THESENATOR’SLASTTRADE
AdroveofleancattlewereswingingeasilyoverBlackMountain,andbehindthemcameabigmanwithwildblackhairandabushybeard。
Nowandthenhewouldgnawathismustachewithhislong,yellowteeth,orwouldsitdowntolethisleanhorserest,andwouldflipmeaninglesslyatthebusheswithaswitch。Sometimeshisbushyheadwoulddroopoveronhisbreast,andhewouldsnapitupsharplyandstartpainfullyon。Robber,cattle—thief,outlawhemighthavebeeninanothercentury;forhefilledthefigureofanyrobberheroinlifeorromance,andyethewasonlytheSenatorfromBell,ashewasknowninthelittleKentuckycapital;or,ashewasknowninhismountainhome,justtheSenator,whohadtoiledandschemedandgrownrichandgrownpoor;
whohadsufferedlongandwaskind。
OnlythatChristmashehadguttedeverystoreintown。``Givemeeverythingyouhave,brother,’’hesaid,acrosseachcounter;andnextdayeveryman,woman,andchildinthemountaintownhadapresentfromtheSenator’shands。Helookedlikeabrigandthatday,ashelookednow,buthecalledeverymanhisbrother,andhiseye,whileblackandlustrelessasnight,wasasbroodingandjustaskind。
Whentheboomwentdown,withitandwitheverybodyelsewenttheSenator。
Slowlyhegotdusty,ragged,longofhair。Helookedtorturedandever—restless。Youneversawhimstill;
alwayshesweptbyyou,flappinghislegsonhisleanhorseorhisarmsinhisricketybuggyhere,there,everywhere——
turning,twisting,fightinghiswaybacktofreedom——andnotamurmur。
Stillwaseverymanhisbrother,andifsomeforgothisonceopenhand,heforgotitnomorecompletelythandidtheSenator。Hewentveryfartopayhisdebts。Hefelthonorbound,indeed,toaskhissistertogivebackthefarmthathehadgivenher,which,veryproperlypeoplesaid,shedeclinedtodo。NothingcouldkillhopeintheSenator’sbreast;hewouldhandbackthefarminanotheryear,hesaid;butthesisterwasfirm,andwithoutawordstill,theSenatorwentotherwaysandschemedthroughthenights,andworkedandrodeandwalkedandtradedthroughthedays,untilnow,whenthelightwasbeginningtoglimmer,hisendwascome。
ThiswastheSenator’slasttrade,andinsight,downinaKentuckyvalley,washome。Strangelyenough,theSenatordidnotcareatall,andhehadjustenoughsanitylefttowonderwhy,andtobeworried。Itwasthe``walkingtyphoid’’thathadcaughtupwithhim,andhewaslistless,andhemadestrangegesturesanddidfoolishthingsashestumbleddownthemountain。
Hewasgoingoveralittleknollnow,andhecouldseethecreekthatranaroundhishouse,buthewasnottouched。Hewouldjustassoonhavelaindownrightwherehewas,orhaveturnedaroundandgoneback,exceptthatitwashotandhewantedtogettothewater。HerememberedthatitwasnighChristmas;hesawthesnowabouthimandthecakesoficeinthecreek。Heknewthatheoughtnottobehot,andyethewas——sohotthatherefusedtoreasonwithhimselfevenaminute,andhurriedon。Itwasoddthatitshouldbeso,butjustaboutthattime,overinVirginia,acattledealer,nearinghome,stoppedtotellaneighborhowhehadtrickedsomeblack—whiskeredfoolupinthemountains。
Itmayhavebeenjustwhenhewaslaughingaloudoverthere,thattheSenator,overhere,torehiswoollenshirtfromhisgreathairychestandrushedintotheicystream,clappinghisarmstohisburningsidesandshoutinginhisfrenzy。
``Ifhehadlivedalittlelonger,’’saidaconstituent,``hewouldhavelostthenextelection。Hehadn’tthemoney,youknow。’’
``Ifhehadlivedalittlelonger,’’saidthemountainpreacherhighuponYellowCreek,``I’dhavegotthattradeI
hadonhandwithhimthrough。NotthatIwantedhimtodie,butifhehadto——why——’’
``Ifhehadlivedalittlelonger,’’
saidtheSenator’slawyer,``hewouldhavecleanedoffthescoreagainsthim。’’
``Ifhehadlivedalittlelonger,’’saidtheSenator’ssister,notmeaningtobeunkind,``hewouldhavegotallI
have。’’
ThatwaswhatlifeheldfortheSenator。Deathwasmorekind。
PREACHIN’ONKINGDOM—COME
I’vetoldye,stranger,thatHellferSartainempties,asitoughter,ofco’se,intoKingdom—Come。Youcanketchthedevil’mostanydayintheweekonHellferSartain,an’sometimesyoucangitGloryeverlastin’onKingdom—Come。
Hit’stheonlymeetin’—housetharintwentymilesaroun’。
Well,thereg’larrider,oleJimSkaggs,wasdead,an’thebretherinwasa—lookin’
aroun’fersomebodytostepintooleJim’sshoes。Thar’dbeenoneyoungfelleruptharfromthesettlemints,a—
cavortin’aroun’,an’theywasstudyin’
’boutgittin’him。
``Bretherin’an’sisteren,’’Isays,attertheleetlechapwasgone,``he’sgotthefortitoodtospeakan’heshorelyiswellfavored。He’sgotamightygoodhawkeyeferspyin’outevil——an’thegals;hecanoutholleroleJim;an’IF,’’Isays,``anyIDEESevercomestohim,he’llbeahell—rousershore——buttheyain’tcomin’!’’
