Hewassopleasedwithit,thathewouldcallhislady
andhistwodaughterstohearit,anditmademirthenough
amongthem,youmaybesure。
However,notaweekhadpassedover,butonasuddencomes
Mrs。Mayoressandhertwodaughterstothehousetoseemy
oldnurse,andtoseeherschoolandthechildren。
Whenthey
hadlookedaboutthemalittle,’Well,Mrs——,’saysthe
Mayoresstomynurse,’andpraywhichisthelittlelassthat
intendstobeagentlewoman?’
Iheardher,andIwasterribly
frightedatfirst,thoughIdidnotknowwhyneither;butMrs。
Mayoresscomesuptome。
’Well,miss,’saysshe,’andwhat
areyouatworkupon?’
Thewordmisswasalanguagethat
hadhardlybeenheardofinourschool,andIwonderedwhat
sadnameitwasshecalledme。
However,Istoodup,madea
curtsy,andshetookmyworkoutofmyhand,lookedonit,
andsaiditwasverywell;thenshetookuponeofthehands。
’Nay,’saysshe,’thechildmaycometobeagentlewomanfor
aughtanybodyknows;shehasagentlewoman’shand,’saysshe。
Thispleasedmemightily,youmaybesure;butMrs。Mayoress
didnotstopthere,butgivingmemyworkagain,sheputher
handinherpocket,gavemeashilling,andbidmemindmy
work,andlearntoworkwell,andImightbeagentlewoman
foraughtsheknew。
Nowallthiswhilemygoodoldnurse,Mrs。Mayoress,andall
therestofthemdidnotunderstandmeatall,fortheymeant
onesortofthingbythewordgentlewoman,andImeantquite
another;foralas!allIunderstoodbybeingagentlewomanwas
tobeabletoworkformyself,andgetenoughtokeepme
withoutthatterriblebugbeargoingtoservice,whereasthey
meanttolivegreat,richandhigh,andIknownotwhat。
Well,afterMrs。Mayoresswasgone,hertwodaughterscame
in,andtheycalledforthegentlewomantoo,andtheytalked
alongwhiletome,andIansweredtheminmyinnocentway;
butalways,iftheyaskedmewhetherIresolvedtobea
gentlewoman,IansweredYes。
Atlastoneofthemaskedme
whatagentlewomanwas?
Thatpuzzledmemuch;but,
however,Iexplainedmyselfnegatively,thatitwasonethat
didnotgotoservice,todohousework。
Theywerepleased
tobefamiliarwithme,andlikemylittleprattletothem,which,
itseems,wasagreeableenoughtothem,andtheygaveme
moneytoo。
Asformymoney,Igaveitalltomymistress-nurse,asIcalled
her,andtoldhersheshouldhaveallIgotformyselfwhenI
wasagentlewoman,aswellasnow。
Bythisandsomeother
ofmytalk,myoldtutoressbegantounderstandmeaboutwhat
Imeantbybeingagentlewoman,andthatIunderstoodbyit
nomorethantobeabletogetmybreadbymyownwork;and
atlastsheaskedmewhetheritwasnotso。
Itoldher,yes,andinsistedonit,thattodosowastobea
gentlewoman;’for,’saysI,’thereissuchaone,’naminga
womanthatmendedlaceandwashedtheladies’laced-heads;
’she,’saysI,’isagentlewoman,andtheycallhermadam。’
“Poorchild,’saysmygoodoldnurse,’youmaysoonbesuch
agentlewomanasthat,forsheisapersonofillfame,andhas
hadtwoorthreebastards。’
Ididnotunderstandanythingofthat;butIanswered,’Iam
suretheycallhermadam,andshedoesnotgotoservicenor
dohousework’;andthereforeIinsistedthatshewasa
gentlewoman,andIwouldbesuchagentlewomanasthat。
Theladiesweretoldallthisagain,tobesure,andtheymade
themselvesmerrywithit,andeverynowandthentheyoung
ladies,Mr。Mayor’sdaughters,wouldcomeandseeme,and
askwherethelittlegentlewomanwas,whichmademenota
littleproudofmyself。
Thisheldagreatwhile,andIwasoftenvisitedbytheseyoung
ladies,andsometimestheybroughtotherswiththem;sothatI
wasknownbyitalmostalloverthetown。
Iwasnowabouttenyearsold,andbegantolookalittle
womanish,forIwasmightygraveandhumble,verymannerly,
andasIhadoftenheardtheladiessayIwaspretty,andwould
beaveryhandsomewoman,soyoumaybesurethathearing
themsaysomademenotalittleproud。
However,thatpride
hadnoilleffectuponmeyet;only,astheyoftengaveme
money,andIgaveittomyoldnurse,she,honestwoman,
wassojusttomeastolayitalloutagainforme,andgave
mehead-dresses,andlinen,andgloves,andribbons,andI
wentveryneat,andalwaysclean;forthatIwoulddo,andif
Ihadragson,Iwouldalwaysbeclean,orelseIwoulddabble
theminwatermyself;but,Isay,mygoodnurse,whenIhad
moneygivenme,veryhonestlylaiditoutforme,andwould
alwaystelltheladiesthisorthatwasboughtwiththeirmoney;
andthismadethemoftentimesgivememore,tillatlastIwas
indeedcalleduponbythemagistrates,asIunderstoodit,to
goouttoservice;butthenIwascometobesogooda
workwomanmyself,andtheladiesweresokindtome,thatit
wasplainIcouldmaintainmyself——thatistosay,Icouldearn
