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第22章

  “Dogsrun-“
  “Dogs?Now,enough,littlefellow。“
  “Dogsrunlikechickens。Theyrunhere,intheravine,“
  continuedNilushkainthemurmuringaccentsofachildofthree。
  “Nevertheless,“musedVologonov,“eventhatseemingnothingofhismaymeansomething。Yes,theremaylieinitagreatdeal。
  Now,say:’Perditionwillarisebeforehimwhoshallhasten。’“
  “No,IwanttoSINGsomething。“
  WithasplutterVologonovsaid:
  “Trulyyouareadifficultsubjecttodealwith!“
  Andwiththathefelltopacingthefloorwithlong,thoughtfulstridesastheidiot’svoicecriedinquaveringaccents:
  “OLo-ord,haveme-ercyuponus!“
  ThusthewinsomeNilushkaprovedindispensabletothefoul,mean,unhealthylifeofthesuburb。Ofthatlifehecolouredandroundedoffthesenselessness,theugliness,thesuperfluity。Heresembledanapplehangingforgottenonagnarledoldworm-eatentree,whenceallthefruitandtheleaveshavefallenuntilonlythebrancheswaveintheautumnwind。Rather,heresembledasole-survivingpictureinthepagesofaragged,soiledoldbookwhichhasneitherabeginningnoranending,andthereforecannolongerberead,isnolongerworththereading,sincenowitspagescontainnothingintelligible。
  Andassmilinghisgracioussmile,thelad’spathetic,legendaryfigureflittedpastthemouldybutsandcrackedfencesandriotousbedsofnettles,therewouldreadilyrecurtothememory,andsucceedoneanother,visionsofsomeofthefinerandmorereputablepersonagesofRussianlore——therewouldfilebeforeone’smentalvision,inendlesssequence,menwhosebiographiesinformushow,infearfortheirsouls,theyleftthelifeoftheworld,and,hieingthemtotheforestsandthecaves,abandonedmankindforthewildthingsofnature。Andatthesametimewouldthererecurtoone’smemorypoemsconcerningtheblindandthepoor-inparticular,thepoemconcerningAlexeitheManofGod,andallthemultitudeofotherfair,butunsubstantial,formswhereinRussiahasembodiedhersadandterrifiedsoul,herhumbleandprotestinggrief。Yetitwasaprocesstodepressonealmosttothepointofdistraction。
  Once,forgettingthatNilushkawasimbecile,Iconceivedanirrepressibledesiretotalkwithhim,andtoreadhimgoodpoetry,andtotellhimbothoftheworld’syouthfulhopesandofmyownpersonalthoughts。
  Theoccasionhappenedonadaywhen,asIwassittingontheedgeoftheravine,anddanglingmylegsovertheravine’sdepths,theladcamefloatingtowardsmeasthoughonair。Inhishands,withtheirfingersasslenderasagirl’s,hewasholdingalargeleaf;andashegazedatitthesmileofhisclearblueeyeswas,asitwere,pervadinghimfromheadtofoot。
  “Whither,Nilushka?“saidI。
  Withastartheraisedhisheadandeyesheavenward。Thentimidlyheglancedattheblueshadowoftheravine,andextendedtomehisleaf,overtheveinsofwhichtherewascrawlingaladybird。
  “Abukan,“heobserved。
  “Itisso。Andwhitherareyougoingtotakeit?“
  “Weshallallofusdie。Iwasgoingtotakeandburyit。“
  “Butitisalive;andonedoesnotburythingsbeforetheyaredead。“
  Nilushkaclosedandopenedhiseyesonceortwice。
  “Ishouldliketosingsomething,“heremarked。
  “Rather,doyouSAYsomething。“
  Heglancedattheravineagain——hispinknostrilsquiveringanddilating——thensighedasthoughhewasweary,andinallunconsciousnessmutteredafoulexpression。AshedidsoI
  noticedthatontheportionofhisneckbelowhisrighteartherewasalargebirthmark,andthat,coveredwithgoldendownlikevelvet,andresemblinginshapeabee,itseemedtobeendowedwithasimilitudeoflife,throughthefaintbeatingofaveininitsvicinity。
  Presentlytheladybirdraisedherupperwingsasthoughshewerepreparingforflight;whereuponNilushkasoughtwithafingertodetainher,and,insodoing,letfalltheleaf,andenabledtheinsecttodetachitselfandflyawayatalowlevel。Uponthat,bendingforwardwitharmsoutstretched,theidiotwentsoftlyinpursuit,muchasthoughhehimselfwerelaunchinghisbodyintoleisurelyflight,but,whentenpacesaway,stopped,raisedhisfacetoheaven,and,witharmspendentbeforehim,andthepalmsofhishandsturnedoutwardsasthoughrestingonsomethingwhichIcouldnotsee,remainedfixedandmotionless。