An’,sosayin’,Itakesmyfootinmyhandan’stepsferhome。
Stranger,themfellersovertharhain’tseedmucho’thisworld。Lotsof’emnuverseedthecyars;someof’emnuverseedawagon。An’atterjowerin’an’
noratin’fer’bouttwohours,whatyoureckontheysaidtheyaimedtodo?
Theybelievedthey’dtakethatarmanBeecher,eftheycouldgithimtocome。
They’dheerdo’Henryendurin’thewar,an’theyknowedhewasagintherebs,an’theywantedHenryiftheycouldjesgithimtocome。
Well,Isnorted,an’thefeudbrokeoutonHellferSartainbetwixttheDaysan’theDillons。MaceDayshotDawsDillon’sbrother,asIrickollect——somep’n’sal’aysa—startin’upthatplagueywaran’a—makin’thingsfrolicsomeoverthar——an’efithadn’ta—beenferatallyoungfellerwithblackhairan’ascaracrosshisforehead,whowasa—goin’
throughthemountainsa—settlin’thesewars,blamemeefIbelievethareverwould’a’beenanymo’preachin’onKingdom—Come。ThisfellercomesoverfromHazlanan’saysheaimstoholdameetin’onKingdom—Come。``Brother,’’
Isays,``that’swhatnopreacherhaveeverdidwhilstthiswarisa—goin’on。’’
An’hesays,sorto’quiet,``Well,then,I
reckonI’llhavetodowhatnopreacherhaveeverdid。’’An’Iupsan’says:
``Brother,anolejedgecomeuphereoncefromthesettlemintstoholdcouht。
`Jedge,’Isays,`that’swhatnojedgehaveeverdidwithoutsoldierssincethiswar’sbeena—goin’on。’An’,brother,thejedge’swordswasyours,p’int—blank。
`Allright,’hesays,`thenI’llhavetodowhatnootherjedgehaveeverdid。’
An’,brother,’’saysItothepreacher,``thejedgedoneitshore。Hejeslaidunderthecouht—housefertwodayswhilsttheboysfitoverhim。An’whenIseesthejedgea—makin’tracksferthesettlemints,Isays,`Jedge,’Isays,`youspokeaparableshore。’’’
Well,sir,thelongpreacherlookedjesasthoughhewasa—sayin’tohisself,``Yes,Ihearye,butIdon’theedye,’’
an’whenhesays,``Jesthesame,I’ma—goin’toholdameetin’onKingdom—
Come,’’why,Ijestakesmyfootinmyhandan’ag’inIstepsferhome。
Thatnight,stranger,IseedanotherfellerfromHazlan,whowasa—tellin’howthisherepreacherhadstoppedthewaroverthar,an’hadgottheMarcumsan’
Braytonstoshakin’hands;an’nextdayoleTomPerkinsstopsinan’saysthatWHARAStheremought’a’beenpreachin’
somewharan’sometime,tharnuverhadbeenPREACHIN’aforeonKingdom—Come。
SoIgoesovertothemeetin’house,an’
theywasallthar——DawsDillonan’
MaceDay,theleadersinthewar,an’
AbeShivers(you’veheerdtello’Abe)
whowasa—carryin’talesfromonesidetot’otheran’a—stirrin’uphellginerally,asAbemostal’aysis;an’tharwasDawsononesideo’themeetin’—housean’
Maceont’other,an’bothjesa—watchin’
fert’othertomakeamove,an’thar’d’a’beenbilly—helltopayrightthar!
