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第23章

  “Veryreadyareyoutoweep,butIshouldlikefirsttoheartheexactcircumstancesofthelad’sdeath。“
  Thusinvited,thewomanwipedhereyeswiththesleeveofherbodice,lickedherlips,heavedaprolongedsigh,andfelltoregardingAntipa’sred,hardbittenfacewiththecheerful,unabashedglanceofapersonwhoisundertheinfluenceofliquor。Fromunderherwhitehead-bandtherehadfallenoverhertemplesandherrightcheekafewwispsofgoldenhair;andindeed,asshedrewherselfup,andtossedherheadandbosom,andsmoothedoutandstretchedthecreasesinherbodice,shelookedlessthanheryears。Everyonenowfelltoeyeingherinanattentivesilence,thoughnot,itwouldseem,withoutatouchofenvy。
  Abruptly,sternly,theoldmaninquired:
  “Didtheladevercomplainofill-health?“
  “No,never,“Felitzatareplied。“Neveroncedidhespeakofit——neveronce。“
  “Andhehadnotbeenbeaten?“
  “Oh,howcanyouaskmesuchathing,andespeciallyseeingthat,that——?“
  “IdidnotsaybeatenbyYOU。“
  “Well,Icannotanswerforanyoneelse,butatleasthadhenomarkonhisbody,seeingthatwhenIliftedthesmockIcouldfindnothingsaveforscratchesonlegsandback。“
  Hertonenowhadinitanewring,aringofincreasedassurance,andwhenshehadfinishedsheclosedherbrighteyeslanguidlybeforeheavingasoft,asitwere,voluptuous,and,withal,veryaudiblesigh。
  Someoneheremurmured:
  “SheDIDusetobeathim。“
  “What?“
  “Atalleventssheusedtolosehertemperwithhim。“
  Thisledtotheputtingofafurtherdozenorsoofleadingquestions;whereafterAntipa,forawhile,preservedasuggestivesilence,andthecrowdtooremainedsilent,asthoughithadsuddenlybeenlulledtoslumber。Onlyatlonglast,andwithaclearingofhisthroat,didAntipasay:
  “Friends,wemustsupposethatGod,ofHisinfiniteMercy,hasvouchsafedtoushereaspecialvisitation,inthat,asallofushaveperceived,aladbereftofwit,thesameradiantladwhomallofushaveknown,hashereabidedintheclosestofcommunionwiththeBlessedDispenseroflifeonearth。“
  ThenImovedaway,foruponmyhearttherewaspressingaburdenofunendurablesorrow,andIwasyearning,oh,soterribly,toseeNilushkaoncemore。
  ThebackportionofFelitzata’scotstoodalittlesunkenintotheground,sothatthefrontportionhaditscoldwindowpanesandraisedsashtiltedatrifletowardstheremoteheavens。I
  bentmyhead,andenteredbytheopendoor。NearthethresholdNilushkawaslyingonanarrowchestagainstthewall。Thefoldsofadark-redpillowoffustianundertheheadsetofftoperfectionthepalebluetintofhisround,innocentfaceunderitscoronaofgoldencurls;andthoughtheeyeswereclosed,andthelipspressedtightlytogether,hestillseemedtobesmilinginhisoldquiet,butjoyous,way。Ingeneral,thetall,thinfigureonthemattressofdarkfelt,withitsbarelegs,anditsslenderhandsandwristsfoldedacrossthebreast,remindedmelessofanangelthanofacertainimageoftheHolyChildwithwhichablackenedoldikonhadrenderedmefamiliarfrommyboyhoodupwards。
  Everythingamidthepurplegloomwasstill。Eventheflieswereforbearingtobuzz。Onlyfromthestreetwastheregratingthroughtheshadedwindowthestrong,roguishvoiceofFelitzataasittracedthestrange,lugubriousword-pattern:
  Withmybosompressedtothewarm,greyearth,Tothee,greyearth,tothee,0hmymotherofold,Ibeseechthee,Iwhoamamotherlikethee,Andamotherinpain,toenfoldinthyarmsThismyson,thismydeadson,thismyruby,Thismydropofmyheart’sblood,thismy——
  SuddenlyIcaughtsightofAntipastandinginthedoorway。Hewaswipinghiseyeswiththebackofhishand。Presentlyinagruffandunsteadyvoicehesaid:
  “Itisallveryfineforyoutoweep,goodwoman,butthepresentisnottherightmomenttosingsuchversesasthose——theyweremeant,rather,tobesunginagraveyardatthesideofatomb。Well,tellmeeverythingwithoutreserve。
  ImportantisitthatIshouldknowEVERYTHING。“
  Whereafter,havingcrossedhimselfwithafalteringhand,hecarefullyscrutinisedthecorpse,andatlastlethiseyeshaltuponthelad’ssweetfeatures。Thenhemutteredsadly:
