“Iwillnothavethissortofthinginmyhouse。”Josagaininterposed。”IsayIwillnothaveit;andDobbin,I
beg,sir,you’llstopit。”Andhelookedround,tremblingandturningveryred,andgaveagreatpuff,andmadeforhisdoor。
“Dearfriend!”Rebeccasaidwithangelicsweetness。”dohearwhatMajorDobbinhastosayagainstme。”
“Iwillnothearit,Isay。”squeakedoutJosatthetopofhisvoice,and,gatheringuphisdressing-gown,hewasgone。
“Weareonlytwowomen。”Ameliasaid。”Youcanspeaknow,sir。”
“Thismannertowardsmeisonewhichscarcelybecomesyou,Amelia。”theMajoransweredhaughtily;“norIbelieveamIguiltyofhabitualharshnesstowomen。ItisnotapleasuretometodothedutywhichIamcometodo。”
“Prayproceedwithitquickly,ifyouplease,MajorDobbin。”saidAmelia,whowasmoreandmoreinapet。TheexpressionofDobbin’sface,asshespokeinthisimperiousmanner,wasnotpleasant。
“Icametosay——andasyoustay,Mrs。Crawley,Imustsayitinyourpresence——thatIthinkyou——yououghtnottoformamemberofthefamilyofmyfriends。A
ladywhoisseparatedfromherhusband,whotravelsnotunderherownname,whofrequentspublicgaming-
tables——“
“ItwastotheballIwent。”criedoutBecky。
“——isnotafitcompanionforMrs。Osborneandherson。”Dobbinwenton:“andImayaddthattherearepeopleherewhoknowyou,andwhoprofesstoknowthatregardingyourconductaboutwhichIdon’tevenwishtospeakbefore——beforeMrs。Osborne。”
“Yoursisaverymodestandconvenientsortofcalumny,MajorDobbin。”Rebeccasaid。”Youleavemeundertheweightofanaccusationwhich,afterall,isunsaid。
Whatisit?Isitunfaithfulnesstomyhusband?Iscornitanddefyanybodytoproveit——Idefyyou,Isay。Myhonourisasuntouchedasthatofthebitterestenemywhoevermalignedme。Isitofbeingpoor,forsaken,wretched,thatyouaccuseme?Yes,Iamguiltyofthosefaults,andpunishedforthemeveryday。Letmego,Emmy。ItisonlytosupposethatIhavenotmetyou,andIamnoworseto-daythanIwasyesterday。Itisonlytosupposethatthenightisoverandthepoorwandererisonherway。Don’tyourememberthesongweusedtosinginold,dearolddays?Ihavebeenwanderingeversincethen——apoorcastaway,scornedforbeingmiserable,andinsultedbecauseIamalone。Letmego:mystayhereinterfereswiththeplansofthisgentleman。”
“Indeeditdoes,madam。”saidtheMajor。”IfIhaveanyauthorityinthishouse——“
“Authority,none!”brokeoutAmelia“Rebecca,youstaywithme。Iwon’tdesertyoubecauseyouhavebeenpersecuted,orinsultyoubecause——becauseMajorDobbinchoosestodoso。Comeaway,dear。”Andthetwowomenmadetowardsthedoor。
Williamopenedit。Astheyweregoingout,however,hetookAmelia’shandandsaid——“Willyoustayamomentandspeaktome?”
“Hewishestospeaktoyouawayfromme。”saidBecky,lookinglikeamartyr。Ameliagrippedherhandinreply。
“UponmyhonouritisnotaboutyouthatIamgoingtospeak。”Dobbinsaid。”Comeback,Amelia。”andshecame。DobbinbowedtoMrs。Crawley,asheshutthedooruponher。Amelialookedathim,leaningagainsttheglass:herfaceandherlipswerequitewhite。
“IwasconfusedwhenIspokejustnow。”theMajorsaidafterapause,“andImisusedthewordauthority。”
“Youdid。”saidAmeliawithherteethchattering。
“AtleastIhaveclaimstobeheard。”Dobbincontinued。
“Itisgeneroustoremindmeofourobligationstoyou。”
thewomananswered。
“TheclaimsImeanarethoseleftmebyGeorge’sfather。”Williamsaid。
“Yes,andyouinsultedhismemory。Youdidyesterday。
Youknowyoudid。AndIwillneverforgiveyou。Never!”