asmuchformynurseasshewasablebyittokeepme——soshe
toldthemthatiftheywouldgiveherleave,shewouldkeep
thegentlewoman,asshecalledme,tobeherassistantand
teachthechildren,whichIwasverywellabletodo;forIwas
verynimbleatmywork,andhadagoodhandwithmyneedle,
thoughIwasyetveryyoung。
Butthekindnessoftheladiesofthetowndidnotendhere,
forwhentheycametounderstandthatIwasnomoremaintained
bythepublicallowanceasbefore,theygavememoneyoftener
thanformerly;andasIgrewuptheybroughtmeworktodo
forthem,suchaslinentomake,andlacestomend,andheads
todressup,andnotonlypaidmefordoingthem,buteven
taughtmehowtodothem;sothatnowIwasagentlewoman
indeed,asIunderstoodthatword,Inotonlyfoundmyself
clothesandpaidmynurseformykeeping,butgotmoneyin
mypockettoobeforehand。
Theladiesalsogavemeclothesfrequentlyoftheirownor
theirchildren’s;somestockings,somepetticoats,somegowns,
someonething,someanother,andthesemyoldwoman
managedformelikeameremother,andkeptthemforme,
obligedmetomendthem,andturnthemandtwistthemto
thebestadvantage,forshewasararehousewife。
Atlastoneoftheladiestooksomuchfancytomethatshe
wouldhavemehometoherhouse,foramonth,shesaid,to
beamongherdaughters。
Now,thoughthiswasexceedingkindinher,yet,asmyold
goodwomansaidtoher,unlesssheresolvedtokeepmefor
goodandall,shewoulddothelittlegentlewomanmoreharm
thangood。
’Well,’saysthelady,’that’strue;andthereforeI’ll
onlytakeherhomeforaweek,then,thatImayseehowmy
daughtersandsheagreetogether,andhowIlikehertemper,
andthenI’lltellyoumore;andinthemeantime,ifanybody
comestoseeherastheyusedtodo,youmayonlytellthem
youhavesentherouttomyhouse。’
Thiswasprudentlymanagedenough,andIwenttothelady’s
house;butIwassopleasedtherewiththeyoungladies,and
theysopleasedwithme,thatIhadenoughtodotocomeaway,
andtheywereasunwillingtopartwithme。
However,Ididcomeaway,andlivedalmostayearmorewith
myhonestoldwoman,andbegannowtobeveryhelpfulto
her;forIwasalmostfourteenyearsold,wastallofmyage,
andlookedalittlewomanish;butIhadsuchatasteofgenteel
livingatthelady’shousethatIwasnotsoeasyinmyold
quartersasIusedtobe,andIthoughtitwasfinetobea
gentlewomanindeed,forIhadquiteothernotionsofa
gentlewomannowthanIhadbefore;andasIthought,Isay,
thatitwasfinetobeagentlewoman,soIlovedtobeamong
gentlewomen,andthereforeIlongedtobethereagain。
AboutthetimethatIwasfourteenyearsandaquarterold,
mygoodnurse,motherIrathertocallher,fellsickanddied。
Iwastheninasadconditionindeed,forasthereisnogreat
bustleinputtinganendtoapoorbody’sfamilywhenonce
theyarecarriedtothegrave,sothepoorgoodwomanbeing
buried,theparishchildrenshekeptwereimmediatelyremoved
bythechurch-wardens;theschoolwasatanend,andthe
childrenofithadnomoretodobutjuststayathometillthey
weresentsomewhereelse;andasforwhatsheleft,herdaughter,
amarriedwomanwithsixorsevenchildren,cameandswept
itallawayatonce,andremovingthegoods,theyhadnomore
tosaytomethantojestwithme,andtellmethatthelittle
gentlewomanmightsetupforherselfifshepleased。
Iwasfrightedoutofmywitsalmost,andknewnotwhattodo,
forIwas,asitwere,turnedoutofdoorstothewideworld,and
thatwhichwasstillworse,theoldhonestwomanhadtwo-and-
twentyshillingsofmineinherhand,whichwasalltheestatethe
littlegentlewomanhadintheworld;andwhenIaskedthe
daughterforit,shehuffedmeandlaughedatme,andtoldme
shehadnothingtodowithit。
Itwastruethegood,poorwomanhadtoldherdaughterofit,
andthatitlayinsuchaplace,thatitwasthechild’smoney,
hadcalledonceortwiceformetogiveitme,butIwas,
unhappily,outofthewaysomewhereorother,andwhenI
camebackshewaspastbeinginaconditiontospeakofit。
However,thedaughterwassohonestafterwardsastogiveit
me,thoughatfirstsheusedmecruellyaboutit。
NowwasIapoorgentlewomanindeed,andIwasjustthat
verynighttobeturnedintothewideworld;forthedaughter
removedallthegoods,andIhadnotsomuchasalodgingto
goto,orabitofbreadtoeat。
Butitseemssomeoftheneighbours,
whohadknownmycircumstances,tooksomuchcompassion
ofmeastoacquainttheladyinwhosefamilyIhadbeenaweek,
asImentionedabove;andimmediatelyshesenthermaidto
fetchmeaway,andtwoofherdaughterscamewiththemaid
thoughunsent。
SoIwentwiththem,bagandbaggage,and
withagladheart,youmaybesure。
Thefrightofmycondition
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