Mytruenameissowellknownintherecordsorregisters
atNewgate,andintheOldBailey,andtherearesomethings
ofsuchconsequencestilldependingthere,relatingtomy
particularconduct,thatitisnotbeexpectedIshouldsetmy
nameortheaccountofmyfamilytothiswork;perhaps,after
mydeath,itmaybebetterknown;atpresentitwouldnotbe
proper,nonotthoughageneralpardonshouldbeissued,even
withoutexceptionsandreserveofpersonsorcrimes。
Itisenoughtotellyou,thatassomeofmyworstcomrades,
whoareoutofthewayofdoingmeharmhavinggoneoutof
theworldbythestepsandthestring,asIoftenexpectedtogo,
knewmebythenameofMollFlanders,soyoumaygiveme
leavetospeakofmyselfunderthatnametillIdareownwho
Ihavebeen,aswellaswhoIam。
Ihavebeentoldthatinoneofneighbournations,whetherit
beinFranceorwhereelseIknownot,theyhaveanorderfrom
theking,thatwhenanycriminaliscondemned,eithertodie,
ortothegalleys,ortobetransported,iftheyleaveanychildren,
assucharegenerallyunprovidedfor,bythepovertyorforfeiture
oftheirparents,sotheyareimmediatelytakenintothecareof
theGovernment,andputintoahospitalcalledtheHouseof
Orphans,wheretheyarebredup,clothed,fed,taught,and
whenfittogoout,areplacedouttotradesortoservices,so
astobewellabletoprovideforthemselvesbyanhonest,
industriousbehaviour。
Hadthisbeenthecustominourcountry,Ihadnotbeenleft
apoordesolategirlwithoutfriends,withoutclothes,without
helporhelperintheworld,aswasmyfate;andbywhichI
wasnotonlyexposedtoverygreatdistresses,evenbeforeI
wascapableeitherofunderstandingmycaseorhowtoamend
it,butbroughtintoacourseoflifewhichwasnotonlyscandalous
initself,butwhichinitsordinarycoursetendedtotheswift
destructionbothofsoulandbody。
Butthecasewasotherwisehere。
Mymotherwasconvicted
offelonyforacertainpettytheftscarceworthnaming,viz。
havinganopportunityofborrowingthreepiecesoffineholland
ofacertaindraperinCheapside。
Thecircumstancesaretoo
longtorepeat,andIhaveheardthemrelatedsomanyways,
thatIcanscarcebecertainwhichistherightaccount。
Howeveritwas,thistheyallagreein,thatmymotherpleaded
herbelly,andbeingfoundquickwithchild,shewasrespited
foraboutsevenmonths;inwhichtimehavingbroughtmeinto
theworld,andbeingaboutagain,shewascalleddown,asthey
termit,toherformerjudgment,butobtainedthefavourof
beingtransportedtotheplantations,andleftmeabouthalfa
yearold;andinbadhands,youmaybesure。
Thisistoonearthefirsthoursofmylifeformetorelate
anythingofmyselfbutbyhearsay;itisenoughtomention,
thatasIwasborninsuchanunhappyplace,Ihadnoparish
tohaverecoursetoformynourishmentinmyinfancy;nor
canIgivetheleastaccounthowIwaskeptalive,otherthan
that,asIhavebeentold,somerelationofmymother’stook
meawayforawhileasanurse,butatwhoseexpense,orby
whosedirection,Iknownothingatallofit。
ThefirstaccountthatIcanrecollect,orcouldeverlearnof
myself,wasthatIhadwanderedamongacrewofthosepeople
theycallgypsies,orEgyptians;butIbelieveitwasbutavery
littlewhilethatIhadbeenamongthem,forIhadnothadmy
skindiscolouredorblackened,astheydoveryyoungtoallthe
childrentheycarryaboutwiththem;norcanItellhowIcame
amongthem,orhowIgotfromthem。
ItwasatColchester,inEssex,thatthosepeopleleftme;and
IhaveanotioninmyheadthatIleftthemtherethatis,that
Ihidmyselfandwouldnotgoanyfartherwiththem,butIam
notabletobeparticularinthataccount;onlythisIremember,
thatbeingtakenupbysomeoftheparishofficersofColchester,
IgaveanaccountthatIcameintothetownwiththegypsies,
butthatIwouldnotgoanyfartherwiththem,andthatsothey
hadleftme,butwhithertheyweregonethatIknewnot,nor
couldtheyexpectitofme;forthoughtheysendroundthe
countrytoinquireafterthem,itseemstheycouldnotbefound。
Iwasnowinawaytobeprovidedfor;forthoughIwasnota
parishchargeuponthisorthatpartofthetownbylaw,yetas
mycasecametobeknown,andthatIwastooyoungtodoany
work,beingnotabovethreeyearsold,compassionmovedthe
magistratesofthetowntoordersomecaretobetakenofme,
andIbecameoneoftheirownasmuchasifIhadbeenborn
intheplace。
Intheprovisiontheymadeforme,itwasmygoodhaptobe
puttonurse,astheycallit,toawomanwhowasindeedpoor
buthadbeeninbettercircumstances,andwhogotalittle
livelihoodbytakingsuchasIwassupposedtobe,andkeeping
themwithallnecessaries,tilltheywereatacertainage,in
whichitmightbesupposedtheymightgotoserviceorget
theirownbread。
Thiswomanhadalsohadalittleschool,whichshekeptto
teachchildrentoreadandtowork;andhaving,asIhavesaid,
livedbeforethatingoodfashion,shebredupthechildrenshe
