“Youhavebeenoh,sogood!“shewhisperssoftly。Asshespeaks,theearthseemstobesinkingundermyfeet。
Thenshetearsherselfaway,glancesaroundthecourtyard,anddartstoacornerwhere,underafence,aclumpofherbageissprouting。
“Gonow,“sheaddsinawhisper。“Yes,go。“
Then,withaconfusedsmile,as,crouchingamongtheherbageasthoughithadbeenasmallcave,sherearrangesherhair,sheadds:
“Ithasbefallenso。Ah,me!MayGodgrantuntomeHispardon!“
Astonished,feelingthatImustbedreaming,Igazeatherwithgratitude,forIsenseanextraordinarylightnesstobepresentinmybreast,aradiantvoidthroughwhichjoyous,intangiblewordsandthoughtskeepflyingasswallowswheelacrossthefirmament。
“Amidagreatsorrow,“sheadds,“evenasmalljoybecomesagreatfelicity。“
YetasIglanceatthewoman’sbosom,whereonmoistbeadsarestandinglikedewdropsontheouterearth;asIglanceatthatbosom,whereonthesun’sraysarefindingaroseatereflection,asthoughthebloodwereoozingthroughtheskin,myrapturediesaway,andturnstosorrow,heartache,andtears。Forinmethereisapresentimentthatbeforethelivingjuicewithinthatbosomshallhavebornefruit,itwillhavebecomedriedup。
Presently,inatonealmostofself-excuse,andonewhereinthewordssoundalittlesadly,shecontinues:
“Timestherearewhensomethingcomespouringintomysoulwhichmakesmybreastsachewiththepainofit。Whatisthereformetodoatsuchmomentssaverevealmythoughtstothemoon,or,inthedaytime,toariver?OhGodinHeaven!AndafterwardsIfeelasashamedofmyself!……Donotlookatmelikethat。Whystareatmewiththoseeyes,eyessoliketheeyesofachild?“
“YOURface,rather,islikeachild’s,“Iremark。
“What?Isitsostupid?“
“Somethinglikethat。“
Asshefastensupherbodiceshecontinues:
“Soonthetimewillbefiveo’clock,whenthebellwillringforMass。ToMassImustgotoday,forIhaveaprayertooffertotheMotherofGod……Shallyoubeleavingheresoon?“
“Yes——assoon,thatistosay,asIhavereceivedbackmypassport。“
“Andforwhatdestination?“
“ForAlatyr。Andyou?“
Shestraightensherattire,andrises。AsshedoessoIperceivethatherhipsarenarrowerthanhershoulders,andthatthroughoutsheiswell-proportionedandsymmetrical。
“I?AsyetIdonotknow。True,IhadthoughtofproceedingtoNaltchik,butnow,perhaps,Ishallnotdoso,forallmyfutureisuncertain。“
Uponthatsheextendstomeapairofstrong,capablearms,andproposeswithablush:
“Shallwekissoncemorebeforewepart?“
Sheclaspsmewiththeonearm,andwiththeothermakesthesignofthecross,adding:
“Good-bye,dearfriend,andmayChristrequiteyouforallyourwords,forallyoursympathy!“
“Thenshallwetraveltogether?“
Atthewordsshefreesherself,andsaysfirmly,nay,sternly:
“Notso。NeverwouldIconsenttosuchaplan。Ofcourse,hadyoubeenamuzhik——butno。Eventhenwhatwouldhavebeentheuseofit,seeingthatlifeistobemeasured,notbyasinglehour,butbyyears?“
And,quietlysmilingmeafarewell,shemovesawaytowardsthehut,whilstI,remainingseated,losemyselfinthoughtsofher。
Willsheeverovertakeherquestinlife?ShallIeverbeholdheragain?
ThebellforearlyMassbegins,thoughforsometimepastthehamlethasbeenastir,andhumminginasedateandnon-festivefashion。
Ienterthehuttofetchmywallet,andfindtheplaceempty。
Evidentlythewholepartyhasleftbythegapinthebroken-downwall。
Irepair,next,totheAtaman’soffice,whereIreceivebackmypassportbeforesettingouttolookformycompanionsinthesquare。
Insimilarfashiontoyesterdaythose“folkfromRussia“arelollingalongsidethechurchyardwall,andalsohaveseatedamongthem,leaninghisbackagainstalog,thefat-jowledyouthfromPenza,withhisbruisedfacelookingevenlargeranduglierthanbefore,forthereasonthathiseyesaresunkenamidpurpleprotuberances。
Presentlytherearrivesanewcomerintheshapeofanoldmanwithagreyheadadornedwithafadedvelvetskull-cap,apointedbeard,alean,witheredframe,prominentcheekbones,ared,porous-looking,cunninglyhookednose,andtheeyesofathief。
Himaflaxen-hairedyouthfromOreljoinswithasimilaryouthinaccosting。
“WhyareYOUtramping?“inquirestheformer。
“AndwhyareYOU?“theoldmanretortsinnasaltonesas,lookingatnoone,heproceedstomendthehandleofabatteredmetalteapotwithapieceofwire。
“Wearetravellinginsearchofwork,andthereforelivingaswehavebeencommandedtolive。“
“ByWHOMcommanded?“
“ByGod。Haveyouforgotten?“
Carelessly,butsuccinctly,theoldmanretorts:
“Takeheedlestuponyou,someday,GodvomitallthedustandlitterwhichyouareraisingbytrampingHisearth!“
“How?“criesoneoftheyouths,along-earedstripling。
“WerenotChristandHisApostlesalsotramps?“
“Yes,CHRIST,“istheoldman’smeaningreplyasheraiseshissharpeyestothoseofhisopponent。“Butwhatareyoutalkingof,youfools?Withwhomareyoudaringtocompareyourselves?
TakecarelestIreportyoutotheCossacks!“
Ihavelistenedtomanysucharguments,andalwaysfoundthemdistasteful,evenasIhavedonediscussionsregardingthesoul。
HenceIfeelinclinedtodepart。
Atthismoment,however,Konevmakeshisappearance。Hismienisdejected,andhisbodyperspiring,whilehiseyeskeepblinkingrapidly。
“HasanyoneseenTanka——thatwomanfromRiazan?“heinquires。
“No?Thenthebitchmusthaveboltedduringthenight。Thefactisthat,overnight,someonegavemeadroportwotodrink,ameredram,butenoughtolaymeasfastasleepasabearinwinter-
time。Andinthemeantime,shemusthaverunawaywiththatPenzafellow。“
“No,HEishere,“Iremark。
“Oh,heis,ishe?Well,aswhathasthecompanyregistereditself?Asasetofikon-painters,Ishouldthink!“
Againhebeginstolookanxiouslyabouthim。
“Wherecanshehavegotto?“hequeries。
“ToMass,maybe。“
“0Fcourse!Well,Iamgreatlysmittenwithher。Yes,mywordI
am!“
Nevertheless,whenMasscomestoanend,and,tothesoundofamerrypealofbells,thewell-dressedlocalCossacksfileoutofchurch,anddistributethemselvesingaudystreamsaboutthehamlet,noTatianamakesherappearance。
“ThensheISgone,“saysKonevruefully。“ButI’llfindheryet!I’LLcomeupwithher!“
ThatthiswillhappenIdonotfeelconfident。NordoIdesirethatitshould。
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