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第17章

  Onemorninghepullsoffhisdiamondring,andwritesupon
  theglassofthesashinmychamberthisline——
  ’YouIlove,andyoualone。’
  Ireadit,andaskedhimtolendmehisring,withwhichIwrote
  underit,thus——
  ’Andsoinlovesayseveryone。’
  Hetakeshisringagain,andwritesanotherlinethus——
  ’Virtuealoneisanestate。’
  Iborroweditagain,andIwroteunderit——
  ’Butmoney’svirtue,goldisfate。’
  Hecolouredasredasfiretoseemeturnsoquickuponhim,
  andinakindofaragetoldmehewouldconquerme,and
  writesagainthus——
  ’Iscornyourgold,andyetIlove。’
  Iventuredalluponthelastcastofpoetry,asyou’llsee,forI
  wroteboldlyunderhislast——
  ’I’mpoor:
  let’sseehowkindyou’llprove。’
  Thiswasasadtruthtome;whetherhebelievedmeorno,I
  couldnottell;Isupposedthenthathedidnot。
  However,he
  flewtome,tookmeinhisarms,and,kissingmeveryeagerly,
  andwiththegreatestpassionimaginable,heheldmefasttill
  hecalledforapenandink,andthentoldmehecouldnotwait
  thetediouswritingontheglass,but,pullingoutapieceof
  paper,hebeganandwroteagain——
  ’Bemine,withallyourpoverty。’
  Itookhispen,andfollowedhimimmediately,thus——
  ’YetsecretlyyouhopeIlie。’
  Hetoldmethatwasunkind,becauseitwasnotjust,andthat
  Iputhimuponcontradictingme,whichdidnotconsistwith
  goodmanners,anymorethanwithhisaffection;andtherefore,
  sinceIhadinsensiblydrawnhimintothispoeticalscribble,he
  beggedIwouldnotobligehimtobreakitoff;sohewrites
  again——
  ’Letlovealonebeourdebate。’
  Iwroteagain——
  ’Shelovesenoughthatdoesnothate。’
  Thishetookforafavour,andsolaiddownthecudgels,that
  istosay,thepen;Isay,hetookifforafavour,andamighty
  oneitwas,ifhehadknownall。
  However,hetookitasImeant
  it,thatis,tolethimthinkIwasinclinedtogoonwithhim,as
  indeedIhadallthereasonintheworldtodo,forhewasthe
  best-humoured,merrysortofafellowthatIevermetwith,
  andIoftenreflectedonmyselfhowdoublycriminalitwasto
  deceivesuchaman;butthatnecessity,whichpressedmeto
  asettlementsuitabletomycondition,wasmyauthorityforit;
  andcertainlyhisaffectiontome,andthegoodnessofhistemper,
  howevertheymightargueagainstusinghimill,yettheystrongly
  arguedtomethathewouldbettertakethedisappointment
  thansomefiery-temperedwretch,whomighthavenothingto
  recommendhimbutthosepassionswhichwouldserveonlyto
  makeawomanmiserableallherdays。
  Besides,thoughIjestedwithhimashesupposeditso
  oftenaboutmypoverty,yet,whenhefoundittobetrue,he
  hadforeclosedallmannerofobjection,seeing,whetherhe
  wasinjestorinearnest,hehaddeclaredhetookmewithout
  anyregardtomyportion,and,whetherIwasinjestorin
  earnest,Ihaddeclaredmyselftobeverypoor;sothat,ina
  word,Ihadhimfastbothways;andthoughhemightsay
  afterwardshewascheated,yethecouldneversaythatIhad
  cheatedhim。
  Hepursuedmecloseafterthis,andasIsawtherewasnoneed
  tofearlosinghim,Iplayedtheindifferentpartwithhimlonger
  thanprudencemightotherwisehavedictatedtome。
  ButI
  consideredhowmuchthiscautionandindifferencewouldgive
  metheadvantageoverhim,whenIshouldcometobeunder
  thenecessityofowningmyowncircumstancestohim;andI
  manageditthemorewarily,becauseIfoundheinferredfrom
  thence,asindeedheoughttodo,thatIeitherhadthemore
  moneyorthemorejudgment,andwouldnotventureatall。
  Itookthefreedomoneday,afterwehadtalkedprettyclose
  tothesubject,totellhimthatitwastrueIhadreceivedthe
  complimentofaloverfromhim,namely,thathewouldtake
  mewithoutinquiringintomyfortune,andIwouldmakehim
  asuitablereturninthis,viz。thatIwouldmakeaslittleinquiry
  intohisasconsistedwithreason,butIhopedhewouldallow
  metoaskafewquestions,whichhewouldanswerornotas
  hethoughtfit;andthatIwouldnotbeoffendedifhedidnot
  answermeatall;oneofthesequestionsrelatedtoourmanner
  ofliving,andtheplacewhere,becauseIhadheardhehada
  greatplantationinVirginia,andthathehadtalkedofgoing
  tolivethere,andItoldhimIdidnotcaretobetransported。
  Hebeganfromthisdiscoursetoletmevoluntarilyintoall
  hisaffairs,andtotellmeinafrank,openwayallhis
  circumstances,bywhichIfoundhewasverywelltopassin
  theworld;butthatgreatpartofhisestateconsistedofthree
  plantations,whichhehadinVirginia,whichbroughthimina
  verygoodincome,generallyspeaking,tothetuneof#300,a
  year,butthatifhewastoliveuponthem,wouldbringhimin
  fourtimesasmuch。