Stranger,thatlongpreachertalkedjesaseasyasI’ma—talkin’now,an’hitwasp’int—blankasthefellerfromHazlansaid。Youjesought’a’heerdhimtellin’
abouttheLawda—bein’asporeasanyfellerthar,an’a—makin’barnsan’fencesan’ox—yokesan’sechlike;an’nota—bein’abletowritehisownname——
havin’tomakehismarkmebbe——whenhestartedouttosavetheworld。An’
howtheytukhiman’nailedhimontoacrosswhenhe’dcomedownfernothin’
buttosave’em;an’stuckaspearbigasacorn—knifeintohisside,an’givehimvinegar;an’hisownmammya—standin’
downtharonthegrounda—cryin’an’
a—watchin’himan’hea—fergivin’allof’emthenan’thar!
Tharnuverhadbeennothin’likethataforeonKingdom—Come,an’allalongI
heerdfellersa—layin’thargunsdown;
anwhenthepreachercalledoutfersinners,blamemeefthefustfellerthatrizwasn’tMaceDay。An’Macesays,``Stranger,’fwhatyousayistrue,I
reckontheLawd’llfergivemetoo,butIdon’tbelieveDawsDilloneverwill,’’
an’Macestoodtharlookin’aroundferDaws。An’allofasuddenthepreachergotupstraightan’calledout,``Istharahumaninthishousemeanan’sorryenoughtostandbetwixtamanan’hisMaker’’?An’rightthar,stranger,Dawsriz。``Naw,byGod,tharhain’t!’’Dawssays,an’hewalksuptoMacea—holdin’
outhishand,an’theyallbustsoutcryin’an’shakin’hands——Daysan’Dillons——
jesasthepreacherhadmade’emdooverinHazlan。An’atterthethingwasover,Istepsuptothepreacheran’
Isays:
``Brother,’’Isays,``YOUspokeaparable,shore。’’
THEPASSINGOFABRAHAMSHIVERS
``Itellye,boys,hithaintoftenafellerhasthechanceo’doin’somuchgoodjesbyDYIN’。Fer’fAbeShiversairgone,shorelygone,therestofus——
everydurnoneofus——aira—goin’tobesaved。FerAbeShivers——youhain’theerdtello’ABE?Well,youmustbeastrangerinthesemountainso’Kaintuck,shore。
``Idon’tknow,stranger,asAbeeverwasborned;nobodyinthesemountainsknowsit’fhewas。ThefusttimeIeverheerdtello’Abehewasa—hollerin’ferhisrightsonemawnin’atdaylight,endurin’
thewar,jesoutsideo’oleTomPerkins’
dooronFryin’Pan。Abewaslefttharbysomehome—gyard,Ireckon。Well,nobodyaireverturnedout’ndoorsinthesemountains,asyouknow,an’Abegothisrightsthatmawin’,an’he’sbeena—gittin’’emeversence。Tomalreadyhadahouseful,but’fanyfellergotthebigges’hunko’corn—bread,thatfellerwasAbe;an’efanyfellergota—whalin’,hitwasn’tAbe。
``Abetuktolyin’rightnaturely——
lookedlike——aforehecouldtalk。Factis,Abenuvercoulddonothin’butjeswhisper。Still,Abecouldmanagetosendaliefurderwiththatrattlin’
whisperthanoleTomcouldwiththatbighorno’hisnwhattellstheboystherevenoosaircomin’upFryin’
Pan。’
``Didn’ttakeAbelongtogittobraggin’
an’drinkin’an’naggin’an’hectorin’
——everything,’mos’,’ceptfightin’。NobodyeverdrawedAbeShiversintoafight。Idon’tknowashewasafeerd;
lookedlikeAbewasa—havin’sechatarnationgoodtimewithhisdevilminthejesdidn’twanttorunnorisko’havin’
hitstopped。An’sechdevilmint!Hitudtakeacoon’sage,Ireckon,totellye。
``Theboyswasa—goin’uptheriveronenighttogitoleDaveHallfertrickin’
RosieBranhamintoevil。Somefellergoesaheadan’tellsoleDavethey’sa—comin。’HitwasAbe。Somefellerfindsastreako’oreonoleTomPerkins’
land,an’rackshisjinnydowntotown,an’tellsafurrinerthar,an’Tomcomesmight’nighsellin’thelandfernothin’。
NowTomraisedAbe,but,jesthesame,thefellerwasAbe。
``OnenightsomebodyguidestherevenoosinonHellferSartain,an’theycutsupfourstills。HitwasAbe。Thesamenight,mindye,afellerslipsinamongtherevenooswhilethey’sasleep,andcutsofftheirhosses’manesan’
tails——muledeverydurnedcritteruv’em。Stranger,hitwasAbe。An’asferwomen—folks——well,AbewastheillfavoredestfellerIeversee,an’hecouldn’ttalk;still,Abewassassy,an’
youknowhowsasscountswiththegals;
an’Abe’swhisperin’comeinjesashandyasanyfeller’ssettin’up;so’feveryouseedamanwithaWinchestera—lookin’ferthefellerwhohadcuthimout,stranger,hewasa—lookin’ferAbe。
