Theykepttheirsecretforawhile,oratleasttheyhadthatspecialjoyofbelievingthatnooneinalltheworldbutthemselvesknewthisthathadhappenedtothem。ButIthinkthattherewasonepersonwhoknewhowtokeepasecretevenbetterthanthesetwolovers。Mrs。Taylormadenoremarkstoanyonewhatever。NobodyonBearCreek,however,wassoextraordinarilycheerfulandserene。ThatpeculiarseveritywhichshehadmanifestedinthedayswhenMollywaspackingherpossessions,hadnowaltogetherchanged。Inthesedaysshewasendlesslykindandindulgenttoher“deary。“Although,asahousekeeper,Mrs。
Taylorbelievedinpunctualityatmeals,andvisitedheroffspringwithdisciplinewhentheywerelatewithoutgoodandsufficientexcuse,Mollywasnowexemptfromthefaintesthintofreprimand。
“Andit’snotbecauseyou’renothermother,“saidGeorgeTaylor,bitterly。“Sheusedtogetit,too。Andwe’retheonlyonesthatgetit。Thereshecomes,justaswe’reaboutreadytoquit!
Aren’tyougoingtosayNOTHINGtoher?“
“George,“saidhismother,“whenyou’vesavedaman’slifeit’llbetimeforyoutotalk。“
SoMollywouldcomeintohermealswithmuchirregularity;andherremarksabouttheimperfectionsofherclockmetwithnorejoinder。AndyetonecanscarcelybesosevereashadbeenMrs。
Taylor,andbecomewhollyasmildasmilk。Therewasonerecurrenteventthatcouldinvariablyawakenhostilesymptomsinthedame。WhenevershesawaletterarrivewiththeBenningtonpostmarkuponit,sheshookherfistatthatletter。“What’sfamilypride?“shewouldsaytoherself。“TaylorcouldbeaSonoftheRevolutionifhe’damindto。Iwonderifshehastoldherfolksyet。“
AndwhenlettersdirectedtoBenningtonwouldgoout,Mrs。Taylorwouldinspecteveryoneasifitsenvelopeoughttogrowtransparentbeneathhereyes,andyielduptoheritsgreatsecret,ifithadone。Butintruththeselettershadnogreatsecrettoyieldup,untiloneday——yes;onedayMrs。Taylorwouldhaveburst,wereburstingathingthatpeopleoftendid。ThreeletterswerethecauseofthisemotiononMrs。Taylor’spart;oneaddressedtoBennington,onetoDunbarton,andthethird——herewasthegreatexcitement——toBennington,butnotinthelittleschoolmarm’sdelicatewriting。Aman’shandhadtracedthoseplain,steadyvowelsandconsonants。
“It’scome!“exclaimedMrs。Taylor,atthissight。“Hehaswrittentohermotherhimself。“
ThatiswhattheVirginianhaddone,andhereishowithadcomeabout。
Thesickman’sconvalescencewasachieved。Theweekshadbroughtbacktohim,nothiswholestrengthyet——thatcouldcomeonlybymanymilesofopenaironthebackofMonte;buthewasstrongenoughnowtoGETstrength。Whenapatientreachesthisstage,heisoutofthewoods。
Hehadgoneforalittlewalkwithhisnurse。Theyhadtakenunderthedoctor’srecommendationseveralsuchlittlewalks,beginningwithafive-minuteone,andatlastto-dayaccomplishingthreemiles。
“No,ithasnotbeentoofar,“saidhe。“IamafraidIcouldwalktwiceasfar。“
“Afraid?“
“Yes。BecauseitmeansIcangotoworkagain。Thisthingwehavehadtogetherisover。“
Forreply,sheleanedagainsthim。
“Lookatyou!“hesaid。“Onlyalittlewhileagoyouhadtohelpmestandonmylaigs。Andnow——“Forawhiletherewassilencebetweenthem。“Ihaveneverhadarightdownsicknessbefore,“hepresentlywenton。“Nottoremember,thatis。IfanypersonhadtoldmeIcouldENJOYsuchathing——“Hesaidnomore,forshereachedup,andnomorespeechwaspossible。
“Howlonghasitbeen?“henextaskedher。
Shetoldhim。
“Well,ifitcouldbeforever——no。Notforeverwithnomorethanthis。IreckonI’dbesickagain!Butifitcouldbeforeverwithjustyouandme,andnooneelsetobotherwith。Butanylongerwouldnotbedoingrightbyyourmother。Shewouldhavearighttothinkillofme。“
“Oh!“saidthegirl。“Letuskeepit。“
“NotafterIamgone。Yourmothermustbetold。“
“Itseemsso——can’twe——oh,whyneedanybodyknow?“
“Yourmotherain’t’anybody。’Sheisyourmother。IfeelmightyresponsibletoherforwhatIhavedone。“
“ButIdidit!“
“Doyouthinkso?Yourmotherwillnotthinkso。Iamgoingtowritetoherto-day。“
