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第63章

  Rather,hewasasnow-whitedove,thoughnonebutIrealisedthefact。Andnowhehasbeenwithdrawnfromthe’grievousbondageofPharaoh。’OnlyIamleft。Verily,aftermypassing,shallmysoultormentandvomitspittleuponhisadversaries!“
  “Haveyouknownmuchsorrow?“
  Thedeacondidnotreplyatonce。Whenhedidsohesaiddully:
  “Allofushaveknownmuchsorrow。Insomecaseswehaveknownmorethanwasrightfullyourdue。Icertainly,haveknownmuch。
  Butgotosleep,foronlyinsleepdowerecoverwhatisours。“
  Andheaddedashetrippedoverhisownfeet,andlurchedheavilyagainstme:
  “Ihavealongingtosingsomething。YetIfeelthatIhadbestnot,forsongatsuchanhourawakensfolk,andstartsthembawling……ButbeyondallthingswouldIgladlysing。“
  Withwhichhebuzzedintomyear:
  “TowhomshallIsingofmygrief?
  Towhomresortforrelief?
  TotheOneinwhoseha-a-and——“
  Atthispointthesharpbristlesofhisbeardsotickledmyneckastocausemetoedgefurtheraway。
  “Youdonotlikeme?“hequeried。“Thengotosleep,andtothedeviltoo!“
  “Itwasyourbeardthatwasticklingme。“
  “Indeed?OughtItohaveshavedforyourbenefitbeforeIcame?“
  Hereflectedawhile——thensubsidedontothefloorwithasniffandanangryexclamationof:
  “Read,you,whilstIsleep。Andseetoitthatyoudonotmakeoffwiththebook,foritbelongstothechurch,andisveryvaluable。Yes。Iknowyouhard-ups!Whydoyougoroamingaboutasyoudo——whatisityouhopetogainbyyourtramping?……
  However,trampasmuchasyoulike。Yes,beoff,andtellpeoplethatadeaconhascomebymisfortune,andisinneedofsomegoodpersontotakepityuponhisplight……DiomidKubasovmynameis——thatofamanlostbeyondrecall。“
  Withwhichhefellasleep。Openingthebookatrandom,Ireadthewords:
  “Alandunapportionedthatshallproduceanourisherofhumanity,abeingthatshallputforththebountyofhishandtofeedeverycreature。“
  “Anourisherofhumanity。“Beforemyeyesthat“nourisher“layoutspread,anourisheroverlaidwithdryandfragrantherbage。
  AndasIgazed,inthehazeofavision,uponthatnourisher’sdarkandenigmaticalface,Isawalsothethousandsofmenwhohaveseamedthisearthwithfurrows,totheendthatdeadthingsshouldbecomethingsoflife。Andinparticular,thereuprosebeforemeapicturestrangeindeed。InthatpictureIsawmarchingoverthesteppe,wheretheexpanselaybareandvoid——yes,marchingincirclesthatincreasinglyembracedawideningarea——agigantic,thousand-handedbeinginwhosetrainthedeadsteppegathereduntoitselfvitality,andbecameswathedinjuicy,wavingverdure,andstuddedwithtownsandvillages。Andever,asthebeingrecededfurtherandfurtherintothedistance,couldI
  seehimsowingwithtirelesshandsthatwhichhadinitlife,andwaspartofhimself,andhumanas,withthoughtsintentuponthebenefitingofhumanity,hesummonedallmentoputforththemysteriousforcethatisinthem,andthustoconquerdeath,andeternallyandinvinciblytoconvert,deadthingsintothingsoflife,whiletraversingincompanytheroadofdeathtowardsthatwhichhasnoknowledgeofdeath,andensuringthat,inswallowingupmankind,thejawsofdeathshouldnotcloseupondeath’svictims。
  Andthiscausedmyhearttobeatwithemotionsthepulsingwingsofwhichatoncegladdenedme,andcooledmyfervour……Andhowgreatly,atthatmoment,didIfeeltheneedofsomeoneabletorespondtomyquestionswithoutpassion,yetwithtruth,andinthelanguageofsimplicity!Forbesidemetherelaybutamandeadandamandrunken,whilewithoutthethresholdtherewasstationedonewhohadfaroutlivedherspanofyears。Nomatter,however。Ifnottoday,thentomorrow,shouldIfindafellow-
  creaturewithwhommysoulmightcommune。
  MentallyIleftthehut,andpassedontothesteppe,thatI
  mightcontemplatethencethelittledwellinginwhichalone,thoughlostamidtheearth’simmensity,thewindowswerenotblindandblackasinitsfellowhuts,butshowed,burningovertheheadofadeadhumanbeing,thefirewhichhumanityhadconqueredforhumanity’sbenefit。
  Andthatheartwhichhadceasedtobeatinthedeadman——hadeverythingconceivedinlifebythatheartfounddueexpressioninaworldpoverty,strickenofheart-conceivedideas?Iknewthatthemanjustpassedawayhadbeenbutaplainandinsignificantmortal,yetasIreflecteduponeventhelittlethathehaddone,hislabourloomedbeforemeasgreaterthanprowessoflargermagnitude。Yes,tomymindthererecurredtheimmature,batteredearsofcornlyingintherutsofthesteppetrack,theswallowstraversingtheblueskyabovethegolden,brocadedgrain,thekitehoveringinthevoidoverthelandscape’svastperiphery。
  Andalongwiththesethoughts,therestruckuponmyearsawhistlingofpinionsastheshadowofabirdflittedacrossthebrilliant,dew-bespangledgreenoftheforecourt,andfivecockscrowedinsuccession,andaflockofgeeseannouncedthefactoftheirawakening,andacowlowed,andthegateofthecattle-pencreaked。
  AndwiththatIfelltothinkinghowIshouldlikereallytogooutontothesteppe,andtheretofallasleepunderawarm,drybank。
  Asforthedeacon,hewasstillslumberingatmyfeet——slumberingwithhisbreast,thebreastofaprize-fighter,turneduppermost,andhisfine,goldenshockofhairfallinglikeanimbusaroundhishead,andhot,fat,flushedredfeaturesandgapingmouthandceaselesslytwitchingmoustache。Inpassing,Ihadnoticedthathishandswerelong,andthattheyweresetuponshovel-shapedwrists。
  NextIfoundmyselfimaginingthesceneasthepowerfulfigureofthismanembracedawoman。Probablyherfacewouldbecomelosttosightinhisbeard,untilnothingofherfeaturesremainedvisible。Then,whenthebeardbegantotickleher,shewouldthrowbackherhead,andlaugh。Andthechildrenthatsuchamanmighthavebegotten!
