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第41章

  “Youhavebeenoh,sogood!“shewhisperssoftly。Asshespeaks,theearthseemstobesinkingundermyfeet。
  Thenshetearsherselfaway,glancesaroundthecourtyard,anddartstoacornerwhere,underafence,aclumpofherbageissprouting。
  “Gonow,“sheaddsinawhisper。“Yes,go。“
  Then,withaconfusedsmile,as,crouchingamongtheherbageasthoughithadbeenasmallcave,sherearrangesherhair,sheadds:
  “Ithasbefallenso。Ah,me!MayGodgrantuntomeHispardon!“
  Astonished,feelingthatImustbedreaming,Igazeatherwithgratitude,forIsenseanextraordinarylightnesstobepresentinmybreast,aradiantvoidthroughwhichjoyous,intangiblewordsandthoughtskeepflyingasswallowswheelacrossthefirmament。
  “Amidagreatsorrow,“sheadds,“evenasmalljoybecomesagreatfelicity。“
  YetasIglanceatthewoman’sbosom,whereonmoistbeadsarestandinglikedewdropsontheouterearth;asIglanceatthatbosom,whereonthesun’sraysarefindingaroseatereflection,asthoughthebloodwereoozingthroughtheskin,myrapturediesaway,andturnstosorrow,heartache,andtears。Forinmethereisapresentimentthatbeforethelivingjuicewithinthatbosomshallhavebornefruit,itwillhavebecomedriedup。
  Presently,inatonealmostofself-excuse,andonewhereinthewordssoundalittlesadly,shecontinues:
  “Timestherearewhensomethingcomespouringintomysoulwhichmakesmybreastsachewiththepainofit。Whatisthereformetodoatsuchmomentssaverevealmythoughtstothemoon,or,inthedaytime,toariver?OhGodinHeaven!AndafterwardsIfeelasashamedofmyself!……Donotlookatmelikethat。Whystareatmewiththoseeyes,eyessoliketheeyesofachild?“
  “YOURface,rather,islikeachild’s,“Iremark。
  “What?Isitsostupid?“
  “Somethinglikethat。“
  Asshefastensupherbodiceshecontinues:
  “Soonthetimewillbefiveo’clock,whenthebellwillringforMass。ToMassImustgotoday,forIhaveaprayertooffertotheMotherofGod……Shallyoubeleavingheresoon?“
  “Yes——assoon,thatistosay,asIhavereceivedbackmypassport。“
  “Andforwhatdestination?“
  “ForAlatyr。Andyou?“
  Shestraightensherattire,andrises。AsshedoessoIperceivethatherhipsarenarrowerthanhershoulders,andthatthroughoutsheiswell-proportionedandsymmetrical。
  “I?AsyetIdonotknow。True,IhadthoughtofproceedingtoNaltchik,butnow,perhaps,Ishallnotdoso,forallmyfutureisuncertain。“
  Uponthatsheextendstomeapairofstrong,capablearms,andproposeswithablush:
  “Shallwekissoncemorebeforewepart?“
  Sheclaspsmewiththeonearm,andwiththeothermakesthesignofthecross,adding:
  “Good-bye,dearfriend,andmayChristrequiteyouforallyourwords,forallyoursympathy!“
  “Thenshallwetraveltogether?“
  Atthewordsshefreesherself,andsaysfirmly,nay,sternly:
  “Notso。NeverwouldIconsenttosuchaplan。Ofcourse,hadyoubeenamuzhik——butno。Eventhenwhatwouldhavebeentheuseofit,seeingthatlifeistobemeasured,notbyasinglehour,butbyyears?“
  And,quietlysmilingmeafarewell,shemovesawaytowardsthehut,whilstI,remainingseated,losemyselfinthoughtsofher。
  Willsheeverovertakeherquestinlife?ShallIeverbeholdheragain?
  ThebellforearlyMassbegins,thoughforsometimepastthehamlethasbeenastir,andhumminginasedateandnon-festivefashion。
  Ienterthehuttofetchmywallet,andfindtheplaceempty。
  Evidentlythewholepartyhasleftbythegapinthebroken-downwall。
  Irepair,next,totheAtaman’soffice,whereIreceivebackmypassportbeforesettingouttolookformycompanionsinthesquare。
  Insimilarfashiontoyesterdaythose“folkfromRussia“arelollingalongsidethechurchyardwall,andalsohaveseatedamongthem,leaninghisbackagainstalog,thefat-jowledyouthfromPenza,withhisbruisedfacelookingevenlargeranduglierthanbefore,forthereasonthathiseyesaresunkenamidpurpleprotuberances。
  Presentlytherearrivesanewcomerintheshapeofanoldmanwithagreyheadadornedwithafadedvelvetskull-cap,apointedbeard,alean,witheredframe,prominentcheekbones,ared,porous-looking,cunninglyhookednose,andtheeyesofathief。
  Himaflaxen-hairedyouthfromOreljoinswithasimilaryouthinaccosting。
  “WhyareYOUtramping?“inquirestheformer。
  “AndwhyareYOU?“theoldmanretortsinnasaltonesas,lookingatnoone,heproceedstomendthehandleofabatteredmetalteapotwithapieceofwire。
  “Wearetravellinginsearchofwork,andthereforelivingaswehavebeencommandedtolive。“
  “ByWHOMcommanded?“
  “ByGod。Haveyouforgotten?“
  Carelessly,butsuccinctly,theoldmanretorts:
  “Takeheedlestuponyou,someday,GodvomitallthedustandlitterwhichyouareraisingbytrampingHisearth!“
  “How?“criesoneoftheyouths,along-earedstripling。
  “WerenotChristandHisApostlesalsotramps?“
  “Yes,CHRIST,“istheoldman’smeaningreplyasheraiseshissharpeyestothoseofhisopponent。“Butwhatareyoutalkingof,youfools?Withwhomareyoudaringtocompareyourselves?
  TakecarelestIreportyoutotheCossacks!“
  Ihavelistenedtomanysucharguments,andalwaysfoundthemdistasteful,evenasIhavedonediscussionsregardingthesoul。
  HenceIfeelinclinedtodepart。
  Atthismoment,however,Konevmakeshisappearance。Hismienisdejected,andhisbodyperspiring,whilehiseyeskeepblinkingrapidly。
  “HasanyoneseenTanka——thatwomanfromRiazan?“heinquires。
  “No?Thenthebitchmusthaveboltedduringthenight。Thefactisthat,overnight,someonegavemeadroportwotodrink,ameredram,butenoughtolaymeasfastasleepasabearinwinter-
  time。Andinthemeantime,shemusthaverunawaywiththatPenzafellow。“
  “No,HEishere,“Iremark。
  “Oh,heis,ishe?Well,aswhathasthecompanyregistereditself?Asasetofikon-painters,Ishouldthink!“
  Againhebeginstolookanxiouslyabouthim。
  “Wherecanshehavegotto?“hequeries。
  “ToMass,maybe。“
  “0Fcourse!Well,Iamgreatlysmittenwithher。Yes,mywordI
  am!“
  Nevertheless,whenMasscomestoanend,and,tothesoundofamerrypealofbells,thewell-dressedlocalCossacksfileoutofchurch,anddistributethemselvesingaudystreamsaboutthehamlet,noTatianamakesherappearance。
  “ThensheISgone,“saysKonevruefully。“ButI’llfindheryet!I’LLcomeupwithher!“
  ThatthiswillhappenIdonotfeelconfident。NordoIdesirethatitshould。