``SomebodytellsHarveHall,uptharatadanceonHell—fer—SartainoneChristmasnight,thatRichHarphadsaidsomep’n’aginhiman’NanceOsborn。
An’somebodytellsRichthatHarvehadsaidsompe’n’aginNancean’HIM。Hitwasonean’thesamefeller,stranger,an’
thefellerwasAbe。Well,whileRichan’Harvewasa—gittin’well,somebodyrunsoffwithNance。HitwasAbe。
ThenRichan’Harvejesdrawsstrawsferafeller。Stranger,theydrawedferAbe。Hit’spurtyhardtobelievethatAbeairgone,’ceptthatRichHarpan’
HarveHalldon’tneverdrawnostrawsfernothin’;but’fbythegraceo’Goddle—
mightyAbeairgone,why,asIwasa—sayin’,therestofus——everydurnedoneofusaira—goin’tobesaved,shore。
FerAbe’sgonefust,an’efthar’sonlyoneJedgmentDay,theLawd’llnuvergittous。’’
APURPLERHODODENDRON
Thepurplerhododendronisrare。
UpintheGaphere,BeeRock,hungoutoverRoaringRock,blossomswithit——asagraycloudpurpleswiththesunrise。Thisrockwastossedlightlyonedgewhentheearthwasyoung,andstandsvertical。Togettheflowersyouclimbthemountaintooneside,and,balancingontherock’sthinedge,slipdownbyrootsandpastrattlesnakedenstillyouhangoutoverthewaterandreachforthem。Toavoidsnakesitisbesttogowhenitiscool,atdaybreak。
IknowbutoneotherplaceinthissouthwestcornerofVirginiawherethereisanotherbushofpurplerhododendron,andonebushonlyisthere。
Thishangsatthethroatofapeaknotfaraway,whoseagelessgrayheadisbentoveraravinethatsinkslikeaspearthrustintothesideofthemountain。Sweptonlybyhighwindandeaglewingsasthisis,Iyetknewonemanfoolhardyenoughtoclimbtoitforaflower。Hebroughtoneblossomdown:andtothisdayIdonotknowthatitwasnottheactofacoward;
yes,thoughGraysondidit,actuallysmilingallthewayfrompeaktoravine,andthoughhewasmybestfriend——bestlovedthenandsince。IbelievehewasthestrangestmanIhaveeverknown,andIsaythiswiththought;
forhiseccentricitiesweresincere。InallhedidIcannotrememberhavingevensuspectedanythingtheatricalbutonce。
WewereallVirginiansorKentuckiansattheGap,andGraysonwasaVirginian。YoumighthaveguessedthathewasaSouthernerfromhisvoiceandfromthewayhespokeofwomen——butnomore。Otherwise,hemighthavebeenaMoor,exceptforhiscolor,whichwasabouttheonlyracialcharacteristichehad。Hehadbeeneducatedabroadand,aftertheEnglishhabit,hadtravelledeverywhere。AndyetIcanimaginenomorelonelywaybetweentheeternitiesthanthepathGraysontrodalone。
HecametotheGapintheearlydays,andjustwhyhecameIneverknew。Hehadstudiedtheironquestionalongtime,hetoldme,andwhatIthoughtrecklessspeculationwas,itseems,deliberatejudgmenttohim。Hismoney``inthedirt,’’asthephrasewas,Graysongothimahorseandrodethehillsandwaited。Hewasintimatewithnobody。Occasionallyhewouldplaypokerwithusandsometimeshedrankagooddeal,butliquorneverloosedhistongue。Atpokerhisfacetoldaslittleasthebackofhiscards,andhewonmorethanadmiration——evenfromtheKentuckians,whoareartistsatthegame;
butthemoneywentfromafreehand,and,afteradiversionlikethis,hewasapttobemoodyandtokeepmoretohimselfthanever。Everyfortnightortwohewoulddisappear,alwaysoverSunday。Inthreeorfourdayshewouldturnupagain,blackwithbrooding,andthenhewasthelastmantoleavethecard—tableorhekeptawayfromitaltogether。Wherehewentnobodyknew;andhewasnotthemananybodywouldquestion。
OnenighttwoofusKentuckiansweresittingintheclub,andfromahomepaperIreadaloudtherumoredengagementofagirlwebothknew——
whowasfamousforbeautyintheBluegrass,aswashermotherbeforeherandthemotherbeforeher——toanunnamedVirginian。Graysonsatnear,smokingapipe;andwhenIreadthegirl’snameIsawhimtakethemeerschaumfromhislips,andIfelthiseyesonme。Itwasamysteryhow,butIknewatoncethatGraysonwastheman。Hesoughtmeoutafterthatandseemedtowanttomakefriends。Iwaswilling,or,ratherhemadememorethanwilling;forhewasirresistibletome,asIimaginehewouldhavebeentoanybody。Wegottowalkingtogetherandridingtogetheratnight,andweweresoonratherintimate;butforalongtimeheneversomuchasspokethegirl’sname。Indeed,hekeptawayfromtheBluegrassfornearlytwomonths;butwhenhedidgohestayedafortnight。