“You!Writetomymother!Oh,theneverythingwillbesodifferent!Theywillall——“MollystoppedbeforetherisingvisionsofBennington。Uponthefairy-talethatshehadbeenlivingwithhercow-boyloverbrokethevoicesoftheworld。Shecouldhearthemfromafar。ShecouldseetheeyesofBenningtonwatchingthismanatherside。ShecouldimaginetheearsofBenningtonlisteningforslipsinhisEnglish。Thereloomeduponhertheroundofvisitswhichtheywouldhavetomake。Theringingofthedoor-bells,thewaitingindrawing-roomsforthemistresstodescendandutterherpreparedcongratulations,whilehersecreteyedevouredtheVirginian’sappearance,andhismannerofstandingandsitting。Hewouldbewearinggloves,insteadoffringedgauntletsofbuckskin。Inasmoothblackcoatandwaistcoat,howcouldtheyperceivethemanhewas?Duringthoseshortformalinterviews,whatwouldtheyeverfindoutofthethingsthatsheknewabouthim?Thethingsforwhichshewasproudofhim?Hewouldspeakshortlyandsimply;theywouldsay,“Oh,yes!“and“HowdifferentyoumustfindthisfromWyoming!“——andthen,afterthedoorwasshutbehindhisdepartingbacktheywouldsay——Hewouldbetotallyunderrated,notintheleastunderstood。Whyshouldhebesubjectedtothis?Heshouldneverbe!
Nowinallthesehalf-formed,hurried,distressingthoughtswhichstreamedthroughthegirl’smind,shealtogetherforgotonetruth。Trueitwasthatthevoiceoftheworldwouldspeakassheimagined。TrueitwasthatintheeyesofherfamilyandacquaintancethisloverofherchoicewouldbeexaminedevenmorelikeaSPECIMENthanareotherloversupontheseoccasions:andallacceptedlovershavetofacethisordealofbeingtreatedlikespecimensbytheotherfamily。Butdearme!mostofusmanagetostandit,dontwe?Itisn’t,perhaps,themostdeliciousexperiencethatwecanrecallinconnectionwithourengagement。Butitdidn’tprovefatal。Wegotthroughitsomehow。
WedinedwithAuntJane,andwinedwithUncleJoseph,andperhapshadtwofingersgiventousbyoldCousinHoratio,whoseenormousfortunewasofthegreatestimportancetoeverybody。Andperhapsfragmentsoftheotherfamily’sestimateofussubsequentlyreachedourownears。Butifachosenlovercannotstandbeingtreatedasaspecimenbytheotherfamily,he’saveryweakvessel,andnotworthanygoodgirl’slove。That’sallIcansayforhim。
NowtheVirginianwasscarcelywhatevenhisenemywouldtermaweakvessel;andMolly’sjealousyoftheimpressionwhichhemightmakeuponBenningtonwasvastlysuperfluous。Sheshouldhaveknownthathewouldindeedcaretomakeagoodimpression;
butthatsuchanxietyonhispartwouldbewhollyforhersake,thatintheeyesofherfriendsshemightstandjustifiedintakinghimforherweddedhusband。Sofarashewasconcernedapartfromher,AuntJaneandUncleJosephmightsayanythingtheypleased,orthinkanythingtheypleased。Hischaracterwasopenforinvestigation。JudgeHenrywouldvouchforhim。
Thisiswhathewouldhavesaidtohissweethearthadshebutrevealedtohimherperturbations。Butshedidnotrevealthem;
andtheywerenotoftheorderthathewithhisnaturewaslikelytodivine。Idonotknowwhatgoodwouldhavecomefromherspeakingouttohim,unlessthatperfectunderstandingbetweenloverswhichindeedisagoodthing。ButIdonotbelievethathecouldhavereassuredher;andIamcertainthatshecouldnothavepreventedhiswritingtohermother。
“Well,then,“shesighedatlast,“ifyouthinkso,Iwilltellher。“
Thatsighofhers,beitwellunderstood,wasnotonlybecauseofthosefar-offvoiceswhichtheworldwouldinconsequenceofhernewsbeliftingpresently。Itcamealsofrombiddingfarewelltothefairy-talewhichshemustleavenow;thatlandinwhichsheandhehadbeenlivingclosetogetheralone,unhindered,unmindfulofallthings。
“Yes,youwilltellher,“saidherlover。“AndImusttellhertoo。“
“Bothofus?“questionedthegirl。
Whatwouldhesaytohermother?Howwouldhermotherlikesuchaletterashewouldwritetoher?Supposeheshouldmisspellaword?Wouldnotsentencesfromhimatthistime——writtensentences——beafurtherbartohiswelcomeacceptanceatBennington?
