Igrieveddayandnightforhim，andthemoreforthat
　　theytoldmehewasthecaptainofthegang，andthathehad
　　committedsomanyrobberies，thatHind，orWhitney，orthe
　　GoldenFarmerwerefoolstohim；thathewouldsurelybe
　　hangediftherewerenomoremenleftinthecountryhewas
　　bornin；andthattherewouldabundanceofpeoplecomein
　　againsthim。
　　Iwasoverwhelmedwithgriefforhim；myowncasegaveme
　　nodisturbancecomparedtothis，andIloadedmyselfwith
　　reproachesonhisaccount。
　　Ibewailedhismisfortunes，and
　　theruinhewasnowcometo，atsucharate，thatIrelished
　　nothingnowasIdidbefore，andthefirstreflectionsImade
　　uponthehorrid，detestablelifeIhadlivedbegantoreturnupon
　　me，andasthesethingsreturned，myabhorrenceoftheplace
　　Iwasin，andofthewayoflivinginit，returnedalso；inaword，
　　Iwasperfectlychanged，andbecomeanotherbody。
　　WhileIwasundertheseinfluencesofsorrowforhim，came
　　noticetomethatthenextsessionsapproachingtherewould
　　beabillpreferredtothegrandjuryagainstme，andthatI
　　shouldbecertainlytriedformylifeattheOldBailey。
　　My
　　temperwastouchedbefore，thehardened，wretchedboldness
　　ofspiritwhichIhadacquiredabated，andconsciousinthe
　　prison，guiltbegantoflowinuponmymind。
　　Inshort，Ibegan
　　tothink，andtothinkisonerealadvancefromhelltoheaven。
　　Allthathellish，hardenedstateandtemperofsoul，whichI
　　havesaidsomuchofbefore，isbutadeprivationofthought；
　　hethatisrestoredtohispowerofthinking，isrestoredtohimself。
　　AssoonasIbegan，Isay，tothink，thefirstthinkthatoccurred
　　tomebrokeoutthus:
　　’Lord！whatwillbecomeofme？
　　Ishall
　　certainlydie！
　　Ishallbecast，tobesure，andthereisnothing
　　beyondthatbutdeath！
　　Ihavenofriends；whatshallIdo？
　　I
　　shallbecertainlycast！
　　Lord，havemercyuponme！
　　What
　　willbecomeofme？’
　　Thiswasasadthought，youwillsay，to
　　bethefirst，aftersolongatime，thathadstartedintomysoul
　　ofthatkind，andyeteventhiswasnothingbutfrightatwhat
　　wastocome；therewasnotawordofsincererepentanceinit
　　all。
　　However，Iwasindeeddreadfullydejected，anddisconsolate
　　tothelastdegree；andasIhadnofriendintheworldto
　　communicatemydistressedthoughtsto，itlaysoheavyupon
　　me，thatitthrewmeintofitsandswooningsseveraltimesa
　　day。
　　Isentformyoldgoverness，andshe，giveherherdue，
　　actedthepartofatruefriend。
　　Sheleftnostoneunturnedto
　　preventthegrandjuryfindingthebill。
　　Shesoughtoutoneor
　　twoofthejurymen，talkedwiththem，andendeavouredto
　　possessthemwithfavourabledispositions，onaccountthat
　　nothingwastakenaway，andnohousebroken，etc。；butall
　　wouldnotdo，theywereover-ruledbytherest；thetwowenches
　　sworehometothefact，andthejuryfoundthebillagainstme
　　forrobberyandhouse-breaking，thatis，forfelonyandburglary。
　　Isunkdownwhentheybroughtmenewsofit，andafterIcame
　　tomyselfagain，IthoughtIshouldhavediedwiththeweight
　　ofit。
　　Mygovernessactedatruemothertome；shepitiedme，
　　shecriedwithme，andforme，butshecouldnothelpme；
　　andtoaddtotheterrorofit，’twasthediscoursealloverthe
　　housethatIshoulddieforit。
　　Icouldhearthemtalkitamong
　　themselvesveryoften，andseethemshaketheirheadsandsay
　　theyweresorryforit，andthelike，asisusualintheplace。
　　Butstillnobodycametotellmetheirthoughts，tillatlastone
　　ofthekeeperscametomeprivately，andsaidwithasigh，
　　’Well，Mrs。Flanders，youwillbetriedonFriday’thiswas
　　butaWednesday；’whatdoyouintendtodo？’
　　Iturnedas
　　whiteasaclout，andsaid，’GodknowswhatIshalldo；formy
　　part，Iknownotwhattodo。’
　　’Why，’sayshe，’Iwon’tflatter
　　you，Iwouldhaveyoupreparefordeath，forIdoubtyouwill
　　becast；andastheysayyouareanoldoffender，Idoubtyou
　　willfindbutlittlemercy。
　　Theysay，’addedhe，’yourcaseis
　　veryplain，andthatthewitnessesswearsohomeagainstyou，
　　therewillbenostandingit。’
　　Thiswasastabintotheveryvitalsofoneundersuchaburthen
　　asIwasoppressedwithbefore，andIcouldnotspeaktohima
　　word，goodorbad，foragreatwhile；butatlastIburstoutinto
　　tears，andsaidtohim，’Lord！Mr——，whatmustIdo？’
　　’Do！’
　　sayshe，’sendfortheordinary；sendforaministerandtalk
