemwithoutcompassion,orevenwithdisgust。Moreover,peopleconsideredmanyoftheillnessesinfectious,and,fearingtocatchthem,notonlyavoidedthesick,butevenseparatedthemselvesfromthosewhoattendedthesick。
ThenGodsaidtoHimself:’Ifeventhismeanswillnotbringmentounderstandwhereintheirhappinesslies,letthembetaughtbysuffering。’AndGodleftmentothemselves。
And,lefttothemselves,menlivedlongbeforetheyunderstoodthattheyalloughtto,andmightbe,happy。Onlyintheverylatesttimeshaveafewofthembeguntounderstandthatworkoughtnottobeabugbeartosomeandlikegalley-slaveryforothers,butshouldbeacommonandhappyoccupation,unitingallmen。Theyhavebeguntounderstandthatwithdeathconstantlythreateningeachofus,theonlyreasonablebusinessofeverymanistospendtheyears,months,hours,andminutes,allottedhim——inunityandlove。Theyhavebeguntounderstandthatsickness,farfromdividingmen,should,onthecontrary,giveopportunityforlovingunionwithoneanother。
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