saidAmelia。Sheshotouteachlittlesentenceinatremorofangerandemotion。
“Youdon’tmeanthat,Amelia?”Williamsaidsadly。
“Youdon’tmeanthatthesewords,utteredinahurriedmoment,aretoweighagainstawholelife’sdevotion?I
thinkthatGeorge’smemoryhasnotbeeninjuredbythewayinwhichIhavedealtwithit,andifwearecometobandyingreproaches,Iatleastmeritnonefromhiswidowandthemotherofhisson。Reflect,afterwardswhen——whenyouareatleisure,andyourconsciencewillwithdrawthisaccusation。Itdoesevennow。”Ameliahelddownherhead。
“Itisnotthatspeechofyesterday。”hecontinued。”whichmovesyou。Thatisbutthepretext,Amelia,orI
havelovedyouandwatchedyouforfifteenyearsinvain。
HaveInotlearnedinthattimetoreadallyourfeelingsandlookintoyourthoughts?Iknowwhatyourheartiscapableof:itcanclingfaithfullytoarecollectionandcherishafancy,butitcan’tfeelsuchanattachmentasminedeservestomatewith,andsuchasIwouldhavewonfromawomanmoregenerousthanyou。No,youarenotworthyofthelovewhichIhavedevotedtoyou。
IknewallalongthattheprizeIhadsetmylifeonwasnotworththewinning;thatIwasafool,withfondfancies,too,barteringawaymyalloftruthandardouragainstyourlittlefeebleremnantoflove。Iwillbargainnomore:Iwithdraw。Ifindnofaultwithyou。Youareverygood-natured,andhavedoneyourbest,butyoucouldn’t——youcouldn’treachuptotheheightoftheattachmentwhichIboreyou,andwhichaloftiersoulthanyoursmighthavebeenproudtoshare。Good-bye,Amelia!
Ihavewatchedyourstruggle。Letitend。Wearebothwearyofit。”
AmeliastoodscaredandsilentasWilliamthussuddenlybrokethechainbywhichsheheldhimanddeclaredhisindependenceandsuperiority。Hehadplacedhimselfatherfeetsolongthatthepoorlittlewomanhadbeenaccustomedtotrampleuponhim。Shedidn’twishtomarryhim,butshewishedtokeephim。Shewishedtogivehimnothing,butthatheshouldgiveherall。Itisabargainnotunfrequentlyleviedinlove。
William’ssallyhadquitebrokenandcastherdown。
HERassaultwaslongsinceoverandbeatenback。
“AmItounderstandthen,thatyouaregoing——away,William?”shesaid。
Hegaveasadlaugh。”Iwentoncebefore。”hesaid。”andcamebackaftertwelveyears。Wewereyoungthen,Amelia。Good-bye。Ihavespentenoughofmylifeatthisplay。”
Whilsttheyhadbeentalking,thedoorintoMrs。Osborne’sroomhadopenedeversolittle;indeed,BeckyhadkeptaholdofthehandleandhadturneditontheinstantwhenDobbinquittedit,andsheheardeverywordoftheconversationthathadpassedbetweenthesetwo。
“Whatanobleheartthatmanhas。”shethought,andhowshamefullythatwomanplayswithit!”SheadmiredDobbin;sheborehimnorancourfortheparthehadtakenagainsther。Itwasanopenmoveinthegame,andplayedfairly。”Ah!”shethought,“ifIcouldhavehadsuchahusbandasthat——amanwithaheartandbrainstoo!Iwouldnothavemindedhislargefeet“;andrunningintoherroom,sheabsolutelybethoughtherselfofsomething,andwrotehimanote,beseechinghimtostopforafewdays——nottothinkofgoing——andthatshecouldservehimwithA。
Thepartingwasover。OncemorepoorWilliamwalkedtothedoorandwasgone;andthelittlewidow,theauthorofallthiswork,hadherwill,andhadwonhervictory,andwaslefttoenjoyitasshebestmight。Lettheladiesenvyhertriumph。
Attheromantichourofdinner,Mr。Georgymadehisappearanceandagainremarkedtheabsenceof“OldDob。”Themealwaseateninsilencebytheparty。Jos’sappetitenotbeingdiminished,butEmmytakingnothingatall。
Afterthemeal,Georgywaslollinginthecushionsoftheoldwindow,alargewindow,withthreesidesofglassabuttingfromthegable,andcommandingononesidethemarket-place,wheretheElephantis,hismotherbeingbusyhardby,whenheremarkedsymptomsofmovementattheMajor’shouseontheothersideofthestreet。
“Hullo!”saidhe,“there’sDob’strap——theyarebringingitoutofthecourt-yard。”The“trap“inquestionwasacarriagewhichtheMajorhadboughtforsixpoundssterling,andaboutwhichtheyusedtorallyhimagooddeal。
Emmygavealittlestart,butsaidnothing。
“Hullo!”Georgycontinued,“there’sFranciscomingoutwiththeportmanteaus,andKunz,theone-eyedpostilion,comingdownthemarketwiththreeschimmels。
Lookathisbootsandyellowjacket——ain’thearumone?Why——they’reputtingthehorsestoDob’scarriage。
Ishegoinganywhere?”
