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第126章

  “Iwillnothavethissortofthinginmyhouse。”Josagaininterposed。”IsayIwillnothaveit;andDobbin,I
  beg,sir,you’llstopit。”Andhelookedround,tremblingandturningveryred,andgaveagreatpuff,andmadeforhisdoor。
  “Dearfriend!”Rebeccasaidwithangelicsweetness。”dohearwhatMajorDobbinhastosayagainstme。”
  “Iwillnothearit,Isay。”squeakedoutJosatthetopofhisvoice,and,gatheringuphisdressing-gown,hewasgone。
  “Weareonlytwowomen。”Ameliasaid。”Youcanspeaknow,sir。”
  “Thismannertowardsmeisonewhichscarcelybecomesyou,Amelia。”theMajoransweredhaughtily;“norIbelieveamIguiltyofhabitualharshnesstowomen。ItisnotapleasuretometodothedutywhichIamcometodo。”
  “Prayproceedwithitquickly,ifyouplease,MajorDobbin。”saidAmelia,whowasmoreandmoreinapet。TheexpressionofDobbin’sface,asshespokeinthisimperiousmanner,wasnotpleasant。
  “Icametosay——andasyoustay,Mrs。Crawley,Imustsayitinyourpresence——thatIthinkyou——yououghtnottoformamemberofthefamilyofmyfriends。A
  ladywhoisseparatedfromherhusband,whotravelsnotunderherownname,whofrequentspublicgaming-
  tables——“
  “ItwastotheballIwent。”criedoutBecky。
  “——isnotafitcompanionforMrs。Osborneandherson。”Dobbinwenton:“andImayaddthattherearepeopleherewhoknowyou,andwhoprofesstoknowthatregardingyourconductaboutwhichIdon’tevenwishtospeakbefore——beforeMrs。Osborne。”
  “Yoursisaverymodestandconvenientsortofcalumny,MajorDobbin。”Rebeccasaid。”Youleavemeundertheweightofanaccusationwhich,afterall,isunsaid。
  Whatisit?Isitunfaithfulnesstomyhusband?Iscornitanddefyanybodytoproveit——Idefyyou,Isay。Myhonourisasuntouchedasthatofthebitterestenemywhoevermalignedme。Isitofbeingpoor,forsaken,wretched,thatyouaccuseme?Yes,Iamguiltyofthosefaults,andpunishedforthemeveryday。Letmego,Emmy。ItisonlytosupposethatIhavenotmetyou,andIamnoworseto-daythanIwasyesterday。Itisonlytosupposethatthenightisoverandthepoorwandererisonherway。Don’tyourememberthesongweusedtosinginold,dearolddays?Ihavebeenwanderingeversincethen——apoorcastaway,scornedforbeingmiserable,andinsultedbecauseIamalone。Letmego:mystayhereinterfereswiththeplansofthisgentleman。”
  “Indeeditdoes,madam。”saidtheMajor。”IfIhaveanyauthorityinthishouse——“
  “Authority,none!”brokeoutAmelia“Rebecca,youstaywithme。Iwon’tdesertyoubecauseyouhavebeenpersecuted,orinsultyoubecause——becauseMajorDobbinchoosestodoso。Comeaway,dear。”Andthetwowomenmadetowardsthedoor。
  Williamopenedit。Astheyweregoingout,however,hetookAmelia’shandandsaid——“Willyoustayamomentandspeaktome?”
  “Hewishestospeaktoyouawayfromme。”saidBecky,lookinglikeamartyr。Ameliagrippedherhandinreply。
  “UponmyhonouritisnotaboutyouthatIamgoingtospeak。”Dobbinsaid。”Comeback,Amelia。”andshecame。DobbinbowedtoMrs。Crawley,asheshutthedooruponher。Amelialookedathim,leaningagainsttheglass:herfaceandherlipswerequitewhite。
  “IwasconfusedwhenIspokejustnow。”theMajorsaidafterapause,“andImisusedthewordauthority。”
  “Youdid。”saidAmeliawithherteethchattering。
  “AtleastIhaveclaimstobeheard。”Dobbincontinued。
  “Itisgeneroustoremindmeofourobligationstoyou。”
  thewomananswered。
  “TheclaimsImeanarethoseleftmebyGeorge’sfather。”Williamsaid。
  “Yes,andyouinsultedhismemory。Youdidyesterday。
  Youknowyoudid。AndIwillneverforgiveyou。Never!”
