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第2章

  Mytruenameissowellknownintherecordsorregisters
  atNewgate,andintheOldBailey,andtherearesomethings
  ofsuchconsequencestilldependingthere,relatingtomy
  particularconduct,thatitisnotbeexpectedIshouldsetmy
  nameortheaccountofmyfamilytothiswork;perhaps,after
  mydeath,itmaybebetterknown;atpresentitwouldnotbe
  proper,nonotthoughageneralpardonshouldbeissued,even
  withoutexceptionsandreserveofpersonsorcrimes。
  Itisenoughtotellyou,thatassomeofmyworstcomrades,
  whoareoutofthewayofdoingmeharmhavinggoneoutof
  theworldbythestepsandthestring,asIoftenexpectedtogo,
  knewmebythenameofMollFlanders,soyoumaygiveme
  leavetospeakofmyselfunderthatnametillIdareownwho
  Ihavebeen,aswellaswhoIam。
  Ihavebeentoldthatinoneofneighbournations,whetherit
  beinFranceorwhereelseIknownot,theyhaveanorderfrom
  theking,thatwhenanycriminaliscondemned,eithertodie,
  ortothegalleys,ortobetransported,iftheyleaveanychildren,
  assucharegenerallyunprovidedfor,bythepovertyorforfeiture
  oftheirparents,sotheyareimmediatelytakenintothecareof
  theGovernment,andputintoahospitalcalledtheHouseof
  Orphans,wheretheyarebredup,clothed,fed,taught,and
  whenfittogoout,areplacedouttotradesortoservices,so
  astobewellabletoprovideforthemselvesbyanhonest,
  industriousbehaviour。
  Hadthisbeenthecustominourcountry,Ihadnotbeenleft
  apoordesolategirlwithoutfriends,withoutclothes,without
  helporhelperintheworld,aswasmyfate;andbywhichI
  wasnotonlyexposedtoverygreatdistresses,evenbeforeI
  wascapableeitherofunderstandingmycaseorhowtoamend
  it,butbroughtintoacourseoflifewhichwasnotonlyscandalous
  initself,butwhichinitsordinarycoursetendedtotheswift
  destructionbothofsoulandbody。
  Butthecasewasotherwisehere。
  Mymotherwasconvicted
  offelonyforacertainpettytheftscarceworthnaming,viz。
  havinganopportunityofborrowingthreepiecesoffineholland
  ofacertaindraperinCheapside。
  Thecircumstancesaretoo
  longtorepeat,andIhaveheardthemrelatedsomanyways,
  thatIcanscarcebecertainwhichistherightaccount。
  Howeveritwas,thistheyallagreein,thatmymotherpleaded
  herbelly,andbeingfoundquickwithchild,shewasrespited
  foraboutsevenmonths;inwhichtimehavingbroughtmeinto
  theworld,andbeingaboutagain,shewascalleddown,asthey
  termit,toherformerjudgment,butobtainedthefavourof
  beingtransportedtotheplantations,andleftmeabouthalfa
  yearold;andinbadhands,youmaybesure。
  Thisistoonearthefirsthoursofmylifeformetorelate
  anythingofmyselfbutbyhearsay;itisenoughtomention,
  thatasIwasborninsuchanunhappyplace,Ihadnoparish
  tohaverecoursetoformynourishmentinmyinfancy;nor
  canIgivetheleastaccounthowIwaskeptalive,otherthan
  that,asIhavebeentold,somerelationofmymother’stook
  meawayforawhileasanurse,butatwhoseexpense,orby
  whosedirection,Iknownothingatallofit。
  ThefirstaccountthatIcanrecollect,orcouldeverlearnof
  myself,wasthatIhadwanderedamongacrewofthosepeople
  theycallgypsies,orEgyptians;butIbelieveitwasbutavery
  littlewhilethatIhadbeenamongthem,forIhadnothadmy
  skindiscolouredorblackened,astheydoveryyoungtoallthe
