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第46章

  “HadInotbetterconsiderWHYitismylot,andsoforth?Why,damnit,thecausesaremany。Foronething,ifonehasneighbourswhoneitherlivenorseethingsasoneselfdoes,butareuncongenial,whatdoesonedo?Onejustleavesthem,andclearsout——moreespeciallyifonebeneitherapriestnoramagistrate。YetYOUsaythatIhadbetterconsiderwhythisismylot。DoyouthinkthatYOUaretheonlymanabletoconsiderthings,possessedofabrain?“
  Andinanaccessoffurythespeakerreplacedhispipe,andsatfrowninginsilence。Vasilieyedhisinterlocutor’sfeaturesasthefirelightplayedreduponthem,and,finally,saidinanundertone:
  “Yes,itisalwaysso。Wefailtogetonwithourneighbours,yetlackacharterofourown,so,havingnorootstoholdus,justfalltowandering,troublingotherfolk,andearningdislike!“
  “Thedislikeofwhom?“grufflyqueriedtheex-soldier。
  “Thedislikeofeveryone,asyouyourselfhavesaid!“
  Inanswertheex-soldiermerelyemittedacloudofsmokewhichcompletelyconcealedhisform。YetVasili’svoicehadinitanagreeablenote,andwasflexibleandingratiating,whileenunciatingitswordsroundlyanddistinctly。
  Amountainowl,oneofthosesplendidbrowncreatureswhichhavethecraftyphysiognomyofacat,andthesharpgreyearsofamouse,madetheforestechowithitsobtrusivecry。AbirdofthisspeciesIonceencounteredamongthedefile’scrags,andasthecreaturesailedovermyheaditstartledmewiththeglassyeyeswhich,asroundasbuttons,seemedtobelitfromwithinwithmenacingfire。Indeed,foramomentortwoIstoodhalf-
  stupefiedwithterror,forIcouldnotconceivewhatthecreaturewas。
  “Whencedidyougetthatsplendidpipe?“nextaskedVasiliasherolledhimselfacigarette。“SurelyitisapipeofoldGermanmake?“
  “YouneednotfearthatIstoleit,“theex-soldierrespondedasheremoveditfromhislipsandregardeditproudly。“Itwasgivenmebyawoman。“
  Towhich,withawhimsicalwink,headdedasigh。
  “Tellmehowithappened,“saidVasilisoftly。Thenheflunguphisarms,andstretchedhimselfwithadespondentcryof:
  “Ah,thesenightshere!NeveragainmayGodsendmesuchbadones!Trytosleepasonemay,oneneversucceeds。Fareasier,indeed,isittosleepduringthedaytime,providedthatonecanfindashadyspot。DuringsuchnightsIgoalmostmadwiththinking,andmyheartswellsandmurmurs。“
  Theex-soldier,whohadlistenedwithmouthagapeandeyebrowsraisedevenhigherthanusual,respondedtothis:
  “Itisthesamewithme。Ifonecouldonly——Whatdidyousay?“
  Thislastwasaddressedtomyself,whohadbeenabouttoremark,“Thesamewithmealso,“butonseeingthepairexchangingastrangeglanceasthoughinvoluntarilytheyhadsurprisedoneanother,hadleftthewordsunspoken。Mycompanionsthensetthemselvestoamutuallyeagerquestioningwithrespecttotheirrespectiveidentities,pastexperiences,placesoforigin,anddestinations,evenasthoughtheyhadbeentwokinsmenwho,meetingunexpectedly,haddiscoveredforthefirsttimetheirbondofrelationship。
  Meanwhiletheblack,fringedboughsofthepinetreeshungstretchedovertheflamesoftheMolokans’fireasthoughtheywouldcatchsomeofthefire’sglowandwarmth,orseizeitaltogether,andputitout。Andwhen,attimes,theirredtonguesprojectedbeyondthecornerofthebarraque,theymadethebuildinglookasthoughithadcaughtalight,andextendedtheirgloweventotherivulet。Constantlythenightwasgrowingdenserandmorestifling;constantlyitseemedtoembracethebodymoreandmorecaressingly,untilonebathedinitasinanocean。
  Also,muchasawaveremovesdirtfromtheskin,sothesoftlyvocaldarknessseemedtorefreshandcleansethesoul。Foritisonsuchnightsasthatthatthesouldonsitsfinestraiment,andtrembleslikeabrideattheexpectationofsomethingglorious。
  “Yousaythatshehadasquint?“presentlyIheardVasilicontinueinanundertone,andtheex-soldierslowlyreply:
  “Yes,shehadonefromchildhoodupwards——shehadonefromthedaywhenafallfromacartcausedhertoinjurehereyes。Yet,ifshehadnotalwaysgoneaboutwithoneofhereyesshaded,youwouldneverhaveguessedthefact。Also,shewassoneatandpractical!Andherkindness——well,itwaskindnessasinexhaustibleasthewaterofthatrivuletthere;itwaskindnessofthesortthatwishedwelltoalltheworld,andtoallanimals,andtoeverybeggar,andeventomyself!Soatlasttheregrippedmyheartthethought,’WhyshouldInottryasoldier’sluck?Sheisthemaster’sfavourite——true;yetnonethelesstheattemptshallbemadebyme。’However,thiswayorthat,alwaysthereplywas’No’;alwayssheputoutatmeanelbow,andcutmeshort。“