  saidAmelia。Sheshotouteachlittlesentenceinatremorofangerandemotion。
  “Youdon’tmeanthat,Amelia?”Williamsaidsadly。
  “Youdon’tmeanthatthesewords,utteredinahurriedmoment,aretoweighagainstawholelife’sdevotion?I
  thinkthatGeorge’smemoryhasnotbeeninjuredbythewayinwhichIhavedealtwithit,andifwearecometobandyingreproaches,Iatleastmeritnonefromhiswidowandthemotherofhisson。Reflect,afterwardswhen——whenyouareatleisure,andyourconsciencewillwithdrawthisaccusation。Itdoesevennow。”Ameliahelddownherhead。
  “Itisnotthatspeechofyesterday。”hecontinued。”whichmovesyou。Thatisbutthepretext,Amelia,orI
  havelovedyouandwatchedyouforfifteenyearsinvain。
  HaveInotlearnedinthattimetoreadallyourfeelingsandlookintoyourthoughts?Iknowwhatyourheartiscapableof:itcanclingfaithfullytoarecollectionandcherishafancy,butitcan’tfeelsuchanattachmentasminedeservestomatewith,andsuchasIwouldhavewonfromawomanmoregenerousthanyou。No,youarenotworthyofthelovewhichIhavedevotedtoyou。
  IknewallalongthattheprizeIhadsetmylifeonwasnotworththewinning;thatIwasafool,withfondfancies,too,barteringawaymyalloftruthandardouragainstyourlittlefeebleremnantoflove。Iwillbargainnomore:Iwithdraw。Ifindnofaultwithyou。Youareverygood-natured,andhavedoneyourbest,butyoucouldn’t——youcouldn’treachuptotheheightoftheattachmentwhichIboreyou,andwhichaloftiersoulthanyoursmighthavebeenproudtoshare。Good-bye,Amelia!
  Ihavewatchedyourstruggle。Letitend。Wearebothwearyofit。”
  AmeliastoodscaredandsilentasWilliamthussuddenlybrokethechainbywhichsheheldhimanddeclaredhisindependenceandsuperiority。Hehadplacedhimselfatherfeetsolongthatthepoorlittlewomanhadbeenaccustomedtotrampleuponhim。Shedidn’twishtomarryhim,butshewishedtokeephim。Shewishedtogivehimnothing,butthatheshouldgiveherall。Itisabargainnotunfrequentlyleviedinlove。
  William’ssallyhadquitebrokenandcastherdown。
  HERassaultwaslongsinceoverandbeatenback。
  “AmItounderstandthen,thatyouaregoing——away,William?”shesaid。
  Hegaveasadlaugh。”Iwentoncebefore。”hesaid。”andcamebackaftertwelveyears。Wewereyoungthen,Amelia。Good-bye。Ihavespentenoughofmylifeatthisplay。”
  Whilsttheyhadbeentalking,thedoorintoMrs。Osborne’sroomhadopenedeversolittle;indeed,BeckyhadkeptaholdofthehandleandhadturneditontheinstantwhenDobbinquittedit,andsheheardeverywordoftheconversationthathadpassedbetweenthesetwo。
  “Whatanobleheartthatmanhas。”shethought,andhowshamefullythatwomanplayswithit!”SheadmiredDobbin;sheborehimnorancourfortheparthehadtakenagainsther。Itwasanopenmoveinthegame,andplayedfairly。”Ah!”shethought,“ifIcouldhavehadsuchahusbandasthat——amanwithaheartandbrainstoo!Iwouldnothavemindedhislargefeet“;andrunningintoherroom,sheabsolutelybethoughtherselfofsomething,andwrotehimanote,beseechinghimtostopforafewdays——nottothinkofgoing——andthatshecouldservehimwithA。
  Thepartingwasover。OncemorepoorWilliamwalkedtothedoorandwasgone;andthelittlewidow,theauthorofallthiswork,hadherwill,andhadwonhervictory,andwaslefttoenjoyitasshebestmight。Lettheladiesenvyhertriumph。
  Attheromantichourofdinner,Mr。Georgymadehisappearanceandagainremarkedtheabsenceof“OldDob。”Themealwaseateninsilencebytheparty。Jos’sappetitenotbeingdiminished,butEmmytakingnothingatall。
  Afterthemeal,Georgywaslollinginthecushionsoftheoldwindow,alargewindow,withthreesidesofglassabuttingfromthegable,andcommandingononesidethemarket-place,wheretheElephantis,hismotherbeingbusyhardby,whenheremarkedsymptomsofmovementattheMajor’shouseontheothersideofthestreet。
  “Hullo!”saidhe,“there’sDob’strap——theyarebringingitoutofthecourt-yard。”The“trap“inquestionwasacarriagewhichtheMajorhadboughtforsixpoundssterling,andaboutwhichtheyusedtorallyhimagooddeal。
  Emmygavealittlestart,butsaidnothing。
  “Hullo!”Georgycontinued,“there’sFranciscomingoutwiththeportmanteaus,andKunz,theone-eyedpostilion,comingdownthemarketwiththreeschimmels。
  Lookathisbootsandyellowjacket——ain’thearumone?Why——they’reputtingthehorsestoDob’scarriage。
  Ishegoinganywhere?”
