“Iloveyou,Iloveyou,“hesaidhuskily。
“SoIgather,“sheansweredinafeeblevoice。
“Doyoucareforme?“heasked。
“ItwouldseemthatImust,Alan,otherwiseIshouldscarcely——oh!youfoolishAlan,“andheedlessofherSundayhat,whichneverrecoveredfromthisencounter,butwaskeptasaholyrelic,sheletherheadfalluponhisshoulderandbegantocryagain,thistimeforveryhappiness。
Hekissedhertearsaway,thenashecouldthinkofnothingelsetosay,askedherifshewouldmarryhim。
“Itisthegeneralsequeltothiskindofthing,Ibelieve,“sheanswered;“oratanyrateitoughttobe。Butifyouwantadirectanswer——yes,Iwill,ifmyunclewillletme,whichhewon’t,asyouhavequarrelledwithhim,oratanyratetwoyearshence,whenIamfiveandtwentyandmyownmistress;thatisifwehaveanythingtomarryon,foronemusteat。Atpresentourworldlypossessionsseemtoconsistchieflyofalargestoreofmutualaffection,agoodstockofclothesandoneYellowGod,whichafterwhathappenedlastnight,Idonotthinkyouwillgetanotherchanceofturningintocash。“
“Imustmakemoneysomehow,“hesaid。
“Yes,Alan,butIamafraiditisnoteasytodo——honestly。Nobodywantspeoplewithoutcapitalwhoseonlystockintradeisabriefbutdistinguishedmilitarycareer,andalargeexperienceofAfricanfever。“
Alangroanedatthisveraciousbutdiscouragingremark,andshewentonquickly:
“ImeantospendanotherguineauponmyfriendthelawyeratKingswell。Perhapshecanraisethewind,byapost-obit,orsomething,“sheaddedvaguely,“Imeanapost-uncle-obit。“
“Ifhedoes,Barbara,Ican’tliveonyourmoneyalone,itisn’tright。“
“Oh!don’tyoutroubleaboutthat,Alan。IfonceIcangetholdofthosedimthousandsyouwillsoonbeabletomakemore,foruntohimthathathshallbegiven。Butatpresenttheyareverydim,andforallIknowmayberepresentedbystockindeceasedcompanies。Inshort,thefinancialpositionisextraordinarilydepressed,astheysayintheMarketIntelligencein/TheTimes/。Butthat’snoreasonwhyweshouldbedepressedalso。“
“No,Barbara,foratanyratewehavegoteachother。“
“Yes,“sheanswered,springingup,“wehavegoteachother,dear,untilDeathdouspart,andsomehowIdon’tthinkhe’lldothatyetawhile;itcomesintomyheartthathewon’tdothat,Alan,thatyouandIaregoingtoliveoutourdays。Sowhatdoestherestmatter?IntwoyearsIshallbeafreewoman。Infact,iftheworstcomestotheworst,I’lldefythemall,“andshesetherlittlemouthlikearock,“andmarryyoustraightaway,asbeingoverage,Icando,evenifitcostsmeeveryhalfpennythatI’vegot。“
“No,no,“hesaid,“itwouldbewrong,wrongtoyourselfandwrongtoyourdescendants。“
“Verywell,Alan,then,wewillwait,orperhapsluckwillcomeourway——whyshouldn’tit?AtanyrateformypartIneverfeltsohappyinmylife;for,dearAlan,wehavefoundwhatwewereborntofind,founditonceandforalways,andtherestismereetceteras。WhatwouldbetheuseofallthegoldoftheAsikipeoplethatJeekiewastalkingaboutlastnight,toeitherofus,ifwehadnoteachother?