tookwithagreatdealofart,aswellaswithagreatdealofcare。
Butthatwhichwasworthalltherest,shebredthemupvery
religiously,beingherselfaverysober,piouswoman,veryhouse-
wifelyandclean,andverymannerly,andwithgoodbehaviour。
Sothatinaword,expectingaplaindiet,coarselodging,and
meanclothes,wewerebroughtupasmannerlyandasgenteelly
asifwehadbeenatthedancing-school。
IwascontinuedheretillIwaseightyearsold,whenIwas
terrifiedwithnewsthatthemagistratesasIthinktheycalled
themhadorderedthatIshouldgotoservice。
Iwasableto
dobutverylittleservicewhereverIwastogo,exceptitwas
torunoferrandsandbeadrudgetosomecookmaid,andthis
theytoldmeofoften,whichputmeintoagreatfright;forI
hadathoroughaversiontogoingtoservice,astheycalledit
thatis,tobeaservant,thoughIwassoyoung;andItoldmy
nurse,aswecalledher,thatIbelievedIcouldgetmyliving
withoutgoingtoservice,ifshepleasedtoletme;forshehad
taughtmetoworkwithmyneedle,andspinworsted,which
isthechieftradeofthatcity,andItoldherthatifshewould
keepme,Iwouldworkforher,andIwouldworkveryhard。
Italkedtoheralmosteverydayofworkinghard;and,inshort,
Ididnothingbutworkandcryallday,whichgrievedthegood,
kindwomansomuch,thatatlastshebegantobeconcerned
forme,forshelovedmeverywell。
Onedayafterthis,asshecameintotheroomwhereallwe
poorchildrenwereatwork,shesatdownjustoveragainstme,
notinherusualplaceasmistress,butasifshesetherselfon
purposetoobservemeandseemework。
Iwasdoingsomething
shehadsetmeto;asIremember,itwasmarkingsomeshirts
whichshehadtakentomake,andafterawhileshebeganto
talktome。
’Thoufoolishchild,’saysshe,’thouartalways
cryingforIwascryingthen;’prithee,whatdostcryfor?’
’Becausetheywilltakemeaway,’saysI,’andputmetoservice,
andIcan’tworkhousework。’
’Well,child,’saysshe,’but
thoughyoucan’tworkhousework,asyoucallit,youwilllearn
itintime,andtheywon’tputyoutohardthingsatfirst。’
’Yes,
theywill,’saysI,’andifIcan’tdoittheywillbeatme,andthe
maidswillbeatmetomakemedogreatwork,andIambuta
littlegirlandIcan’tdoit’;andthenIcriedagain,tillIcould
notspeakanymoretoher。
Thismovedmygoodmotherlynurse,sothatshefromthat
timeresolvedIshouldnotgotoserviceyet;soshebidmenot
cry,andshewouldspeaktoMr。Mayor,andIshouldnotgoto
servicetillIwasbigger。
Well,thisdidnotsatisfyme,fortothinkofgoingtoservice
wassuchafrightfulthingtome,thatifshehadassuredmeI
shouldnothavegonetillIwastwentyyearsold,itwouldhave
beenthesametome;Ishouldhavecried,Ibelieve,allthe
time,withtheveryapprehensionofitsbeingtobesoatlast。
WhenshesawthatIwasnotpacifiedyet,shebegantobe
angrywithme。
’Andwhatwouldyouhave?’saysshe;’don’t
Itellyouthatyoushallnotgotoservicetillyourarebigger?’
’Ay,’saidI,’butthenImustgoatlast。’
’Why,what?’saidshe;
’isthegirlmad?
Whatwouldyoube——agentlewoman?’
’Yes,’saysI,andcriedheartilytillIroardoutagain。
Thissettheoldgentlewomana-laughingatme,asyoumaybe
sureitwould。
’Well,madam,forsooth,’saysshe,gibingatme,
’youwouldbeagentlewoman;andprayhowwillyoucometo
beagentlewoman?
What!willyoudoitbyyourfingers’end?’
’Yes,’saysIagain,veryinnocently。
’Why,whatcanyouearn?’saysshe;’whatcanyougetatyour
work?’
’Threepence,’saidI,’whenIspin,andfourpencewhenIwork
plainwork。’
’Alas!poorgentlewoman,’saidsheagain,laughing,’whatwill
thatdoforthee?’
’Itwillkeepme,’saysI,’ifyouwillletmelivewithyou。’
And
thisIsaidinsuchapoorpetitioningtone,thatitmadethepoor
woman’sheartyearntome,asshetoldmeafterwards。
’But,’saysshe,’thatwillnotkeepyouandbuyyouclothes
too;andwhomustbuythelittlegentlewomanclothes?’says
she,andsmiledallthewhileatme。
’Iwillworkharder,then,’saysI,’andyoushallhaveitall。’
’Poorchild!itwon’tkeepyou,’saysshe;’itwillhardlykeep
youinvictuals。’
’ThenIwillhavenovictuals,’saysI,againveryinnocently;
’letmebutlivewithyou。’
’Why,canyoulivewithoutvictuals?’saysshe。
’Yes,’againsaysI,verymuchlikeachild,youmaybesure,
andstillIcriedheartily。
Ihadnopolicyinallthis;youmayeasilyseeitwasallnature;
butitwasjoinedwithsomuchinnocenceandsomuchpassion
that,inshort,itsetthegoodmotherlycreaturea-weepingtoo,
andshecriedatlastasfastasIdid,andthentookmeandled
meoutoftheteaching-room。
’Come,’saysshe,’youshan’t
gotoservice;youshalllivewithme’;andthispacifiedme
forthepresent。
Sometimeafterthis,shegoingtowaitontheMayor,and
talkingofsuchthingsasbelongedtoherbusiness,atlastmy
storycameup,andmygoodnursetoldMr。Mayorthewhole
tale。
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