  “Howextraordinarilyhehasgrown!Yes,deathhasindeedenlargedhim!Ah,well,sobeit!SoonItooshallhavetobestretchingmyselfout。Ohthatitwerenow!“
  Thenwithcautiousmovementsofhisdeformedfingershestraightenedthefoldsofthelad’ssmock,anddrewitoverthelegs。Whereafterhepressedhisflushedlipstothehemofthegarment。
  SaidItohimatthatmoment:
  “Whatisitthatyouhavebeenwantingofhim?Whyisitthatyouhavebeentryingtoteachhimstrangewords?“
  Straighteninghimself,andglancingatmewithdimeyes,Antiparepeated:
  “WhatisitthatIhavebeenwantingofhim?“Totherepetitionheaddedwithmanifestsincerity,thoughalsowithaself-depreciatorymovementofthehead:
  “Totellthetruth,IscarcelyknowWHATitisthatIhavebeenwantingofhim。ByGodIdonot。Yet,asonespeakingthetruthinthepresenceofdeath,IsaythatneverduringmylonglifetimehadIsodesiredaughtelse……Yes,Ihavewaitedandwaitedforfortunetorevealittome;andeverhasfortuneremainedmuteandtongueless。Foolishwasitofmetohaveexpectedotherwise,tohaveexpected,forinstance,thatsomedaytheremightoccursomethingmarvellous,somethingunlooked-for。“
  Withashortlaugh,heindicatedthecorpsewithhiseyes,andcontinuedmorefirmly:
  “Yes,bootlesswasittohaveexpectedanythingfromsuchasourceasthat。Never,despiteone’swishes,wasanythingpossibleofacquisitionthence……Thisisusuallythecase。
  Felitzata,asacleverwomanindeedalbeitonecoldofheart,wasforhavinghersonaccountedaGod’sfool,andtherebygainingsomeprovisionagainstheroldage。“
  “Butyouyourselfwerethepersonwhosuggestedthat?Youyourselfwishedit?“
  “I?“
  Presently。thrustinghishandsuphissleeves,headdeddullyandbrokenly:
  “Yes,IDIDwishit。Whynot,indeed,seeingthatatleastitwouldhavebroughtcomforttothepoorpeopleofthisplace?
  SometimesIfeelverysorryforthemwiththeirbitter,troublouslives——liveswhichmaybethelivesofroguesandvillains,yetareliveswhichhaveproducedamongstusapravednik,“[A“justperson,“ahumanbeingwithoutsin]。
  Alltheeveningskywasnowaflame。Upontheeartherefellthemournfullament:
  Whensnowhasveiledtheearthinwhite,Thesnowyplainthewildwolvestread。
  TheywailforthecheeringwarmthofspringAsIbewailthebairnthat’sdead。
  Vologonovlistenedforamoment。Thenhesaidfirmly:
  “Thesearemereaccessesofimpulsewhichcomeuponher。Andthatisonlywhatmightbeexpected。Evenasinsongorinvicethereisnoholdingher,soremorse,whenithasfasteneduponsuchawoman’sheart,willknownobounds。Imaytellyouthatononeoccasiontwoyoungmerchantstookher,strippedherstarknaked,anddroveherintheircarriagedownZhitnaiaStreet,withthemselvessittingontheseatsofthevehicle,andFelitzatastandinguprightbetweenthem——yes,inastateofnudity!Thereaftertheybeatheralmosttodeath。“
  AsIsteppedoutintothedark,narrowvestibule,Antipa,whowasfollowingme,muttered:
  “Suchalamentasherscouldcomeonlyofgenuinegrief。“
  WefoundFelitzatainfrontofthehut,withherbackcoveringthewindow。There,withhandspressedtoherbosom,andherskirtallawry,shewasstrainingherdishevelledheadtowardstheheavens,whiletheeveningbreeze,stirringherfineauburnhair,scattereditpromiscuouslyoverherflushed,sharply-definedfeaturesandwildlyprotrudingeyes。Abizarre,pitiable,andextraordinaryfiguredidshecutasshewailedinathroatyvoicewhichconstantlygatheredstrength:
  0hwindsofice,windscruelandrude,Pressonmyhearttillitsthrobbingsfail!
  Arrestthecurrentofmyblood!
  Turnthesehotmeltingtearstohail!
  Beforehertherewaspostedaknotofwomen,compassionatecontemplatorsofthesinger’sdistracted,grief-wroughtfeatures。Throughtheravine’sdarkopeningIcouldseethesunsinkingbelowthesuburbbeforeplungingintothemarshyforestandhavinghisdiskpiercedbysharp,blacktipsofpinetrees。
  Alreadyeverythingaroundhimwasred。Already,seemingly,hehadbeenwounded,andwasbleedingtodeath。