  Vasili,lyingproneuponhisback,twitchedhismoustache,andchewedastalkofgrass。Hiseyeswerefullyopen,andforthesecondtimeIperceivedthatoneofthemwaslargerthantheother。Theex-soldier,seatednearVasili’sshoulder,stirredthefirewithabitofcharredstick,andsentsparksofgoldflyingtojointhemidgeswhichwereglidingtoandfroovertheblaze。
  Everandanonnight-mothssubsidedintotheflameswithaplop,crackled,andbecamechangedintolumpsofblack。Formyownpart,Iconstructedacouchonapileofpineboughs,andtherelaydown。AndasIlistenedtotheex-soldier’sfamiliarstory,I
  recalledpersonswhomIhadononeandanotheroccasionremembered,andspeecheswhichononeandanotheroccasionhadmadeanimpressionuponme。
  “Butatlast,“theex-soldiercontinued,“Itookheartofgrace,andcaughtherinabarn。Pressingherintoacorner,I
  said:’Nowletitbeyesorno。Of,courseitshallbeasyouwish,butrememberthatIamasoldierwithasmallstockofpatience。’Uponthatshebegantostruggleandexclaim:’Whatdoyouwant?Whatdoyouwant?’until,burstingintotearslikeagirl,shesaidthroughhersobs:’Donottouchme。Iamnotthesortofwomanforyou。Besides,Iloveanother——notourmaster,butanother,aworkman,aformerlodgerofours。Beforehedepartedhesaidtome:“WaitformeuntilIhavefoundyouanicehome,andreturnedtofetchyou“;andthoughitisseventeenyearssinceIheardspeechorwhisperofhim,andmaybehehassinceforgottenme,orfalleninlovewithsomeoneelse,orcometogrief,orbeenmurdered,you,whoareamap,willunderstandthatImustbidealittlewhilelonger。’True,thisoffendedmeforinwhatrespectwasIanyworsethantheotherman?;yetalsoIfeltsorryforher,andgrievedthatIshouldhavewrongedherbythinkingherfrivolous,whenallthetimetherehadbeenTHISatherheart。Idrewback,therefore——Icouldnotlayafingeruponher,thoughshewasinmypower。AndatlastIsaid:’Good-bye!Iamgoingaway。’’Go,’shereplied。
  ’Yes,gofortheloveofChrist!’……Wherefore,onthefollowingeveningIsettledaccountswithourmaster,andatdawnofaSundaymorningpackedmywallet,tookwithmethispipe,anddeparted。’Yes,takethepipe,PaulIvanovitch,’shesaidbeforemydeparture。’Perhapsitwillservetokeepyouinremembranceofme——youwhomhenceforthIshallregardasabrother,andwhomI
  thank。’……AsIwalkedawayIwasverynightotears,sokeenwasthepaininmyheart。Aye,keenitwasindeed!“
  “Youdidright,“Vasiliremarkedsoftlyafterapause。
  “Thingsmustalwayssobefall。Alwaysmustitbeacaseeitherof’Yes?’’Yes,’andoffolkcomingtogether,orof’No’’No,’
  andoffolkparting。Andinvariablytheonepersoninthecasegrievestheother。Whyshouldthatbe?“
  Emittingacloudofgreysmoke,theex-soldierrepliedthoughtfully:
  “Yes,IknowIdidright;butthatrightwasdoneonlyatagreatcost。“
  “Andalwaysthattooisthecase,“Vasiliagreed。Thenheadded:
  “Generallysuchfortunefallstothelotofpeoplewhohavetenderconsciences。Hewhovalueshimselfalsovalueshisfellows;but,unfortunatelyamanalltooseldomvaluesevenhimself。“
  “Towhomareyoureferring?Toyouandmyself?“
  “ToourRussianfolkingeneral。“
  “ThenyoucannothaveverymuchrespectforRussia。“Theex-
  soldier’stonehadtakenonacuriousnote。Heseemedtobefeelingbothastonishedatandgrievedforhiscompanion。
  Theother,however,didnotreply;andafterafewmomentstheex-soldiersoftlyconcluded:
  “Sonowyouhaveheardmystory。“
  Bythistimethecarpentershadceasedsingingaroundthebarraque,andlettheirfirediedownuntilquiveringonthewalloftheedificetherewasonlyafiery-redpatch,apatchbarelysufficienttorendervisibletheshadowsoftherocks;whilebesidethefiretherewasseatedonlyatallfigurewithablackbeardwhichhad,graspedinitshands,aheavycudgel,and,lyingnearitsrightfoot,anaxe。Thefigurewasthatofawatchmansetbythecarpenterstokeepaneyeuponourselves,theappointedwatchmen;thoughthefactinnowayoffendedus。
  Overthedefile,inaraggedstripofsky,thereweregleamingstars,whiletherivuletwasbubblingandpurling,andfromtheobscurityoftheforesttherekeptcomingtoourears,nowthecautious,rustlingtreadofsomenightanimal,andnowthemournfulcryofanowl,untilallnatureseemedtobeinstinctwithasecretvitalitythesweetbreathofwhichkeptmovingthehearttohungerinsatiablyforthebeautiful。
  Also,asIlaylisteningtothevoiceoftheex-soldier,avoicereminiscentofadistanttambourine,andtoVasili’spensivequestions,Iconceivedalikingforthemen,andbegantodetectthatintheirrelationstherewasdawningsomethinggoodandhuman。Atthesametime,theeffectofsomeofVasili’sdictaonRussiawastoarouseinmemingledfeelingswhichimpelledmeatoncetoarguewithhimandtoinducehimtospeakatgreaterlength,withmoreclarity,onthesubjectofourmutualfatherland。HencealwaysIhavelovedthatnightforthevisionswhichitbroughttome——visionswhichstillcomebacktomelikeadear,familiartale。