　　withhim；for，indeed，Mrs。Flanders，unlessyouhavevery
　　goodfriends，youarenowomanforthisworld。’
　　Thiswasplaindealingindeed，butitwasveryharshtome，
　　atleastIthoughtitso。
　　Heleftmeinthegreatestconfusion
　　imaginable，andallthatnightIlayawake。
　　AndnowIbegan
　　tosaymyprayers，whichIhadscarcedonebeforesincemy
　　lasthusband’sdeath，orfromalittlewhileafter。
　　AndtrulyI
　　maywellcallitsayingmyprayers，forIwasinsuchaconfusion，
　　andhadsuchhorroruponmymind，thatthoughIcried，and
　　repeatedseveraltimestheordinaryexpressionof’Lord，have
　　mercyuponme！’Ineverbroughtmyselftoanysenseofmy
　　beingamiserablesinner，asindeedIwas，andofconfessing
　　mysinstoGod，andbeggingpardonforthesakeofJesus
　　Christ。
　　Iwasoverwhelmedwiththesenseofmycondition，
　　beingtriedformylife，andbeingsuretobecondemned，and
　　thenIwasassuretobeexecuted，andonthisaccountIcried
　　outallnight，’Lord，whatwillbecomeofme？
　　Lord！what
　　shallIdo？
　　Lord！Ishallbehanged！
　　Lord，havemercyupon
　　me！’andthelike。
　　EndofPart7
　　Part8
　　Mypoorafflictedgovernesswasnowasmuchconcernedas
　　I，andagreatdealmoretrulypenitent，thoughshehadno
　　prospectofbeingbroughttotrialandsentence。
　　Notbutthat
　　shedeserveditasmuchasI，andsoshesaidherself；butshe
　　hadnotdoneanythingherselfformanyyears，otherthan
　　receivingwhatIandothersstole，andencouragingustosteal
　　it。
　　Butshecried，andtookonlikeadistractedbody，wringing
　　herhands，andcryingoutthatshewasundone，thatshe
　　believedtherewasacursefromheavenuponher，thatshe
　　shouldbedamned，thatshehadbeenthedestructionofallher
　　friends，thatshehadbroughtsuchaone，andsuchaone，and
　　suchaonetothegallows；andthereshereckoneduptenor
　　elevenpeople，someofwhichIhavegivenaccountof，that
　　cametountimelyends；andthatnowshewastheoccasion
　　ofmyruin，forshehadpersuadedmetogoon，whenIwould
　　haveleftoff。
　　Iinterruptedherthere。
　　’No，mother，no，’saidI，
　　’don’tspeakofthat，foryouwouldhavehadmeleftoffwhen
　　Igotthemercer’smoneyagain，andwhenIcamehomefrom
　　Harwich，andIwouldnothearkentoyou；thereforeyouhave
　　notbeentoblame；itisIonlyhaveruinedmyself，Ihave
　　broughtmyselftothismisery’；andthuswespentmanyhours
　　together。
　　Well，therewasnoremedy；theprosecutionwenton，andon
　　theThursdayIwascarrieddowntothesessions-house，where
　　Iwasarraigned，astheycalledit，andthenextdayIwas
　　appointedtobetried。
　　AtthearraignmentIpleaded’Notguilty，’
　　andwellImight，forIwasindictedforfelonyandburglary；
　　thatis，forfeloniouslystealingtwopiecesofbrocadedsilk，
　　value#46，thegoodsofAnthonyJohnson，andforbreaking
　　openhisdoors；whereasIknewverywelltheycouldnot
　　pretendtoproveIhadbrokenupthedoors，orsomuchas
　　liftedupalatch。
　　OntheFridayIwasbroughttomytrial。
　　Ihadexhaustedmy
　　spiritswithcryingfortwoorthreedaysbefore，sothatIslept
　　bettertheThursdaynightthanIexpected，andhadmorecourage
　　formytrialthanindeedIthoughtpossibleformetohave。
　　Whenthetrialbegan，theindictmentwasread，Iwouldhave
　　spoke，buttheytoldmethewitnessesmustbeheardfirst，and
　　thenIshouldhavetimetobeheard。
　　Thewitnesseswerethe
　　twowenches，acoupleofhard-mouthedjadesindeed，for
　　thoughthethingwastruthinthemain，yettheyaggravatedit
　　totheutmostextremity，andsworeIhadthegoodswhollyin
　　mypossession，thatIhadhidthemamongmyclothes，thatI
　　wasgoingoffwiththem，thatIhadonefootoverthethreshold
　　whentheydiscoveredthemselves，andthenIputt’otherover，
　　sothatIwasquiteoutofthehouseinthestreetwiththegoods
　　beforetheytookholdofme，andthentheyseizedme，and
　　broughtmebackagain，andtheytookthegoodsuponme。
　　The
　　factingeneralwasalltrue，butIbelieve，andinsisteduponit，
　　thattheystoppedmebeforeIhadsetmyfootclearofthe
　　thresholdofthehouse。
　　Butthatdidnotarguemuch，forcertain
　　itwasthatIhadtakenthegoods，andIwasbringingthemaway，
　　ifIhadnotbeentaken。
　　ButIpleadedthatIhadstolenothing，theyhadlostnothing，
　　thatthedoorwasopen，andIwentin，seeingthegoodslie
　　there，andwithdesigntobuy。