ThistimehecameformeassoonashegotbacktotheGap。Itwasjustbeforemidnight,andwewentasusualbackofImbodenHill,throughmoon—
dappledbeeches,andGraysonturnedoffintothewoodswheretherewasnopath,bothofussilent。Werodethroughtremulous,shiningleaves——
Grayson’shorsechoosingawayforhimself——and,threshingthroughapatchofhigh,strongweeds,wecircledpastanamphitheatreofdeadenedtreeswhosecrookedarmsweretossedoutintothemoonlight,andhaltedonthespur。ThemoonwaspoisedoverMorris’sfarm;
SouthForkwasshiningunderuslikealoopofgold,themountainslayaboutintranquilheaps,andthemoon—mistroseluminousbetweenthem。ThereGraysonturnedtomewithaneagerlightinhiseyesthatIhadneverseenbefore。
``Thishasanewbeautyto—night!’’
hesaid;andthen``Itoldheraboutyou,andshesaidthatsheusedtoknowyou——well。’’Iwasgladmyfacewasinshadow——Icouldhardlykeepbackabrutallaugh——andGrayson,unseeing,wentontospeakofherasIhadneverheardanymanspeakofanywoman。Intheend,hesaidthatshehadjustpromisedtobehiswife。Ianswerednothing。
Othermen,Iknew,hadsaidthatwiththesameright,perhaps,andhadgonefromhertogobacknomore。
AndIwasoneofthem。GraysonhadmetheratWhiteSulphurfiveyearsbefore,andhadlovedhereversince。
Shehadknownitfromthefirst,hesaid,andIguessedthenwhatwasgoingtohappentohim。Imarvelled,listeningtotheman,foritwasthestarofconstancyinherwhitesoulthatwasmostlustroustohim——andwhileI
wonderedthemarvelbecameacommonplace。
Didnoteveryloverthinkhislovedoneexemptfromthefrailtythatnamesotherwomen?Thereisnoidealoffaithorofpuritythatdoesnotliveincountlesswomento—day。Ibelievethat;butcouldInotrecallonefriendwhowalkedwithDivinitythroughpinewoodsforoneimmortalspring,andwho,beingsicktodeath,wasquitefinished——learningheratlast?DidInotknowloverswhobelievedsacredtothemselves,inthenameoflove,lipsthathadbeengiventomanyanotherwithoutit?AndnowdidInotknow——butIknewtoomuch,andtoGraysonIsaidnothing。
Thatspringthe``boom’’came。Grayson’spropertyquadrupledinvalueandquadrupledagain。Iwashislawyer,andIpleadwithhimtosell;butGraysonlaughed。Hewasnotspeculating;hehadinvestedonjudgment;hewouldsellonlyatacertainfigure。Thefigurewasactuallyreached,andGraysonlethalfgo。Theboomfell,andGraysontookthetumblewithajest。Itwouldcomeagainintheautumn,hesaid,andhewentofftomeetthegirlatWhiteSulphur。
Iworkedrighthardthatsummer,butImissedhim,andIsurelywasgladwhenhecameback。Somethingwaswrong;Isawitatonce。Hedidnotmentionhername,andforawhileheavoidedevenme。Isoughthimthen,andgraduallyIgothimintoouroldhabitofwalkingupintotheGapandofsittingoutaftersupperonabigrockinthevalley,listeningtotherunoftheriverandwatchingtheafterglowovertheCumberland,themoonriseoverWallen’sRidgeandthestarscomeout。
Waitingforhimtospeak,Ilearnedforthefirsttimethenanothersecretofhiswretchedmelancholy。Itwasthehopelessnessofthattime,perhaps,thatdisclosedit。Graysonhadlostthefaithofhischildhood。Mostmendothatatsometimeorother,butGraysonhadnobusiness,noprofession,noartinwhichtofindrelief。Indeed,therewasbutonesubstitutepossible,andthatcamelikeagiftstraightfromtheGodwhomhedenied。Lovecame,andGrayson’sidealsoflove,asofeverythingelse,weremorbidandquixotic。Hebelievedthatheowedittothewomanheshouldmarrynevertohavelovedanother。Hehadlovedbutonewoman,hesaid,andheshouldlovebutone。
IbelievedhimthenliterallywhenhesaidthathislovefortheKentuckygirlwashisreligionnow——theonlyanchorlefthiminhisseaoftroubles,theonlystarthatgavehimguidinglight。Withoutthislove,whatthen?