  ’Verywell,’thoughtI;’youshallcarry
  methitherassoonasyouplease,thoughIwon’ttellyouso
  beforehand。’
  Ijestedwithhimextremelyaboutthefigurehewouldmake
  inVirginia;butIfoundhewoulddoanythingIdesired,though
  hedidnotseemgladtohavemeundervaluehisplantations,
  soIturnedmytale。
  ItoldhimIhadgoodreasonnottogo
  theretolive,becauseifhisplantationswereworthsomuch
  there,Ihadnotafortunesuitabletoagentlemanof#1200a
  year,ashesaidhisestatewouldbe。
  Herepliedgenerously,hedidnotaskwhatmyfortunewas;
  hehadtoldmefromthebeginninghewouldnot,andhewould
  beasgoodashisword;butwhateveritwas,heassuredmehe
  wouldneverdesiremetogotoVirginiawithhim,orgothither
  himselfwithoutme,unlessIwasperfectlywilling,andmade
  itmychoice。
  Allthis,youmaybesure,wasasIwished,andindeednothing
  couldhavehappenedmoreperfectlyagreeable。
  Icarriediton
  asfarasthiswithasortofindifferencythatheoftenwondered
  at,morethanatfirst,butwhichwastheonlysupportofhis
  courtship;andImentionittherathertointimateagaintothe
  ladiesthatnothingbutwantofcourageforsuchanindifferency
  makesoursexsocheap,andpreparesthemtobeill-usedas
  theyare;wouldtheyventurethelossofapretendingfopnow
  andthen,whocarriesithighuponthepointofhisownmerit,
  theywouldcertainlybelessslighted,andcourtedmore。
  Had
  Idiscoveredreallyandtrulywhatmygreatfortunewas,and
  thatinallIhadnotfull#500whenheexpected#1500,yetI
  hadhookedhimsofast,andplayedhimsolong,thatIwas
  satisfiedhewouldhavehadmeinmyworstcircumstances;
  andindeeditwaslessasurprisetohimwhenhelearnedthe
  truththanitwouldhavebeen,becausehavingnottheleast
  blametolayonme,whohadcarrieditwithanairofindifference
  tothelast,hewouldnotsayoneword,exceptthatindeedhe
  thoughtithadbeenmore,butthatifithadbeenlesshedid
  notrepenthisbargain;onlythatheshouldnotbeableto
  maintainmesowellasheintended。
  Inshort,weweremarried,andveryhappilymarriedonmy
  side,Iassureyou,astotheman;forhewasthebest-humoured
  manthateverywomanhad,buthiscircumstanceswerenotso
  goodasIimagined,as,ontheotherhand,hehadnotbettered
  himselfbymarryingsomuchasheexpected。
  Whenweweremarried,Iwasshrewdlyputtoittobringhim
  thatlittlestockIhad,andtolethimseeitwasnomore;but
  therewasanecessityforit,soItookmyopportunityoneday
  whenwewerealone,toenterintoashortdialoguewithhim
  aboutit。
  ’Mydear,’saidI,’wehavebeenmarriedafortnight;
  isitnottimetoletyouknowwhetheryouhavegotawife
  withsomethingorwithnothing?’
  ’Yourowntimeforthat,
  mydear,’sayshe;’IamsatisfiedthatIhavegotthewifeI
  love;Ihavenottroubledyoumuch,’sayshe,’withmyinquiry
  afterit。’
  ’That’strue,’saysI,’butIhaveagreatdifficultyuponme
  aboutit,whichIscarceknowhowtomanage。’
  ’What’sthat,mdear?’sayshe。
  ’Why,’saysI,’’tisalittleharduponme,and’tisharderupon
  you。
  IamtoldthatCaptain——’meaningmyfriend’shusband
  ’hastoldyouIhadagreatdealmoremoneythanIever
  pretendedtohave,andIamsureIneveremployedhimtodoso。’
  ’Well,’sayshe,’Captain——mayhavetoldmeso,butwhat
  then?
  Ifyouhavenotsomuch,thatmaylieathisdoor,but
  younevertoldmewhatyouhad,soIhavenoreasontoblame
  youifyouhavenothingatall。’
  ’That’sissojust,’saidI,’andsogenerous,thatitmakesmy
  havingbutalittleadoubleafflictiontome。’
  ’Thelessyouhave,mydear,’sayshe,’theworseforusboth;
  butIhopeyourafflictionyouspeakofisnotcausedforfear
  Ishouldbeunkindtoyou,forwantofaportion。
  No,no,if
  youhavenothing,tellmeplainly,andatonce;Imayperhaps
  tellthecaptainhehascheatedme,butIcanneversayyou
  havecheatedme,fordidyounotgiveitunderyourhandthat
  youwerepoor?
  andsoIoughttoexpectyoutobe。’
  ’Well,’saidI,’mydear,IamgladIhavenotbeenconcerned
  indeceivingyoubeforemarriage。
  IfIdeceiveyousince,’tis
  ne’ertheworse;thatIampooristootrue,butnotsopooras
  tohavenothingneither’;soIpulledoutsomebankbills,and
  gavehimabout#160。
  ’There’ssomething,mydear,’saidI,
  ’andnotquiteallneither。’
  Ihadbroughthimsoneartoexpectingnothing,bywhatIhad
  saidbefore,thatthemoney,thoughthesumwassmallinitself,
  wasdoublywelcometohim;heowneditwasmorethanhe
  lookedfor,andthathedidnotquestionbymydiscourseto
  him,butthatmyfineclothes,goldwatch,andadiamondring
  ortwo,hadbeenallmyfortune。
  Ilethimpleasehimselfwiththat#160twoorthreedays,and
  then,havingbeenabroadthatday,andasifIhad
  beentofetch