  “Yes。”saidEmmy,“heisgoingonajourney。”
  “Goingonajourney;andwhenishecomingback?”
  “Heis——notcomingback。”answeredEmmy。
  “Notcomingback!”criedoutGeorgy,jumpingup。
  “Stayhere,sir。”roaredoutJos。”Stay,Georgy。”saidhismotherwithaverysadface。Theboystopped,kickedabouttheroom,jumpedupanddownfromthewindow-
  seatwithhisknees,andshowedeverysymptomofuneasinessandcuriosity。
  Thehorseswereputto。Thebaggagewasstrappedon。Franciscameoutwithhismaster’ssword,cane,andumbrellatieduptogether,andlaidtheminthewell,andhisdeskandoldtincocked-hatcase,whichheplacedundertheseat。Francisbroughtoutthestainedoldbluecloaklinedwithredcamlet,whichhadwrappedtheownerupanytimethesefifteenyears,andhadmanchenSturmerlebt,asafavouritesongofthosedayssaid。IthadbeennewforthecampaignofWaterlooandhadcoveredGeorgeandWilliamafterthenightofQuatreBras。
  OldBurcke,thelandlordofthelodgings,cameout,thenFrancis,withmorepackages——finalpackages——thenMajorWilliam——Burckewantedtokisshim。TheMajorwasadoredbyallpeoplewithwhomhehadtodo。Itwaswithdifficultyhecouldescapefromthisdemonstrationofattachment。
  “ByJove,Iwillgo!”screamedoutGeorge。”Givehimthis。”saidBecky,quiteinterested,andputapaperintotheboy’shand。Hehadrusheddownthestairsandflungacrossthestreetinaminute——theyellowpostilionwascrackinghiswhipgently。
  Williamhadgotintothecarriage,releasedfromtheembracesofhislandlord。Georgeboundedinafterwards,andflunghisarmsroundtheMajor’sneckastheysawfromthewindow,andbeganaskinghimmultipliedquestions。Thenhefeltinhiswaistcoatpocketandgavehimanote。Williamseizedatitrathereagerly,heopenedittrembling,butinstantlyhiscountenancechanged,andhetorethepaperintwoanddroppeditoutofthecarriage。HekissedGeorgyonthehead,andtheboygotout,doublinghisfistsintohiseyes,andwiththeaidofFrancis。Helingeredwithhishandonthepanel。Fort,Schwager!Theyellowpostilioncrackedhiswhipprodigiously,upsprangFrancistothebox,awaywenttheschimmels,andDobbinwithhisheadonhisbreast。HeneverlookedupastheypassedunderAmelia’swindow,andGeorgy,leftaloneinthestreet,burstoutcryinginthefaceofallthecrowd。
  Emmy’smaidheardhimhowlingagainduringthenightandbroughthimsomepreservedapricotstoconsolehim。Shemingledherlamentationswithhis。Allthepoor,allthehumble,allhonestfolks,allgoodmenwhoknewhim,lovedthatkind-heartedandsimplegentleman。
  AsforEmmy,hadshenotdoneherduty?ShehadherpictureofGeorgeforaconsolation。
  WhichContainsBirths,Marriages,andDeathsWhateverBecky’sprivateplanmightbebywhichDobbin’struelovewastobecrownedwithsuccess,thelittlewomanthoughtthatthesecretmightkeep,andindeed,beingbynomeanssomuchinterestedaboutanybody’swelfareasaboutherown,shehadagreatnumberofthingspertainingtoherselftoconsider,andwhichconcernedheragreatdealmorethanMajorDobbin’shappinessinthislife。
  Shefoundherselfsuddenlyandunexpectedlyinsnugcomfortablequarters,surroundedbyfriends,kindness,andgood-naturedsimplepeoplesuchasshehadnotmetwithformanyalongday;and,wandererasshewasbyforceandinclination,thereweremomentswhenrestwaspleasanttoher。AsthemosthardenedArabthatevercareeredacrossthedesertoverthehumpofadromedarylikestoreposesometimesunderthedate-
  treesbythewater,ortocomeintothecities,walkintothebazaars,refreshhimselfinthebaths,andsayhisprayersinthemosques,beforehegoesoutagainmarauding,soJos’stentsandpilauwerepleasanttothislittleIshmaelite。Shepicketedhersteed,hungupherweapons,andwarmedherselfcomfortablybyhisfire。Thehaltinthatroving,restlesslifewasinexpressiblysoothingandpleasanttoher。