Ihadastrongimpulsetoaskhim,butGraysonshivered,asthoughhedivinedmythought,and,insomerelentlessway,ourtalkdriftedtothequestionofsuicide。Iwasnotsurprisedthatheratherdefendedit。Neitherofussaidanythingnew,onlyIdidnotlikethewayhetalked。Hewastoodeliberate,tooserious,asthoughhewerereallyfacingapossiblefact。Hehadnoreligiousscruples,hesaid,nofamilyties;hehadnothingtodowithbringinghimselfintolife;why——ifitwasnotworthliving,notbearable——
whyshouldhenotendit?Hegavetheusualauthority,andIgavetheusualanswer。Religionaside,ifwedidnotknowthatwewerehereforsomepurpose,wedidnotknowthatwewerenot;andherewewereanyway,andourdutywasplain。Desertionwastheactofacoward,andthatGraysoncouldnotdeny。
Thatautumnthecrashof’91cameacrossthewaterfromEngland,andGraysongaveup。HewenttoRichmond,andcamebackwithmoneyenoughtopayoffhisnotes,andI
thinkittooknearlyallhehad。Still,heplayedpokersteadilynow——forpokerhadbeenresumedwhenitwasnolongerpossibletogambleinlots——hedrankagooddeal,andhebeganjustatthistimetotakeasingularinterestinourvolunteerpoliceguard。Hehadalwaysbeenonhandwhentherewastrouble,andIsha’n’tsoonforgethimthedaySenatorMahonespoke,whenwewerepunchingacrowdofmountaineersbackwithcockedWinchesters。Hehadlosthishatinastrugglewithonegiant;helookedhalfcrazywithanger,andyethewaswhiteandperfectlycool,andI
noticedthatheneverhadtotellamanbutoncetostandback。Nowhewasthefirstmantoanswerapolicewhistle。
WhenwewereguardingTaltHall,healwaysvolunteeredwhentherewasanyunusualrisktorun。WhenweraidedthePoundtocaptureagangofdesperadoes,heinsistedongoingaheadasspy;andwhenwegotrestlesslyingoutinthewoodswaitingfordaybreak,andthecaptainsuggestedachargeonthecabin,Graysonwasbyhissidewhenitwasmade。Graysonsprangthroughthedoorfirst,andhewasthemanwhothrusthisrecklessheadupintotheloftandlightedamatchtoseeifthemurdererswerethere。Mostofusdidfoolishthingsinthosedaysunderstressofexcitement,butGrayson,Isaw,wasweakenoughtobereckless。Histroublewiththegirl,whateveritwas,wasseriousenoughtomakehimapparentlycarelittlewhetherhewerealiveordead。
AndstillIsawthatnotyetevenhadhelosthope。Hewashavingasorefightwithhispride,andhegotbody—
wornandheart—sickoverit。Ofcoursehewasworsted,andintheend,fromsheerweakness,hewentbacktoheroncemore。
IshallneverseeanotherfacelikehiswhenGraysoncamebackthatlasttime。
Inevernoticedbeforethatthereweresilverhairsabouthistemples。Hestayedinhisroom,andhadhismealssenttohim。Hecameoutonlytoride,andthenatnight。Wakingthethirdmorningatdaybreak,Isawhimthroughthewindowgallopingpast,andIknewhehadspentthenightonBlackMountain。IwenttohisroomassoonasIgotup,andGraysonwaslyingacrosshisbedwithhisfacedown,hisclotheson,andinhisrighthandwasarevolver。IreeledintoachairbeforeIhadstrengthenoughtobendoverhim,andwhenIdidI
foundhimasleep。Ilefthimashewas,andIneverlethimknowthatIhadbeentohisroom;butIgothimoutontherockagainthatnight,andIturnedourtalkagaintosuicide。Isaiditwassmall,mean,cowardly,criminal,contemptible!Iwassavagelyinearnest,andGraysonshiveredandsaidnotaword。Ithoughthewasinbettermindafterthat。Wegottotakingnightridesagain,andIstayedascloselytohimasIcould,fortimesgotworseandtroublewasuponeverybody。Notesfellthickerthansnowflakes,and,throughthefoolishpolicyofthecompany,foreclosureshadtobemade。Graysonwenttothewallliketherestofus。Iaskedhimwhathehaddonewiththemoneyhehadmade。Hehadgivenawayagreatdealtopoorerkindred;hehadpaidhisdeadfather’sdebts;hehadplayedawayagooddeal,andhehadlosttherest。Hisfaithwasstillimperturbable。Hehadadozenrectanglesof``dirt,’’andfromthese,hesaid,itwouldallcomebacksomeday。Still,hefeltthesuddenpovertykeenly,buthefaceditashedidanyotherphysicalfactinlife——dauntless。Heusedtobefondofsayingthatnoonethingcouldmakehimmiserable。Buthewouldtalkwithmockingearnestnessaboutsomemuch—