  Allthisonlymadeitthemorepainfulanddisagreeabletometoreflectthatthebreastofahumanbeingofsuchatypeshouldbebearingaburdenofsorrow。Surelynaughtbutjoyshouldhavebeenpresenttherein!
  Meanwhile,theoldwoman’sgentlefacewasstillpeeringatmethroughthedoorway,andpresentlythefirstbeamofsunlightcameglancingthroughthewindow-space。Abovetherivulet’ssilkyglimmer,atransparentmistlaysteaming,whiletreesandherbagealikewerepassingthroughthatcuriouslyinertstagewhenatanymomentsoonefanciedtheymightgivethemselvesashake,andburstintosong,andinkeysintelligibletothesoulalone,setforththewondrousmysteryoftheirexistence。
  “Whatagoodmanheis!“theoldwomanwhisperedplaintivelyasshegazedatthedeacon’sgiganticframe。Whereafter,asthoughreadingaloudfromabookinvisibletomysight,sheproceededquietlyandsimplytorelatethestoryofhiswife。
  “Yousee,“shewenton“hisladycommittedacertainsinwithacertainman;andfolkremarkedthis,and,aftersettingthehusbandontothecouple,deridedhim——yes,him,ourDemid!——forthereasonthathepersistedinforgivingthewomanherfault。Atlengththejeersmadehertaketoherroomandhimtoliquor,andfortwoyearspasthehasbeendrinking,andsoonisgoingtobedeprivedofhisoffice。Onewhoscarcelydrankatall,mypoorhusband,usedtosay:’Ah,Demid,yieldnottothesefolk,butliveyourownlife,andlettheirsbetheirs,andyours,yours。’“
  Withthewords,tearswelledfromtheoldwoman’sdim,smalleyes,andbecamemergedwiththefoldsandwrinklesonhergrief-
  stainedcheeks。Andinthepresenceofthatlittlehead,aheadshakinglikeadeadleafintheautumntime,andofthosekindlyfeaturessowornwithageandsorrow,myeyesfell,andIfeltsmittenwithshametofindthat,onsearchingmysoulforatleastawordofconsolationtooffertothepoorfellow-mortalbeforeme,Icoulddiscovernonethatseemedsuitable。
  ButatlengththererecurredtomymindsomestrangewordswhichIhadencounteredinIknownotwhatantiquevolume——wordswhichran:
  “LetnottheservantsoftheGodslamentbut,rather,rejoice,inthatweepingandlamentationgrieveboththeGodsandmankind。“
  Thereafter,Imutteredconfusedly:
  “ItistimethatIwasgoing。“
  “What?“washerhastyexclamation,anexclamationutteredasthoughthewordshadaffrightedher。Whereafter,withquiveringlips,shebeganhesitantlyanduncertainlytofumbleinherbodice。
  “No,Ihavenoneedofmoney,“Iinterposed。“Only,ifyoushouldbesowilling,givemeapieceofbread。“
  “Youhavenoneedofmoney?“shere-echoeddubiously。
  “No,none。Forthatmatter,ofwhatusecoulditbetome?“
  “Well,well!“shesaidafterathoughtfulpause。“Thenbeitasyouwish,and——andIthankyou。“
  Thesun,asheroseandascendedtowardstheblueofthefirmament,wasspreadingovertheearthabraggart,peacock-liketailofbeams。Andashedidso,Iwinkedathim,forbyexperienceIknewthatsometwohourslaterhissmileswouldbescorchingmewithfire。YetforthetimebeingheandIhadnofaulttofindwithoneanother。Wherefore,IsetmyselftosearchforabankwhenceImightsingtohim,astotheLordofLife:
  0hThouofintangiblesubstance,Revealnowthatsubstancetome!
  EnwrapmewithinthegreatvestmentOflightwhichencompassethThee!
  ThatwithThyuprising,mysubstanceMayComeall-prevailingtobe!
  “Letusliveourlivesuntoourselves。Lettheirsbetheirs,andours,ours。“
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