  childrentheycarryaboutwiththem;norcanItellhowIcame
  amongthem,orhowIgotfromthem。
  ItwasatColchester,inEssex,thatthosepeopleleftme;and
  IhaveanotioninmyheadthatIleftthemtherethatis,that
  Ihidmyselfandwouldnotgoanyfartherwiththem,butIam
  notabletobeparticularinthataccount;onlythisIremember,
  thatbeingtakenupbysomeoftheparishofficersofColchester,
  IgaveanaccountthatIcameintothetownwiththegypsies,
  butthatIwouldnotgoanyfartherwiththem,andthatsothey
  hadleftme,butwhithertheyweregonethatIknewnot,nor
  couldtheyexpectitofme;forthoughtheysendroundthe
  countrytoinquireafterthem,itseemstheycouldnotbefound。
  Iwasnowinawaytobeprovidedfor;forthoughIwasnota
  parishchargeuponthisorthatpartofthetownbylaw,yetas
  mycasecametobeknown,andthatIwastooyoungtodoany
  work,beingnotabovethreeyearsold,compassionmovedthe
  magistratesofthetowntoordersomecaretobetakenofme,
  andIbecameoneoftheirownasmuchasifIhadbeenborn
  intheplace。
  Intheprovisiontheymadeforme,itwasmygoodhaptobe
  puttonurse,astheycallit,toawomanwhowasindeedpoor
  buthadbeeninbettercircumstances,andwhogotalittle
  livelihoodbytakingsuchasIwassupposedtobe,andkeeping
  themwithallnecessaries,tilltheywereatacertainage,in
  whichitmightbesupposedtheymightgotoserviceorget
  theirownbread。
  Thiswomanhadalsohadalittleschool,whichshekeptto
  teachchildrentoreadandtowork;andhaving,asIhavesaid,
  livedbeforethatingoodfashion,shebredupthechildrenshe
  tookwithagreatdealofart,aswellaswithagreatdealofcare。
  Butthatwhichwasworthalltherest,shebredthemupvery
  religiously,beingherselfaverysober,piouswoman,veryhouse-
  wifelyandclean,andverymannerly,andwithgoodbehaviour。
  Sothatinaword,expectingaplaindiet,coarselodging,and
  meanclothes,wewerebroughtupasmannerlyandasgenteelly
  asifwehadbeenatthedancing-school。
  IwascontinuedheretillIwaseightyearsold,whenIwas
  terrifiedwithnewsthatthemagistratesasIthinktheycalled
  themhadorderedthatIshouldgotoservice。
  Iwasableto
  dobutverylittleservicewhereverIwastogo,exceptitwas
  torunoferrandsandbeadrudgetosomecookmaid,andthis
  theytoldmeofoften,whichputmeintoagreatfright;forI
  hadathoroughaversiontogoingtoservice,astheycalledit
  thatis,tobeaservant,thoughIwassoyoung;andItoldmy
  nurse,aswecalledher,thatIbelievedIcouldgetmyliving
  withoutgoingtoservice,ifshepleasedtoletme;forshehad
  taughtmetoworkwithmyneedle,andspinworsted,which
  isthechieftradeofthatcity,andItoldherthatifshewould
  keepme,Iwouldworkforher,andIwouldworkveryhard。
  Italkedtoheralmosteverydayofworkinghard;and,inshort,
  Ididnothingbutworkandcryallday,whichgrievedthegood,
  kindwomansomuch,thatatlastshebegantobeconcerned
  forme,forshelovedmeverywell。
  Onedayafterthis,asshecameintotheroomwhereallwe
  poorchildrenwereatwork,shesatdownjustoveragainstme,
  notinherusualplaceasmistress,butasifshesetherselfon
  purposetoobservemeandseemework。
  Iwasdoingsomething
  shehadsetmeto;asIremember,itwasmarkingsomeshirts
  whichshehadtakentomake,andafterawhileshebeganto
  talktome。
  ’Thoufoolishchild,’saysshe,’thouartalways
  cryingforIwascryingthen;’prithee,whatdostcryfor?’