dreadedcombination;andafavoritephraseofhis——whichgottohavepeculiarsignificance——was``thecohortsofhell,’’
whoclosedinonhimwhenhewassickandweak,andwhofellbackwhenhegotwell。Hehadonestrangehabit,too,fromwhichIgotcomfort。Hewoulddeliberatelywalkintoanddefyanytemptationthatbesethim。Thatwasthewayhestrengthenedhimself,hesaid。Iknewwhathistemptationwasnow,andIthoughtofthishabitwhenIfoundhimasleepwithhisrevolver,andIgothopefromitnow,whenthedreadedcombination(whateverthatwas)seemedactuallytohavecome。
Icouldseenowthathegotworsedaily。Hestoppedhismockeries,hisoccasionalfitsofrecklessgayety。Hestoppedpoker——resolutely——hecouldn’taffordtolosenow;and,whatpuzzledme,hestoppeddrinking。Themansimplylookedtired,alwayshopelesslytired;
andIcouldbelievehimsincereinallhisfoolishtalkabouthisblessedNirvana:
whichwasthepeacehecraved,whichwasendenoughforhim。
Winterbroke。Maydrewnear;andoneafternoon,whenGraysonandItookourwalkupthroughtheGap,hecarriedalongahugespy—glassofmine,whichhadbelongedtoafamousolddesperado,whowatchedhisenemieswithitfromthemountain—tops。Webothhelpedcapturehim,andIdefendedhim。Hewassentencedtohang——theglasswasmyfee。
WesatdownoppositeBeeRock,andforthefirsttimeGraysontoldmeofthatlastscenewithher。Hespokewithoutbitterness,andhetoldmewhatshesaid,wordforword,withoutabreathofblameforher。Idonotbelievethathejudgedheratall;shedidnotknow——
healwayssaid;shedidnotKNOW;andthen,whenIopenedmylips,Graysonreachedsilentlyformywrist,andIcanfeelagainthewarningcrushofhisfingers,andIsaynothingagainsthernow。
IaskedGraysonwhathisanswerwas。
``Iaskedher,’’hesaid,solemnly,``ifshehadeverseenapurplerhododendron。’’
Ialmostlaughed,picturingthescene——thegirlbewilderedbyhisabsurdquestion——
Graysoncalm,superblycourteous。
Itwasamentalpeculiarityofhis——thisirrelevancy——anditwaslikehimtoendamatteroflifeanddeathinjustthatway。
``ItoldherIshouldsendherone。
Iamwaitingforthemtocomeout,’’headded;andhelaybackwithhisheadagainstastoneandsightedthetelescopeonadizzypoint,aboutwhichbuzzardswerecircling。
``Thereisjustonebushofrhododendronupthere,’’hewenton。``IsawitlookingdownfromthePointlastspring。
IimagineitmustblossomearlierthanthatacrossthereonBeeRock,beingalwaysinthesun。No,it’snotbuddingyet,’’headded,withhiseyetotheglass。
``Youseethatledgejusttotheleft?I
droppedabigrockfromthePointsquareonarattlerwhowassunninghimselftherelastspring。Icanseeafootholdallthewayupthecliff。Itcanbedone,’’
heconcluded,inatonethatmademeturnsharplyuponhim。
``Doyoureallymeantoclimbupthere?’’Iasked,harshly。
``Ifitblossomsfirstupthere——I’llgetitwhereitbloomsfirst。’’InamomentIwasangryandhalfsickwithsuspicion,forIknewhisobstinacy;andthenbeganwhatIamhalfashamedtotell。
EverydaythereafterGraysontookthatglasswithhim,andIwentalongtohumorhim。IwatchedBeeRock,andhethatonebushatthethroatofthepeak——neitherofustalkingoverthematteragain。Itwasuncanny,thatrivalry——sunandwindinonespot,sunandwindinanother——Natureherselfcastingthefateofahalf—crazedfoolwithaflower。Itwasutterlyabsurd,butIgotnervousoverit——apprehensive,dismal。
Aweeklateritrainedfortwodays,andthewaterwashigh。Thenextdaythesunshone,andthatafternoonGraysonsmiled,lookingthroughtheglass,andhandedittome。IknewwhatIshouldsee。Onepurplecluster,fullblown,wasshakinginthewind。