“Yes。”saidEmmy,“heisgoingonajourney。”
“Goingonajourney;andwhenishecomingback?”
“Heis——notcomingback。”answeredEmmy。
“Notcomingback!”criedoutGeorgy,jumpingup。
“Stayhere,sir。”roaredoutJos。”Stay,Georgy。”saidhismotherwithaverysadface。Theboystopped,kickedabouttheroom,jumpedupanddownfromthewindow-
seatwithhisknees,andshowedeverysymptomofuneasinessandcuriosity。
Thehorseswereputto。Thebaggagewasstrappedon。Franciscameoutwithhismaster’ssword,cane,andumbrellatieduptogether,andlaidtheminthewell,andhisdeskandoldtincocked-hatcase,whichheplacedundertheseat。Francisbroughtoutthestainedoldbluecloaklinedwithredcamlet,whichhadwrappedtheownerupanytimethesefifteenyears,andhadmanchenSturmerlebt,asafavouritesongofthosedayssaid。IthadbeennewforthecampaignofWaterlooandhadcoveredGeorgeandWilliamafterthenightofQuatreBras。
OldBurcke,thelandlordofthelodgings,cameout,thenFrancis,withmorepackages——finalpackages——thenMajorWilliam——Burckewantedtokisshim。TheMajorwasadoredbyallpeoplewithwhomhehadtodo。Itwaswithdifficultyhecouldescapefromthisdemonstrationofattachment。
“ByJove,Iwillgo!”screamedoutGeorge。”Givehimthis。”saidBecky,quiteinterested,andputapaperintotheboy’shand。Hehadrusheddownthestairsandflungacrossthestreetinaminute——theyellowpostilionwascrackinghiswhipgently。
Williamhadgotintothecarriage,releasedfromtheembracesofhislandlord。Georgeboundedinafterwards,andflunghisarmsroundtheMajor’sneckastheysawfromthewindow,andbeganaskinghimmultipliedquestions。Thenhefeltinhiswaistcoatpocketandgavehimanote。Williamseizedatitrathereagerly,heopenedittrembling,butinstantlyhiscountenancechanged,andhetorethepaperintwoanddroppeditoutofthecarriage。HekissedGeorgyonthehead,andtheboygotout,doublinghisfistsintohiseyes,andwiththeaidofFrancis。Helingeredwithhishandonthepanel。Fort,Schwager!Theyellowpostilioncrackedhiswhipprodigiously,upsprangFrancistothebox,awaywenttheschimmels,andDobbinwithhisheadonhisbreast。HeneverlookedupastheypassedunderAmelia’swindow,andGeorgy,leftaloneinthestreet,burstoutcryinginthefaceofallthecrowd。
Emmy’smaidheardhimhowlingagainduringthenightandbroughthimsomepreservedapricotstoconsolehim。Shemingledherlamentationswithhis。Allthepoor,allthehumble,allhonestfolks,allgoodmenwhoknewhim,lovedthatkind-heartedandsimplegentleman。
AsforEmmy,hadshenotdoneherduty?ShehadherpictureofGeorgeforaconsolation。
WhichContainsBirths,Marriages,andDeathsWhateverBecky’sprivateplanmightbebywhichDobbin’struelovewastobecrownedwithsuccess,thelittlewomanthoughtthatthesecretmightkeep,andindeed,beingbynomeanssomuchinterestedaboutanybody’swelfareasaboutherown,shehadagreatnumberofthingspertainingtoherselftoconsider,andwhichconcernedheragreatdealmorethanMajorDobbin’shappinessinthislife。
Shefoundherselfsuddenlyandunexpectedlyinsnugcomfortablequarters,surroundedbyfriends,kindness,andgood-naturedsimplepeoplesuchasshehadnotmetwithformanyalongday;and,wandererasshewasbyforceandinclination,thereweremomentswhenrestwaspleasanttoher。AsthemosthardenedArabthatevercareeredacrossthedesertoverthehumpofadromedarylikestoreposesometimesunderthedate-
treesbythewater,ortocomeintothecities,walkintothebazaars,refreshhimselfinthebaths,andsayhisprayersinthemosques,beforehegoesoutagainmarauding,soJos’stentsandpilauwerepleasanttothislittleIshmaelite。Shepicketedhersteed,hungupherweapons,andwarmedherselfcomfortablybyhisfire。Thehaltinthatroving,restlesslifewasinexpressiblysoothingandpleasanttoher。
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