  ’Becausetheywilltakemeaway,’saysI,’andputmetoservice,
  andIcan’tworkhousework。’
  ’Well,child,’saysshe,’but
  thoughyoucan’tworkhousework,asyoucallit,youwilllearn
  itintime,andtheywon’tputyoutohardthingsatfirst。’
  ’Yes,
  theywill,’saysI,’andifIcan’tdoittheywillbeatme,andthe
  maidswillbeatmetomakemedogreatwork,andIambuta
  littlegirlandIcan’tdoit’;andthenIcriedagain,tillIcould
  notspeakanymoretoher。
  Thismovedmygoodmotherlynurse,sothatshefromthat
  timeresolvedIshouldnotgotoserviceyet;soshebidmenot
  cry,andshewouldspeaktoMr。Mayor,andIshouldnotgoto
  servicetillIwasbigger。
  Well,thisdidnotsatisfyme,fortothinkofgoingtoservice
  wassuchafrightfulthingtome,thatifshehadassuredmeI
  shouldnothavegonetillIwastwentyyearsold,itwouldhave
  beenthesametome;Ishouldhavecried,Ibelieve,allthe
  time,withtheveryapprehensionofitsbeingtobesoatlast。
  WhenshesawthatIwasnotpacifiedyet,shebegantobe
  angrywithme。
  ’Andwhatwouldyouhave?’saysshe;’don’t
  Itellyouthatyoushallnotgotoservicetillyourarebigger?’
  ’Ay,’saidI,’butthenImustgoatlast。’
  ’Why,what?’saidshe;
  ’isthegirlmad?
  Whatwouldyoube——agentlewoman?’
  ’Yes,’saysI,andcriedheartilytillIroardoutagain。
  Thissettheoldgentlewomana-laughingatme,asyoumaybe
  sureitwould。
  ’Well,madam,forsooth,’saysshe,gibingatme,
  ’youwouldbeagentlewoman;andprayhowwillyoucometo
  beagentlewoman?
  What!willyoudoitbyyourfingers’end?’
  ’Yes,’saysIagain,veryinnocently。
  ’Why,whatcanyouearn?’saysshe;’whatcanyougetatyour
  work?’
  ’Threepence,’saidI,’whenIspin,andfourpencewhenIwork
  plainwork。’
  ’Alas!poorgentlewoman,’saidsheagain,laughing,’whatwill
  thatdoforthee?’
  ’Itwillkeepme,’saysI,’ifyouwillletmelivewithyou。’
  And
  thisIsaidinsuchapoorpetitioningtone,thatitmadethepoor
  woman’sheartyearntome,asshetoldmeafterwards。
  ’But,’saysshe,’thatwillnotkeepyouandbuyyouclothes
  too;andwhomustbuythelittlegentlewomanclothes?’says
  she,andsmiledallthewhileatme。
  ’Iwillworkharder,then,’saysI,’andyoushallhaveitall。’
  ’Poorchild!itwon’tkeepyou,’saysshe;’itwillhardlykeep
  youinvictuals。’
  ’ThenIwillhavenovictuals,’saysI,againveryinnocently;
  ’letmebutlivewithyou。’
  ’Why,canyoulivewithoutvictuals?’saysshe。
  ’Yes,’againsaysI,verymuchlikeachild,youmaybesure,
  andstillIcriedheartily。
  Ihadnopolicyinallthis;youmayeasilyseeitwasallnature;
  butitwasjoinedwithsomuchinnocenceandsomuchpassion
  that,inshort,itsetthegoodmotherlycreaturea-weepingtoo,
  andshecriedatlastasfastasIdid,andthentookmeandled
  meoutoftheteaching-room。
  ’Come,’saysshe,’youshan’t
  gotoservice;youshalllivewithme’;andthispacifiedme
  forthepresent。
  Sometimeafterthis,shegoingtowaitontheMayor,and
  talkingofsuchthingsasbelongedtoherbusiness,atlastmy
  storycameup,andmygoodnursetoldMr。Mayorthewhole
  tale。