“Whydon’tyousendmessagesbyme?“sheaskedhim。
Heshookhishead。“Sheisnotgoingtolikeit,anyway,“heanswered。“Imustspeaktoherdirect。Itwouldbelikeshirking。“
Mollysawhowtruehisinstinctwashere;andalittleflameshotupwardfromtheglowofherloveandprideinhim。Oh,iftheycouldallonlyknowthathewaslikethiswhenyouunderstoodhim!Shedidnotdaresayouttohimwhatherfearwasaboutthisletterofhistohermother。Shedidnotdarebecause——well,becauseshelackedalittlefaith。Thatisit,Iamafraid。Andforthatsinshewasherownpunishment。Forinthisday,andinmanydaystocome,thepurejoyofherlovewasvexedandclouded,allthroughalittlelackoffaith;whileforhim,perfectinhisfaith,hisjoywaslikecrystal。
“Tellmewhatyou’regoingtowrite,“shesaid。
Hesmiledather。“No。“
“Aren’tyougoingtoletmeseeitwhenit’sdone?“
“No。“Thenafreakishlookcameintohiseyes。“I’llletyu’seeanythingIwritetootherwomen。“Andhegaveheroneofhislongkisses。“Let’sgetthroughwithittogether,“hesuggested,whentheywereoncemoreinhissick-room,thatroomwhichshehadgiventohim。“You’llsitonesideo’thetable,andI’llsittheother,andwe’llgoahaid;andprettysoonitwillbedone。“
“Odear!“shesaid。“Yes,Isupposethatisthebestway。“
Andso,accordingly,theytooktheirplaces。Theinkstandstoodbetweenthem。Besideeachofthemshedistributedpaperenough,almost,forapresidentialmessage。Andpensandpencilswereinplenty。WasthisnottheheadquartersoftheBearCreekschoolmarm?
“Why,aren’tyougoingtodoitinpencilfirst?“sheexclaimed,lookingupfromhervacantsheet。Hispenwasmovingslowly,butsteadily。
“No,Idon’treckonIneedto,“heanswered,withhisnoseclosetothepaper。“Oh,damnation,there’sablot!“Hetorehisspoiledbeginninginsmallbits,andthrewthemintothefireplace。“You’vegotittoofull,“hecommented;andtakingtheinkstand,hetippedalittlefromitoutofthewindow。Shesatlostamongherfalsestarts。Hadsheheardhimswear,shewouldnothaveminded。Sheratherlikeditwhenheswore。Hepossessedthatqualityinhisprofanityofnotoffendingbyit。Itisquitewonderfulhowmuchworsethesamewordwillsoundinoneman’slipsthaninanother’s。Butshedidnothearhim。Hermindwasamongalitterofbrokensentences。Eachthoughtwhichshebeganranoutintotheemptyair,orcameagainstsomestonewall。Sothereshesat,hereyesnowuponthatinexorableblanksheetthatlaybeforeher,waiting,andnowturnedwithvacanthopelessnessuponthesundryobjectsintheroom。Andwhileshethussataccomplishingnothing,oppositetohertheblackheadbentdown,andthesteadypenmovedfromphrasetophrase。
Shebecameawareofhisgazingather,flushedandsolemn。Thatstrangecolorofthesea-water,whichshecouldnevername,waslustrousinhiseyes。Hewasfoldinghisletter。“Youhavefinished?“shesaid。
“Yes。“Hisvoicewasveryquiet。“Ifeellikeanhonesterman。“
“PerhapsIcandosomethingto-nightatMrs。Taylor’s,“shesaid,lookingatherpaper。
Onitwereafewwordscrossedout。Thiswasallshehadtoshow。
Atthissettaskinletter-writing,thecow-puncherhadgreatlyexcelledtheschoolmarm!
Butthatnight,whilehelayquitefastasleepinhisbed,shewaskeepingvigilinherroomatMrs。Taylor’s。
Accordingly,thenextday,thosethreelettersdepartedforthemail,andMrs。Taylorconsequentlymadeherexclamation,“It’scome!“
OnthedaybeforetheVirginianreturnedtotakeuphisworkatJudgeHenry’sranch,heandMollyannouncedtheirnews。WhatMollysaidtoMrs。TaylorandwhatMrs。Taylorsaidtoher,isofnointeresttous,thoughitwasofmuchtothem。
ButMr。McLeanhappenedtomakeacallquiteearlyinthemorningtoinquireforhisfriend’shealth。
“Lin,“begantheVirginian,“thereisnoharminyourknowinganhourorsobeforetherest,Iam——“
“Lord!“saidMr。McLean,indulgently。Everybodyhasknowedthatsincethedayshefoundyu’atthespring。“
“Itwasnotso,then,“saidtheVirginian,crossly。
“Lord!Everybodyhasknoweditrightalong。“
“Hmp!“saidtheVirginian。“Ididn’tknowthiscountrywasthatrankwithgossips。“
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