Wecangetonwithoutthewealth,butwecouldn’tgetonapart,oratleastIcouldn’tandIdon’tmindsayingso。“
“No,mydarling,no,“heanswered,turningwhiteattheverythought,“wecouldn’tgetonapart——now。InfactIdon’tknowhowIhavedonesosolongalready,exceptthatIwasalwayshopingthatatimewouldcomewhenweshouldn’tbeapart。ThatiswhyIwentintothatinfernalbusiness,tomakeenoughmoneytobeabletoaskyoutomarryme。AndnowIhavegoneoutofthebusinessandaskedyoujustwhenI
shouldn’t。“
“Yes,soyouseeyoumightaswellhavedoneitayearortwoagowhenperhapsthingswouldhavebeensimpler。Well,itisafineexampleofthevanityofhumanplans,and,Alan,wemustbegoinghometolunch。
Ifwedon’t,SirRobertwillbeorganizingasearchpartytolookforus;infact,Ishouldn’twonderifheisdoingthatalready,inthewrongdirection。“
ThementionofSirRobertAylward’snamefellonthembothlikeablastofcoldwindinsummer,andforawhiletheywalkedinsilence。
“Youareafraidofthatman,Barbara,“saidAlanpresently,guessingherthoughts。
“Alittle,“sheanswered,“sofarasIcanbeafraidofanythinganymore。Andyou?“
“Alittlealso。Ithinkthathewillgiveustrouble。Hecanbeverymalevolentandresourceful。“
“Resourceful,Alan;well,socanI。I’llbackmywitsagainsthisanyday。Heshan’tseparateusbyanythingshortofmurder,whichhewon’tgoinfor。Menlikethatdon’tliketobreakthelaw;theyhavetoomuchtolose。Butnodoubthewillmakethingsuncomfortableforyou,ifhecan,forseveralreasons。“
Againtheywalkedonlostinreflections,whenBarbarasuddenlysawherlover’sfacebrighten。
“Whatisit,Alan?“sheasked。
“Somethingthatisrareenoughwithme,Barbara——anidea。YourememberspeakingaboutthatAsikigoldjustnow。Well,whyshouldn’tIgoandgetit?“
Shestaredathim。
“Itsoundsalittlespeculative,“shesaid;“somethinglikeoneofmyuncle’scompanies。“
“Nothalfsospeculativeasyouthink。IhavenodoubtitisthereandJeekieknowstheway。AlsoIseemtorememberthatthereisamapandanaccountofthewholethinginUncleAustin’sdiaries,thoughtotellyouthetruththeoldfellowwrotesuchafearfulhand,thatI
havenevertakenthetroubletoreadit。Yousee,“hewentonwithenthusiasm,“itisthekindofbusinessthatIcando。Iamthoroughlysaltedtofever,IknowtheWestCoast,whereIspentthreeyearsonthatBoundaryCommission,Ihavestudiedthenativesandcantalkseveraloftheirdialects。Ofcoursetherewouldbearisk,buttherearerisksineverything,andlikeyouIamnotafraidaboutthat,forIbelievethatwehavegotourlivesbeforeus。“
“Readupthosediaries,Alan,andwewilltalkthethingoveragain。
I’llpumpJeekie,whowilltellmeanythingbycoaxing,andtrytogetatthetruth。Meanwhilewhatareyougoingtodoaboutmyuncle?“
“Speaktohim,ofcourse,andhavetherowover。“
“Yes,“sheanswered,“thatisthebestandthemosthonest。Ofcoursehecanturnyouout,buthecan’tpreventmyseeingyou。Ifhedoes,gohometoYarleysandI’llcomeoverandcall。Hereweare,letusgoinbythebackdoor,“andshepointedtohercrushedhat,andlaughed。
WhileAlanandBarbara,onthemostmomentousoccasionoftheirlives,wereseateduponthefallenoakinthewoodsthatthrilledwiththebreathofspring,anotherinterviewwastakingplaceinMr。Champers-
Haswell’sprivatesuiteatTheCourt,thedecorationsofwhich,ashewaswonttoinformhisvisitors,hadcostnearly£2000。SirRobert,whosetasteatanyratewasgood,thoughtthemsoappallingthatwhilewaitingforhishostandpartner,whomhehadcometosee,hetookaseatinthebowwindowofthesitting-roomandstudiedtheviewthatnobodyhadbeenabletospoil。PresentlyMr。Haswellemergedfromhisbedroom,wrappedinadressinggownandlookingverypaleandshaky。
“Delightedtoseeyouallrightagain,“saidSirRobertashewheeledupachairintowhichMr。Haswellsank。
“Iamnotallright,Aylward,“heanswered;“Iamnotallrightatall。Neverhadsuchanupsetinmylife;thoughtIwasgoingtodiewhenthataccursedsavagetoldhisbeastlytale。Aylward,youareamanoftheworld,tellme,whatisthemeaningofthething?Yourememberwhatwethoughtwesawintheoffice,andthen——thatstory。“
“Idon’tknow,“heanswered;“franklyIdon’tknow。IamamanwhohasneverbelievedinanythingIcannotseeandtest,onewhoutterlylacksfaith。InmyleisureIhaveexaminedintothevariousreligioussystemsandfoundthemtoberubbish。Iamconvincedthatwearebuthighly-developedmammalsbornbychance,andwhenourdayisdone,departingintotheblacknothingnessoutofwhichwecame。Everythingelse,thatis,whatiscalledthehigherandspiritualpart,I
attributetothesuperstitionsincidenttotheterrorofthehideouspositioninwhichwefindourselves,thatofgodsofasorthemmedinbyafewyearsoffearfulandtormentedlife。Butyouknowtheoldarguments,sowhyshouldIenteronthem?AndnowIamconfrontedwithanexperiencewhichIcannotexplain。IcertainlythoughtthatintheofficeonFridayeveningIsawthatgoldmasktowhichIhadtakensostrangeafancythatIofferedtogiveVernon£17,000foritbecauseI
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