GraysonwasleaningbackinadreamwhenIlettheglassdown。Acoolbreathfromthewoodsbehindusbroughttheodorofrootsandofblackearth;upintheleavesandsunlightsomewhereawood—thrushwassinging,andIsawinGrayson’sfacewhatIhadnotseenforalongtime,andthatwaspeace——thepeaceofstubbornpurpose。Hedidnotcomeformethenextday,northenext;
butthenexthedid,earlierthanusual。
``Iamgoingtogetthatrhododendron,’’
hesaid。``Ihavebeenhalf—wayup——itcanbereached。’’SohadIbeenhalf—wayup。Withnerveandagilitytheflowercouldbegot,andboththeseGraysonhad。Ifhehadwantedtoclimbupthereanddrop,hecouldhavedoneitalone,andhewouldhaveknownthatIshouldhavefoundhim。Graysonwastestinghimselfagain,and,angrywithhimfortheabsurdityofthethingandwithmyselfforhumoringit,butstillnotsureofhim,Ipickedupmyhatandwent。IsworetomyselfsilentlythatitwasthelasttimeIshouldpayanyheedtohiswhims。Ibelievedthiswouldbethelast。Theaffairwiththegirlwasover。Theflowersent,IknewGraysonwouldnevermentionhernameagain。
Naturewasradiantthatafternoon。
ThemountainshadtheleafyluxurianceofJune,andarich,sunlithazedrowsedonthembetweentheshadowsstartingoutoverthevalleyandthecloudssowhitethattheblueoftheskylookeddark。TwoeaglesshotacrossthemouthoftheGapaswenearedit,andhighbeyondbuzzardsweresailingoverGrayson’srhododendron。
IwentuptheravinewithhimandIclimbedupbehindhim——Graysongoingverydeliberatelyandwhistlingsoftly。Hecalleddowntomewhenhereachedtheshelfthatlookedhalf—way。
``Youmustn’tcomeanyfartherthanthis,’’hesaid。``GetoutonthatrockandI’lldropthemdowntoyou。’’
Thenhejumpedfromtheledgeandcaughtthebodyofasmalltreeclosetotheroots,andmyheartsankatsuchrecklessnessandallmyfearsroseagain。
Iscrambledhastilytotheledge,butI
couldgetnofarther。Imightpossiblymakethejumphehadmade——buthowshouldIevergetback?Howwouldhe?Icalledangrilyafterhimnow,andhewouldn’tanswerme。Icalledhimafool,acoward;Istampedtheledgelikeachild——butGraysonkepton,footafterhand,withstealthycaution,andthepurpleclusternoddingdownathimmademyheadwhirl。I
hadtoliedowntokeepfromtumblingfromtheledge;andthereonmyside,grippingapinebush,Ilaylookingupathim。Hewasclosetotheflowersnow,andjustbeforehetookthelastupwardstepheturnedandlookeddownthatawfulheightwithascalmafaceasthoughhecouldhavedroppedandfloatedunhurttotheravinebeneath。
Thenwithhislefthandhecaughttheledgetotheleft,strainedup,and,holdingthus,reachedoutwithhisright。
Thehandclosedaboutthecluster,andthetwigwasbroken。Graysongaveagreatshoutthen。Heturnedhisheadasthoughtodropthem,and,thatfaraway,Iheardthesibilantwhirofrattles。Isawasnake’screstwithinayardofhisface,and,myGod!IsawGraysonloosehislefthandtoguardit!
Thesnakestruckathisarm,andGraysonreeledandcaughtbackonceattheledgewithhislefthand。Hecaughtonce,Isay,todohimfulljustice;then,withoutaword,hedropped——andI
sweartherewasasmileonhisfacewhenheshotdownpastmeintothetrees。
Ifoundhimdownthereintheravinewithnearlyeveryboneinhisbodycrushed。Hisleftarmwasunderhim,andoutstretchedinhisrighthandwastheshatteredcluster,witheveryblossomgonebutone。Onewhitehalfofhisfacewasunmarked,andonitwasstilltheshadowofasmile。IthinkitmeantmorethanthatGraysonbelievedthathewasnearpeaceatlast。ItmeantthatFatehaddonethedeedforhimandthathewasglad。Whetherhewouldhavedoneithimself,Idonotknow;andthatiswhyIsaythatthoughGraysonbroughttheflowerdown——smilingfrompeaktoravine——
Idonotknowthathewasnot,afterall,acoward。
ThatnightIwrotetothewomaninKentucky。ItoldherthatGraysonhadfallenfromacliffwhileclimbingforflowers;andthathewasdead。
Alongwiththesewords,Isentapurplerhododendron。
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