  Fromtheravinethereweretendingupwardstowardsthesunlightsomegreensprigsofwillow,withdullyellowflowersandaclumpofgreywormwood,whilethedampcrackswhichseamedtheclayoftheravinewerelinedwithroundleavesofthe“mother-stepmotherplant,“androundaboutuslittlebirdswerehovering,andfromboththebushesandthebedoftheravinetherewasascendingthemoistsmellofdecay。Yetoverourheadstheskywasclear,asthesun,nowsoleoccupantoftheheavens,declinedslowlyinthedirectionofthedarkmarshesacrosstheriver;onlyabovetheroofsofZhitnaiaStreetcouldtherebeseenflutteringaboutinalarmaflockofsnow-whitepigeons,whilewavingbelowthemwastheblackbesomwhichhad,asitwere,sweptthemintotheair,andfromafaronecouldhearthesoundofanangrymurmur,themournful,mysteriousmurmurofthetown。
  Whiningly,likeanoldman,achildofthesuburbwasraisingitsvoiceinlamentation;andasIlistenedtothesound,itputmeinmindofaclerkreadingVespersamidthedesolationofanemptychurch。Presentlyabrowndogpasseduswithshaggyheaddespondentlypendent,andeyesasbeautifulasthoseofadrunkenwoman。
  And,tocompletethepicture,therewasstanding——outlinedagainstthenearestshantyofthesuburb,ashantywhichlayattheextremeedgeoftheravine-therewasstanding,facetothesun,andbacktothetown,asthoughpreparingforflight,thestraight,slenderformoftheboywho,whilealientoall,caressedallwiththeeternallyincomprehensiblesmileofhisangel-likeeyes。Yes,thatgoldenbirthmarksolikeabeeIcanseetothisday!
  Twoweekslater,onaSundayatmid-day,Nilushkapassedintotheotherworld。Thatday,afterreturninghomefromlateMass,andhandingtohismotheracoupleofwaferswhichhadbeengivenhimasamarkofcharity,theladsaid:
  “Mother,pleaselayoutmybedonthechest,forIthinkthatI
  amgoingtoliedownforthelasttime。“
  YetthewordsinnowaysurprisedFelitzata,forhehadoftenbeforeremarked,beforeretiringtorest:
  “Somedayweshallallofushavetodie。“
  Atthesametime,whereas,onpreviousoccasions,Nilushkahadnevergonetosleepwithoutfirstofallsingingtohimselfhislittlesong,andthenchantingtheeternal,universal“Lord,havemercyuponus!“he,onthisoccasion,merelyfoldedhishandsuponhisbreast,closedhiseyes,andrelapsedintoslumber。
  ThatdayFelitzatahaddinner,andthendepartedonbusinessofherown;andwhenshereturnedintheevening,shewasastonishedtofindthathersonwasstillasleep。Next,onlookingcloserathim,sheperceivedthathewasdead。
  “Ilooked,“sherelatedplaintivelytosomeofthesuburbanresidentswhocamerunningtohercot,“andperceivedhislittlefeettobeblue;andsinceitwasonlyjustbeforeMassthatIhadwashedhishandswithsoap,Iremarkedthemorereadilythathisfeetwerebecomelesswhitethanhishands。AndwhenIfeltoneofthosehands,Ifoundthatithadstiffened。“
  OnFelitzata’sface,assherecountedthis,therewasmanifestanervousexpression。Likewise,herfeatureswereatrifleflushed。Yetgleamingalsothroughthetearsinherlanguorouseyestherewasasenseofrelief——onemightalmosthavesaidasenseofjoy。
  “Next,“continuedshe,“Ilookedcloserstill,andthenfellonmykneesbeforethebody,sobbing:’0hmydarling,whitherartthoufled?0hGod,whereforehastThoutakenhimfromme?’“
  HereFelitzatainclinedherheaduponherleftshouldercontractedherbrowsoverhermischievouseyes,claspedherhandstoherbreast,andfellintothelament:
  Oh,goneismydove,myradiantmoon!
  0starofmineeyes,thouhastsettoosoon!
  Indarksomedepthsthylightliesdrown’d,Andtimemustyetcompleteitsround,AndthetrumpoftheSecondAdventsound,Ereevermy——
  “Here,you!Holdyourtongue!“gruntedVologonovirritably。
  Formyself,Ihad,thatday,beenwalkingintheforest,until,asIreturned,IwasbroughtupshortbeforethewindowsofFelitzata’scotbythefactthatsomeoftheerstwhileturbulentdenizensofthesuburbwerewhisperingsoftlytogetheras,withanabsenceofallnoise,theytookturnstoraisethemselvesontiptoe,and,craningtheirnecks,topeerintooneoftheblackwindow-spaces。Yes,likebeesonthestepofahivedidtheylook,andonthegreatmajorityoffaces,andinthegreatmajorityofeyes,therewasquiveringanairoftense,nervousexpectancy。
  OnlyVologonovwasnudgingFelitzata,andsayingtoherinaloud,authoritativetone: