“Doyoufirstgoinanddressyourself!“
Theelderlyladythenunfastenedthegates;whereuponastunted,oldishmuzhikinaredshirtlimpedintotheyardwithafoam-fleckedsteed,andexclaimed:
“Itiscaughtintwoplaces——attheSavelkinclearingandnearthecemetery!“
Immediatelythecompanypressedaroundhimwithgroansandejaculations,andGubinalonecontinuedtoharnesstheponywithswiftanddexteroushands——sayingtomethroughhisteethashedidso,andwithoutlookingatanyone:
“ThatishowthosewretchedfolkALWAYSdeferthingsuntiltoolate。“
Thenextpersontopresentherselfattheentrancegateswasabeggar-woman。Screwinguphereyesinafurtivemanner,shedroned:
“ForthesakeofLordJe-e-esus!“
“Godwillgiveyoualms!Godwillgiveyoualms!“wasNadezhda’sreplyas,turningpale,sheflungoutherarmsintheoldwoman’sdirection。“Yousee,aterriblethinghashappened——ourtimberlandshavecaughtfire。Youmustcomeagainlater。“
UponthatPeter’sbulkyformwhichhadentirelyfilledthewindowfromwhichithadbeenleaning,disappearedwithajerk,andinitssteadtherecameintoviewthefigureofawoman。
Saidshecontemptuously:
“SeethevisitationwithwhichGodhastriedus,youmenoffaintheartsandindolenthands!“
Thewoman’shairwasgreyatthetemples,andhadrestinguponitasilkencapwhichsokeptchangingcolourinthesunlightastoconveytoone。theimpressionthatherheadwasbonnetedwithsteel,whileinherface,picturesquebutdarkseeminglyblackenedwithsmoke,theregleamedtwopupil-lessblueeyesofakindwhichIhadneverbeforebeheld。
“Fools,“shecontinued,“howoftenhaveInotpointedouttoyouthenecessityofcuttingawiderspacebetweenthetimberandthecemetery?“
Fromafurrowabovethewoman’ssmallbutprominentnose,apairofheavybrowsextendedtotemplesthatweresilveredover。
Asshespoketherefellastrangesilenceamidwhichsaveforthepony’spawingofthemirenosoundmingledwiththesarcasticreproachesofthedeep,almostmasculinevoice。
“Thatagainisthemother-in-law,“wasmyinwardreflection。
Gubinfinishedtheharnessing——thensaidtoJonahinthetoneofasuperioraddressingaservant:
“Goinanddressyourself,youobject!“
Nevertheless,theBirkinsdroveoutoftheyardpreciselyastheywere,whilethepeasantmountedhisbelatheredsteedandfollowedthematatrot;andtheelderlyladydisappearedfromthewindow,leavingitspanesevendarkerandblackerthantheyhadpreviouslybeen。Gubin,slip-sloppingthroughthepuddleswithbarefeet,saidtomewithasharpglanceashemovedtoshuttheentrancegates:
“IpresumethatIcannowtakeinhandthelittleaffairofwhichyouknow。“
“Yakov!“atthisjuncturesomeoneshoutedfromthehouse。
Gubinstraightenedhimselfalamilitaire。
“Yes,Iamcoming,“hereplied。
Whereafter,paddingonbaresoles,heascendedthesteps。
Nadezhda,standingattheirtop,turnedawaywithafrownofrepulsionathisapproach,andnoddedandbeckonedtomyself,“WhathasYakovsaidtoyou?“sheinquired“Hehasbeenreproachingme。“
“Reproachingyouforwhat?“
“Forhavingspokentoyou。“
Sheheavedasigh。
“Ah,themischief-maker!“sheexclaimed。“Andwhatisitthathewants?“
Asshepoutedherdispleasureherroundandvacantfacelookedalmostchildlike。
“GoodLord!“sheadded。“WhatDOsuchmenashewant?“
Meanwhiletheheavenswerebecomingoverspreadwithdarkgreyclouds,andpresagingafloodofautumnrain,whilefromthewindownearthestepsthevoiceofPeter’smother-in-lawwasissuinginasteadystream。Atfirst,however,nothingwasdistinguishablesaveasoundlikethehummingofaspindle。
“Itismymotherthatisspeaking,“Nadezhdaexplainedsoftly。
“She’llgiveithim!Yes,SHEwillprotectme!“
YetIscarcelyheardNadezhda’swords,sogreatlywasIfeelingstruckwiththequietforcefulness,theabsoluteassurance,ofwhatwasbeingsaidwithinthewindow。
“Enough,enough!“saidthevoice。“Onlythroughlackofoccupationhaveyoujoinedthecompanyoftherighteous。“
UponthisImadeamovetoapproachclosertothewindow;
whereuponNadezhdawhispered:
“Whitherareyougoing?Youmustnotlisten。“
WhileshewasyetspeakingIheardcomefromthewindow:
“Similarlyyourrevoltagainstmankindhascomeofidleness,oflackofaninterestinlife。Toyoutheworldhasbeenwearisome,so,whiledevisingthisrevoltasaresource,youhaveexcuseditonthegroundofserviceofGodandloveofequity,whileinrealityconstitutingyourselfthedevil’sworkman。“
HereNadezhdapluckedatmysleeve,andtriedtopullmeaway,butIremarked:
“IMUSTlearnwhatGubinhasgottosayinanswer。“
ThismadeNadezhdasmile,andthenwhisperwithaconfidingglanceatmyface:
“Yousee,Ihavemadeafullconfessiontoher。Iwentandsaidtoher:’Mamenka,Ihavehadamisfortune。’Andheronlyreplyasshestrokedmyhairwas,’Ah,littlefool!’Thusyouseethatshepitiesme。AndwhatmakeshercarethelessthatI
shouldstrayinthatdirectionisthatsheyearnsformetobearherachild,agrandchild,asanheirtoherproperty。“
Next,Gubinwasheardsayingwithintheroom:
“WhensoeveranoffenceisdoneagainstthelawI……“
Atonceastreamofimpressivewordsfromtheotherdrownedhisutterance:
“Anoffenceisnotalwaysanoffenceofmoment,sincesometimesapersonoutgrowsthelaw,andfindsittoorestrictive。Noonepersonoughttoberatedagainstanother。Forwhomaloneoughtwetofear?OnlytheGodinwhosesightallofushaveerred!“
Andthoughintheelderlylady’svoicetherewaswearinessanddistaste,thewordswerespokenslowlyandincisively。UponthisGubintriedtomurmursomethingoranother,butagainhisutterancefailedtoedgeitswayintohisinterlocutor’smeasuredperiods:
“Nogreatachievementisit,“shesaid,“tocondemnafellowcreature。Foralwaysitiseasytositinjudgmentuponourfellows。Andevenifafellowcreaturebeallowedtopursueanevilcourseunchecked,hisoffencemayyetproveproductiveofgood。RememberhowineverycasetheSaintsreachedGod。Yethowtrulysanctified,bythetimethattheydidsoreachHim,werethey?Letthiseverbeborneinmind,forweareover-apttocondemnandpunish!“
“Informerdays,NataliaVassilievna,youtookawayfrommemysubstance,youtookmyall。Also,letmerecounttoyouhowwefellintodisagreement。“
“No;thereisnoneedforthat。“
“Thereafter,Iceasedtobeabletobearthecontemplationofmyself;Iceasedtoconsidermyselfasofanyvalue。“
“Letthepastremainthepast。Thatwhichmustbeisnottobeavoided。“
“Throughyou,Isay,Ilostmypeaceofmind。“
Nadezhdanudgedme,andwhisperedwithgaymalice:
“Thatisprobablytrue,fortheysaythatoncehewasoneofherlovers。“
Thensherecollectedherselfand,clappingherhandstoherface,criedthroughherfingers:
“OhgoodLord!WhathaveIsaid?No,no,youmustnotbelievethesetales。Theyareonlyslanders,forsheisthebestofwomen。“
“Whenevilhasbeendone,“continuedthequietvoicewithinthewindow,“itcanneverbesetrightbyrecountingittoothers。
Heuponwhomaburdenhasbeenlaidshouldtrytobearit。And,shouldhefailtobearit,thefactwillmeanthattheburdenhasbeenbeyondhisstrength。“
“ItwasthroughyouthatIlosteverything。Itwasyouthatstrippedmebare。“
“ButtothatwhichyoulostIaddedmovement。Nothinginlifeiseverlost;itmerelypassesfromonehandtoanother——fromtheunskilledhandtotheexperienced——sothateventhebonepickedofadogmayultimatelybecomeofvalue。“
“Yes,abone——thatiswhatIam。“
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